My Penectomy story from the hospital

[YodaNell (imported)]

I just read this statement from Paolo back in 2002:..."As the old saying goes, when you talk to God, it's called prayer. When God talks back to you, it's called mental illness."

This is excellent!

[YodaNell (imported)]

sir. even I send a message through email but I think it hardly reached. I want to ask you about what type of job you have created and how you have take analgesics in destructing your pennies . and what are the analgesics? even I also tried a method to destruct my pennies but I failed as it was improper. thus after that I straight way go and ask an urologist for penectomy but as usual he refuses, cause I have not any cancer and also not having any disorder. my reason is of religious belief. sir would you tell me more and easy ways to destruct pennies which are not much painful.

looking forward your answer...

Hi, we all have problems getting medical professionals to perform castrations and penectomies done at request. The ONLY way to get them to do it, is to cause significant damage to it as to force the doctors to remove it...or...remove it yourself (which I definitely do not recommend for various reasons)

How to damage your penis?:

I told you in the first thread how I did mine. You can read on these boards (and online on the NET) how to damage your penis. You have to figure this out for yourself because no-one on these boards will accept responsibility for your actions. We do not condone anyone to harm themselves in this way, but if you do decide to do it, be prepared that many things can go wrong (including clotting, bleeding, shock, psych ward, infection). Although there are success stories here (including myself), there were guys here that never returned to this forum after attempting penectomies.

I was so sick of having my penis attached to my body that I was willing to accept the dangers involved in what I was about to do. When I destroyed my penis , I used aspirin to prevent blood clots. I was scared and shacking at times (like cold shivers) but this was totally manageable. Two days later, I had the option of cutting the penis off myself (it had NO feeling in it), or go to ER.

Cutting it off myself:

It would be easy. It would be like clipping a finger nail. I would be spared the embarrassment of facing doctors and nurses. Problems could be bleeding. I did not have any suturing kits. Infection could set in. They could possibly find the penis and reattach it if I go into shock and the doctors send the police to my apartment to find my penis. Should I succeed, the result will not be what I want. I wanted to look smooth and have not one millimeter of penis on my body.

Going to ER:

It is safe. Professional treatment. Antibiotics. Proper penectomy and urethral reroute (looks good...eventually). They did sent a shrink to my room, but I managed her well. The doctors and nurses were actually very cool.

My approach did present the possibility of severe infection (sepsis). I waited six hours before going to the ER. My penis turned black as coal (

http://malebodymods.com/index.php?do=/YodaNell/photo/

view/7-jpg-52/) and dead blood was circulating through my body. This is the only real concern for anyone attempting to do what I did. The risk is yours!

My advice is to:

1) Try to get a professional to do it...even if you have to travel.

2) Destroy your penis and go to ER. Be prepared to die in the process.

3) Leave it alone if you do not have the compelling unrelenting urge and desire to be without a penis. It is very permanent and the novelty will wear off.

Good luck with your decision.

[sumit0000 (imported)]

does banding of penis really help in numbing it? and for how many hours I should kept to do it? and sir what type of bands we have to use? mainly what I think is, bands which are coming with elastrator. since I have seen its photo on net. surely be that types of bands only.

[YodaNell (imported)]

does banding of penis really help in numbing it? and for how many hours I should kept to do it? and sir what type of bands we have to use? mainly what I think is, bands which are coming with elastrator. since I have seen its photo on net.surely be that types of bands only.

Yes, use an elastrator with one or two bands. Keep it on for as long as you can bear the pain.Make sure you have a proper clipper to remove the bands or you'll be stuck with it around your penis. The result could be INTENSE pain forcing you to go to the ER for removal (which presents it's own problems). For safety, take an aspirin the day before and the day you band just to minimize the possibility of forming a clot. Be advised that after some time of banding, the penis (in most cases) does not stay numb for long anymore. In my case my penis could not get numb from banding an hour or when the pain became too much to bear.

May I ask, is your desire to be without a penis a fantasy or do you really need for it to be off. Remember, hurting or removing your penis will really frustrate you once it is useless or gone. Do proper introspection before attempting something so permanent.

[YodaNell (imported)]

So guys, today at 14H00 I'm having my gastric bypass surgery. It's been a great ordeal to get to this point but the time has finally arrived.

Pray for me!

[Losethem (imported)]

I wish you the best my friend. My mother had it and she is now half the size she once was, and she's lost her blood pressure medication, is backing off her diabetes meds, and all sorts of good things.

I hope you have a similar positive outcome. Good luck!

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

So guys, today at 14H00 I'm having my gastric bypass surgery. It's been a great ordeal to get to this point but the time has finally arrived.

Pray for me!

We do, and wish you all the best. Many folks have had great benefit from the bypass. Hope it is all you wanted.

Tell us when you're ready.

[YodaNell (imported)]

So I'm 11 days post-op. Gastric Bypass Surgery went well. I have 5 small incisions in my abdomen where the surgeon inserted his Laparoscopic instruments. Boy...3 bites of food and I'm STUFFED!! I'm now on stage 2 of the diet which is purified food (like baby food). Boy, do I miss eating normal food. I have lost 6kg so far.

