Page 3 of 8
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Mon Mar 22, 2010 11:31 am
by DavidB (imported)
First off, I know what you mean, I hate when them damn trees get away.
I know some people say its an old wives tale and so forth and so on, but I have had a fair amount of surgery through out my life and vitamin e works amazingly well to have scars heal a lot better if you start off early. If you can start putting V E cream on the wounds now you will notice a big difference in the long run.
just my .02, and good luck with those trees.

Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Fri Apr 09, 2010 3:11 am
by graylayer02 (imported)
OK, I haven't updated in a while. Nothing exciting really. The scars still aren't pretty but they're gradually getting less lumpy, and I'm still working out the hormone situation with the doctor (going to switch to something more long-lasting after my next shot).
And that obnoxious lump is almost gone!

There's still some itching though as things continue to heal and soften up.
Otherwise just grinding away with life and work, taking a trip down to south Germany and France to do some wine tasting this weekend, went to Poland to visit a friend last week. Life is busy in a good way. This is the year that I hope to sort out a lot of who/where/what types of things, with some action spilling over into next year.
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Sun May 09, 2010 9:42 pm
by graylayer02 (imported)
Today is the first anniversary of my castration (well the beginning of it anyway).
The scars are settling down nicely from my operation in February, and I'm moving ahead with my further plans. The pace of my life has picked up a bit which is why I'm not hanging out here so much.
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Mon May 10, 2010 4:31 am
by Milkman (imported)
Glad this has worked out so well for you...
Skip
graylayer02 (imported) wrote: Sun May 09, 2010 9:42 pm
Today is the first anniversary of my castration (well the beginning of it anyway).
The scars are settling down nicely from my operation in February, and I'm moving ahead with my further plans. The pace of my life has picked up a bit which is why I'm not hanging out here so much.
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Tue Jun 08, 2010 12:47 pm
by graylayer02 (imported)
Well, I'm in Thailand now in a hospital bed recovering from what I hope is my last operation in this series.
I'm now a nullo with a clit and some glans tissue, buried beneath what I hope are small labia.
More on this later, special thanks to thraddash for helping me sort some logistical stuff out. He's also a great guy who has good taste in makeup.

Our time here has overlapped somewhat.
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Tue Jun 08, 2010 2:20 pm
by fhunter
graylayer02 (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 08, 2010 12:47 pm
Well, I'm in Thailand now in a hospital bed recovering from what I hope is my last operation in this series.
I'm now a nullo with a clit and some glans tissue, buried beneath what I hope are small labia.
More on this later, special thanks to thraddash for helping me sort some logistical stuff out. He's also a great guy who has good taste in makeup.

Our time here has overlapped somewhat.
I wish you a speedy recovery.
Added some time later:
And yes, I am jealous. Was going to write this at first, but was running to work.
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Tue Jun 08, 2010 4:42 pm
by Losethem (imported)
Congrats! I'm jealous.
Best wishes for a speedy recovery.
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Wed Jun 09, 2010 4:10 am
by Yman (imported)
graylayer02 (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 08, 2010 12:47 pm
Well, I'm in Thailand now in a hospital bed recovering from what I hope is my last operation in this series.
Take my congratulations! I hope you enjoy your new body as it is now the way you wanted it to be.
Remember this as your second birthday ...
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Fri Jun 11, 2010 9:15 pm
by graylayer02 (imported)
Well, I'm out of the hospital and at a hotel chilling with my bf. The pee-tube and most of the stitches, in theory, come out on Monday. So no sunbathing in a speedo this weekend.
It feels weird. It's like it's all still there, tied up inside my scrotum (which no longer exists in any form). The swelling is somewhat high but no signs of infection.
It's been great having others to be here beside me...special thanks to thraddash (who came before me and is a great guy) and to nonuts (my one of a kind boyfriend in whose arms I can finally fall asleep tonight...no more broken English from Thai nurses!).
Off to dinner by the beach.

Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Sat Jun 12, 2010 8:24 am
by JesusA
Congratulations on reaching your goal. So few ever manage to do so. I hope that the healing goes well and that you and your BF find happiness.
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Sat Jun 12, 2010 12:47 pm
by graylayer02 (imported)
Thanks Fhunter, Losethem, and Jesus.
Never in a million years, when I first became active here about four years ago, did I think that I would also find true love here. THAT is the most surprising aspect of the past four years. True love is watching DVDs with your boyfriend and cuddling while his crotch heals from a surgery that you would have been fine without him getting, all the while fighting the temptation to go outside and get some sun.
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Mon Jun 14, 2010 6:22 am
by kristoff
A bit late... Congratulations on achieving some strong and long held desires!
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Tue Jun 15, 2010 3:05 pm
by graylayer02 (imported)
graylayer02 (imported) wrote: Sat Jun 12, 2010 12:47 pm
Thanks Fhunter, Losethem, and Jesus.
Never in a million years, when I first became active here about four years ago, did I think that I would also find true love here. THAT is the most surprising aspect of the past four years. True love is watching DVDs with your boyfriend and cuddling while his crotch heals from a surgery that you would have been fine without him getting, all the while fighting the temptation to go outside and get some sun.
FYI, I'm the one who had the surgery, not my boyfriend. There seems to be no edit feature on the current version of the boards where I could clarify my language on this in post 61 above.
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Tue Jun 15, 2010 6:32 pm
by Cuckolder (imported)
Enjoy the dickless rest of your Life!!! Hope it will be like you expect it....

and from now on you will for sure not be the penetrating guy...Wish you a fullfilling sexuality...
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Wed Jun 23, 2010 4:12 am
by graylayer02 (imported)
Update, T+15 days.
I'm back at 'home' in Germany and things are beginning to settle down. The clit isn't acting up ALL the time and some of the swelling, bruising, odd bits of pain, etc. are slowly beginning to go away. Still, it was odd going to work, sitting in a meeting, and realizing why I was adjusting my position every now and then.
It still feels a bit like I have a hardon (thanks to thraddash for putting it that way) but now when I sit down or walk, the rubbing isn't 100% unpleasant. I know to expect some time, but it's just weird at this point. No real bulge in front of my jeans, sitting down to pee. I have finally had my 'wow I really did it' moment.
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Wed Jun 23, 2010 4:20 am
by Dave (imported)
You'll have a few of those moments of "wow, I did it." You are going to notice lots of changes over the next few months.
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Wed Jun 23, 2010 11:49 am
by Danya (imported)
I am pleased to learn you have achieved what you wanted and that life is so good for you now.
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Wed Jun 23, 2010 6:12 pm
by thraddash (imported)
Hey Gray,
I'm sure your happy to be back in your own country. So what is your excuse when people ask why your limping around? The "riding a wild elephant" story is getting old over here
Thraddash
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Thu Jun 24, 2010 11:33 am
by Milkman (imported)
Do you now have a vagina that can be penetrated ? How long will the healing take ?
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Thu Jun 24, 2010 6:00 pm
by graylayer02 (imported)
Hey Thraddash,
I'm not actually limping around, just walking slowly. A few of my friends know, while the rest of my coworkers are moving a bit slowly since they're hung over from a big festival right outside my office.. I've gotten to plead jetlag, a lack of good sleep, and a bit of a cold. I've been sleeping 11 hours per night, but thankfully I get to set my own hours.
How's your healing going? Mine actually got quite a bit better as I was on the plane on the way back despite the hard chairs in BKK Airport. It's also getting easier to keep clean.
Mine...the color of that thing is getting much better, but my clit is still bugging me a bit (especially on the left side; it feels like there's still a dissolvable suture there) and the swelling is still a bit high. I did feel around there yesterday morning (morning wood!) and I think that I'm going to like this once it settles down. In the meantime, I've still got to be careful and not overdo things.
@Milkman,
No, I went for a very minimalistic package: Small labia, a clit, and a peehole, though my boyfriend (who hasn't seen many of these things in person) still is worried that it looks too feminine. I share his concerns; there was a tradeoff between the way it looks and the way it feels. I didn't want to have to dilate, and the way that the initial healing went, I made the right decision. The thing would have closed up pretty quickly, and healing is unpleasant enough as things are. Life is still somewhat unpleasant as my energy levels are low, but that should fix itself over the next month or so.
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Thu Jun 24, 2010 7:25 pm
by thraddash (imported)
graylayer02 (imported) wrote: Thu Jun 24, 2010 6:00 pm
Hey Thraddash,
I'm not actually limping around, just walking slowly. A few of my friends know, while the rest of my coworkers are moving a bit slowly since they're hung over from a big festival right outside my office.. I've gotten to plead jetlag, a lack of good sleep, and a bit of a cold. I've been sleeping 11 hours per night, but thankfully I get to set my own hours.
How's your healing going? Mine actually got quite a bit better as I was on the plane on the way back despite the hard chairs in BKK Airport. It's also getting easier to keep clean.
Mine...the color of that thing is getting much better, but my clit is still bugging me a bit (especially on the left side; it feels like there's still a dissolvable suture there) and the swelling is still a bit high. I did feel around there yesterday morning (morning wood!) and I think that I'm going to like this once it settles down. In the meantime, I've still got to be careful and not overdo things.
Well I'm about 1 month in now. My labia majora have softened a lot, and is obviously a lot more pleasant. I'm also still very swollen, it feels like a ponche full of water down there when I walk around. But I think it looks loads better from a week ago.
Since the swelling has gone down a little I can feel a nub beneath the skin on the right side, I don't really have anyone to ask if this is normal? I think any normal doctor will first be concerned about the lack of a certain appendage.
I have also informed my best friend that I have done this, and he is just fine with it. But I don't want to tell anyone at work still, I don't think they are as open minded.
In my opinion, wearing a dress would be nice right now, so that the area wouldn't be so constricted. Maybe one to match my cute panties

