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Hey guys!

I'm a 21 year old bisexual male who enjoys thinking about castration, either of myself or of another male, as a sexual fantasy. My problem is, I'm very comfortable being an intact male, but when I come on sites like this and read stories about men who have lost their genitals through accidents, I get very very upset. I feel like I've dealt with a lot of my feelings about fetishizing castration, and I understand why I like thinking about it, and the social and emotional connotations that it carries for me that make it such a turnon, and I feel that I should be able to acknowledge and fantasise about that, but at the same time, when I read about how some men lose their genitals and then lose all hope for life, I sort of put myself in their position and it absolutely fills me with terror.

I also get upset sometimes when I read about guys who have gotten castrated to reduce sex drive. I think it's just because I have a very high sex drive, and somewhere in my mind I'm thinking "Oh god, I'm a real horndog, just like these guys used to be, maybe my life is as bad as theirs was, maybe I need to be fixed." I don't have these thoughts outside of this site, and I'm normally perfectly happy with and proud of my sex drive, but when I'm here and read testimonials they all start. I guess I just am very empathetic and keep trying to put myself in the shoes of the people on here.

I don't know exactly what I'm hoping people will tell me on here, but I think just typing about my feelings and discussing them with people will help. I have a real life friend who I can talk to about this, and she's great and tells me not to worry, but I think having my fears calmed by people who are either just like me, or conversely who are different to me and feel they were born eunuchs, or have had castration for other legitimate reasons, or stories of people who deal with unintended castration and come out the other side fine, might help me sooth this big churning mess of feelings.

Hello Andy,

Welcome to the zoo. Look around; you'll find many others asking exactly the same sort of questions that you have. This is a friendly and comfortable space. Just remember that while everyone deserves an active fantasy life, there is a clear, and necessary, distinction between fantasy and reality. I hope you enjoy your stay here and return often to take part in the discussions.

J.

Welcome. Believe us, we understand. The fantasy can be one thing, the reality can be something completely different.

Whatever brought you here, you are welcome. We have all kinds here, and if you read and appreciate the stories, then you belong here as well as most, even if that is your only reason.

This is a great site, because it provokes us to see beyond the fantasy, while still embracing the fantasy. I think there have been many days where this site has saved someone, who was about to take the fantasy too far, and do something they'd regret the rest of their lives. Showing someone the reality of something is very powerful, Just as fantasizing can be very cathartic. It is always important not to confuse the two.

I like to fantasize I have the powers of Spiderman. It is an enjoyable fantasy. As enjoyable as it is, I'm not looking for radioactive spiders, or trying to leap off the nearest skyscraper with my home made web-shooter. If I ever went that far into my fantasy, I hope someone would talk me down before I did something VERY stupid.

It is good you know that castration is not for you. It is good you recognize that the fantasy is not the reality. Putting limits on your imagination is no fun. Luckily you can live as rich and enjoyable fantasy life as you wish. You can be castrated in your fantasy as many times as you wish. In reality, you can only do it once. One time, and a lifetime of regret isn't something I'd wish on you.

Stick around and enjoy your fantasies. You're not hurting anyone. The people on this site are fantastic, and kind. We'll never judge you for what goes on in your imagination. We welcome it. We welcome you.

The EA is a safe place for people like you, and people like me equally.

Hello Andy, you sound a lot like me. Exciting to think about, but keep that knife well away, thank you!

I dont get upset reading some of the things here, but sometimes, it is uncomfortable. I've been looking for the milder stories, even some in normally published books, though there's not many like that. And sometimes I just read story after story when I should be doing other things.

Not that I want to scare of course, but have you read this story?

https://eunuchworld.co/s5492

It is based somewhat on a true story, and is worth reading.

Andy - while it can be greatly argued that there isn't really a norm in society, I think that you would be close to the norm on the EA, so partly for that reason, I think that you can feel very comfortable on these boards. A lot of members fantasise about losing their member (and/or rocks)!

