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Posted: **Thu Apr 12, 2012 7:02 am**

I suffer from low energy when not on TRT as well but I am retired so it is not to bad till spring when I have a lot of work in the yard etc. I have found a very strange thing seems to happen with me when I start to use my Androgel in the spring. After a week or so I find my libido increases and I function normally sexually for about 2 weeks and then I seem to lose all interest in sex and I become quite emotional and find myself wanting very badly to be totally without any sex organs. It seem with me if I use the amount of replacement recommended I very much want to be without my male parts and the urge to remove them is very strong. If I use about a 1/4 the recommended dose I seem to function not to bad and the urge to castrate and remove my penis is not nearly as strong. Don't understand why this happens but I would like to someday be nullo so I did not have to worry about any of this.

Posted: **Sun Jul 15, 2012 10:24 pm**

Hi guys. long time!

I've been quite busy these last few months. It going well with me. I have totally adapted being a nullo. I have come to a point where thinking about one's genitals is not taking such a huge portion of my day. I'm now asexual. My genitals are gone. I hardly remember ever having had them.

I have also joined the gym. My body is getting into nice shape. I have asked my doc to inject me with double doses of T because 'the normal dose soes nothing for me'. I actually want it to put my body in an anabolic state to grow my muscles back that I have lost while being castrated. so with some supplements and extra T, my shape is comming back nicely. I also have more energy!

Guys, listen to this! I thought that this extra T will make me as horny as hell. At first this was the case, but after a while my libido went right down to zero. I researched this and discovered that testosterone aromatizes into estrogen. This shuts your balls down! Hormonal castration man! They (bodybuilders) cals it 'Deca-Dick'. It seems that all testosterone above normal levels aromatizes into estrogen with its usual side effect such as 'bitch-tits', higher blood pressure, male pattern baldness, lethargy etc.

Posted: **Mon Jul 16, 2012 12:28 am**

Yoda, if you're experiencing signs of aromatization you need to be really careful. It will cause you to get feminine body fat and block your gains in the gym in terms of losing weight. After long periods of that people often need surgery to correct the build up of breast tissue. Unless you're trying to get a body like that, you need to keep your testosterone in a normal range and if it does start to aromatize you need estrogen blockers like Raloxifene.

Posted: **Mon Jul 16, 2012 12:39 am**

SplitDik (imported) wrote: Mon Jul 16, 2012 12:28 am Yoda, if you're experiencing signs of aromatization you need to be really careful. It will cause you to get feminine body fat and block your gains in the gym in terms of losing weight. After long periods of that people often need surgery to correct the build up of breast tissue. Unless you're trying to get a body like that, you need to keep your testosterone in a normal range and if it does start to aromatize you need estrogen blockers like Raloxifene.

Thanks SD. You are quite right in what you said. I think I did mention some of the side effects of aromatization. I'm only going to use this elevated dose for 3 months I'm using Nolvadex as an anti-estrogen.

You know, as men age they also start to produce more estrogen hence the breast tissue most ages men have. Thats why I firmly believe that men should check the test/estrogen bloodlevels and supplement with test gel or something.

Posted: **Sun Sep 02, 2012 6:42 am**

Hey guys!!!

UUrrrgghh!!! Tuesday I'm back in my favorite hospital. They are going to fix my nose and remove my tonsils! I believe it's going to pain like hell so I'm not looking forward to it. Hope they put me on morphine.

Posted: **Sun Sep 02, 2012 10:24 am**

YodaNell (imported) wrote: Sun Sep 02, 2012 6:42 am Hey guys!!!

UUrrrgghh!!! Tuesday I'm back in my favorite hospital. They are going to fix my nose and remove my tonsils! I believe it's going to pain like hell so I'm not looking forward to it. Hope they put me on morphine.

Good to hear from you again. Get it done and take care. Otherwisw, how are you doing?

Posted: **Sun Sep 02, 2012 10:46 pm**

Thanks Mac. I'm good. Just a little scared of the operation.

My body is changing well in the gym. Lost considerable weight. Built some nice muscle. I have totally adapted to my new sexual ID. Almost forgot I ever had a penis and testicles.

