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I'm not sure if posting anything is a wise idea for myself as I normally tend to keep things as personal as possible.

But at the moment I cannot express myself in any other way. I have recently had surgery a few days ago, an orchiectomy and penectomy, and albeit I'm bruised and swollen I am the happiest guy in the world.

I have not told my friends/family/co-workers about these events and hopefully they will not find out. This is how I've always wanted to be, and what people don't know won't hurt them, or myself.

For now I am content.

Was this for medical reasons? Was it done by legitimate MD's in a SA hospital?

Thanks for responding.

Milkman (imported) wrote: Fri May 28, 2010 6:09 am Was this for medical reasons? Was it done by legitimate MD's in a SA hospital?

No, this was for personal reasons.

The doctor that performed the surgery is legitimate, however not based in South Africa, it was done in Thailand.

The level of care that I have been given so far has been incredible, I get checked up on every hour whether I need it or not, and I can request assistance at any time if necessary.

So you're currently recovering from surgery, Thraddash.

I'm glad you seem to be doing well. I sincerely hope everything continues that way for you, and that you return home healthily established in the condition that you have selected for yourself.

Are you intending to stay as a non-male (ie, without inducing feminine characteristics)? Or are you hoping/intending to develop towards the feminine state?

Hi Old Greebo,

Thank you!

For now I will not take on any further female characteristics. Nor do I require companionship from men. I actually did get to choose my condition, including the option to feel sensation in a makeshift clitoris.

I am actually happily married back home to a lovely lady, who is the only person aware of these proceedings. She has been supporting me this whole time, but obviously raised concerns that this is a irreversible change of state. I am alone right now, which is possibly the only reason I'm even posting what I have done.

I'm really getting bored being stuck in bed all day.

I was finally allowed to walk around today, its amazing how weak you become in a matter of days.

Walking alone now feels so different, even though I have a layer of dressing over my wounds, I feel no obstructions.

This is so exciting.

Don't push it. Glad to hear it's going well so far.

Don't push it.

I'm not, I'm taking things extremely slowly. I walk with such small steps. For some reason last night I felt so energetic, like I could run a marathon, is this normal? (Obviously I didn't, and won't)

They are redying me for discharge today, so I'm finally off that restrictive IV. My poor skin, I've got every color in the rainbow around my waist. I'm normally a pale white so its pretty clear I had something done.

I'm still attached to a urine bag for a few more days, so I'm just going to hide out in my hotel room until that's removed, I don't see anyone else carrying one around

thraddash (imported) wrote: Sat May 29, 2010 11:38 am I'm not, I'm taking things extremely slowly. I walk with such small steps. For some reason last night I felt so energetic, like I could run a marathon, is this normal? (Obviously I didn't, and won't)

They are redying me for discharge today, so I'm finally off that restrictive IV. My poor skin, I've got every color in the rainbow around my waist. I'm normally a pale white so its pretty clear I had something done.

I'm still attached to a urine bag for a few more days, so I'm just going to hide out in my hotel room until that's removed, I don't see anyone else carrying one around

Have them get you a bag that you strap to your leg. Less cumbersome or embarrassing. Just make sure it is plugged closed, or you'll end up with a shoe full (experience tells).

kristoff wrote: Sat May 29, 2010 2:24 pm Have them get you a bag that you strap to your leg. Less cumbersome or embarrassing. Just make sure it is plugged closed, or you'll end up with a shoe full (experience tells).

I asked but they didn't have one, thanks for the suggestion though.

I got a shopping packet to carry it around in, so it looks like I enjoy buying bags of you know what at the grocery store, LOL!!

Wow, Thraddash...that's quite a decision you've made...I envy you..Enjoy your new freedom...You have a wonderful attitude and a very understanding wife...

I'd love to be castrated, but I don't think it will ever happen. Did you recieve a rerouting of your urethra? Take care of yourself and keep posting here. We are obviously very interested in your story (at least I am)..

dragonfly

butterflyjack (imported) wrote: Sat May 29, 2010 9:34 pm Wow, Thraddash...that's quite a decision you've made...I envy you..Enjoy your new freedom...You have a wonderful attitude and a very understanding wife...

I'd love to be castrated, but I don't think it will ever happen. Did you recieve a rerouting of your urethra? Take care of yourself and keep posting here. We are obviously very interested in your story (at least I am)..

dragonfly

Thank you butterflyjack,

In all honesty I never thought I was going to be able to have this done at all.

This had always been a plan in my head, but the situation that I would have been able to do it was a little morbid. The plan was if all my family had all passed on and I was left alone in the world, then I would arrange to do it. But this is obviously planning for when I'm good and old, and I'm pretty sure my wife will out live me. I didn't want my parent to know that I thought of things like this, even though there is a high possibility they would understand. I mean I had enough shame at school just having a large nose and braces (the nose has been fixed by the way). Imagine if I suddenly started telling people I wanted girl parts.

