My first nulloversary :)

[T van Keel]

Exactly one year ago I had my nullification surgery!

Somehow unbelievable how fast time flies. The first five months as a nullo were not too comfortable, as there developed a stricture quite immediately what caused lots of problems and required a revision. And these problems hindered me from leading a normal life quite a lot. But now everything is ok, despite of some minor aesthetic issues. And life is good now and I enjoy the smoothness down there every single day. No regrets and I can say that all my expectations became true. Really nice feeling!

[Nidaho Rachel (imported)]

Happy nulloversary! Glad that all your expectations came true. It's great that more people seeking nullification are able to receive the procedures they want.

[Losethem (imported)]

Exactly one year ago I had my nullification surgery!

Somehow unbelievable how fast time flies. The first five months as a nullo were not too comfortable, as there developed a stricture quite immediately what caused lots of problems and required a revision. And these problems hindered me from leading a normal life quite a lot. But now everything is ok, despite of some minor aesthetic issues. And life is good now and I enjoy the smoothness down there every single day. No regrets and I can say that all my expectations became true. Really nice feeling!

Congrats on your first full year as a nullo! I'm coming up on my sixth anniversary... I'd not have my cock back even if I could. I LOVE being a nullo!

You had the same complication I had. I'm sad I went through that as my original urinary opening after the penectomy was quite sensitive, but I have to be able to pee! So revision it was, but not with a lot of sensation. I can still have orgasms though, so not all is lost!

How are things with your life? Getting pleasure from your new body, all past the difficulties?

[T van Keel]

Thank you both!

It's really a little bit weird, as the lack of genitalia felt absolutely normal from the very first moment. It really seems that my brain was really born wether male nor female. I'm really a litte bit surprised that having no penis feels so normal, I never had such a deep feeling of being "normal" before the nullification. Strange, but true.

Quality of life improved a lot, especially after the revision of the reroute. I simply don't have to think all the time about how I could get rid of my parts down there anymore. That's a big relief. Touching myself is now more enjoyable, even though there is not much sensitivity left. The urinary opening (or the end of the uretra itself) is quite sensitive, and some litte area around the openings seems to be, too. In january I had almost an orgasm completely by accident, a few weeks later I tried it, but without any success. Seems I still didn't find the right spots or ways of stimulation. But that doesn't bother me much, as having less need for sexual activities was one of my goals. My libido is now way less than before the nullification, even though my testosterone level ist currently higher, but still within normal range.

All in all I'm very happy and enjoy the new body. You notice there's more space between the legs, but that's really comfortable. Activities like cycling benefit from that. So far I made no negative experiences. Removing the penis is a quite big barrier in your mind, but in my case it showed that living without a penis is not only possible, but even better. Penis and balls are superfluous or even disturbing in most situations of daily life, at least in my life.But keep in mind: ymmv!

[TopManFL (imported)]

Thank you both!

It's really a little bit weird, as the lack of genitalia felt absolutely normal from the very first moment. It really seems that my brain was really born wether male nor female. I'm really a litte bit surprised that having no penis feels so normal, I never had such a deep feeling of being "normal" before the nullification. Strange, but true.

Quality of life improved a lot, especially after the revision of the reroute. I simply don't have to think all the time about how I could get rid of my parts down there anymore. That's a big relief. Touching myself is now more enjoyable, even though there is not much sensitivity left. The urinary opening (or the end of the uretra itself) is quite sensitive, and some litte area around the openings seems to be, too. In january I had almost an orgasm completely by accident, a few weeks later I tried it, but without any success. Seems I still didn't find the right spots or ways of stimulation. But that doesn't bother me much, as having less need for sexual activities was one of my goals. My libido is now way less than before the nullification, even though my testosterone level ist currently higher, but still within normal range.

All in all I'm very happy and enjoy the new body. You notice there's more space between the legs, but that's really comfortable. Activities like cycling benefit from that. So far I made no negative experiences. Removing the penis is a quite big barrier in your mind, but in my case it showed that living without a penis is not only possible, but even better. Penis and balls are superfluous or even disturbing in most situations of daily life, at least in my life.But keep in mind: ymmv!