The male sex drive can be a great life driver/motivator for some men; though I don't believe that it has to be alive to motivate everyone. For many men sex or masturbation is the worthwhile reward after a hard weeks work, etc, so I can sort of understand your comment "lose all hope for life."

I really think that it is perfectly fine that you are happy and proud of your apparently high sex drive. There is not neccessarily a great deal wrong with it. I think it depends on the lives we lead, the people we meet. I could be just as proud as you of my sex drive, though I'm not disappointed that I'm not. I am happy with the conclusions that I have arrived at about what is best for me. Most people on these boards believe that everyone is unique; I hope you will be treated as such.

Despite me labelling you as the "norm." Well, I do like to contradict myself sometimes

Use being anonymous (except for to your friend) as a positive. I have found that just rambling out my feelings can help. Try not to feel too embarrassed about anything that you post on here.

I don't read the stories or take part in the chat room (which might be 60% of the EA?), but still get a lot out of just taking an interest in the message boards.

Not that there's anything wrong with reading "story after story." Justin, I should take a leaf out of your book (pardon the pun) and read more fiction.

Cainanite, your message is lovely and I'm sure as warm a welcome as anyone could offer. And there's nothing wrong with spiders or men. Just don't let anyone talk you down when your already half way up the side of that skyscraper

What is the title or who is the author of this story Punky? I cannot find it as it just takes me to the index.

But anyway, it gives me an excuse to copy a link to my sole contribution

https://eunuchworld.co/s12926

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loveableleopardy (imported) wrote: Thu Nov 03, 2011 6:46 pm Cainanite, your message is lovely and I'm sure as warm a welcome as anyone could offer. And there's nothing wrong with spiders or men. Just don't let anyone talk you down when your already half way up the side of that skyscraper

Half way up a skyscraper? Leave it to me to choose the one skyscraper without an elevator. I'd be half-way up and need to take a nap. I am pretty far from physically fit. Half-way up and I'd need to call the fire department with their ladder truck myself. Though I admit, I'd be an awesome sight in that blue and orange leotard.

Lazyman, Lazyman,

Does whatever a lazy guy can

Spins a tale, any size,

Catches twinkies just like flies

Look Out!

Here comes the Lazyman.

Is he hungry?

Listen bud,

He's got low blood sugar in his blood.

Can he swing from a thread?

Don't bother looking overhead.

Not at all.

There sits the Lazyman.

In the chill of night

At a drive-through near you

Like a streak of molasses

He arrives eventually.

Lazyman, Lazyman

Friendly neighborhood Lazyman

Wealth and fame

He's ingnored

Sitting still is his reward.

To him, life is a great big buffet

Whenever there is nothing to say,

You'll find the Lazy man!!!

I'm aware that some of you may have seen me lurking down the bottom of the page for quite a while since I posted this, and rest assured I will be replying soon to all of your wonderful and encouraging posts!

However, for the next two hours I have to slay monsters in a mythical land of fantasy with my friends. Like a normal Thursday night.

See you all soon.

NZAndy1990 (imported) wrote: Thu Nov 03, 2011 8:06 pm I'm aware that some of you may have seen me lurking down the bottom of the page for quite a while since I posted this, and rest assured I will be replying soon to all of your wonderful and encouraging posts!

However, for the next two hours I have to slay monsters in a mythical land of fantasy with my friends. Like a normal Thursday night.

See you all soon.

Glad to see you're still around. Have fun slaying those monsters. Roll a natural D20 for me, okay? ( Sorry, I'm old school table-top D&D)

Goddamnit, co-mingling this board with my game has me imagining pauldrons crafted out of monster nuts now. I wish my character still had skinning.

I can see it now - "Dragon-sack Spaulders"

Eight legged balls, with wings!

NZAndy1990 (imported) wrote: Thu Nov 03, 2011 8:14 pm Goddamnit, co-mingling this board with my game has me imagining pauldrons crafted out of monster nuts now. I wish my character still had skinning.

