My Penectomy story from the hospital

[YodaNell (imported)]

I just uploaded four more pictures to malebodymods. It just demonstrates my healing process four months post my second op of my stump removal, which was done in February.

Pics can be viewed here (

http://malebodymods.com/index.php?do=/YodaNell/photo/

)in a day or two. Give it until Wednesday.

[Losethem (imported)]

Already approved and available. You have a great result and I hope to have something as good when I get there.

--LT

[YodaNell (imported)]

Already approved and available. You have a great result and I hope to have something as good when I get there.

--LT

Thanks my friend. I cannot wait to see your pics.

[YodaNell (imported)]

Just an update...

It is now 7 days since I amputated my nipples. I was totally pain free but today I experienced some mild pain. Not too bad but just noticeable. I think it was the cold weather that made my areolas stiff and that in turn hurt the amputate sites. But now, at this moment I'm again pain free.

The small holes have not healed yet and they pretty much look the same as the pic I submitted a week ago. If I remember correctly, someone mentioned it takes a month to heal.

[YodaNell (imported)]

It is amazing how long it takes for those small nipple wounds to heal. It is about half way healed by now. It really takes long.

I must say that since my nipples are gone, my desire for orgasm is virtually non existent, so far at least. Since those nipple stimuli when I wear a shirt or whatever is gone, I do not get the urge for orgasm...and that while I am on HRT.

When I rub my areolas, there are no 'nice' feelings. It's like rubbing normal skin. Yet, even though I have no desire for orgasm, I still can orgasm without difficulty. So for those wondering if a nullo cam reach an orgasm, you can. At least in my case...and that after removing virtually all sexual stimuli.

[YodaNell (imported)]

It indeed took 30 days for my amputated nipple wounds to heal. I do feel some interesting new sensations when rubbing my areolas. It seems the nerves are rewiring it selves. I think that I will have my Plastic Surgeon remove all traces of my nipples.

View my healed areaolas here:

http://malebodymods.com/index.php?do=/YodaNell/photo/

view/20140718-124226-2/

[Wantemgone (imported)]

Hi and sorry to interrupt Yoda's amazing blog ( I've been reading it for hours, just can't stop !) but I'm fascinated by Daifu's friend having had a nullo opp in Thailand. I have researched quite a few clinics there, as Thailand is close to Australia and quite cheap for travel/accommodation etc and they all say they'll only do SRS with the usual referrals, hormone treatments etc. I think I am like a lot of you on here in so far as I don't want to become a woman,just be a smooth nullo ! Can you or anyone point me in the direction of such a clinic ? While it may be cheaper to self mutilate and present at the ER, I would,far rather have the whole thing done in one go under medical supervision. Appreciate anyone's feedback.

[YodaNell (imported)]

Hi and sorry to interrupt Yoda's amazing blog ( I've been reading it for hours, just can't stop !) but I'm fascinated by Daifu's friend having had a nullo opp in Thailand. I have researched quite a few clinics there, as Thailand is close to Australia and quite cheap for travel/accommodation etc and they all say they'll only do SRS with the usual referrals, hormone treatments etc. I think I am like a lot of you on here in so far as I don't want to become a woman,just be a smooth nullo ! Can you or anyone point me in the direction of such a clinic ? While it may be cheaper to self mutilate and present at the ER, I would,far rather have the whole thing done in one go under medical supervision. Appreciate anyone's feedback.

There are clinics in India that will do this for you. I almost went there after they sent me a quote. Search Google. Good luck with you and your journey.

[Wantemgone (imported)]

Thanks for that. I've already received two replies from Indian surgeons and while they are not saying yes quite yet, they're not saying no either ! So it looks like my journey may begin soon.

Cheers

[YodaNell (imported)]

Another possible operation is in the pipeline for me. My Gastroenterologist referred me to a Specialist (apparently one of the best in South Africa) to perform a gastric bypass surgery on me. This should cure most of my ailments.

Then I see another operation next year...removing extra loose skin after shedding 30kg of fat.

I'm quite nervous about this, but my doctor told me that I would not live long in my current condition. So dying on the table (great way to die anyway) or living a few more years does not leave much of a choice.

[YodaNell (imported)]

It saddens me to report that my amputated nipples have grown back...almost like a lizard's tail. Has this happened to anyone else?

I will post pics on MBM.

[YodaNell (imported)]

Before I had my penectomy, I read somewhere (medical paper) that men who lost their penis', as in cancer, could achieve orgasm by rubbing the scar. I can confirm that the whole area on the pubic bone, where the penis and balls used to be, is extremely sensitive to the touch. Rubbing that area brings extremely intense pleasure.

Against my wishes, I think my doc built me a "clit"-like structure right where a clit should be. I was wondering why, after my 2nd op, there was a little hood-like flesh on the upper side of my urethra. As I healed, that little thing got to be very sensitive. Oddly enough, my doc did ask me on my second post-op follow-up if I could orgasm and I said "no, I don't want to". Always puzzled me why he asked that question. Now I think I know, and I will ask him about it at my next visit. Rubbing the actual "clit" is too sensitive and become uncomfortable after a short while, but caressing the area right against it makes me squirm with pleasure.

The point is...rubbing my pubic area as well as caressing the "clit"-area brings me darn close to orgasm. I know if I should increase my T levels to normal levels I'd be able to orgasm quicker than an intact man can.

I must also say that the feelings are truly amazing and totally different than the feelings of that of a penis, and much nicer. I cannot understand why women don't like sex if that is how it feels!

Can other nullos confirm this?

