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I'm a 32 yo MWM. I've been obsessed with castration for about 2.5 years. It started when a patient came in and told the story of how a patient at the urology clinic she worked at kept missing his appointments for a bilateral orchiectomy, until his wife and his girlfriend brought him in, together. My wife knows, but doesn't support it.

Welcome curiousteve, It would be good that you read the stickys and browse in the forum the topics where you feel you better fit in. here there´s a big diversity, so you would need to do you homework, and you could also extend your background so we can give you better answers. do you want be physycally castrated and then take replacement? or do you want to be an eunuch? do you have some gender dysphoria? or posibly you have just a fantasy, finally I just can tell you that being without hormones It´s no so funny sometimes, howeverI have no regrets

I really don't know what I want. Except for the few seconds immediately following an orgasm, I am completely sure. I love my wife and that's the reason I don't pursue it more. For now my ideal would be to have the balls gone, scrotum maybe gone too. I still want to provide my wife what she needs, but she has been so stretched by birth and toys she doesn't really feel me anymore anyway. Sorry I'm at work. I'll fill in more on my profile later.

Welcome Steve, There is a lifetime of material to read here. I am sure we often go over the same old ground, but memeber here are always willing to help and advise or even listen

CuriousSteve (imported) wrote: Sat Feb 27, 2016 5:25 am I'm a 32 yo MWM. I've been obsessed with castration for about 2.5 years... My wife knows, but doesn't support it.

32 is way too young for your reasons, IMHO.

Steve, that's the way it starts out for many of us. It's an obsession that grows over time until you become so obsessed/possessed that you eventually follow through with it, which is what happened to me. You must stop now, turn from it before it's too late. Try to steer yourself away from the thought, the desire, before it overwhelms you and possesses you. I got to the point where I was so consumed, so immersed by the desire that I acted on it and was castrated. http://www.zentastic.com/pdf/meet-tommy-ebook.pdf That's me on page 173.

But I did not stop, after castration my obsession continued until I removed my penis. So now I'm a nullo, I have nothing, no genitals. For me it's good and my obsession is over simply because there's nothing more to remove and I'm happy. However, if you're frightened by the prospect of not having any genitals, then work on stopping your obsession because if you don't, it will grow and grow. You will end up getting castrated and possibly penectomized. So this is a warning to you and others. Obsessions can be overcome or at least you can steer yourself away from them if you really try. Focus on something else, something else you're passionate about, if you don't you will most likely pursue your castration desire to the full extent. I know everyone is different, but this archive proves how many of us were obsessed with castration and were castrated because of our obsession.

http://allwomenstalk.com/ways-to-get-ov ... -obsession

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/mr ... your-perso

I'm a long way off from having my penis removed, I don't know if I ever would or if I would ever be able to find a Dr willing to do it. It is an obsession though and I've tried going back to old fantasies, but it always comes back. I masterbate at least once maybe twice a day and have since before high school. The most I've ever done in one day was 5 times. I look at porn constantly on tumblr etc. I spend untold hours a day doing it and I know my wife gets annoyed because she has to do everything in the morning while I'm jacking off. I feel like this would be the best way to get her what she wants (a participating husband) and it would free up my time to workout and such.

CuriousSteve,

It sounds like you might lose your wife over your obsessive desire to masturbate. If you're spending hours a day on porn, your wife will eventually leave. It happens every day to lots of men. You might want to try chemical castration. Talk to your doctor, ask him or her to give you something to lower your sexual desire.

I don't think I'll loose her, but she doesn't like it. Sorry for the late reply. There's so much to read here. I just spent a day and a half reading the story of the lady who destroyed her husband penis and he got a penectomy.

I have had similar feelings about myself as you.

Mine go right back to when I was 13 (Puberty) and still feel the same about myself now (I'm 58).

As my problem goes back so far that it's a mental thing (I have read posts here that seem to fit the bill).

I have opted to living with the situation but if I woke up with them gone I would jump for joy.

On the plus side you could go under the knife then go on HRT.

A bit after your weekly T shot you will be horny as hell for the first day and your wife should be well satisfied (Well thats what I would tell her anyway).

Am I leading you astray?

Not at all, I have mixed feelings about doing something to hurt or get rid of them. I want it but I don't.

