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Posted: **Sun Mar 02, 2008 6:46 pm**

I have for several years now liked the idea of being castrated. First it was just a fantasy, but now I belive it would be right for me. I think about it every day, that I really have the desire to become a eunuch and have the cut!

It´s a difficult choice, and I do not feel I have someone to support me in the process. I have a boyfriend that don`t want to talk about it, I can imagine it`s difficult seeing your partner being castrated and become a eunuch.

My boyfriend is a sportsfreak,

and is in the gym or sportsclub most of the time. when he is finished with his sports, theres not much left in the bed.

We have sex about once a week, and mostly I masturbate him. I could do that as eunuch to, I believe.

I really love my boyfriend, but I naturally feel unsatified. So if I became a eunuch there wouldn`t be so much pressure on our relationship, because I wouldn`t be able to have sex the same way anymore. And I think he didn`t have to feel guilty over not giving me enough, because I would be castrated. But he could still be satisfied by me once and a while!

He on the other hand wouldn´t have to worry, that I might start cheating on him, because physical I simply wasn´t able to do it!

And I do want to be a eunuch in the first place, so what`s lost?!

The idea of not being able to perform, is very important for me!

I do not want to be medically castrated. The way I want to become eunuch is surgical and permanent! When I take this big choice to be castrated its important ,that there`s no turning back. When you have been turned into a eunuch, you stay a eunuch!

When I read post in EA about guys that have become eunuchs, I begin to feel jealuos because I have a strong desire to become a eunuch myself.

I am 35 years old now, and i feel I have tried many things in bed, now it`s time for something else!

Just wish I had someone to help me in the decission, and take me by the hand and walk me to the surgeon!

Posted: **Sun Mar 02, 2008 11:25 pm**

Hello Xerxes-

Well this is place to find those have and/or wish to go down the Eunuch path. As for you boyfriend, introduce him to another eunuch and maybe that will change his mind on your wish to be his happy Eunuch. There should be fellow Eunuchs in Scandinavia who should be happy to help you. Are there Dr. Kimmel-like surgeons in Northern Europe?

I know how you feel, I too need someone to hold my hand to be the Nullo I desire to be.

All the Best-WDW

Posted: **Mon Mar 03, 2008 12:47 am**

Xeres--

Just remember, this is something you do for yourself because you want it and feel it is proper for you. It should never be done to save any relationship, or as a part of making any single relationship better.

I had many issues with wanting this and being involved with 3 different guys that didn't want me to have it done. After BF number three, I got it done while I was single, and now I find I have no issues finding parnters, and have even found one that likes me for who I am - a eunuch.

For me it was easier to ask for "forgiveness" rather than permission, or put another way, it's easier to come to a relationship as a eunuch, than as an intact male wanting to become a eunuch. If you have already been castrated, that is how the person knows you from the start. This is why I highly advocate people that have this desire to act on it while they are single (if possible), if their goal is to ultimately be in a relationship.

You bring up many valid points, but at the end it is something you need to do because you feel it is right for you.

Posted: **Mon Mar 03, 2008 1:50 am**

Hello Xeres,

I think you and your boyfriend need to seek out therapy. If he won't even talk about it, your probable going to lose him if you get castrated. Secondly, if lowering you sex drive and libido is your aim, you should try chemical castration. It's very effective in doing that. There are side effects of castration, as you can read in other places in this forum, some of them can be very negitive to some people. Chemical castration allows you to see if you can cope with them before doing it forever.

Just my 2 cents.

Pauline.

Xerxes (imported) wrote: Sun Mar 02, 2008 6:46 pm I have for several years now liked the idea of being castrated. First it was just a fantasy, but now I belive it would be right for me. I think about it every day, that I really have the desire to become a eunuch and have the cut!

It´s a difficult choice, and I do not feel I have someone to support me in the process. I have a boyfriend that don`t want to talk about it, I can imagine it`s difficult seeing your partner being castrated and become a eunuch.

My boyfriend is a sportsfreak,

and is in the gym or sportsclub most of the time. when he is finished with his sports, theres not much left in the bed.

We have sex about once a week, and mostly I masturbate him. I could do that as eunuch to, I believe.

I really love my boyfriend, but I naturally feel unsatified. So if I became a eunuch there wouldn`t be so much pressure on our relationship, because I wouldn`t be able to have sex the same way anymore. And I think he didn`t have to feel guilty over not giving me enough, because I would be castrated. But he could still be satisfied by me once and a while!

He on the other hand wouldn´t have to worry, that I might start cheating on him, because physical I simply wasn´t able to do it!

And I do want to be a eunuch in the first place, so what`s lost?!

The idea of not being able to perform, is very important for me!

I do not want to be medically castrated. The way I want to become eunuch is surgical and permanent! When I take this big choice to be castrated its important ,that there`s no turning back. When you have been turned into a eunuch, you stay a eunuch!

