ready to face penectomy

[kyaaseunuch (imported)]

I have wanted my penis cut ever since hearing about Lorena Bobbit back in 1993. I started masturbating at 12 in 1994 and it now has become very chronic. Over the years i have tried to cut my penis off myself but couldn't go through with it. Finally after many years i came in contact with a Domme from youtube Princess Nicole aka SpoledPrincess. After many years of foot fetishism, i do jack off to feet and toilet fetish i contacted Princess Nicole. We did talk about cutting my dick off but starting a new job prevented anything of that happening. However Princess did satisfy my foot fetish and toilet fetish by allowing me to purchase her toenail clippings and a bottle of her piss. When the package arrived i ate the toenail clippings and drank the piss. Fast forward 2years and I got connected with Streamate and a youtube and nightflirt sensations. Candee and Goddess Kyaa. Neither of them worked out. I even had a date of March 4, 2012 to have my penis cut off. Finally I came in contact with Goddess Veronica on Streamate. Today I am her slave and we signed a slave contract May 29,2012. My masturbation is out of control I even whack of to Jackie Evancho from AGT and finally the other day Goddess Veronica and I agreed November 18, 2012 is a day of femdom and i will be collared and leashed. I will have to worship her feet, and be used as her toilet and finally she will cut my penis off and keep it in a jar.

[Milkman (imported)]

Hey man,

Enjoy the fantasy, but don't do anything so insane....

[Losethem (imported)]

For once Milkman and I agree.

You're either fantasizing big time and trying to get a reaction from us or you're cruising for a trip to the ER and mental ward.

[kyaaseunuch (imported)]

no i have agreed to have my penis cut off. I have wanted this for quite some time. I do think it is the best thing to do is have it cut off

[justcliffy (imported)]

If you do this, please, please, please make sure its done safely. This is major surgery and not something you can just play with.

[MrMoJo1007 (imported)]

Hi,

I read your post and I wanted to say Congrats !!!!

I think it is wonderful that you are now an owned slave and ready for your penectomy. If people leave discouraging or negative remarks regarding your goals, just ignore them. Fulfill your desires and enjoy your new role as a slave. It is the most awesome feeling ever. If it can be done safely then go for it.

I was an Owned slave of a Domme Female a couple of years ago. I fulfilled her extremely perverted & kinky desires & denied Her nothing. I realized that it is my true calling to be a slave. It made me feel complete in a way that Nothing else in life can. I am meant to be enslaved to a FemDomme Goddess. She never allowed me to cum but kept me sexually frustrated which I grew to love. She promised to cut off my worthless penis but some crazy shit happened & we split up.

Anyway, I do not want to ramble on... I just wanted to say Congrats from one slave to another. I wish you the best in your new role & i am jealous that you are going to have your dick removed by your Owner...lol

Chat back if interested,

Ray

[eunuch2001 (imported)]

You say your masturbation is out of control. If you lose your penis your masturbation will stop but not your desire. Just imagine the frustration. Maybe you could consider being locked into a chastity device 24/7 for a few months just to see if you can cope with the frustration.

If you decide to go ahead on November 18 2012 I hope the procedure will be safe, hygienic and painless, and that you will be happy with the result.

Good luck.

[wantingtbc (imported)]

Why do you think people have urge for penectomy.

I have had this need for a long time and I really don't understand it. Deep down I am sure this is not what I want.

I met a girl who start to bite my cock off, fortunately she stopped before any damage was done, but I know, I would have happily let her complete the job.

I would really like to find out why I have this self-distruct mind set. Does anybody else suffer with this.

[kyaaseunuch (imported)]

thanks. the mistress and i have discussed a lot and we are going through with the penectomy. it really is the best for me

[Hash (imported)]

wantingtbc,

It's difficult to come up with one single reason why some of us want our penises cut off. Here are some various reasons why we want it done:

1) Sexual frustration. We're sexually frustrated and in our minds we believe, perhaps unconsciously, that this will end our frustration.

2) Underlying Gender Disorder. We might be male physically but have an underlying feminine identity and this feminine identity doesn't want a penis and that's why we have this desire. Most true transsexuals will state that having a penis just never felt right to them and getting rid of it was a necessity.

3) Sexual Excitement. Somehow having our penises cut off brings about a high level of sexual excitement. Why this occurs might be based on our upbringing, having a dominant female in our early lives, or it might be the result of some dominant sexual experience that grew in our minds, it's psychological, being controlled by or dominated by someone worked it's way into our psyche until it became a norm for us. If our penises could regrow, we would have our penises cut off repeatedly, but since we know that once it's cut off that's it, we resist the urge and fantasize about having it done. I remember one of my aunts telling me a story when I was very young about a boy who took his penis out in the winter and it froze and had to be removed. This was way before puberty, but I never forgot it, and this might have started or led to my desire.

4) Demonic. Someone postulated that the desire might be demonic, can't remember where I read this, but the thought was (if you believe in the nether world) that demons, fallen angels, might push men to cut their penises off because they themselves don't have penises, can't experience sexual satisfaction and therefore want men to be as they are.

5) Uselessness. Some men, who can no longer achieve erections, want it removed because it's useless and non-functioning.

6) Gay. A lot of gay men have this fantasy, read the penectomy stories and there are a lot of gay authors, you might be gay if you have a penectomy desire.

These are some plausible reasons and some of us might have a combination of these, but I believe that if you have this desire it will grow and in the end most men with this desire will seek to fulfill it, and have their penises cut off. It might take another 10 or 15 years, but it will happen. I know that one day I will have it removed, I just don't know when.

[C&TL2745 (imported)]

Why do you think people have urge for penectomy.....I would really like to find out why I have this self-distruct mind set. Does anybody else suffer with this.