It's amazing how the guys in the gym locker room don't even notice I have a smooth crotch. I guess in MY country, men won't dare to look at another one between their legs. Guys here are so afraid they will be labeled as a fag. Idiots!

Anyway, being a nullo is fantastic.

Keep well.

Posted: **Mon Sep 03, 2012 12:17 am**

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YodaNell (imported) wrote: Sun Sep 02, 2012 10:46 pm It's amazing how the guys in the gym locker room don't even notice I have a smooth crotch. I guess in MY country, men won't dare to look at another one between their legs. Guys here are so afraid they will be labeled as a fag. Idiots!

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I have noticed the same thing, even rocking up at work in tight cycling pants doesn't give anything away

Or at least they won't say.

Keep well my friend.

Posted: **Mon Sep 03, 2012 12:49 am**

Hi thraddash, good to hear from you. My personal trainer knows about my nullification, and he is cool with it. He doesn't treat me any differently. I really don't care if people find out. Like I always say..."who cares"

Keep well.

Posted: **Mon Sep 03, 2012 1:06 am**

I must also report that I have stopped taking extra T (3 months) for building some muscle. I must say that estrogen is a fantastic castration chemical. My libido is totally shut down. Taking higher doses of T aromatizes into estrogen in a male body. This extra estrogen shuts one's testicles down, effectively halting any testosterone production by the testicles. That is why bodybuilders take anti-estrogens to kick-start their testicles into T-production again.

I will not take anti-E as I believe the side effects are rather nasty. The E in my body must just normalize naturally. I might take another extra T cycle again sometime next year.

It's interesting to note that I took 500mg T a week and there was absolute zero serious side effects or weird feelings. There were some rather hard erections in my little stump in the mornings and some aromatirization into E. My blood pressure was and is normal. Little mild moodiness probably on 4 occasions. Don't worry, the cat still have some lives left.

I really feel that I should cycle about twice a year as an eunuch definitely looses muscle mass in time. My legs started to look doberman pinscher's legs.

Peace...

Posted: **Mon Dec 24, 2012 12:58 am**

Hello all... I was asked a question and would like to answer as truthfully as possible (according to MY opinion).

Matthew 19:12 does it mean only testicle removal or penectomy is allowed too?

My main sin is masturbation I want to stop this so do you recommend castration or penectomy?

Hi, sorry for answering so late. I rarely come here as I'm usually so busy.

You know, I'm not quite sure that masturbation is a sin. I believe it is the lustful thoughts that accompany masturbation that is a sin. I found that, while I'm able to masturbate, I will never fully work at crucifying my mind. But, with my genitals gone (I figured), I'll HAVE to train my mind not to look at women lustfully as, being unable to masturbate, I will frustrate myself extremely.

Having still a little stump left, I'm still able to orgasm (to my dismay). So I'm having no victory yet. I'll have to get the doc to remove EVERYTHING so that I'm completely without feeling down there. Frustration will then force me to train my mind more aggressively.

If you are TOTALLY convinced that this is you path and destiny, then remove EVERYTHING and train your mind.

Jesus also said that if a body part causes you to sin...chop it off. It's better to be without it, than going to hell WITH IT!!

Tune in to the SPIRIT and you'll know what to do...

Best Christmas wishes to you all. May y'all prosper in 2013 and be healthy.

Posted: **Thu Feb 07, 2013 4:30 am**

Well...next week, Thursday (Valentine day), I'll celebrate my second nullification anniversary. How time flies.

Happy new year to y'all!!

Posted: **Thu Feb 07, 2013 7:29 am**

And many more good celebrations

Posted: **Fri Feb 15, 2013 1:03 am**

Today I celebrate my second nullo anniversary!!!!

Posted: **Fri Feb 15, 2013 1:38 am**

YodaNell (imported) wrote: Fri Feb 15, 2013 1:03 am Today I celebrate my second nullo anniversary!!!!

Great to hear from you again and glad that you are doing well.

Posted: **Fri Feb 15, 2013 6:21 am**

Mac (imported) wrote: Fri Feb 15, 2013 1:38 am Great to hear from you again and glad that you are doing well.

Agreed !

What do the "liberals" say.