Share with your wife.

Mine is still married -I think happily- to this old eunuch.

Life is good, and sometimes we even discuss going to nullo. Sometimes she likes the idea, and sometimes not so much.

I suspect that you might be amazed at how good it feels to discuss these things. There is always a danger in things so close to the soul, but even these are so important to share. A life has many existences, if one is lucky. Go for the next stage in life if both of you are sure you want it.

Otherwise be very careful what you wish for.

We talk, she humors me and tells me she's going to take them or inject them as soon as we are done building a family. but it's never been serious.

Listen to her. Seems she wants a family. One of the best in life. After you've done your fathering, maybe you two can go on to the next stage, whatever that may be.

You want to be a eunuch, a fine thing. She wants a family, a fine thing. A little timing and candor are the way forward.

FWIW, I'm a dad, and nutless. Fortunately life worked out in the right order, and all are happy.

Hi Hash, thanks for your reply to Steve. I am in a similar situation, maybe even worse. I've been fixated / obsessed with castration since puberty and am now in my 40s. At times it dominates my thoughts and I am actively talking with a cutter who wants to castrate me as well as cut off my cock. I am playing with the idea and part of me knows its a crazy idea to let a cutter castrate me, and the other half of me is fixated on the thought that someone out there is willing to turn me into a eunuch, something I have long desired to be. I really have no idea where my fixation will lead, it causes me great stress as I can think of nothing else when masterbating or having sex. If only my partners knew, they would be shocked -- and its something I could never, ever share out of shame and embarrassment. I guess my question of the EA archives is has anyone with a long term castration fixation who is actively making plans for castration ever been able to let go of the desire or fixation? With me it comes and goes, but when it comes it comes on strong and I go from fantasy to actively seeking castration fairly quickly.

Eafictionwriter,

I see some flags maybe here! If you have shame and embarrassment now could you deal with reality of being a eunuch? Be sure you have a good understanding of the side effects even including depression and suicide. Maybe seek counseling and consider chemical castration methods first. Once gone they are gone for good which could be regretful or wonderful depending on state of mind. Best of luck on figuring out what is really meant for you.

Writer, I think if you have guilty feelings you are not ready.

Yes, be very careful what you wish for. Eunuch is good for me, but I have enjoyed many stages and adventures of life. Regret will not get pruned parts back.

In sort, no balls means no balls to see, and the loss of everything that depends on them, (Ok, there is HRT but YMMV). Permanent impotence, penis shrinking, maybe serious depression, anemia, osteoporosis, gynecomastia, body hair loss, all and more are possible and need a plan should they happen.

Read lots here, take advice and support here and be careful. Maybe it's for you, but first be sure.

daifu-orchid (imported) wrote: Thu Mar 10, 2016 11:10 am Yes, be very careful what you wish for. Eunuch is good for me, but I have enjoyed many stages and adventures of life. Regret will not get pruned parts back.

In sort, no balls means no balls to see, and the loss of everything that depends on them, (Ok, there is HRT but YMMV). Permanent impotence, penis shrinking, maybe serious depression, anemia, osteoporosis, gynecomastia, body hair loss, all and more are possible and need a plan should they happen.

Read lots here, take advice and support here and be careful. Maybe it's for you, but first be sure.

I understand everything you just said, nonetheless castration seems to be on my mind constantly, and thinking about it is the only way I can become aroused. And as time goes on the thought of an empty scrotum seems more and more like what I want. My guilt about castration has mostly to do with the fact I am fixated on it. It feels more and more inevitable that I will go through with it one day. For various health reasons chemical castration is not a viable option for me, so of I go through with this it will be surgical. Just wondering if anybody has gotten to my level of obsession to the point of actively making plans to be castrated, and then has decided not to do it and been happy. The castration desire is powerful, and I spend countless hours fantasizing about how I will get this done.

ea,

This isn't really an answer to your question, but I've often wondered if I had thought of my compulsive need to castrate myself in more general terms as an addiction to self harm that I may have had different results. I was cutting and burning, which are the two most common forms of self injury, but in my case it was focused on my genitals. There is a lot of information online on ways to deal with self injury, and maybe if I had just thought of my issues in those terms I could have gotten my mind off of castration.