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Posted: **Tue Apr 03, 2012 4:35 am**

Today Troy left for work and got to the end of our street when the car died and wouldn't start again. The engine cranks but won't turn over. A very nice man helped him push it into an adjacent parking lot so it wouldn't be sitting in the street. Then he walked home and called a wrecker to have it towed in to the shop. As of now we have no idea what's wrong, how much it's going to cost to fix it, or for that matter how we're going to pay for it. Not to mention that we're stuck at home with no transportation until it's fixed. Blah!

Posted: **Sun Apr 08, 2012 6:00 am**

Well it turns out the timing belt broke on the car. Plus it bent some valves when it broke and those have to be repaired as well. Total cost $3200! We managed to borrow the money from Troy's parents and are going to pay them back as we can. They also discovered we need new motor mounts but that's an additional $400 that we couldn't come up with so that will have to wait. The car won't be ready until next Friday so we had to spend the money we had set aside for the car payment on a rental so Troy can get to work. Not sure how we're going to make that up. It's just frustrating and depressing that every time we have an emergency come up we have to go to one of our parents for help. We have got to build up a savings buffer somehow. Problem is we live paycheck to paycheck with no extra left at the end of the week so don't know how we can do that. It's a real dilemma and I don't know how we're going to solve it.

Posted: **Sun Apr 08, 2012 9:41 am**

I am not a financial guru or even a good money manager myself, however, I have learned some tools that helped alleviate my financial problems. I work two jobs sometimes and try to put the extra money in a savings "no touch" account until I've accrued a thousand dollars. That's emergency money and emergency money only. I don't touch it unless my car breaks down, or washing machine goes on the fritz, or a bill comes in unexpectedly. Then, once I use a portion of the money, I replace it as quickly as I can. You might also look for some way to earn a little extra money on the side, open an ebay account, if you don't know how, you can find all the info you need on the internet. Go to yard sales, buy some items that you can resell on ebay to earn extra cash. Books are still popular with a lot of people. You can buy a book for .25-.50 cents and turn around and sell them on ebay for several dollars. It all adds up. Hope I've helped. Hash

P.S.

You've got to work harder sometimes to get ahead. People who open up new businesses sometimes work more than 80 hours a week, it takes hard work. I know you might not want to hear that, I certainly didn't, but I'm 54 and still working two jobs.

Posted: **Sun Apr 22, 2012 11:06 am**

Well we finally got the car back Tuesday after two weeks in the shop. Turns out it also needs a new high speed fan for the a/c but that's another $500 we don't have so that will have to wait. We may have to do without the a/c this summer to keep from overheating the engine. Hopefully that way we can nurse it along until next tax refund season.

On top of that I'm worried about my dad. I knew he was having some health issues but apparently they are more serious than he's been letting on. He needs surgery to relieve artery blockage in his legs but they can't do it until some problem with his kidneys is corrected. He's on medication for the kidney problem but it seems to be taking a long time to correct. The blockage is causing him a great deal of pain so he is also on pain killers. He also has a small hernia but again they can't operate until the kidney problem is fixed.

I'm also getting very depressed about how long it is taking to get a hearing on my social security disability application. It's been almost a year since I requested the hearing and still no word. The longer it takes the longer I am forced to rely on my dad for help with rent money. If something doesn't happen soon I may have to cancel the application and try to find a job that I can handle doing and that won't cause panic attacks. I don't know what kind of job that might be. I just know I'm feeling worse and worse about the situation as it is. I never dreamed it would take this long.

All in all this has not been a good month. Hope next month goes better. *sigh*

Posted: **Sun Apr 22, 2012 3:00 pm**

EunuchAusTX (imported) wrote: Tue Mar 20, 2012 3:45 am Last night Troy went to bed about an hour and a half before me. When I joined him in bed he woke up just enough to roll over and indicate that he wanted to hold me. I lay there in his arms, relishing the intimacy and thinking how nice it was to just cuddle, with no thought or expectation of sex. It wasn't the first time my thoughts have gone along those lines. Up to now I've enjoyed having a moderately active sex life with Troy, but recently I've found myself feeling relieved every night that he hasn't tried to initiate sex, and I'm feeling conflicted about that. I've known since my castration that the time could come when I would lose all interest and desire for sex, but I'm not sure I'm ready for that to happen just yet. It's not that I'm worried about losing Troy; he's made it clear that he would still love me even if he can't have sex with me. It's not a matter of feeling obligated to him, since he has 2-3 friends that he plays with so he has an outlet if I'm not interested. I think it's just that I can't imagine what a sexless relationship would be like, and I worry about the loss of intimacy. I mean, I know you can have intimacy without sex, but still it's a concern. If I truly am becoming asexual, I guess we'll adjust. I just thought this change would come years from now, if at all, and I'm not sure how I feel about it happening now.

I think of things this way. Sex is a major part of any relationship, but not as a piece of the puzzle. Sex is the glue that holds everything else together. By itself it may not seem that like a loss, but sex allows us to tolerate those things about our loved ones that we might not without that sexual glue. While sex might not be the mainstay of your relationship, it affects every other part of the relationship. I would not want my partner having their needs met with someone else because then they have the glue and not me.

