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I am here because I would like to learn more about those who feel, felt and endured some of the traumas I've experienced. I want to be a eunuch but will not make an uneducated decision based on it. I'd rather know everything and decide after dealing with my emotional traumas before jumping forward and regretting a one time decision.

I love my scrotum but hate my testicles.

-sweetpea

Hi there all

I don't know why I am here but perhaps I can find out...

You know, I was always a sissy, a nerd, very calm and meek and I was never attractive to girls... I have therefore been a virgin all my life (never masturbated a single time if you wanna know), and I tell you, I feel I am too old for a virgin

Anyway... besides that, I find especially attractive the concept of androgyny, and I was always intrigued by sexless beings such as angels, aliens, elves etc (no, I am not a New-Ager) so the concept of castration seemed also intriguing

I think that the eunuch temperament and lifestyle would fit me... I consider me one (if it weren't for some sex drive). A part of me would like to proceed to it, but I highly doubt I will ever do (I really and definitely want to have kids someday, although this is WAY TOO far-fetched for me right now since I can't self-breed).

Also, I think I have some kind of fetish with TG women, but I haven't ever met anyone, and it kinda annoys me because I don't consider fetishes healthy (at least for me)

So, if I should describe myself, I would say 'semi-asexual incel androgynous-wannabe (but with kids)' and if someone asks me if i want to be castrated i would say 'yes, if it was reversible'

I am not sure if I express many of you though, but I will be happy to know if anyone shares such traits with me

i am a new member and this is my first post. i've been an active participant in the San Francisco SM scene for many years and have wanted (?reality/fantasy) to be forcibly castrated/nullified ever since i was married to a beautiful but very cruel women almost 30 years ago. She (Les) was very dominant and, it turned out, married me both because i was rich and because she spotted that i was submissive. she finally let me know she would be having other men but i had to remain faithful. eventually, she stopped letting me fuck her and i even had to participate in her affairs bringing her and her lovers what they wanted while they fucked in our bed. Eventually she had a lover, Alan, who, i learned later, wanted to 'off' me so he could marry her. She convince him to have me castrated instead. Well, it's a long involved story but she eventually left me for Alan and when she left she gave me a series of letters from her to 'Dr. Guenther' a notorious castrator in the SF Bay Area, negotiating MY CASTRATION. The deal never happened because the good 'doctor' insisted that i sign a consent form and she knew i never would (then!). so she left me not long after that for Alan. Soon after, i had to acknowledge my susbmissiveness to myself, I joined the SM community, and (i think) because of her obscessiveness about castrating me, i began to want it. subsequently, i have had several Masters (one currently) who have told me what they want to do is cut off my penis, leaving me balls so i would be left with sexual yearning that i couldn't relieve.

Again, lots more to tell, but being a novice to the group and the message board, i think i'll end now and see if i've annoyed anyone. bobby123

BYE BYE

YOU'RE NOT WELCOME HERE

KRISTOFF

Bobby thank you for your input. I don't think you have annoyed anyone at all.

Virginelf you are not alone, there are plenty who come here for the same of finding out more.

Bernd Nidal,

I had to go to Alta vista to translate. My German is a bit rusty. Thank you for your input as well.

All are welcome (and encouraged) to tell what has brought them here.

Me, I am interested in genderlessness

I see,

Thank you for your input. You do you have to answer if you do not want. I was wondering if your interest has any sexual aspect to it or not?

This thread disappeared off the main board. I posted this to put it back on. I am very interested in hearing more stories and points of view.