I can see it now - "Dragon-sack Spaulders"

I just edited a story something like that, where an amazon warrior defeats a dragon in a very similar way. It is called Amazon - The King's Dragon and I (https://eunuchworld.co/s3258)

What you propose would be a very unique item.

I needed a good laugh tonight. Thank-you!

It's probably a bad sign for my already depraved sexual appetites that the thought of luxuriously soft dragon scrotum on my skin is a massive fucking turnon right now.

Cainanite (imported) wrote: Thu Nov 03, 2011 8:01 pm Half way up a skyscraper? Leave it to me to choose the one skyscraper without an elevator. I'd be half-way up and need to take a nap. I am pretty far from physically fit. Half-way up and I'd need to call the fire department with their ladder truck myself. Though I admit, I'd be an awesome sight in that blue and orange leotard.

Lazyman, Lazyman,

Does whatever a lazy guy can

Spins a tale, any size,

Catches twinkies just like flies

Look Out!

Here comes the Lazyman.

Is he hungry?

Listen bud,

He's got low blood sugar in his blood.

Can he swing from a thread?

Don't bother looking overhead.

Not at all.

There sits the Lazyman.

In the chill of night

At a drive-though near you

Like a streak of molasses

He arrives eventually.

Lazyman, Lazyman

Friendly neighborhood Lazyman

Wealth and fame

He's ingnored

Sitting still is his reward.

To him, life is a great big buffet

Whenever there is nothing to say,

You'll find the Lazy man!!!

"Need to take a nap." They should have a power nap zone on skyscrapers like they do for drivers!

Did you just come up with this poem? I like. Quite a contradiction though (or is it meant to be?). Don't you spend hours upon hours editing the stories on the fiction archive?

I like the "spins a tale" and "can he swing from a thread?," writing lingo.

Is it meant to be "at a drive-through near you"?

What are molasses? I think Radiohead used this term once; that's the only other time I can recall hearing it!

Now that I've enjoyed my dose of EA meds, it's time for me to go to bed!

loveableleopardy (imported) wrote: Thu Nov 03, 2011 8:34 pm Did you just come up with this poem? I like. Quite a contradiction though (or is it meant to be?). Don't you spend hours upon hours editing the stories on the fiction archive?

I stole the lyrics from the Spiderman theme song and altered them for my purposes.

Editing requires me to sit in one place, drinking coffee, and being very quiet. Just my speed.

loveableleopardy (imported) wrote: Thu Nov 03, 2011 8:34 pm Is it meant to be "at a drive-through near you"?

Yes. I have fixed it. I was typing fast, and I missed that pesky R.

loveableleopardy (imported) wrote: Thu Nov 03, 2011 8:34 pm What are molasses? I think Radiohead used this term once; that's the only other time I can recall hearing it!

It is a Black syrupy liquid, that is notorious for being very slow to pour. It is used in a lot of baking recipes. You can find in the baking ingredient isle of your local supermarket.

Also, you can look up the phrase, "As slow as molasses in January." It is a phrase that describes me quite nicely.

Have a good night. I think I'm off to bed myself.

My bad. The story is titled: A Warning to Others. Author name: TheOtherSide.

Pardon me, please.

Molasses is (the word is singular, not plural?) a name for the viscous liquid that is left after the crystallized sucrose has been removed from sugar cane during the processing of sugar cane into crystallized sucrose (granulated sugar, for example?) and into what else constitutes sugar cane. Molasses has significant nutritional value.

Because of its viscosity, which is quite temperature-sensitive, cold molasses flows very slowly. There is a saying on this side of the pond, "Slower than molasses in January." But I prefer, "Slower than molasses in July in Antarctica."

Regional idioms can be meaningless outside their region of usefulness.

For cooking purposes, I keep on hand a bottle of unsulphured molasses.

One of the most common uses of molasses may be in the making of gingerbread.

