My Penectomy story from the hospital

[Mac (imported)]

This is my last post from the hospital. The doctor released me. I'm going home at 10 AM, hour and a half from now. He prescribed strong pain killers. I'm still quite sore and some bleeding. Will stop at some time. I must just keep everything clean and make use of salt baths.

Ok...let's see if I reached my goal at last. I will visit again to report.

All the best to everyone.

The best to you, too. K

eep us updated on your progress.

[YodaNell (imported)]

I'm back home since the morning. I'm in some real uncomfortable pain. Sure miss the morphine.

I uploaded some pics to MBM about my latest procedure. Urethra much closer to anus now.

http://malebodymods.com/index.php?do=/YodaNell/photo/

[SplitDik (imported)]

Yoda,

I used ethanol to remove my testicles, after that I went one step further and did the ethanol over 18mnth period into the two corpus of my penis. I was then diagnosed with Peyronie's and of course it got worse and worse to the point that I had also damaged the prudential nerves and had serious pain and urination problems. In the end I begged them to remove it so I could be in less pain. the last 6months was hell.. your way was much less painfull, I was thinking about doing the same as you but it would have been hard for me to hide a squashed penis for 2days.

take care.

Wow, I've tried ethanol injection in the penis twice and it was incredibly painful, although of course the duration is fairly short as it sort of quickly becomes a tingly warm numbness -- but the initial acute pain was too much to bear and I'm a pain slut. I don't know how you could have withstood repeated large injections. I'm impressed. I suppose that through numbing with banding it wouldn't be so bad though, but basically like you said -- anything impinging on the penile or pudendal nerves is going to make life hell.

[YodaNell (imported)]

OH!!!!!! I had a terrible experience last night. About 2:30 AM I went to the toilet and discovered I was bleeding profusely. I left a blood trail from my bedroom right up to the bathroom! Looked like someone has been shot and the victim crawled on the floor leaving a blood trail. Maybe 500 ml to 1 liter of blood!! I put a towel between my legs and got ready to go to the ER. I decided to wait for 30 minutes just to see if the bleeding would stop as I did not want to drive all the way to the ER only to find they telling my that I was paranoid. (The same thing happened to me when I had my tonsils removed 16 months ago). The bleeding did stop till now so I am writing this post with the towel still between my legs. Hope that does not happen again.

Anyway, I took pictures of my removed stump and pee-hole and uploaded it to MBM. Have a look.

http://malebodymods.com/index.php?do=/YodaNell/photo/

[YodaNell (imported)]

Congrats on the full removal of the penis. Regarding nipple removal...

WOW! Thanks SplitDik, I never thought of this method. Has anyone actually tried it? This will be my method of choice.

...so I keep going. At six hours, my good sense came back and I removed the bands -- it ended up with quite a lymphedema (raised swelling) for quite a while but eventually seems to have made a full recovery. But I really came close to going all the way. In the end, I don't think I want to lose it anymore, but I am highly interested in having it permanently numbed.

Awwww!! You should have left it on! Your penis was actually at the point of dying. You were so close. A few more hours and off to the ER where they would have removed your penis. Your penis should actually be permanently numb or very close, at least. This method is actually quite an easy way to get a penectomy. Strangle it and let professionals remove it.

[Hash (imported)]

A six hour banded penis that survived, wow splitdick. Did you use an ealastrator band(s)? I would have thought that after that length of time your penis would have died, but as Yoda said, the penis is tough. I wonder just how much longer you had before you passed the point of no return. I also think that after a certain stage, necrosis sets in and like what happened to you Yoda, the penis turns black after the bands are released. However, what if the band(s) are left on until the penis dies? I've read that the eunuchs in India actually use this method. Here's an excerpt:

On a day declared auspicious by the Guru, a thin but strong nylon thread is tied around the penis and scrotum separately after the person is under the influence of alcohol. He is kept under the influence of alcohol for three days. The thread is tightened at regular intervals and kept in place till the scrotum and penis slough off. It usually takes two to three days.

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2721615/

It doesn't say when the genitals actually die, but it takes two to three days for them to fall off (slough off). I would guess that the elastrator band would cause cell death at about 8 hours, but I'm not sure. Sure not the way to go, but interesting.

