T levels after surgical castration

[dingoaud (imported)]

i have noticed after nearly 2 months that my penis is shrinking or should I say look smaller and I do not get any hard during the night. I did noticed that my breast did get a little bit bigger after I had the first one out and the levels droped down to around 8, but I have put on some extra weight as well.

MY doctor has out me onto some HRT which I am not happy using.