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

Before I had my penectomy, I read somewhere (medical paper) that men who lost their penis', as in cancer, could achieve orgasm by rubbing the scar. I can confirm that the whole area on the pubic bone, where the penis and balls used to be, is extremely sensitive to the touch. Rubbing that area brings extremely intense pleasure.

.........

I must also say that the feelings are truly amazing and totally different than the feelings of that of a penis, and much nicer. I cannot understand why women don't like sex if that is how it feels!

Can other nullos confirm this?

A few years back, I came across two fellas who went to Thailand (not together!) to get nulled - both happily it seems. One described an intense pleasure like he had not known before, starting from his nulled area and encompassing all of him. The other seemed content to be without any such arousal, in fact wanted to be free of it.

I suspect that the first was continuing HRT and the second was not. I don't know if that had anything to do with the pleasure, but Yoda's description seemed so similar.... Any thoughts?

[YodaNell (imported)]

The other seemed content to be without any such arousal, in fact wanted to be free of it.

I also want to be free from sexual arousal, but the more I amputate the more "pleasure" I experience. I am a spiritual man and I'm starting to believe the devil has something to do with it...hell, even my nipples grew back and are more sensitive than before.

Whether I sit or lay on my belly, I experience this constant sexual "itch", desire, overwhelming pleasure in my pubic - peehole area. I'm horny all day long, and I hate it!

I think after my gastric by-pass surgery, I'll stop T altogether. I'm only taking T now because I became extremely overweight, which should not be a problem after that operation.

[bimale4fun23 (imported)]

It definitely sounds like your doc gave you a clitoris without your knowledge. Most likely during you 2nd op he hooded it for you to protect it so it was not so sensitive rubbing against your clothes. He probably thought you needed a way to orgasm so he gave you a clit. Since your clit is properly hooded now and is sensitive, if it don't bother you in everyday life, i wouldn't worry about it, but i definitely would ask the doc about it.

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

Agreed. Something to celebrate and enjoy, perhaps?

[YodaNell (imported)]

Agreed. Something to celebrate and enjoy, perhaps?

Hey daifu...normally I would agree with you, but I really want to void my body from sexual stimuli. I'm beginning to think it is not possible.

[YodaNell (imported)]

It definitely sounds like your doc gave you a clitoris without your knowledge...He probably thought you needed a way to orgasm so he gave you a clit. Since your clit is properly hooded now and is sensitive..

bimale4fun23...I really have to agree. I placed my camera south of my body and did some research. I discovered the clit!! I uploaded the video to MBM (

http://malebodymods.com/index.php?do=/YodaNell/

video/). See for yourself.

I also uploaded some pics of my nipples that are growing back.

PS. Media can probably only be viewed tomorrow after it's been moderated.

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

Hey daifu...normally I would agree with you,......

Somebody write this down. Must be a world first!

Seems the point a couple posts up, was that the presence of HRT may have much to do with how one feels about being nulled and after?

Could it be that no T in the future might cause different feelings from now?

Maybe one is free to choose?

[YodaNell (imported)]

Somebody write this down. Must be a world first!

Seems the point a couple posts up, was that the presence of HRT may have much to do with how one feels about being nulled and after?

Could it be that no T in the future might cause different feelings from now?

Maybe one is free to choose?

I am going to stop using T after my gastric bypass surgery. I started using T solely because I gained 50 kg. But using a low dose of T does boost my libido and sexual stimulus as well. I'm certain I did mention this before. :-\

So...no T after the OP.

[YodaNell (imported)]

O boy, I'm sitting in a very uncomfortable quantum bus on a 1 700 Km cross-country trip to Pretoria. It is 9:24 PM at the moment and I know I will not be able to sleep. We will get there by 11:00 AM. Anyway, I will keep watching a movie on my tablet until the battery runs out.

[Losethem (imported)]

bimale4fun23...I really have to agree. I placed my camera south of my body and did some research. I discovered the clit!! I uploaded the video to MBM (

h

ttp://malebodymods.com/index.php?do=/YodaNell/

video/). See for yourself.

I also uploaded some pics of my nipples that are growing back.

PS. Media can pro

bably only be viewed tomorrow after it's been moderated.

The video is available now.

You actually prompted me to sort out a problem I was having on the system for a few months now to get it loaded.

--LT

[YodaNell (imported)]

You actually prompted me to sort out a problem I was having on the system for a few months now to get it loaded.

--LT

COOL!...glad to be of service.

[YodaNell (imported)]

What I'm about to say, I have mentioned on another thread, but I feel this important info (to mention here on my blog) for others who wishes to be Eunuchs, Nullos etc.

For those who have started their journey, it is often the desire to reach the goal as soon as possible. This desire is due to impatience, and I also understand it. This desire to reach the end can result in sloppiness, carelessness, imprudent actions (like in my case) and even life threatening situations.

But there is something I realized, only now after I reached my goal, "...it is the journey becoming an Eunuch which is so exciting. Enjoy it. Once your journey ends, it is an anti-climax. You have reached your goal...now what? There are moments I wish I still had testicles (and penis) because I want to experience the Calcium Chloride thing...including the pain. There are times I miss the pain in my testicles...sounds weird, I know, but me and all the issues with my testicles (or genitals) have been friends for so long and now that our friendship is over, it is quite lonely. No more touching, squeezing, injecting, cutting, pain, banding, hating...it is a deserted country. You will be pleased and content when you reach your goal, but it is the journey that is the exciting part."

[YodaNell (imported)]

At this very moment I'm sitting in a Boeing 747 on my way back home. I went to Gauteng on a bus which practically destroyed my back, so I decided to fly back. What a difference!