Hey @T van Keel,

First, congratulations. I know you did all the work before your surgery. Still, the possibility of regrets is still there for MtN surgery. I think that the effort you put in prior to surgery shows.

Kristoff would have to approve it. You write so well that I think an account based on "What it was like, what happened, and what it is like now" would make a great sticky note in the forums. So many people ask questions that you have the answers to and your experience, strength and hope would help.

Again, happy re-birth day.

TMFL

[kristoff]

Hey @T van Keel,

First, congratulations. I know you did all the work before your surgery. Still, the possibility of regrets is still there for MtN surgery. I think that the effort you put in prior to surgery shows.

Kristoff would have to approve it. You write so well that I think an account based on "What it was like, what happened, and what it is like now" would make a great sticky note in the forums. So many people ask questions that you have the answers to and your experience, strength and hope would help.

Again, happy re-birth day.

TMFL

I would be delighted if TVK wrote up such a biography, complete with social and personality issues, as well as the physical conditions. It would make a great reference article, and would certainly be worthy of being a "sticky" article. I encourage such writing.

[Valery_V (imported)]

Thank you both!

It's really a little bit weird, as the lack of genitalia felt absolutely normal from the very first moment. It really seems that my brain was really born wether male nor female. I'm really a litte bit surprised that having no penis feels so normal, I never had such a deep feeling of being "normal" before the nullification. Strange, but true.

Quality of life improved a lot, especially after the revision of the reroute. I simply don't have to think all the time about how I could get rid of my parts down there anymore. That's a big relief. Touching myself is now more enjoyable, even though there is not much sensitivity left. The urinary opening (or the end of the uretra itself) is quite sensitive, and some litte area around the openings seems to be, too. In january I had almost an orgasm completely by accident, a few weeks later I tried it, but without any success. Seems I still didn't find the right spots or ways of stimulation. But that doesn't bother me much, as having less need for sexual activities was one of my goals. My libido is now way less than before the nullification, even though my testosterone level ist currently higher, but still within normal range.

All in all I'm very happy and enjoy the new body. You notice there's more space between the legs, but that's really comfortable. Activities like cycling benefit from that. So far I made no negative experiences. Removing the penis is a quite big barrier in your mind, but in my case it showed that living without a penis is not only possible, but even better. Penis and balls are superfluous or even disturbing in most situations of daily life, at least in my life.But keep in mind: ymmv!

I join congratulations! Once I had similar feelings. And it is valid: "

Penis and balls are superfluous or even disturbing in most situations of daily life, at least in my life

". For example, being engaged in taekwondo I felt unpunished at a sparring:).

[keyman419 (imported)]

Exactly one year ago I had my nullification surgery!

Somehow unbelievable how fast time flies.

Congrats on your progress. Just passed 18 months for my nullification. Fortunately I had zero complications and I had some revision surgery about 5 months ago to make it more flat. I had liposuction to remove the mons pubis and it's way better. I may have a little more removed still. I have another consult with my plastic surgeon in just over a month and he's willing to take a little more yet. I'm still having electrolysis and I love the totally smooth skin with no stubble or hair.

Glad things are going well for you. Thanks for the update.

[NovaMike]

Happy Anniversary. I hope the coming years are even better than the first.

I am still working my way towards castration with a possibility of nullification in the future.

[T van Keel]

Thanks for all your congratulations!

[TgEunuch (imported)]

Congratulations on your 1st nulloversary!

It is very reassuring for those who wish to become a nullo to hear from nullos who live and love life as nullos!

[Sebastian.O (imported)]

Hello dear ones, my name is Ralph Olbrich and I live in Germany. I wish myself eagerly a total penectomy and can understand your happiness very well ��. I would like to congratulate you most sincerely. I am 56 years old and since 11 years my testicles loose and since 10 years my scrotum. This was done illegally at a cutter to the best. Now this stupid penis is still dangling around and you can't get rid of it that easily. I have tried in the context of a 18Monatigen therapy to get the necessary Documente unfortunately unsuccessfully. Now I want to go to San Francisco after the pandemic and of course I have a lot of questions. But first of all hello and a fantastic weekend wishes Ralph

PS I have this translated automatically because my English is terrible ��

[Losethem (imported)]

Hallo Sebastian.O,

Sie verfolgen Ihre Aufhebung genauso wie ich. Ich werde Ihnen nichts vorwerfen, wie Sie kastriert wurden. Ich bin froh zu hören, dass Sie die Dienste eines Arztes in Anspruch nehmen werden, um Ihre Penektomie durchführen zu lassen.