When I read post in EA about guys that have become eunuchs, I begin to feel jealuos because I have a strong desire to become a eunuch myself.

I am 35 years old now, and i feel I have tried many things in bed, now it`s time for something else!

Just wish I had someone to help me in the decission, and take me by the hand and walk me to the surgeon!

Posted: **Mon Mar 03, 2008 6:01 am**

Always try chemical castration first! Otherwise you might regret your decision.

Posted: **Mon Mar 03, 2008 11:42 am**

Hi Xerxes,

Some how it seem that part of your motivation is about saving the relationship with your boyfriend, but this is really a decision you should make of your own accord for no one other than yourself. If you do it for the relationship and then the relationship fails, you will likely regret your decision. So I have to agree with others here about trying it out via chemical castration first. After all if you like it you can always do it for permanent later if that is really what you want.

Posted: **Tue Mar 04, 2008 12:51 am**

To all above!!

Hey sweet people, thanks for your advices, they are all wise!

I have had similar thoughts myself!

I think I do want the castration, because deep inside I want to become a true eunuch.

Ofcourse there are sideeffects, but if you feel its right for you to be castrated isn´t the sideeffects secondary?! How can one life live with an unforfilled desire?

The question is, how can you be 110% sure about surgery. I feel strongly about it, and I think when the operation is done, it will be a relief, because now it`s done and you do not have to speculate any longer!

when you have this urge to become eunuch and think about it every day, How can it be wrong?!

Just a question on the path to become a eunuch!

Love Xerxes

Posted: **Tue Mar 04, 2008 2:46 am**

That's exactly how I felt

Finely I just got so fed up with always wanting fulfillment and never getting it

Before the operation I asked my self that very same question (

Xerxes (imported) wrote: Tue Mar 04, 2008 12:51 am how can you be 110% sure about surgery

) even after I sent in my 1000.00 deposit I wanted to be sure

I decided to just dive in no matter how cold the water was because I knew I would keep trying either ending up in the ER or dead

Now I can look forward treating each day like getting a prize in that it may be good

And also that it may be bad but that's how life works any way

But only you know what's best for you

Good luck

Posted: **Tue Mar 04, 2008 4:40 am**

Xerxes (imported) wrote: Sun Mar 02, 2008 6:46 pm I have for several years now liked the idea of being castrated. First it was just a fantasy, but now I belive it would be right for me. I think about it every day, that I really have the desire to become a eunuch and have the cut!

Just wish I had someone to help me in the decission, and take me by the hand and walk me to the surgeon!

Hi Xerxes~ reading your post stimulates a bit of emotion for me. I want to urge you to make a list of pros and cons pre and post op, if you have not already done so. Also, think of all the things if any you enjoy about your curent body, and then think of things you might enjoy about the eunuch body.

Are you ready to live a life of LOW hormones? Will you over come the depression, lose of energy, decreased sex drive, hot flashes, muscle mass decrease & over all shock of the procedure?! Also do you love you current boyfriend? would the lose of your relationship with him and possibly others be something you would sacrifice for becoming a eunuch?

If you still feel the castration is the only valid option for you, then by all means do what you must do for happiness. As far as having some one to walk you threw the surgery, look around, there are others like you who would be happy to be a friend to help you. I think you know what i mean~

Posted: **Wed Mar 05, 2008 4:36 am**

Xerxes (imported) wrote: Tue Mar 04, 2008 12:51 am I think I do want the castration, because deep inside I want to become a true eunuch.

Ofcourse there are sideeffects, but if you feel its right for you to be castrated isn´t the sideeffects secondary?! How can one life live with an unforfilled desire?

The question is, how can you be 110% sure about surgery. I feel strongly about it, and I think when the operation is done, it will be a relief, because now it`s done and you do not have to speculate any longer!

when you have this urge to become eunuch and think about it every day,

My feelings exactly. I still have my balls, but they don't work any more. I still want to get them removed surgically, so that there will be physical proof of my castration.

Posted: **Wed Mar 05, 2008 8:56 pm**

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Kangan (imported) wrote: Wed Mar 05, 2008 4:36 am I still want to get them removed surgically, so that there will be physical proof of my castration.

I don't understand the "need" to prove anything -- it almost sounds related to a court-of-law type requirement. At this stage in my life (mid-60s), I have learned that I do not need to prove anything to anyone. I am who I am, and my acceptance is a matter within my [spiritual] self, and for/by/of no one else.

Would you mind elaborating on your perspective about the need to prove something?

Posted: **Thu Mar 06, 2008 5:15 am**

Hi Xerxes,

It is not uncommon for a fantasy to be castrated to start to move into the realm of reality. But in these cases extra caution is always needed because sometimes it can just be that the fantasy is masquearading as reality. It might all still be just fantasy.