You're certainly not alone. My hubby has had a forced-penectomy fantasy for decades, going back to grade school. In his case, we believe a single incident involving his sister was the main catalyst, but there are probably other factors long forgotten or repressed. Enjoy the fantasy, but keep it in the realm of fantasy.

Sandi

[Mac (imported)]

Why do you think people have urge for penectomy.

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I would really like to find out why I have this self-distruct mind set. Does anybody else suffer with this.

Why do you call it a self destruct mindset? As you read some of the accounts here on EA you will learn that many others have similar desires.

My first recollections of dislike for my penis must have been when I was about 5 or 6 years old. I don't recall the reason for that dissatisfaction or what I wanted instead. Later around 10 years old I wanted to have my male parts replaced by female parts.

I married at 21 and found pleasure and satisfaction in love and sex with my wife. However, my dissatisfaction with my male genitals and my desire to have female genitals never went away.

I still greatly love my wife and don't want to compromise that relationship. However, I no longer have any practical use for my penis and testicles. My wife has not desired sexual penetration for over 3 years and no longer manually stimulates them. I have sat to pee full time for over 14 years and have no desire to stand under any circumstances. They are only an inconvenience and a source of frustration for me.

Voluntary penectomy and castration are not options for me as my wife would not agree with such voluntary procedures. Thus, I am secretly looking for a safe and acceptable way to do something which will require medical removal of my penis, testicles and scrotum along with urethra relocation.

Why must we be required to keep those things when they are no longer essential or practical?

[Yman (imported)]

Voluntary SRS or even

penectomy and castration are not options for me as my wife would not agree with such voluntary procedures. Thus, I am secretly looking for a safe and acceptable way to do something which will require medical removal of my penis, testicles and scrotum along with urethra relocation.

Mac, the bold part is what you have to work on. If you don´t resolve this, you will never get what you desire.

[stewie69 (imported)]

I believe that if you have this desire it will grow and in the end most men with this desire will seek to fulfill it, and have their penises cut off. It might take another 10 or 15 years, but it will happen. I know that one day I will have it removed, I just don't know when.

I'm not sure if I should be relieved or terrified by this notion. I've had thoughts of cutting off my penis since I was very young, before I even knew what a penis was for. I've also always enjoyed playing with it, yet I've thought about cutting it off. As a kid, I'd sometimes put my penis in scissors and squeeze just until I felt the pinch, and I'd also sneak into the kitchen when my parents were sleeping, get a knife, pull my penis from my pajamas, and think about cutting it off. Otherwise, I grew up a "normal" straight male. I love women, sex, and masturbation, but I've never shaken my penectomy fantasy. I enjoy self knife play from time to time. It's really intense sometimes. There have been a few occasions when I put my penis on a cutting board, took a knife or cleaver in my hand, and held it very near my penis. I've raised my hand, thinking how swiftly and simply I could bring down the blade, and the deed would be done in an instant. I find it so exciting that my heart races, I tremble, and a few times, I've had powefrul orgasms without even touching my penis - just the thought of chopping it off was all I needed. I've also had dreams that my penis was off, although I've never had dreams about the actual cutting, just my penis being detached. In the dreams, I have mixed feelings of excitement, yet wondering if I can get it put back on. I always wake up with a throbbing erection after such a dream. I also enjoy tucking my penis in and sealing it in with invisible tape. I enjoy the look of the dickless me. I've always been too afraid to share these fantasies with a woman, but I'd very much like to find one who'd enjoy some fantasy kinfe play. I don't think I'd really want her to cut it off - or would I?

[C&TL2745 (imported)]

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I've had thoughts of cutting off my penis since I was very young, before I even knew what a penis was for. ....I've always been too afraid to share these fantasies with a woman, but I'd very much like to find one who'd enjoy some fantasy kinfe play. I don't think I'd really want her to cut it off - or would I?

You and my hubby have a LOT in common. His penectomy fantasies go back to preteen years also. I humor him with threats to his penis, banding, bondage, testicle beating, etc. So there are women out there who'd be sympathetic to your fantasy, but we're a rare breed. Tim found me by asking me to kick his testicles on our second date. I wasn't the first one he'd asked. He didn't go out again with girls who turned him down.

Sandi

[stewie69 (imported)]

You and my hubby have a LOT in common. His penectomy fantasies go back to preteen years also. I humor him with threats to his penis, banding, bondage, testicle beating, etc. So there are women out there who'd be sympathetic to your fantasy, but we're a rare breed. Tim found me by asking me to kick his testicles on our second date. I wasn't the first one he'd asked. He didn't go out again with girls who turned him down.

Sandi

I'm not really into the pain thing. Ballbusting isn't my speed. I don't even think about the pain factor in my penectomy fantasies - I just imagine it coming off. I don't bring up my fantasies because, otherwise, I enjoy normal relations with women. The penectomy thing isn't a constant, but it does rear its head (so to speak) pretty strongly sometimes. I don't want to ruin a good relationship with this quirk, and I certainly don't want word getting out. I don't think I'm a freak, but I can understand how some might take it that way, and it's a label I certainly don't want.

[outfielder415 (imported)]

Sandi,

You are awesome!! Do so enjoy having my cock and balls worked over good and hard. I do have a couple of marks on my balls from my Mistress Julia sticking them with a lighted cigarette. I really got off on that and am sure that Julia did too!

Thanks so much,

James

[kyaaseunuch (imported)]

Monday I receive a chastity belt and send the key to my ow.ner goddess Veronica,. I am still having my penis cut off in november. hopefully the chastity belt will curb my masturbation to women like jackie

[Paolo]

Uh, she's not a woman; she's 12.