Posted: **Fri Feb 15, 2013 6:45 am**

Aaaaaw!!!.....you guys miss me??????

Posted: **Fri Feb 15, 2013 7:38 am**

I've been following your thread with some curiosity. It has also brought up some questions that plague me. For one, how did you get in the navy at your age? From what I can find, you're well over 35 and that's usually as old as anyone's navy will accept a recruit. Certainly, a very long time ago, we would never have accepted you, with or without genitals, in the BSAP. Also, I was somewhat amazed when you recount that an Urologist gave you five phials of pain killer. One assumes they were not associated with Groote Schuur, that sort of activity would have cost them their license to practice. It may be that somewhere in the many pages of this thread I've missed these answers so please forgive me if the are repetitive.

In advance, thank you for such responses as you may choose to give.

Posted: **Fri Feb 15, 2013 5:08 pm**

Hello considering...

considering (imported) wrote: Fri Feb 15, 2013 7:38 am I've been following your thread with some curiosity. It has also brought up some questions that plague me. For one, how did you get in the navy at your age? From what I can find, you're well over 35 and that's usually as old as anyone's navy...

Forgive me I don't want to appear to be rude but I don't understand why "...some questions that plague..." you. Sounds like you have sleepless nights about this trying to connect all the dots, and my personal life and work is no-one's concern here. Can we please stick with the theme of this forum.

BTW, you'll be surprised how many men are employed by the government who lost their penises through surgery. (Cancer, Diabetes, tribal traditions...even negligence)

considering (imported) wrote: Fri Feb 15, 2013 7:38 am Also, I was somewhat amazed when you recount that an Urologist gave you five phials of pain killer...It may be that somewhere in the many pages of this thread I've missed these answers so please forgive me if the are repetitive.

Yes you definitely missed it for I stated in my very first thread: "...

YodaNell (imported) wrote: Sat Feb 26, 2011 2:49 am So, I went to my GP and asked her for some lignocain. She was.....

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You'll be amazed how many medical practitioners sell stuff at gyms...not that is your concern either.

Let me ask you a personal question. If you live in the central US how do you know about Groote Schuur Hospital?

May God bless you.

Posted: **Fri Feb 15, 2013 8:15 pm**

Hi Yoda,

Congrats on your second anniversary, amazing how time flies. It sounds as though you've been doing extremely well overall and I can only hope that you continue to grow and mature spiritually in your relationship with Christ. Keep fighting the enemy, be alert, on guard for as you know he seeks to destroy (devour) you. However, as David said, "All those gathered here will know that it is not by sword or spear that the Lord saves; for the battle is the Lord's, and he will give all of you into our hands." 1 Sam. 17:47

I saw that you wondered how I felt about the feminine mental paradigm that seems to occur after castration and I would say that there's definitely a shift towards the feminine, especially if the eunuch chooses not to use any testosterone supplementation (HRT). I only use a low dose regiment of HRT and I know that both my body and mind have become more feminine. I am less aggressive, not as strong, cry more easily, have very little sexual desire, seldom if ever get erections, see more beauty in things, and enjoy sitting to urinate through my reroute. My desire for a penectomy has also increased tremendously. I think the feminine mental changes have a lot to do with this. It's as though the feminine mind is rejecting my penis. I know that it will be removed, but the timing has to be right. I don't believe I'll have any problem afterwards since there are times even now, when I don't even realize I have a penis, except when I need to use the bathroom. So I believe that castration tends to push one towards complete nullification. Certainly not every eunuch will remove his penis, but they'll be more inclined to do it, in my opinion.

Posted: **Fri Feb 15, 2013 9:56 pm**

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YodaNell (imported) wrote: Fri Feb 15, 2013 5:08 pm Yes you definitely missed it for I stated in my very first thread: "...

YodaNell (imported) wrote: Sat Feb 26, 2011 2:49 am So, I went to my GP
YodaNell (imported) wrote: Fri Feb 15, 2013 5:08 pm and asked her for some lignocain. She was.....
"

You'll be amazed how many medical practitioners sell stuff at gyms...not that is your concern either.

Let me ask you a personal question. If you live in the central US how do yo

u know about Groote Schuur Hospital?

May God bless you."