Welche Fragen haben Sie für uns alle?

--LT

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Hello Sebastian.O,

You are pursuing your nullification much the same way as I did. I will not fault you for how you were castrated, am glad to hear you will be seeing the services of a doctor to have your penectomy.

What questions do you have for all of us?

--LT

[T van Keel]

Hallo,

ich kann da LT nur weitgehend zustimmen, denn ohne Fragen kann man auch nicht helfen. Man kann auch in Deutschland die notwendigen Papiere für eine Operation bekommen, ich bin der lebende Beweis dafür. Also war es entweder nicht der richtige Therapeut, oder deine Motive für die Penektomie sind so weit weg von dem, was ein Therapeut mit ruhigem Gewissen gutheißen kann. Aber das sind lediglich Vermutungen.

TvK

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Hello,

I can only widely agree with LT, because you cannot help without questions. You can also get the necessary papers for a surgery in Germany, I am living proof of that. So either it wasn't the right therapist, or your motives for the penectomy are so far away from what a therapist with a clear conscience can approve of. But these are only guesses.

TvK

[Sebastian.O (imported)]

Hi, yes thank you very much for your answers and comments, I find it not so easy to get an appropriate letter in Germany and the therapist has been a very good one and has a good reputation Germany wide. I had honestly originally assumed that the fact that I no longer have testicles simplifies the possibility of surgery. The physical consequences are much greater than with a penectomy. My family doctor knows about everything and she also supports me. She also prescribes the necessary testosterone to prevent osteoporosis. After my therapist did not issue me the letter, I considered traveling to India for a short time, but I discarded it for various reasons. On the one hand, it is bad that people from rich countries travel to India to be operated on first class with low costs and the own population is medically undersupplied and on the other hand, it was somehow too adventurous for me. Now I have found out that in San Francisco exactly such a surgery is possible and I have made a request to Align Surgery as well as to Dr. Davis and unfortunately I do not get an answer. Maybe it is because of my bad English and the automatic translation and therefore they do not consider my request serious. I have also clearly written that yes, the pandemic must first be awaited before I can travel from Germany to the USA. I would like to know if it is possible to get the necessary letters on the spot and how long I have to plan my stay in San Francisco and what the op would cost approximately. I will definitely have to save up for this for a while. Maybe in the USA the fact that I no longer have testicles really simplifies things. It was a little crazy, on the last day of the session with my therapist, she told me clearly that she would not issue me the shrine and I told her that my urgent wish was unchanged and that I would therefore continue to try to have the operation. I find it really difficult that cosmetic surgery is not a problem at all and when we want to get rid of our penis and not just on a whim, but have dealt with it for years it is made so difficult. I am one hundred percent sure that I will be overjoyed when the penis is gone. I mean after that there will be visits to the doctor for other reasons, or hospital stays and then there will be whispering and laughing about the crazy one without genitals, I have also kept this in mind and remain rock solid with my desire. I look forward to your answers and wish you a happy weekend. Ralph

[T van Keel]

Sorry to hear about your story. Just a short answer, as I don't have much time at the moment. Do a Google search for "psychosomatische Medizin Mülheim". The first result should be more open to your wish, he wrote my letter. But his time schedule is also quite full, nevertheless I strongly recommend asking him.

[Losethem (imported)]

Hi, yes thank you very much for your answers and comments, I find it not so easy to get an appropriate letter in Germany and the therapist has been a very good one and has a good reputation Germany wide. I had honestly originally assumed that the fact that I no longer have testicles simplifies the possibility of surgery. The physical consequences are much greater than with a penectomy. My family doctor knows about everything and she also supports me. She also prescribes the necessary testosterone to prevent osteoporosis.

This should make it simpler to achieve penectomy in either the USA or Mexico.

