New Eunuch to Join Life time!!!!

[Scottie (imported)]

Im singing in the rain hee hee hee jumping for joy!!!!! Haed my exam this morning. Doctor looked at me with sad eyes. Scottie he said.... your testicles are dying and we can not do anything for that. I want to watch you for infection and becasue your one testicle is draining I want you to take this antibiotic so maybe we can save the sac. I want to see you in 15 or 20 days and then your testicles will have shrunk. If they shrink then we will not need to remove them but if not we will send you to a surgeon and have them surgically remooved. As far as your testosterone I am not going to do anything until the episode is over in terms of swelling and healing and shrinkining. Your mood issue and your very soar breasts are all apart of the situation. If everything keeps on progressing then I will maintain your care. If not then I will suggest a uroligist who specializes in cancer of the testicles for their removal and your treatment. That was it. My moods are all mixed up for sure. Not about this but about everything. Im sad one minute happy another, sweating another, angry the next, and dont know the next. I am also down to 10 points total out of 200 to 400 Testosterone levels. So the doctor says to me. For all intensive puposes you are castrated! I will post again as further developments occur. Thank you all. I appreciate all of you with great affection. someday I hope we all meet. Not only that The Mistress I live with wants my testicles in a jar for our bedroom. Seems like a dream or a story. But I can tell you all that I still don't know if I would do lactic acid again. It hurt like hell. Be well all of you!!!! Scottie Ill report my next visit to all.

[Neoscrow (imported)]

Let me be the FIRST to congratulate you, Scottie.

I hope all turns out well and to your liking.

Keep a close eye on everything still...you might want to go to the urologist just to be on the safe side!

So what does that make it...three eunuchs since I've joined the board in July....what's that total for the year? Any one know?

Time to celebrate!

(Though I hope no one else has to go thru the lactic acid deal. You never know.)

Peace,

Lysette

[Andrew (imported)]

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our testicles are dying and we can not do anything for that. I want to watch you for infection and becasue your one testicle is draining I want you to take this antibiotic so maybe we can save the sac. I want to see you in 15 or 20 days and then your testicles will have shrunk. If they shrink then we will not need to remove them but if not we will send you to a surgeon and have them surgically remooved.

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I am glad you are under medical care and will continue to be so.



If it does come to surgical castration, would you like the scrotal sac removed, and would they do it if you asked? Just curious. I've tried it both ways, prefer the scrotum off.

[Riverwind (imported)]

At Least three eunuchs Lysette and all happy as well, there may even be more.

Scott, hope your doctor takes your nuts soon I know you will be happy without them as I am.

[sag111 (imported)]

scottie i am glad you have finaly reached your goal. i have been very woried about you the past couple of weeks.i hope every thing works out and you have a speedy recovery scotty i have been praying for you every night

[Mac (imported)]

Scottie,

It sounds like you have a valid reason for removing them. Tell the doctor to remove them and get it over. Otherwise find a urologist who will on your own.

[Scottie (imported)]

Hello! I don't get it???? Why is it when I read your posts (all of you) I feel the caring, warmth sincerity concern, and even some love too. This morning on opening my posts I actually cried with the love that I felt from all of you. If this is who we are, or who we become then I am a proud Eunuch! I do want to share that I am going for an exam on Wendesday. My Doctor knows they are dead and dying and shrinking. He wants to see if the fistulas or holes that the acid made in the sac are going to heal. He does not want a staff infection to form. I don't either. The next step then will be to the Cancer testcular doc who specializes in removal of both sac and testicles. So... besides being a completey castrated by having no testosterone from my testicles they are dead. I will soon be able to cross my legs properly. LOL I do care and love you all!!!!!!! Scottie PS. If anybody has any questions about Lactic acid and some mistakes I made that if you wish you dont have to make or just for general information please let me know. Scottie

[Mac (imported)]

The next step then will be to the Cancer testcular doc who specializes in removal of both sac and testicles. So... besides being a completey castrated by having no testosterone from my testicles they are dead. I will soon be able to cross my legs properly.