I was born in Groote Schuur, lived in Claremont which is, as you will know, a pleasant suburb of Kapstaad. I was in the BSAP doing poacher control out of Pietersburg onto the Limpopo. Being from the Central United States carries no governor on knowing things; Your assumption that I am a native of the United States is, you see, wrong. I formally became a citizen here in 1969. When one participates in any online forum you quickly learn that any expectation you might have of freedom from curiosity is...incorrect. I cannot think why you would invoke the Deity, he has better things to do than to bless me and I'd much prefer he be elsewhere doing them. Too many years at the Dutch Reform Church had an effect on my religious tendencies. If I've missed a statement of yours then I do apologize. But, again, your assumption that I know nothing of what is sold in gyms is incorrect. I attended two Universities, Witwatersrand, which I'm sure you'll know, and the University of Southern California of which you may have heard. I played water polo and it was an open secret as to what drugs were "available" if not openly marketed. Does that answer your questions? And if you'll forgive referencing one of mine: How did you get in the navy? I recall your writing that you'd been accepted into the service prior to your penectomy but as you may imagine my surprize at reading that a naval officer knew of this and said it wouldn't matter. Sir, I know a bit about the Republic and the military services there and, it's my opinion, that it would have mattered. If I'm incorrect, I'll be happy to stand corrected but as a former citizen it just raised my curiosity. As I'm sure you will know, the U.S. Navy would not permit this-I researched that.

In advance, first, thank you for your prompt response and I look forward to reading about your circumstances in the future.

Posted: **Sat Feb 16, 2013 6:08 am**

Greetings Hash!!

Good to hear from you. Thank you for the spiritual encouragement.

Agreed...a lot of my male aggressiveness mellowed out after castration as well. In the past, being straight (not gay), I (and maybe most men), will not even touch another man lest he be labeled gay as well. But after castration, I began to notice how beautiful God created a man as well. Men are wonderful creatures totally unique from woman.

Although I have no desire to be feminine, my softer side did surface a bit more, and I truly like the fact that I'm a nullo. I hated the sexual buildup that occurred on a daily basis, having no control over it and, like a slave, toss off to get relief from it. All day long it consumes one's mind, interfering with one's work. It SUCKS! The desire (being on low dose T) for sexual relief is far less now and I have more time concentrating on things that matter.

Somewhere on this forum someone said that every male should be nullified after having had kids. I largely agree with this. So many social problems caused by uncontrollable sexual immorality will be solved. Imagine God created a man with genitals that drops off like a lizard's tail after procreation. That would be cool.

Anyway, I hope that you experience your desire to be nullified soon. If you still enjoy masturbation, one can understand the need to wait for the right time, but if one's penis is like a vestigial organ hanging without purpose, I would remove it. The right time will come as soon as YOU are ready for it. I can tell you that one experience sexual sensations in a total different way which is in many way far more pleasurable, maybe because the little stump inside assist in those feelings. I guess removing the whole penis (including roots) might greatly diminish sexual sensation. I guess you'll have to decide to keep a stump or not.

Ok...let me go say something to considering...

Keep well!!!

Posted: **Sat Feb 16, 2013 6:48 am**

Hello considering, my good man...

I had a feeling you were once from this part of the pond at some time. Like I said, I don't mean to be rude, but consider this:

1) I don't know you

2) We are not friends (yet)

3) I haven't seen any of your posts yet so I have not built any opinion of you in my mind yet.

4) A first introduction like that post of yours to me is off putting.

5) You do not have adequate security clearance to discuss confidential matters regarding my job in the military.

One does not introduce oneself and then ask so many personal questions in such an arrogant way. I don't even talk to most of my friends and family about my nullification, not that I'm embarrassed by it, but because it's personal between God and myself. Jesus said to his followers that it's given only to some and not many can accept this. This IS for me and I only discuss this highly personal thing to friends I trust...and here on this forum because we share a common interest.

Since 1994, our government changed in many ways, for the good, but also for the bad. One can now be employed in the military as two married gay men receiving all the benefits associated with the job. Any job discriminating against this can be taken to court as the law provides for this. I have done many medical checkups. One has to fill in forms mentioning any surgeries in the past. Withholding information can lead to serious consequences. No-one even raised a brow about my surgeries.

