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So I guess I should introduce myself, rather than just lurk?

I guess I identify as trans, though never sought medical aid to transition further, though I dream of it.

Never been tested if I am a eunuch, but all signs point to it. I have almost no libido, no feeling in the tiny nuts and it impossible to become erect, instead it just hardens a bit, but still remains spongy. And when I do have a rare orgasm from anal play, I dripple a few drops at most.

I am 40 now, but my current state was reached at a much earlier age. These days I realize what I did was stupid and dangerous, but I have no regrets. Due to dysphoria I hated my puberty, so I kinda punished myself by punishing the organs that should not be there. In particular I enjoyed banding, though at that point I did not know the name, just found out that I could numb the testicles by wrapping rubberbands tightly around them. Then I could take my anger out on them. Always did remove the bands after they became cold. But at some point I guess I did pass the point of no return. And I am really happy these days that I never turned into a hairy beast.

Welcome to a great website. You will find tons of information and lots of friendly members happy to answer your questions. Even us super hairy beasts who love being part animals lol.

cutnbulls2ox (imported) wrote: Sat Feb 08, 2020 4:02 am Welcome to a great website. You will find tons of information and lots of friendly members happy to answer your questions. Even us super hairy beasts who love being part animals lol.

Oh, as long as I am not the hairy beast myself it is fine. Don't mind others being hairy.

Thanks, I find hairy men a huge turn on myself.

Have you had your testosterone levels checked and a semen test done to see if your balls are functioning at all now ? Have they shrunk up or gone numb ?

You mention maybe thinking of taking a next step in your profile. Are you on here to find out which next step interests you the most ?

I guess I should have been clearer, my fault, you said you do have tiny numb balls now. I m wondering were your balls ever bigger and feeling in the past ? How long have they been tiny and numb ? Never grew to man size, or did get big and then got tiny ?

From what you are describing so far, it sounds like you are pretty much castrated and a eunuch now.

Never had them checked, always worried doctor would put me on T. They shrank in size and are still numb, I can squeeze and just feel it on the scrotum. Haven't really tested the semen, just know that the few drops leak out and look like transparent and watery.

cutnbulls2ox (imported) wrote: Sat Feb 08, 2020 4:19 am I guess I should have been clearer, my fault, you said you do have tiny numb balls now. I m wondering were your balls ever bigger and feeling in the past ? How long have they been tiny and numb ? Never grew to man size, or did get big and then got tiny ?

Never grew to man size, was probably the size of grapes back then. And yes, they were feeling, because the dull pain after I removed the band was a reminder that they had been punished. These days they are probably half that size. They have been that way for maybe 25 years.

cutnbulls2ox (imported) wrote: Sat Feb 08, 2020 4:16 am You mention maybe thinking of taking a next step in your profile. Are you on here to find out which next step interests you the most ?

Well, more to learn more about experiences, seems like a diverse crowd. My next step will be some hormonal treatment, but I am not sure if I want to go the full SRS route, I am wondering if it enough to satisfy my dysphoria if it is all removed and smoothed.

Some males never go through puberty because of hormonal problems. But it sounds like you did go through puberty with a very low testosterone output from your balls. And then your balls shrunk up more since your puberty. Your banding and nut busting probably prevented you from reaching full T levels and full masculinization and fertility at puberty. It sounds like you never had any kids and don t want any now ? Sterile semen is what you wanted ?

You re right. Most drs would offer you T teplacement if you wanted it. Sounds like you don t want more T or any sperm production now.

Yes, I think you will find men and eunuchs who have tried out just about every thing a male can try. The past forums and the non fiction articles will give you immense amounts of information from the males who have tried things in the past and how those worked out for them.

cutnbulls2ox (imported) wrote: Sat Feb 08, 2020 4:37 am Some males never go through puberty because of hormonal problems. But it sounds like you did go through puberty with a very low testosterone output from your balls. And then your balls shrunk up more since your puberty. Your banding and nut busting probably prevented you from reaching full T levels and full masculinization and fertility at puberty. It sounds like you never had any kids and don t want any now ? Sterile semen is what you wanted ?

You re right. Most drs would offer you T teplacement if you wanted it. Sounds like you don t want more T or any sperm production now.

No kids, never wanted any. And definitely do not want T or more semen, I am happy about that part. If I'm getting anything it would be E.

Guess what worries me most about SRS in the future is how there is really no material to work with

There are many nullos on here with both their penis and testicles and scrotums removed. You can ask them any questions you wish and read their past forum comments to learn more. You can also see which people on here have already done what you are interested in and ask them questions. People on here are very eager to answer your questions and help you make the best choices for your goals and desires.

Most males will tend to feminize in the absence of enough male hormones. If you add female hormones it might be possible to trigger a form of female puberty in some parts of your body, such as breasts enlarging on your chest long after male puberty is passed. That might help your sexual organs grow into more SRS helpful forms.

cutnbulls2ox (imported) wrote: Sat Feb 08, 2020 4:49 am Most males will tend to feminize in the absence of enough male hormones. If you add female hormones it might be possible to trigger a form of female puberty in some parts of your body, such as breasts enlarging on your chest long after male puberty is passed. That might help your sexual organs grow into more SRS helpful forms.

Definitely been feminized a bit by nature, got breasts/man boobs.

I don t know much about SRS or nullos. But many people on here do. If you look in the forums here, you will find a subject index which lists many different topics into groups of interest. Those can help you find the past posts and members on here who know the most about the things that interest you the most. And to find those members who have experienced what you seek.

Feel free to post any questions you have here on these forums and to private message any members. It takes 5 comments on these forums to allow you to private message on here. Our conversation has already fulfilled that for you now.

An SRS dr could examine your sex organs to determine if you have enough material to achieve the SRS that you might choose to aim for. I m guessing males have more than enough material to make an SRS because I think the testicles are never utilized in SRS. Your small penis could be more than most clits and maybe enough to make a vagina that can be stretched larger ?

Sorry my break time is over. I have to return to work. Welcome and enjoy exploring all of the great information and friendly members on this website.

cutnbulls2ox (imported) wrote: Sat Feb 08, 2020 5:05 am Sorry my break time is over. I have to return to work. Welcome and enjoy exploring all of the great information and friendly members on this website.

Thank you, I will

Welcome to a great forum.