[Mac (imported)]

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Anyway, I took pictures of my removed stump and pee-hole and uploaded it to MBM. Have a look.

http://malebodymods.com/index.php?do=/YodaNell/photo/

I can't view your pictures as I don't have access to MBM.

[YodaNell (imported)]

I can't view your pictures as I don't have access to MBM.

Hi Mac...it's a pity we cannot upload pictures to this Archive. This lack forces us to seek other forums to upload it to. a Real pity.

I'd even be willing to pay $20 a year for this service.

[derlongus (imported)]

Yoda,

though I have access to MBM, I cannot see any photos following that link.

I am actually recovering from a multiple banding session last week; numb now since 10 days.

The last time I injected ethanol into my penis, I ended up in ER, because I did not put it deep enough and the external shaft tissue died. Was an issue for 6 weeks and left permanent scars.

I doubt, that I will ever reinject ethanol into the shaft.

[YodaNell (imported)]

Yoda,

though I have access to MBM, I cannot see any photos following that link...

Can you see my profile? I just clicked on the link above and went straight to the pics.

[Yman (imported)]

No. Right now it says "YodaNell has not uploaded any photos yet."

[Losethem (imported)]

Generally I do not comment about the function of MBM here as this is not MBM, but since it is being mentioned I'll provide a clarification. We are just two guys running a MODERATED site. This means that photos and videos are not available the instant you upload them - they go into a queue for our review, editing, and moderation before they become visible to the members. Some things do not make it out of moderation, generally photos that are nearly duplicates of other photos in the same or a prior submission, or photos that are off topic.

When something is in the moderation queue, moderation normally occurs once a week on either Thursday or Friday evening around 8:00PM/20:00 in California, USA. For many of you that would mean the following day past what I mentioned as we're nearly the last place in the world to advance to the next day.

I have made an exception to this today. The photos mentioned here are now moderated and available.

--LT

MBM Content MODerator

[Hash (imported)]

I uploaded some updated pictures of my reroute and current penis condition on MBM. My penis has shrunk to less than 1/4 of it's previous self. I was only average size, a little under 6 inches erect, now erections are a thing of the past and my penis is about an 1 1/2 inches unless I stretch it. If I stretch it, it becomes a thin ribbon of flesh. Worthless.

Certainly it has to do with my low, low testosterone levels, about 90-120 ml's these days compared to most intact males which range from 300-1000 on average. I'm just a little over real castrate levels, which are about 30-60 mls. Abuse also has decreased my penile size, I'm sure. My penis girth is so small at times that it's only a little larger than a penny in diameter and if I squeeze it, it's about as flat as a penny.

[YodaNell (imported)]

Generally I do not comment about the function of MBM here as this is not MBM, but since it is being mentioned I'll provide a clarification. We are just two guys running a MODERATED site. This means that photos and videos are not available the instant you upload them - they go into a queue for our review, editing, and moderation before they become visible to the members. Some things do not make it out of moderation, generally photos that are nearly duplicates of other photos in the same or a prior submission, or photos that are off topic.

When something is in the moderation queue, moderation normally occurs once a week on either Thursday or Friday evening around 8:00PM/20:00 in California, USA. For many of you that would mean the following day past what I mentioned as we're nearly the last place in the world to advance to the next day.

I have made an exception to this today. The photos mentioned here are now moderated and available.

--LT

MBM Content MODerator

Thank you LT...you guys are great.

[YodaNell (imported)]

I uploaded some updated pictures of my reroute and current penis condition on MBM. My penis has shrunk to less than 1/4 of it's previous self. I was only average size, a little under 6 inches erect, now erections are a thing of the past and my penis is about an 1 1/2 inches unless I stretch it. If I stretch it, it becomes a thin ribbon of flesh. Worthless.

Certainly it has to do with my low, low testosterone levels, about 90-120 ml's these days compared to most intact males which range from 300-1000 on average. I'm just a little over real castrate levels, which are about 30-60 mls. Abuse also has decreased my penile size, I'm sure. My penis girth is so small at times that it's only a little larger than a penny in diameter and if I squeeze it, it's about as flat as a penny.