It's a lot more than just "difficult" to see your partner get castrated. For most, it means the end of the relationship. Someone who wants to have their nuts cut off is not an everyday thing, and your boyfriend isn't going to say, "Oh, it's only that you want to become a eunuch? Why didn't you say so sooner? It's no bigger than changing your hairstyle."

There is no reason to expect that all it will take is introducing him to another happy eunuch to suddenly be happy with you wanting to be a eunuch. If you were someone who thought he needed to kill himself so you could go be with the alien gods in another galaxy, would you think all it would take in order to get him to accept it is introducing him to another person with the same beliefs who was happy because of them?

You believe you'll still want to and be able to please your boyfriend once you're cut? That's nice, but just because something is believed does not make it reality. You're going to want to base this decision on a lot more than just what you believe.

You don't think it's possible to really want something that is not right for you? Look at me. Before my surgery, I knew for sure I wanted to be a eunuch and that there was no way I could be wrong.

I was wrong. I am dealing with major regret issues now. And it's not fun to know that TRT is not going to bring me back to who I was, and that I am stuck this way forever.

This is a case where you absolutely must try chemical castration first. If you do not, I can almost guarantee you will regret it.

You need to know every single known effect of castration, and you need to know if you can handle them all. The only way is chemical castration.

I certainly hope that you back away a little and take the time to think this through and do it right. You only get one chance with castration; there are no do-overs.

Hope I helped

Posted: **Thu Mar 06, 2008 7:29 pm**

plix (imported) wrote: Thu Mar 06, 2008 5:15 am Hi Xerxes,

It is not uncommon for a fantasy to be castrated to start to move into the realm of reality. But in these cases extra caution is always needed because sometimes it can just be that the fantasy is masquearading as reality. It might all still be just fantasy.

It's a lot more than just "difficult" to see your partner get castrated. For most, it means the end of the relationship. Someone who wants to have their nuts cut off is not an everyday thing, and your boyfriend isn't going to say, "Oh, it's only that you want to become a eunuch? Why didn't you say so sooner? It's no bigger than changing your hairstyle."

There is no reason to expect that all it will take is introducing him to another happy eunuch to suddenly be happy with you wanting to be a eunuch. If you were someone who thought he needed to kill himself so you could go be with the alien gods in another galaxy, would you think all it would take in order to get him to accept it is introducing him to another person with the same beliefs who was happy because of them?

You believe you'll still want to and be able to please your boyfriend once you're cut? That's nice, but just because something is believed does not make it reality. You're going to want to base this decision on a lot more than just what you believe.

You don't think it's possible to really want something that is not right for you? Look at me. Before my surgery, I knew for sure I wanted to be a eunuch and that there was no way I could be wrong.

I was wrong. I am dealing with major regret issues now. And it's not fun to know that TRT is not going to bring me back to who I was, and that I am stuck this way forever.

This is a case where you absolutely must try chemical castration first. If you do not, I can almost guarantee you will regret it.

You need to know every single known effect of castration, and you need to know if you can handle them all. The only way is chemical castration.

I certainly hope that you back away a little and take the time to think this through and do it right. You only get one chance with castration; there are no do-overs.

Hope I helped

Thanks for your opinoin, it must be very difficult to handle regret after surgery.

Castration is not something to decide with your head under the arm. It is something you have to think over for a considerale time, and get a full overview of all sideeffects.

You can have chemical castration. It would be wise, but do you feel like a eunuch? Do you not just feel impotent? I can relate to Kangans feeling about having his testicles removed to be what he wants to be.

A main issue for me are not to be a intact male anymore, but to be a eunuch.

offcourse, its for rest of your life, and if you regret it, the consequenses are horrible!

Posted: **Fri Mar 07, 2008 4:35 am**

Yes, I believed there were gender issues when I had my surgery. No, I no longer believe there are gender issues. Which goes to show that even potential gender issues are no guarantee. These issues need to be confirmed, and then castration as a treatment needs to be confirmed as the best possible option.

I believe that anyone who identifies as "eunuch" needs to undergo therapy to explore the identity and the best way to handle it. It should be no different from how it is for TGs. They have to confirm and explore the identity through therapy.

And no matter what your motivation, chemical castration is a must. You said it yourself about needing a full overview of all side effects. This doesn't happen through just reading about them. You need to experience them for yourself before you do anything permanent, although even short-term chemical castration likely causes some degree of permanent changes.

Posted: **Fri Mar 07, 2008 5:37 am**

I think when a male has a strong desire to be castrated, it's hard to convince him or confirm what's right or wrong. From my experience, when I still had my testicles, my fantasy about getting castrated did indeed turn into a strong absolute need. I doubt that anyone could have convinced me that I didn't need it. Once I got castrated, my desires went away almost entirely, along with my sexual desires. That's why I believe my desire was tied too testosterone, both mentally & physically. That said, trying chemical castration can confirm whether it's right for a man, but will it stop his insistent desire? Probably not. I remember that Taula said that if a man has a desire to be castrated, he most likely will be castrated. Food for thought.