[Dave (imported)]

I've had two friends go through gastric bypass or banding. It takes a while to get used to eating small amounts and feeling satisfied. By that I mean that if you crave something, eat a portion of it, even if that portion is a mouthful. Create a diet that satisfies your needs and then stick to it.

I have a tummy that hates most food (I'm allergic to chocolate, all fish, corn, sugars, egg yolk, Lactose intolerance so no milk, and all those groovy hot spices to name most of it. There might be other stuff I can't eat but I've given up trying.) So I create dinners that are tasty for the tongue, crunchy because the mouth craves crunchy and sometimes sugary sweet because we all crave sweets. I cook for myself and as a result I buy premium food and only that. One portion of steak. One portion of chicken. One portion of veggies. I never cook more than that. I don't snack, either. I do eat a couple pretzels late at night if I get the urge. Not the high fat potato chips or those flavored silly things. . . Sometimes If I want lamb and I know that I can't get it ,there is a restaurant that serves great lamb and that is where I go.

That's how I handle my diet.

[YodaNell (imported)]

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there is a restaurant that serves great lamb and that is where I go.

That's how I handle my diet...

O Dave, I just LOVE lamb. For me, there's no better meat. Next is Pork then Chicken after that fish and lastly beef.

[Dave (imported)]

O Dave, I just LOVE lamb. For me, there's no better meat. Next is Pork then Chicken after that fish and lastly beef.

Sorry to wander a tiny bit off topic but take Julia Child's beef bourguignon recipe and substitute lamb. Heaven with leftovers.

[YodaNell (imported)]

Sorry to wander a tiny bit off topic but take Julia Child's beef bourguignon recipe and substitute lamb. Heaven with leftovers.

It does look divine. I like the idea of 3 glasses of red wine and bacon. Substituting the beef with lamb will be even better! Damn...I will not be able to enjoy such a meal for many months to come, that's torture!

[YodaNell (imported)]

So today is my fourth anniversary being a nullo. Still happy with the decision...no regrets.

[greyson2809 (imported)]

congrats for the no regrets,YodaNell!good to know that you are enjoy being nullo and sharing with us.Happy 4th nullo's rebirth for you!

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

So today is my fourth anniversary being a nullo. Still happy with the decision...no regrets.

Good to know that you continue to enjoy the nullo life. Congratulations!

It was only a one-liner post, but so important. There was the question here of whether the desire to get nulled was just a desire for the process or a desire for the result. Seems your post could not be clearer, at least for you.

(It seems possible to me that some who desire the transition, need to consider carefully living with the result, or regret not happiness is inevitable.)

Hope the weight is going to plan too; not as easy thing either.

[Mac (imported)]

So today is my fourth anniversary being a nullo. Still happy with the decision...no regrets.

Time sure goes by fast.

[SplitDik (imported)]

It saddens me to report that my amputated nipples have grown back...almost like a lizard's tail. Has this happened to anyone else?

I will post pics on MBM.

Actually, this happened to me. I had fully removed both nipples using alcohol injection. They turned black, hard and I was able to pull them off so there was an actual indent where they used to be. About two years later and they've grown back!

[YodaNell (imported)]

Actually, this happened to me. I had fully removed both nipples using alcohol injection. They turned black, hard and I was able to pull them off so there was an actual indent where they used to be. About two years later and they've grown back!

Darn disappointing. I'm going to ask my surgeon to remove them properly.

[YodaNell (imported)]

GREETINGS EVERYONE!!!!! IT'S DONE AT LAST!!!

OK, so on Sunday 26th July I had enough. I injected my right nipple area with Lignocane. I took a box cutter and cut my right nipple of right around the edges of the areola. There was a wound 2cm in diameter. It did not bleed heavily, but the bleeding did not stop after compressing the wound for about an hour. So I went to the ER, spun them some BS story. The doctor injected adrenaline (to constrict the wound's arteries), and some more Lignocane to numb the area. The doc said that she cannot suture the wound and that I'll have to make an appointment to see my Plastic Surgeon to close the wound by skin grafting. I don't understand this as I have seen pictures and videos on the internet where guys cut their nipples off and suturing the wound. Anyway, the next day I made an appointment to see my Plastic Surgeon. He was the guy who also removed my penile stump last year.

My plastic surgeon inspected the area and we arranged for the left nipple and areola to be amputated as well and both wounds to be closed by suturing it. I asked him to do the procedure in his office and not the hospital theatre to minimise costs. So about a week later I laid on the operating bed/table in his office. He took a bag filled with one litre liquid (looks like those saline bags when they put a drip on your arm). He injected three different kinds of liquids into that bag. I guess one of those liquid injection was the numbing agent. While the doc did that, the assistant cleaned my chest area and placed green sterile cloth exposing only the nipple areas.

