It must be very hard for others to understand why someone born male, would want to be castrated. It's a question that I'm sure everyone has wondered at one time or another. I know I have. With everything lately I've found myself asking this question harder than ever. But - for the first time in my life - I now feel I can answer with all my heart.
Does there need to be an underlying reason? Do we need to look for what turned someone gay, or made someone choose to be transgendered? Do we choose our feelings, or just act on them?
Why did I want to be castrated? Why does a ray of sunshine fragment through raindrops to produce a beautiful rainbow (
http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/e ... ainbow.jpg)? No reason. It just does. And how beautiful it is!
Maybe this phenomenon could be explained by the refraction of light through the water. But this only explains how and not why. Scientists might explain homosexuality and transsexuality in terms of differences in brain chemistry and structure. That perhaps it's origins could be traced back to the early developmental stages in the womb. Again - this only explains how and not why.
I am me. I did not choose to be this way, but I will enjoy being me to the fullest extent. I have escaped being a guy - biologically - and I'm very lucky that everyone in my life has accepted me the way I am, even though not all of them understand.
Maybe the biggest question is not why we want to be castrated, but why we feel the need to go searching for this question? Why the need to justify the feelings?