Besides, why must one have genitals to work in the military. We don't use our dicks to steer a ship, or to fire weapons, to march on a parade or to work in a logistics store. One does, however, require balls to fight a battle, but virtual balls will do.

Regarding blessings, I hope God did not notice your words above and withhold your blessing to breath, to swallow, to think clearly, to see, to feel, to keep you from getting diabetes, cancer, aids, HIV, hepatitis, deafness, blindness and all other kind of afflictions that can hit the body. Never mind keeping you safe on the road, feeding your stomach, living under a roof, driving a car...and so I can carry on. Count your blessings because there are many! Even having an erection have been a huge blessing to all men since the beginning of our existence. He gives you all these blessings so that, while you may not love and believe in Him, you can at least thank and honor Him. No-one lives forever on this planet.

Forgive me if I came across a bit hard. Here in South Africa I see all kinds of poverty, hunger and many kinds of needs. Our hope in God and His blessings can be a great comfort during such lowly conditions.

Anyway, If you and I share a common interest regarding the theme of this forum, let's talk shop shall we....

Blessings to you!

Posted: **Sat Feb 16, 2013 8:16 am**

YodaNell (imported) wrote: Sat Feb 16, 2013 6:48 am Hello considering, my good man...

I had a feeling you were once from this part of the pond at some time. Like I said, I don't mean to be rude, but consider this:

1) I don't know you

2) We are not friends (yet)

3) I haven't seen any of your posts yet so I have not built any opinion of you in my mind yet.

4) A first introduction like that post of yours to me is off putting.

5) You do not have adequate security clearance to discuss confidential matters regarding my job in the military.

One does not introduce oneself and then ask so many personal questions in such an arrogant way. I don't even talk to most of my friends and family about my nullification, not that I'm embarrassed by it, but because it's personal between God and myself. Jesus said to his followers that it's given only to some and not many can accept this. This IS for me and I only discuss this highly personal thing to friends I trust...and here on this forum because we share a common interest.

Since 1994, our government changed in many ways, for the good, but also for the bad. One can now be employed in the military as two married gay men receiving all the benefits associated with the job. Any job discriminating against this can be taken to court as the law provides for this. I have done many medical checkups. One has to fill in forms mentioning any surgeries in the past. Withholding information can lead to serious consequences. No-one even raised a brow about my surgeries.

Besides, why must one have genitals to work in the military. We don't use our dicks to steer a ship, or to fire weapons, to march on a parade or to work in a logistics store. One does, however, require balls to fight a battle, but virtual balls will do.

Regarding blessings, I hope God did not notice your words above and withhold your blessing to breath, to swallow, to think clearly, to see, to feel, to keep you from getting diabetes, cancer, aids, HIV, hepatitis, deafness, blindness and all other kind of afflictions that can hit the body. Never mind keeping you safe on the road, feeding your stomach, living under a roof, driving a car...and so I can carry on. Count your blessings because there are many! Even having an erection have been a huge blessing to all men since the beginning of our existence. He gives you all these blessings so that, while you may not love and believe in Him, you can at least thank and honor Him. No-one lives forever on this planet.

Forgive me if I came across a bit hard. Here in South Africa I see all kinds of poverty, hunger and many kinds of needs. Our hope in God and His blessings can be a great comfort during such lowly conditions.

Anyway, If you and I share a common interest regarding the theme of this forum, let's talk shop shall we....

Blessings to you!

Are you barmy? I don't need security clearance to ask a simple question which has nothing to do with your position in the military? What was all that preamble about not knowing me? Of course you don't know me and I don't know you. Your condescending tone is laughable. Really, I don't care if you choose to answer or not. The questions I posed were in direct response to comments you'd made. I wasn't probing for any further information although based on the length of your answer you apparently felt under attack. Does the title "Father" or "Pastor" precede your name? I'm sorry I ever wasted my time to inquire about something I'd read that you'd written. You have your lack of genitals and I have mine. NRSVP

Posted: **Sat Feb 16, 2013 8:27 am**

We've had enough of this! Any more of it will bring undesired results. We do not hurl insults here.

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