O Hash...I think you can now get your penectomy at last...using a nail trimmer!

No seriously...you are 95% nullo...come join the brotherhood.

[Hash (imported)]

Yoda, I agree, but again,

timing has to be right. I don't

live alone, I'm moving, and what's the best method since you could die if you just cut it off? I did some banding today, only 1/2 hour, but I'm as numb as a??? I don't know, but I can't feel anything. Only took the bands off because of the pain. I really don't want to go to the ER. Might go back and beg my urologist, we'll see. How are you doing now? Any sexual stirring? Do you think orgasms are a thing of the past now? Hash

[YodaNell (imported)]

Yoda, I agree, but again,

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timing has to be right. I don't

live alone, I'm moving, and what's the best method since you could die if you just cut it off? I did some banding today, only 1/2 hour, but I'm as numb as a??? I don't know, but I can't feel anything. Only took the bands off because of the pain. I really don't want to go to the ER. Might go back and beg my urologist, we'll see. How are you doing now? Any sexual stirring? Do
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you think orgasms are a thing of the past now? Hash

Yeah Ok Hash...I can see that you American guys are just as mortified going to the ER as a prostitute going to church. Fortunately our hospital staff here are much more friendly and understanding. SRS operations are quite common here so that that AND our gay rights etc, created a much more open minded community...largely.

Me??...hell I wish the darn pain can end now. It gets progressively better as the days go by, but presently, as I stand on my feet (or sit on a chair) it feels that I'm going to go into child birth. I'm scared that the pressure of my body on the stitches will cause them to rip open. I'm taking morphine-like capsules, but they are not as potent as real morphine. Very minor bleeding still. Urinating is getting better.

Hash, I got rid of my stump to totally rid myself of physical sexual stimuli. This morning I rubbed some Emla cream on my left nipple to ascertain whether it will go numb enough to cut off. The rubbing alone almost brought me to orgasm...I mean, I felt the most amazing sensation between my legs! The sensation felt as if it came from my removed stump, only, it's not there anymore. When I stopped rubbing my nipple, the pulsing sensation just kept on going for another minute or so. Somewhere around my anus I felt an erection...probably the very last bit of my penis and that erection caused severe pain. I think there must be sutures at the end of it where they decided the stump must be cut off.

So......might I be able to orgasm now by just mind stimulation. I don't know, but after the pain is gone and I'm healed, I'm going to find out. Presently, it would appear that nullification to rid oneself of sexual stimulated input is a waist of effort for if I can still be brought to orgasm after I'm healed (and nipples removed) I could just as well have kept my genitals.

[SplitDik (imported)]

A six hour banded penis that survived, wow splitdick. Did you use an ealastrator band(s)? I would have thought that after that length of time your penis would have died, but as Yoda said, the penis is tough.

First of all, after a lifetime of seriously abusing my genitals, I have to believe we were designed/evolved specifically to withstand such damage.

Yes, I used elastrator bands. I often band up to two hours with only numbness being a lasting effect and no obvious permanent damage. This one time I went six hours it was quite different -- basically a hard ring formed inside (under the skin) around the shaft. I think it was called a lymphedema -- basically a build up of lymph fluid that the body sends to a damaged location. It was present for quite a while, so not just a bruise or standard swelling. It was quite hard and in exact location of the band. Secondly, different than normal banding when feeling finally returned a couple weeks later it was incredibly painful. Like so painful I thought I was going to have to go to the hospital to get an anesthetic injection.

So it was definitely on the verge of permanent damage I think, but also it was tough and at this point seems to generally have recovered.

One thing to think about -- the penis flesh is designed to go long periods with little blood flow. When flaccid, it really doesn't get much blood or oxygen. We're designed to get nocturnal erections for exactly that reason -- it really needs to get strong blood flow/pressure once per day. And of course guys with erectile difficulty don't even get that -- although it is well documented that lack of erections will cause atrophy of the internal structures. Anyway, I'm saying that penis can take extended periods (days) of low blood flow and I think that translates to at least 12 hours of fully restricted blood flow.

Note further though, that while the penis shaft is resilient the penis skin does require normal blood flow. So a danger with banding is that you lose all the skin but internal shaft isn't damaged. In fact many guys who get their dick stuck in a ring or such end up with their penis being skinned but otherwise working.