After my therapist did not issue me the letter, I considered traveling to India for a short time, but I discarded it for various reasons. On the one hand, it is bad that people from rich countries travel to India to be operated on first class with low costs and the own population is medically undersupplied and on the other hand, it was somehow too adventurous for me. Now I have found out that in San Francisco exactly such a surgery is possible and I have made a request to Align Surgery as well as to Dr. Davis and unfortunately I do not get an answer. Maybe it is because of my bad English and the automatic translation and therefore they do not consider my request serious. I have also clearly written that yes, the pandemic must first be awaited before I can travel from Germany to the USA.

I'm surprised you have not received a response from Dr. Davis, he is usually very good at replying to inquiries. It could be your therapist letter situation, though I know he's provided consultation to those who have not had letters in the past, and has agreed to the surgery as long as the person gets their therapist letters.

I would like to know if it is possible to get the necessary letters on the spot and how long I have to plan my stay in San Francisco and what the op would cost approximately. I will definitely have to save up for this for a while. Maybe in the USA the fact that I no longer have testicles really simplifies things.

As stated above, I think the fact you are already castrated will help you along with a US based doctor who is helping people. However, you WILL need the therapist letters.

The doctor in Mexico will nullify a man with informed consent, meaning no letters, or letters received in Mexico during your visit. This doctor is, in fact, nullifying someone I know today (May 8, 2021). Most people I know who have gone to him have gone for only castration, keeping their penis. However, this doctor has offered to upgrade their surgery to a full nullification on the spot, and I'm sure for a higher fee. I would check with Doctor Aguilar in Mexico. (http://mexicotransgendercenter.com/nullification/) The surgery I've seen for nullification from him was very good, and the nullified man has reported satisfaction with the result.

[Sebastian.O (imported)]

Thank you very much for your answers, you have helped me super, I just asked for an appointment in Mülheim by mail. And maybe Dr. Davis will also answer. It's kind of crazy to have your testicles removed and not regret this procedure for ten years. For me it is a removal of the testicles and not a castration, because I have not castrated my body, but freed it. Dear T van keel, did you have the surgery done in Germany and did you have to pay for it yourself? I am glad about your answers, and thank you for your time and effort, kind regards Ralph

[T van Keel]

Yes, my surgery was done in Essen at the Universitätsklinikum. Unfortunately, I had to pay the whole procedure.

[Evolve]

I know I'm a bit late to the party, but CONGRATULATIONS

[Sebastian.O (imported)]

Hello dear T van Keel, thank you very much for your answer, although you actually have no time. I knew that the Essen clinic performs these operations, but it is great to know that my urgent wish could also be fulfilled in Germany. To be honest, I did not dare to hope for that. The practice in Mühlheim is currently closed for vacation, but it will open on 14.05. and I'll keep my fingers crossed that I get a first appointment. I have asked by mail and also very briefly outlined what it is about. I wish you all a pleasant start to the new week, best regards Ralph

[Valery_V (imported)]

As everything is difficult... I begin to understand why I am considered the lucky .

[T van Keel]

Hello Ralph,

usually Mr. L. responds quickly. But it is likely that you will have to wait several months for a first meeting, as he has a lot of other patients. If you have a detailed report on the 18 months of therapy, that would be very good, because that would probably make it much easier for Mr. L. to assess your case. In case you need help findig the right contact at the clinic, please let me know.

TvK

[RR_Randy (imported)]

I can confirm the positive experience with Dr. L.

He also wrote my therapist letter this winter with diagnosis non-binary.

I am now waiting for the confirmation of my health insurance that they will pay for zerodepth SRS.

And they have already put me on the waiting list for the operation in Essen.

[Sebastian.O (imported)]

Hello dear RR_Randy, hello dear T van Keel, thank you for encouraging words and dear RR_Randy I keep my fingers crossed that you do not have to wait much longer and if the health insurance pays would be of course very good, the fingers are crossed. Dear T van Keel, I still wanted to apologize to you for using this thread for my story, and of course your cause is worth at least a bottle of champagne. I wrote you a mail via the forum, but I don't know if it reached you, because there is no send folder, or am I too stupid? If the mail has not arrived, I would like to try it again . You all have a wonderful day, best regards Ralph