I had always had this fascination with men becoming women, mostly the stages in-between, you know the part where they just lost their member and are scared out of their pants. I was so obsessed that I was prepared to try something stupid. I had ordered one of those castration devices over the internet, took like a month to get here, but I never got around to using it, it didn't come with an instruction manual so I might have lost an eye. In the meantime I had come clean with the wife (hell knows where the courage came from), and was very surprised that she was fine with it. Maybe I wasn't as good in bed as I thought . She said if your going to do it then do it properly, which ultimately lead me to spending a great deal of money, but preventing any life threatening scenarios. I know what I have done was selfish, you don't have to tell me.

I've had to lie to everyone, my whole single friend, my family and everyone at work to try keep this a secret. I just hope none of them are skew and go though this site.

My urethra has been rerouted, it is in the back of my labia majora, so now and forever more I will need to keep the toilet seat down.

thraddash (imported) wrote: Sun May 30, 2010 12:00 am I've had to lie to everyone, my whole single friend, my family and everyone at work to try keep this a secret. I just hope none of them are skew and go though this site.

This is something that I think we all share. as the lyrics of the Beetles song goes "everyone's got something to hide, except for me and my monkey".

But rest assured that anyone visiting this site has surely found it the same way you have.

thraddash (imported) wrote: Sun May 30, 2010 12:00 am My urethra has been rerouted, it is in the back of my labia majora, so now and forever more I will need to keep the toilet seat down.

So did you have labiaplasty also?

jemagirl (imported) wrote: Sun May 30, 2010 2:16 am But rest assured that anyone visiting this site has surely found it the same way you have.

This may be true, but personally I never came across this site until a few months ago. I am assuming that my friends to not fantasize about similar things.

jemagirl (imported) wrote: Sun May 30, 2010 2:16 am So did you have labiaplasty also?

The labia majora and labia minora were constructed during surgery along with the clitoris and a clitoral hood. Originally I was only going to do the labia majora, but was afraid of having no sensations of any kind, so I had to "modify" my order which in turn upped the cost I believe I have made a good choice as this was a one-time-only opportunity. Most of the penile shaft was preserved so I can still feel it, somewhere.

Thanks you for your honesty Thraddash...So you have a vagina now??

dragonfly

butterflyjack (imported) wrote: Sun May 30, 2010 3:38 am Thanks you for your honesty Thraddash...So you have a vagina now??

No, I did not take that option. From what I hear you have to constantly dilate it or something to keep it functional, and it sounded quite painful. And for me personally it would never get any use. My wife is straight.

The option is still open for the future, they can give me one by using a colon segment. But I doubt it will come to that.

I wish you the very best, and its also good to hear you have a wife that supports this, as most people know there is a lot of difference between love and sex, and who knows, the sex might be even better.

Good luck to you,

River

Riverwind (imported) wrote: Sun May 30, 2010 5:18 am I wish you the very best, and its also good to hear you have a wife that supports this, as most people know there is a lot of difference between love and sex, and who knows, the sex might be even better.

Thank you for those kind words. I'm sure it will take some time for me to get used to my current configuration before attempting sex again. At the moment, just being in her arms would be pleasure enough.

Are you planning to go on HRT? And thanks for your honesty and information.

fhunter wrote: Sun May 30, 2010 6:01 am Are you planning to go on HRT? And thanks for your honesty and information.

I will not straight away. I was given some good advice stating I will need to listen to my wife for changes in my personality or mood swings. I will probably use a testosterone replacement if things get too unbalanced.

This is something that I am inexperienced in and will need to ask for the collective knowledge of this forum for guidance. Just note I live in a third world country.

I am still waiting for my body to realize it's missing something. Does anyone know the time-frame when I could expect things to go out of sync?

thraddash (imported) wrote: Sun May 30, 2010 6:15 am I am still waiting for my body to realize it's missing something. Does anyone know the time-frame when I could expect things to go out of sync?

On androcur it was around the end of first week.

As for orchiectomy - I do not know. Probably in range from week to month. Can not think of proper keywords to find the right information on the archive.

Please correct me if I am wrong.

Too bad I missed you in a dress. :p

Seriously, you seem very happy with your new configuration, and I wish you and your wife many more happy years.

graylayer02 (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 08, 2010 7:44 pm Too bad I missed you in a dress. :p

Seriously, you seem very happy with your new configuration, and I wish you and your wife many more happy years.

Thanks graylayer, my new surgical sibling!!

Everyone should be grateful they didn't see me in a dress. I'm sure by T-Girl standards, I was an abomination.

As of today, I am now 2 weeks post surgery, most of the stitches have been removed. I have been told the swelling will take a few months to subside. Only one week worth of healing left before I go back home, I cannot wait

I'm counting down until it's time to sit down at airport bathrooms or in the lavatory. (concerned look)

graylayer02 (imported) wrote: Fri Jun 11, 2010 9:26 pm I'm counting down until it's time to sit down at airport bathrooms or in the lavatory. (concerned look)

Carry a pocket pack of wet-wipes.