The doc came to me and took some kind of blue pen and drew two shapes around my nipple areas. The shapes he drew was in the shape just like the shape when one will draw a Chinese eye. The doc brought that bag filled with four different liquids. He took a syringe with a thick-ish needle (about 10 cm long) and filled it with that solution in the bag. He injected the nerve close to my right arm pit. Did not really hurt. Anyway he injected the whole one litre bag of solution into my two nipple areas. My chest inflated like a balloon. He waited about 10 minutes and started amputation of my left nipple. He took the scalpel and slowly cut following the blue shapes he drew. The assistant helped by using a tweezer-like instrument. He had to use the cauterising instrument quite a lot to cauterise the bleeding veins. So he amputated my left nipple (areola and all), and amputated whatever was left of my right nipple wound...cauterising as he went along. He sutured both wounds, and dressed it with plaster dressings. The assistant gave me my amputated specimens inside a small plastic container, I thanked them and went home. At home I took pictures of the specimens and placed it inside my famous genital jar.

The left wound is healing well, but my right one started to pain fiercely 12 hours later. My right chest area swelled and turned red. I went to the ER and they told me that the whole right wound area got inflammation. The put a drip in my arm with pain killer and anti-biotic. They gave me anti-biotic and probiotic tablets to take home. Three days later

I went to my Plastic Surgeon for my

follow-up visit. He took the dressing off my right wound (Oh! which was horrible looking with yellow, red and white goo). He squeezed the wound and LOTS of puss oozed from the sutured wound (sorry guys, I know this sounds disgusting!). It hurt like hell as he did it but he said he HAD to void the wound from this puss. When that was done, he placed a silver coated gauze as a drain between the suture. I almost kicked his teeth out as he did THAT! He took a large plaster dressing and covered the wound.

OK...so I went for follow-up visits every three days or so in order for him to squeeze and dress the wound. Today the wound is almost free from puss and inflammation. It's looking much better. The left wound is healing very well.

So, my journey to rid myself from my genitals and nipples is finally realised. MAD!...I don't know. It's just something I wanted so badly and now my soul can rest. I have quite a lot of pictures but I'm having difficulty paying MBM their $10 as PayPal for some reason refuse the payment...but I will sort it out and then I will place the pics on MBM.

Just for interest sake, I asked my Plastic Surgeon if he will consider "building" me labia down their...not a vagina an all...just labia for aesthetic reasons and maybe he can enhance that little clit he built me last year. He admitted making that clit. I asked him if I'm mad and if there is something wrong with me but he said I'll be surprised how many guys came to him for the same reasons...I mean straight guys who want a vagina. He said I was normal and that human sexuality is a vastly complex subject. So, I might consider to do it next year...but I'm not in a hurry...it will just be for fun to feel that between my legs.

Very interesting!

[Losethem (imported)]

Yodanell,

You've been a loyal user of MBM for a long time, and you've contributed a lot of great content. I've resolved your issue for you. If you go over there now, you'll find your ability to upload and view photo and video material has been restored. For Free. Indefinitely.

You're welcome.

Thanks for your continuing contributions to MBM, I greatly appreciate it.

--LT

[YodaNell (imported)]

Losethem...I JUST GAVE YOU THE BIGGEST KISS AND HUG EVER RECEIVED BY A HUMAN!!!

Thanks a lot. You Rock! ~

[YodaNell (imported)]

Thanks to LT my pics are now uploaded to MBM. After LT moderate it you can view it.

BTW...I had my Gastric Bypass Surgery in February this year. My weight came down from 145Kg to 99Kg weighed this morning! All this in about 6 months.

[Losethem (imported)]

Yodanell,

Congrats on the weight loss! Also, your photos are moderated and available. The video will take a bit as I'm applying the watermark. Maybe this weekend before I get to it.

Thanks!

--LT

[YodaNell (imported)]

Happy new year my friends. I hope 2016 will be a prosperous year to you all, in all shapes and forms.

Regarding my nullification, I am still very happy and still do not regret it at all. In fact, It's not even part of my thought process anymore. Allow me to make a statement. I discovered that nipples have a lot more role playing in a man's sexuality that one might realise.

Before I had my nipples removed, I still wanted to orgasm at times. I would look at a woman and still admire that beautiful creature. Then I amputated my nipples...only the actual nipple...not the areola part. Same story. I would look at a beautiful creature and, not necessarily wanted sex, but orgasm at least. And I was able to orgasm if I wanted to. So, as mentioned in my previous post above, I had my WHOLE nipples, including the fatty tissue, removed.

This is my point. As my nipple wounds healed, my desire for orgasm became less as time went on. Today I have had not any sexual desire in any form since my operation. So I think, nipples MUST play a far greater role in sexual desire than before. I have no sexual feeling in my chest area and I feel totally sexually numb between my legs.

I BELIEVE I'VE REACHED MY GOAL! I'M NOT SEXUAL ANYMORE AND THE NIPPLE WAS THE SECRET.

Regarding my Gastric Bypass Surgery. I have lost LOTS of weight. I came from 145kg to 93kg! Some people are not happy as they don't like my new look. They say my face is falling apart with extra skin. But, I don't care. I'm not diabetic anymore and my blood pressure I normal So, I could not be more ecstatic!

PS. Just wondering, does anyone know the secret how to brew a potion to remove ugly nipple scars?

[YodaNell (imported)]

Boy, it's amazing how time flies. It's 5 years that I am a nullo! Feels like yesterday.