I just want to report to you (and especially Christians who seeks freedom from sexual lust) that I have achieved my goal!!!!!!
It is propably a year now that I have ZERO interest in human sexuality! I FEEL NOTHING! I look at woman (and a man) and have ZERO sexual arousal/feeling/lust. I have ZERO desire for orgasm/sexual tension release. PG!!!! I feel like an angel...a sexless being who are not sexually identity-wise a male, female or even eunuch. I am a-sexual in it's greatest form. A sexless being....AND I LOVE IT!!! I havn't orgasmed for ages!
How did I achieve it. Well, I believe that God played a vital role in this BUT natuarally, body chemistry and "impulse response" had a major role in this.
In my attempt to achieve this, this was the sequense I took:
1) Got castrated
2) Got penectomized (still no success) so;
3) Attempted to castrate my mind through meditation/prayer/suppresion of sexual thoughts and looking away from sexual stimulus...(it helped, but sexual feelings still present), so;
4) Stopped Testosterone totally. I only used to take a little bit to keep fatique and hot flushes at bay...but too hell with that...so I STOPPED T TOTALLY! For long time now. (It helped, but there was still sexual FEELINGS down there...in the nerves), so;
5) I discovered that one's nipples plays a vital role in this. I think there is a major nerve that joins the nipples to the genitals. I know you will understand this. So...after amputating my right nipple (aeriola included), I asked my Plastic Surgeon to remove both my nipples properly...yes my right one as well. The idea was to cut away a major portion of the nerve bundle of both nipples, which I did not achieve when I removed my right nipple myself.
Now, a few months after I healed from my nipple amputation procedure, I have obtained my goal. I do believe that my brain rewired itself and I am now like a persone born without a sexual "department"! I tested this by taking 100mg T once a week in September and still NOTHING! NOTHING can stimulate me to get aroused and interested in sex! I feel NOTHING!
WOW! I am joy overjoyed not to be controlled by this freakin' libido again.
Now I can focus on more important things like my faith and job...and not getting primal wanting to hump another human being like at little bitch (dog) running in the street with 10 lusting, drooling male dog all competing to hump her!
I AM FREE...AT LAST!!!
To my Christian brothers who desires this...It is possible to achieve this! It took me 11 years (mostly due to doctors retarding the proccess) to achieve this...but all praize to God, it IS possible.!!!!!
Just thought I should let you know.
Keep well my friends...ALL OF YOU ON EA!
Y.