Gingerbread? As in gingerbread men? Can they have jellybean balls that I can chomp off, and sad little expressions for me to exult in?

Evidently I feel very comfortable here!

NZAndy1990 (imported) wrote: Thu Nov 03, 2011 11:47 am Hey guys!

I'm a 21 year old bisexual male who enjoys thinking about castration, either of myself or of another male, as a sexual fantasy. My problem is, I'm very comfortable being an intact male, but when I come on sites like this and read stories about men who have lost their genitals through accidents, I get very very upset. I feel like I've dealt with a lot of my feelings about fetishizing castration, and I understand why I like thinking about it, and the social and emotional connotations that it carries for me that make it such a turnon, and I feel that I should be able to acknowledge and fantasise about that, but at the same time, when I read about how some men lose their genitals and then lose all hope for life, I sort of put myself in their position and it absolutely fills me with terror.

I also get upset sometimes when I read about guys who have gotten castrated to reduce sex drive. I think it's just because I have a very high sex drive, and somewhere in my mind I'm thinking "Oh god, I'm a real horndog, just like these guys used to be, maybe my life is as bad as theirs was, maybe I need to be fixed." I don't have these thoughts outside of this site, and I'm normally perfectly happy with and proud of my sex drive, but when I'm here and read testimonials they all start. I guess I just am very empathetic and keep trying to put myself in the shoes of the people on here.

I don't know exactly what I'm hoping people will tell me on here, but I think just typing about my feelings and discussing them with people will help. I have a real life friend who I can talk to about this, and she's great and tells me not to worry, but I think having my fears calmed by people who are either just like me, or conversely who are different to me and feel they were born eunuchs, or have had castration for other legitimate reasons, or stories of people who deal with unintended castration and come out the other side fine, might help me sooth this big churning mess of feelings.

Perhaps I can write a useful response. I happen to be among the folks who studied (especially human) biology in depth and detail as a core aspect of my professional education. I observe that biological diversity is the essence of species survival during significant environmental change. Therefore, rather than endorsing supposed normalcy as being nearly identical to others who are much the same, I find that what is normal is the entire range and extent of the diversity which actually exists, and, in the ultimate sense, everything in the universe, when understood in sufficiently accurate detail, is actually perfectly unique. Hence, your view and your life experiences are neither more nor less "normal" than are those of anyone else.

At the same time, I find it blatantly apparent that some happenings are inherently damaging, and that such experiences are wisely to be avoided when avoiding them is achievable. For myself, I happened to arrive in this world with a strong variety of transgenderism; those violent beliefs and behaviors which society typically assigns to the role of boys and men I have consistently experienced as abhorent.

It has never seemed to me that I was supposed to be a conventional member of the masculine subset of "Western Social Tradition." Yet it has also seemed to me that my life is supposed to include experiences in which other people attempt to teach me to be someone other than who I really am.

When I was in my mid-forties, my understanding of biology and particularly of family cancer risk factors led me to the diligently studied view that I would likely be dead from cancer at a relatively young age (as had happened to some close family members) unless I took very intense steps directed toward reducing my cancer risk. My dad and brother died from such cancer when much younger than I now am. I have been found to have the same genetic condition, familial adenomatous polyposis, which led to my dad's and brother's deaths in direct consequence of cancer.

Absent evidence of cancer risk, I would not have sought the cancer-preventive surgeries that I received; for someone who does not have the genetic condition of familial adenomatous polyposis, the combination surgeries I obtained might be quite improper.

I find it no less appropriate for some people to find male to eunuch very strongly life-enhancing and for others to properly deem such to be a form of atrocity for themselves.

I have come to the hunch that a life well lived is a life which is true to the individual person, and not so much a life that is lived in conflict-riddled conformity to social norms which deny a particular person's actual, individual life needs and experiences.

I welcome you here.