Elizabeth

Posted: **Sun Apr 22, 2012 3:06 pm**

EunuchAusTX (imported) wrote: Sun Apr 22, 2012 11:06 am Well we finally got the car back Tuesday after two weeks in the shop. Turns out it also needs a new high speed fan for the a/c but that's another $500 we don't have so that will have to wait. We may have to do without the a/c this summer to keep from overheating the engine. Hopefully that way we can nurse it along until next tax refund season.

On top of that I'm worried about my dad. I knew he was having some health issues but apparently they are more serious than he's been letting on. He needs surgery to relieve artery blockage in his legs but they can't do it until some problem with his kidneys is corrected. He's on medication for the kidney problem but it seems to be taking a long time to correct. The blockage is causing him a great deal of pain so he is also on pain killers. He also has a small hernia but again they can't operate until the kidney problem is fixed.

I'm also getting very depressed about how long it is taking to get a hearing on my social security disability application. It's been almost a year since I requested the hearing and still no word. The longer it takes the longer I am forced to rely on my dad for help with rent money. If something doesn't happen soon I may have to cancel the application and try to find a job that I can handle doing and that won't cause panic attacks. I don't know what kind of job that might be. I just know I'm feeling worse and worse about the situation as it is. I never dreamed it would take this long.

All in all this has not been a good month. Hope next month goes better. *sigh*

The average on Social Security is two years. It took me a year and mine was approved first time through, which in and of itself is rare. I have read however that the backlog is huge because so many people have filed for disability because of the weak economy. As you already know, there is not much you can do but wait. Good luck.

Elizabeth

Posted: **Thu May 17, 2012 3:33 am**

I am soooo bored! Being a house-husband isn't all it's cracked up to be. The housework takes maybe an hour a day and the rest of the day is watching tv or screwing around on the computer, trying to pass the time until Troy comes home from work. I'm thinking of trying to go back to work. I think with the cocktail of meds I'm on now I could probably handle it. I just don't know how to talk to Troy about it. He witnessed the breakdowns that led to me losing my last job and I know he would worry about it happening again. But I've only had one full-on panic attack in the last year so the meds are doing a pretty decent job of keeping me even. I think if I was picky about where I applied to I could find a place that would be a good environment for me. I can see myself in a pet care facility or a bookstore. Of course there would be some drawbacks. It's doubtful that Troy and I would have the same days off so we wouldn't get to spend as much time together, and we only have one vehicle so transportation would be an issue. Also, going back to work would void my disability application so

EunuchAusTX (imported) wrote: Sun Feb 26, 2012 10:00 am if it didn't work out I would have to

reapply and start the whole process over again. But I think it might be worth a try just to get me out of the house and around people again. I need to figure out how to bring up the subject with Troy in a way that won't worry him too much.

Posted: **Thu May 17, 2012 5:59 am**

I think it's a great idea, especially considering your financial problems. It's worth a shot and maybe starting out part-time would be best.

Posted: **Thu May 17, 2012 7:49 am**

You can also try volunteering with some needy agency or program.

Posted: **Fri May 18, 2012 8:18 pm**

Elizabeth (imported) wrote: Sun Apr 22, 2012 3:00 pm I think of things this way. Sex is a major part of any relationship, but not as a piece of the puzzle. Sex is the glue that holds everything else together. By itself it may not seem that like a loss, but sex allows us to tolerate those things about our loved ones that we might not without that sexual glue. While sex might not be the mainstay of your relationship, it affects every other part of the relationship. I would not want my partner having their needs met with someone else because then they have the glue and not me.

Elizabeth

We all have different points of view. For me, sex was nature's curse. Now, sans testosterone and sex, life is good. Absence of the interest in or need for sex for both me and my partner has been a positive. We can focus more clearly, and rationally, on all the other aspects of our relationship. But that is just our particular situation. Everybody has their own situation. I can see it might be a problem , me being non-sexed, with a partner who had a need for sex. I could accommodate that, but not with any emotional need or interest or satisfaction; merely mechanical. Guess it depends on the other person if that is adequate fulfillment or not.

Posted: **Thu May 24, 2012 1:39 am**

I talked with Troy the other day about returning to work and he said he would support whatever I decide to do. So I'm going to start putting out some online applications today, and probably sometime next week will keep the car and do some pavement pounding. I'm going to concentrate on book stores and pet boarding facilities to begin with, and will broaden my search from there if needed. However one thing I will not do is food service. I'm nervous about going back to work but also excited to see how this pans out over the next few weeks.

Posted: **Thu May 24, 2012 3:53 am**

Sounds like a solid plan and your partner is supportive

Posted: **Fri Jun 08, 2012 6:49 am**

Well I have a job interview tomorrow. It's with PetSmart, the company I was with when I had my breakdown, just at a different location. I would be working in the PetsHotel again taking care of dogs & cats. I only applied there for the hell of it and am not 100% sure I want to go back to work there but I figure it's worth at least checking out. It seems ironic to me that of all the places I have applied to they are the first ones to call me. I'll go to the interview tomorrow and see what happens.