[YodaNell (imported)]

First of all, after a lifetime of seriously abusing my genitals, I have to believe we were designed/evolved specifically to withstand such damage.

This is exactly what I said in my very first post in this thread. The bugger just won't die!

One thing to think about -- the penis flesh is designed to go long periods with little blood flow. When flaccid, it really doesn't get much blood or oxygen.....

How interesting...I never thought of this before.

Anyway, I'm saying that penis can take extended periods (days) of low blood flow and I think that translates to at least 12 hours of fully restricted blood flow.

This is also true. After two days of banding by penis, it still looked pink. I actually thought that I was unsuccessful at strangling my penis to death. I do not know exactly how long it takes for the penis to die but 24 hours should do it. I gave it an extra day just to make sure.

Note further though, that while the penis shaft is resilient the penis skin does require normal blood flow. So a danger with banding is that you lose all the skin but internal shaft isn't damaged. In fact many guys who get their dick stuck in a ring or such end up with their penis being skinned but otherwise working.

I was afraid that this might have happened in my case. The doc said they are going to explore my penis in the OR (debridinig) and give me a skin graft...which I refused. Fortunately I had the band on for a lot longer so my TOUGH internals also died!. I'm glad I did that otherwise I would have gotten a penis with a new skin. "If it's worth doing...it's worth overdoing."

[YodaNell (imported)]

I'm beginning to feel better. Still some pain...mostly when I sit in a car or chair.

I have had a phantom stump until yesterday. It felt weird...exciting and scary. It actually felt that my stump was still present. I could feel it twitch with excitement when I touch my nipples. That twitching actually caused physical pain on my sutures! Can you believe that. But when I try to touch the stump...it's not there! Weird feeling. I do believe that that phantom could bring me to orgasm, and it almost did, but it started to hurt too much on my operated field. Now the phantom is gone and I feel kind of sad about it, because I wanted to explore this new sensation after I healed up a bit. I think my brain re-wired itself...if that is possible within 10 days. It does, however, feel fantastic to reach 'down there' and everything is gone...no penis...I love that feeling! It would be nice to orgasm once a while...but if it's not to be, it really will not bother me. There are a million other amazing sensations in that area which a person with genitals will never experience. I love being a nullo.

[YodaNell (imported)]

It seems that I'm having progressively less sexual stimulus 'down there' as I'm healing. I don't know whether I should laugh with joy, or cry!! I think those extremely pleasurable sensations I felt after my operation came from the phantom stump, which I don't feel anymore.

I know I don't want sexual pleasure and orgasm anymore, but as my phantom stump had such pleasurable sensations, I guess I was kind of looking forward to one final orgasm. Kind of like a smoker who wants to quit smoking but just wants one last cigarette; only to find the pack is empty.

Still...on to business.

Pain level is about 3/10. Going to see the doc tomorrow for my first follow-up.

[Mac (imported)]

Hang in there.

[YodaNell (imported)]

I just came from a follow-up visit to my Plastic Surgeon. Everything looks ok except for one suture at the urethra that came loose. Nothing serious according to him. I must just continue to apply the antibiotic ointment to the area. I must see him again in 14 days.

I have almost zero percent sexual feeling down there. I wonder if it is due to the fact that my T levels might be too low? Pain is almost gone.

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

Congratulations. Seems just what you wanted?

You raise a fine question: what does T-level do to how you feel about being a nullo?

-I would expect low T would mean little sexual feeling, but with a "regular" T-level, then what?

Hope everything feels and looks good soonest.

[YodaNell (imported)]

Congratulations. Seems just what you wanted?

You raise a fine question: what does T-level do to how you feel about being a nullo?

-I would expect low T would mean little sexual feeling, but with a "regular" T-level, then what?

Hope everything feels and looks good soonest.

I take a little bit of T every Monday (1 CC). This amount also gives me some energy in the gym. It also makes me somewhat horny.

During my stay at the hospital, I did not inject any T. I only injected again three day ago.

So I was wondering if skipping one injection will cause my levels to drop so much that I do not feel horny at all. Even now I feel low libido.