NZAndy1990 (imported) wrote: Thu Nov 03, 2011 11:40 pm Gingerbread? As in gingerbread men? Can they have jellybean balls that I can chomp off, and sad little expressions for me to exult in?

Evidently I feel very comfortable here!

Okay, that image is awesome.

I'm glad you are feeling comfortable here. As I said before, we are a pretty diverse bunch. You should fit right in. I'm glad you are sticking around.

loveableleopardy (imported) wrote: Thu Nov 03, 2011 8:26 pm Eight legged balls, with wings!

I think you might have misinterpreted the word 'spaulders' (shoulder armour) as 'spiders'. Not that eighted legged balls with wings isn't an entertaining image.

Also, greg, that story of your was great, and goes a long way for me towards soothing my fears of how I could cope if I lost my package in an accident or something, even though the character in the story was in a different situation. I think as far as most men go, I'm one of the more mentally and emotionally well equipped young guys around to deal with that sort of injury, being caring, very sensitive, and not entirely focused on penetrative sex. That story really touched my heart and was exactly the sort of thing I was hoping for.

punkypink, that was a powerful story you directed me to, and it did make me feel better, but I think that is because I could see from reading it that I wasn't nearly as close to the edge as many of the people that come on here. I know that I don't want to be a eunuch and I'm certainly not in danger of making a rash decision and doing anything stupid. Being castrated to serve a sexual role would not be best for me, as I like to think about being sub and dom, and changing myself in a way that is so linked to submissiveness would prevent me from fully changing between the two roles. My fear is more that because of my interest in this fantasy, my reality will inevitably gravitate towards it. From the ages of 14, I was very attracted to, and fantasised about sex with other boys. I tried numerous times to stop fantasising about it, because the potential stigma of being bisexual was something I was afraid would ruin my life. It hasn't, but the inevitable march towards coming out was emotionally traumatic, and I would hate to have to go through the same thing in relation to castration. That being said, I can't live in the past, and this is not the same situation as my sexual orientation. So basically, I'm not afraid that I'll try to do anything to myself right now, I'm afraid I will inevitably want to one day.

I think this also has a lot to do with the way I use (or don't use) fantasies. When I fantasize, I almost invariably do so about things that I want to actually do in the future, or people I would really like to be with in real life. I generally think about my sex life in the way I would wish it to be, and I almost never fantasize about completely unrealistic situations. I think the reason for that is that in the past, I have felt that thinking about something unobtainable (or that realistically, I would not wish to obtain) is a fruitless exercise. It wasn't until this week that my friend really pointed out to me that I can fantasize for fantasy and enjoyment's sake. I'm also a budding writer, and fantasizing is really no different to telling myself a story. As you guys have pointed out, fantasy and reality are two very different things, and I can think about all sorts of things that I can't do in real life, and those are perfectly valid ways of getting off. I don't have to fear that my fantasies about castration are inevitably practice for the actual event.

There was also the fear that, with so many of the eunuchs on here raving about the benefits and about how it purged them of testosterone, that somehow my pride (for lack of a better word) in being a fully functional male was misplaced. Many talk about the emotional pain and embarrassment that their compulsive sexual behaviour caused them, and I can definitely relate to those feelings, although I see them as a challenge, not something I personally want to be rid of. I guess I was feeling that what is right for some men must be largely right for us all, and if being testosterone free and calm is so great for some men, maybe I was deluding myself by thinking that I could ever be the best person possible with my balls attached.

I'll post a bit more about what I think is underlying my fears later, but for now I'm going to go and figure out how to bake a castratable harem of gingerbread sissies.

'A Warning to Others' by 'Theotherside.'

Such a sad story. I don't know whether it's true, but I think it could easily be true. So sad.

justjustin (imported) wrote: Fri Nov 04, 2011 11:30 am 'A Warning to Others' by 'Theotherside.'

Such a sad story. I don't know whether it's true, but I think it could easily be true. So sad.

I know for a fact some of it is true, because I know the person who wrote it.

Punkypink, Did he die?