Posted: **Tue Jun 19, 2012 9:35 am**

Well I went to the interview but haven't heard anything back from them. I'm kind of surprised, I figured I'd be a cinch to get rehired at PetSmart since I had a good reference from my supervisors there. Maybe I said something wrong at the interview, I don't know.

Also, I heard from my SS disability attorney the other day. They said my file is in the "pre-scheduling" phase, which means it's been assigned to a judge and now it's just a matter of getting it onto his dockett. They said I should expect to hear something about a hearing date in the next month or two. So now I'm torn. If my case is that close to a hearing I'm thinking maybe I should put off the job hunt until something happens there. Only thing is, money hasn't been the reason for the job search so much as boredeom, and if I get the disability then I will still have to deal with boredom as an issue. I'm going to have to think about all of this before deciding how to proceed.

Posted: **Tue Jun 19, 2012 1:03 pm**

EunuchAusTX (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 19, 2012 9:35 am Well I went to the interview but haven't heard anything back from them. I'm kind of surprised, I figured I'd be a cinch to get rehired at PetSmart since I had a good reference from my supervisors there. Maybe I said something wrong at the interview, I don't know.

Also, I heard from my SS disability attorney the other day. They said my file is in the "pre-scheduling" phase, which means it's been assigned to a judge and now it's just a matter of getting it onto his dockett. They said I should expect to hear something about a hearing date in the next month or two. So now I'm torn. If my case is that close to a hearing I'm thinking maybe I should put off the job hunt until something happens there. Only thing is, money hasn't been the reason for the job search so much as boredeom, and if I get the disability then I will still have to deal with boredom as an issue. I'm going to have to think about all of this before deciding how to proceed.

Bored? Do some volunteering.

Posted: **Wed Jun 20, 2012 3:02 am**

Today is the fifth anniversary of my castration. A good time to reflect on the last five years and the changes they have brought. Before castration I was a slave to my sex drive, always looking for the next lay, engaging in more and more high-risk behavior in my constant quest for gratification. Today I am free of that relentless drive with no interest in sex whatsoever. I have a loving partner who accepts me as I am. I have a stable home life with all my needs and most of my wants taken care of. Yes all in all life is pretty good. I certainly have a lot to be thankful for as I mark this milestone on my journey. I look forward to seeing what the next year brings.

Posted: **Wed Jun 20, 2012 7:10 am**

Happy eunuch day to you time soon goes for you its been 5 years for me only 5 months but we both feel the same heres to the years of happiness to come.

Posted: **Wed Jul 25, 2012 10:12 am**

Wonderful news today!

Our best friend, Mike, is moving from El Paso to Austin next month and will be joining our family as a full partner. We've been talking about this for almost 2 years, but just found out today that he got a transfer with his job. We are so happy that at last our family will be complete. Now we just have to find a 2-3 bedroom apartment or house for all of us to live in, which shouldn't be too much of a problem. I'm so excited I can hardly contain myself!

Posted: **Thu Jul 26, 2012 6:18 am**

More good news!

I heard from my lawyer's office today, and was told I finally have a hearing date on my disability application. The hearing is set for Sept. 6th at 1:00 pm. Alison, the lawyer assigned to my case, is supposed to call me three weeks before the hearing to go over what to expect, what to wear, etc. Finally I will get the chance to present my case to a real person. Hopefully it will go well.

Posted: **Thu Jul 26, 2012 8:14 am**

Let us know how your triad works out. I'm sure there are a few of us who admire and have thought about such things.

I wish you and your guys much happiness as you enjoy your lives together.

--LT

Posted: **Sun Jul 29, 2012 12:37 am**

Yet more good news--

A two bedroom apartment has become available in our complex, so we are moving at the beginning of the month. Mike will be moving from El Paso on the 13th. It's funny how everything has fallen into place to make this happen, as if it were meant to be.

Posted: **Wed Aug 08, 2012 9:53 am**

Well we are all moved into the new place. Just a few more boxes to unpack. Ready for Mike to move in next week.

Posted: **Mon Aug 20, 2012 3:01 am**

Well Mike is all moved in and we couldn't be happier about it! He has a ton of boxes to go through and decide what stays in the apartment and what goes into storage, but that will get taken care of in time. At last our family feels complete. We have wanted this for so long and are so happy that it has finally come to pass.

Posted: **Mon Aug 20, 2012 6:37 am**

Got to thinking (oh no) there just ought to be a sorority house for enuchs in Austin. Like, maybe Sampi (obsolete Greek letter), Epsilon, Alpha for Sorority: Eunuch Archive. Or maybe a fraternty with a Digamma (that obsolete backwards N type) for Fraternity.

Posted: **Mon Aug 20, 2012 9:38 am**

devi (imported) wrote: Mon Aug 20, 2012 6:37 am Got to thinking (oh no) there just ought to be a sorority house for enuchs in Austin. Like, maybe Sampi (obsolete Greek letter), Epsilon, Alpha for Sorority: Eunuch Archive. Or maybe a fraternty with a Digamma (that obsolete backwards N type) for Fraternity.

Makes one think, but then the only Greek letters I was really ever familiar with were those of that frat houses that I just adored attending, party or no....

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