...if only things were that easily accepted, LOL!
Keep well Gray, if you heal faster than me I'm gonna get pissed!!!!
Thraddash
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Fri Jun 25, 2010 3:31 am
by graylayer02 (imported)
thraddash (imported) wrote: Thu Jun 24, 2010 7:25 pm
Well I'm about 1 month in now. My labia majora have softened a lot, and is obviously a lot more pleasant. I'm also still very swollen, it feels like a ponche full of water down there when I walk around. But I think it looks loads better from a week ago.
Since the swelling has gone down a little I can feel a nub beneath the skin on the right side, I don't really have anyone to ask if this is normal? I think any normal doctor will first be concerned about the lack of a certain appendage.
I have also informed my best friend that I have done this, and he is just fine with it. But I don't want to tell anyone at work still, I don't think they are as open minded.
In my opinion, wearing a dress would be nice right now, so that the area wouldn't be so constricted. Maybe one to match my cute panties

...if only things were that easily accepted, LOL!
Keep well Gray, if you heal faster than me I'm gonna get pissed!!!!
Thraddash
I'll race you. :p
Right now some thongs are fitting pretty nicely, but I can't use them throughout the day because of that sanitary pad. Some of my pouchier briefs do look a bit funny, but I'll grow used to this.

Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Fri Jun 25, 2010 5:53 am
by thraddash (imported)
I'll race you. :p
Although Im 2 weeks "older" than you, I think your previous endeavour has given you a head start, as you have less to heal from

Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 2:23 am
by nonuts (imported)
graylayer02 (imported) wrote: Sat Jun 12, 2010 12:47 pm
Thanks Fhunter, Losethem, and Jesus.
Never in a million years, when I first became active here about four years ago, did I think that I would also find true love here. THAT is the most surprising aspect of the past four years. True love is watching DVDs with your boyfriend and cuddling while his crotch heals from a surgery that you would have been fine without him getting, all the while fighting the temptation to go outside and get some sun.
I read this, and I found it so romantic. It's true how many guys go through something like this? Fly to Thailand to be with their boyfriend, who has just been modified in ways you'd never really considered your "boy"friend being.
As to fine without you getting done, yeah, but you weren't so that has a huge impact on how you'd be happy in life in general and with me in particular. The parts that are there now, maybe a bit fem, but, I'm hoping much less so as the swelling goes down, either way, you're happy with it, and I'll learn to be. It's odd to me yes, since my last close up view of female genitals was during birth, and thankfully I don't remember that at all.
Re: Becoming the person that I am
Posted: Sat Jul 03, 2010 4:34 am
by graylayer02 (imported)
Thanks nonuts. That really meant a lot to me. You're a sweet guy.
I'm at T plus, call it over 3 1/2 weeks here. The longer-lasting sutures are still coming out and now I feel somewhat lifelike and even have a spring in my step. There's still a fair amount of gunk but not as much as before. The swelling is also beginning to go down. It's still a while before I do anything athletic, but this is just as I predicted.
I also switched my HRT to the gel since both my doctor and I were concerned about the spike-plateau-crash pattern which drove me kind of nuts. We'll see how this works out.
I'm also trying to think of names for my new equipment. My inner monologue calls it my 'vuvezela'. Does anyone have any ideas?