Posted: **Mon Mar 24, 2008 2:01 am**

hi to all,

I can relate entirely to Xerxes. I'm quite aware that testosterone produced by my own balls is causing me wanting to have them cut off, bizarre..........

however, this knowing doesn't make the urge to get castrated go away.

still, enough reason not to throw oneself into something you might regret, try to take advantage of anyone's advice!

bye to all!

Posted: **Sat Apr 05, 2008 6:32 am**

I really can relate to this. I really do have a strong desire to be castrated myself, however, I am taking my time in doing this, I want to find out as much information as I can. I want to talk to others who have been castrated and find out from them what life was like for them both before and after castration. I know that at some point in time I will go through with it because the desire is so strong, but I really do want all the information I can get before hand.

Posted: **Sat Apr 05, 2008 7:47 am**

I think most people who have really done it will tell you its not a good thing to do for sexual / fetish reasons. And also that its not as simple as a shutting off of being male. Sex drive is only one thing that changes. You might get serious depression. And NOT because your missing your Testicles or changed your mind. Lack of Male hormone levels can give you depression like symptoms. You can get anxiety issues. Loss of energy. Your will to get up and do things can lower and thats a problem depending on what you do for a living. There are medical risks. Bone loss and so on.

Anyone in love with the idea of being castrated needs to remind themselves that there is a life after the surgery and at least plan on how they deal with it. Talking to a professional (Your MD and or a Mental Health Expert) is a good step. I think that if your really into the idea and you can still say "I want to be castrated" right AFTER an orgasm test driving it with Chemicals is far better then laying down on the operating table. At least with the Chemical route you can change your mind when you find out what its really like.

Posted: **Sun Apr 06, 2008 3:05 am**

HOWEVER. I on the other hand experienced none of those problems whatsoever. I had no problems with hot flashes, depression like symptoms, diminished sex drive (but then my sex drive was pretty minimal to begin with) or any other problems. And I'm glad that my scrotum and testicles which started out small and had increased in size during my forties are completely out of the way now.

Posted: **Sat Apr 12, 2008 11:09 pm**

On thuesday I am calling a medical centre to have a talk about the possibilites

of being chemically castrated.

This phonecall will be my first step to become a true castrated Eunuch.

Wish me luck!

Xerxes

Posted: **Sat Nov 15, 2008 12:58 am**

I did not realize that you had so much regret Plix, I thought you were pleased to be a eunuch.

plix (imported) wrote: Fri Mar 07, 2008 4:35 am Yes, I believed there were gender issues when I had my surgery. No, I no longer believe there are gender issues. Which goes to show that even potential gender issues are no guarantee. These issues need to be confirmed, and then castration as a treatment needs to be confirmed as the best possible option.

I believe that anyone who identifies as "eunuch" needs to undergo therapy to explore the identity and the best way to handle it. It should be no different from how it is for TGs. They have to confirm and explore the identity through therapy.

And no matter what your motivation, chemical castration is a must. You said it yourself about needing a full overview of all side effects. This doesn't happen through just reading about them. You need to experience them for yourself before you do anything permanent, although even short-term chemical castration likely causes some degree of permanent changes.

Posted: **Sat Nov 15, 2008 2:08 am**

And remember also that any advice from anyone here are from who? Real people who have had it done and are honestly reporting it or? Posers or mental patients? I think its safe to assume that its buyer beware and remember to always be careful for what you ask for you might get it!

Posted: **Mon Nov 17, 2008 11:28 pm**

I have been thinking about getting castrated also. But what everyone says to do first is to get a chemical castration first. I'm 43 years old and sexually frustrated beyond imagination. This all started in my late 20's or young 30's. I had 3 partners and those have came and gone. And yes I have been to doctors both mental and physical. Both doctors prescribed the magical blue pill and that failed. So what is there to do, surgery? The doctor said he can put a pump into the penus. That to me doesn't sound natural to me. I might as well have been castrated.

I have been thinking a lot lately about getting a chemical castration. But the only thing stopping me is that I like to play sports (soccer mainly). I'm not in the best of shape to begin with, but I do love playing soccer. Now when you get castrated you loose your muscle strength. I'm not sure how good of a player I would be, if I lost majority or all of my muslce strength. But I can imagine myself running up and down the field with out my testicals.

Maybe we should meet and yes I will hold your hand and we both get castrated together.

Robert (aka Roberta).

San Ramon, CA.

Posted: **Wed Nov 19, 2008 1:19 am**

I have been to several doctors now!

No one can help me getting castrated chemically!

So what to do?

Would love to have someone to hold my hand, supporting each other

while being castrated!!!

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