That all depends on how you define crossing your legs properly. You will still have part of your equipment to get in the way.

Again, I wish you luck in getting rid of thos balls soon. You have gone to a lot of troble to achieve your goal just to have the doctors trying to save them.

Why can't they understand. It is like the guy who cut off everything just to have the doctors reattach it.

:realpisse

[Scottie (imported)]

I have to allow the doc to do what he does. I have made it look like an accident and when they take the testicles and ulcerated sac my medical Ins will cover it. Besides Im castrated as far as opperations and testosterone levels anyhow. I really want to know from everyone how this emotional thing works. Will it level off. Thank you, Scottie

[Andrew (imported)]

I have to allow the doc to do what he does. I have made it look like an accident and when they take the testicles and ulcerated sac my medical Ins will cover it. Besides Im castrated as far as opperations and testosterone levels anyhow. I really want to know from everyone how this emotional thing works. Will it level off. Thank you, Scottie

The emotional state of euncuhs after castration varies from person to person. There is the "calm", as your mind thinks less of sex and aggression. You may be subject to mood swings, and cry more. Most eunuchs do tend to become more emotional after castration, and if that happens to you, you will probably find yourself accepting it as a part of your new life.

[Riverwind (imported)]

I have noticed that I am more emotional then before and here lately I really have let go several times. I guess it goes with being a eunuch but thats ok. In here we are all family.

[Scottie (imported)]

Dear Andrew and Riverwind: Thankyou for the answer to my question about emotions. You know I can deal with the feelings of frustration, I can deal with the anger, I can deal with the crying... but the one that gets me is the one where you just don't know how you feel and you just become kinda nowhere. My patience seems to leave me at these times. Im glad to know what to expect. One other question... to you and the community...

I was a very agressive person and an angry person. Overtime does that subside????? Gosh I hope so. It's something I want very much!!!!! Thanks again Scottie

[Andrew (imported)]

Dear Andrew and Riverwind: Thankyou for the answer to my question about emotions. You know I can deal with the feelings of frustration, I can deal with the anger, I can deal with the crying... but the one that gets me is the one where you just don't know how you feel and you just become kinda nowhere. My patience seems to leave me at these times. Im glad to know what to expect. One other question... to you and the community...

I was a very agressive person and an angry person. Overtime does that subside????? Gosh I hope so. It's something I want very much!!!!! Thanks again Scottie

This is another of those YMWV thingies. However, it seems that most eunuchs, over time, do lose much of that testosterone-induced male aggression. It may take a year or more for this to happen, but as Dr. Spector once wrote "In either the case of TS or eunuch, a deep calm serenity develops which, from then on, makes life far more worthwhile."

In my case, it has enabled me to work at the Post Office with greatly reduced levels of stress, and I no longer have road-rage incidents when driving the LA freeways.

[Scottie (imported)]

Thankyou for your reply Andrew. I can't wait until I get rid of these male tendencies to be so agressive and angry. The sooner the better. If anyone has anymore comments on emotionality, anger levels or agressivness please send me a post. Seeing as this is so very new to me...... My whole life has been focused on sex sex sex and females females females. I am wondering if this will go too. I have given far to much power to females and sex in my life and I wish to study and become the person I dream about. Thanks, Scottie

[Andrew (imported)]

Thankyou for your reply Andrew. I can't wait until I get rid of these male tendencies to be so agressive and angry. The sooner the better. If anyone has anymore comments on emotionality, anger levels or agressivness please send me a post. Seeing as this is so very new to me...... My whole life has been focused on sex sex sex and females females females. I am wondering if this will go too. I have given far to much power to females and sex in my life and I wish to study and become the person I dream about. Thanks, Scottie

Just remember it may take some time for the changes to occur. As time goes on, you will be bothered less and less about thoughts and urges for sex, and will be IN CONTROL of your sexuality. Depending on age and other factors, you can still have sex and orgasams at intervals with a partner that pushes the right buttons in your brain.

The same with the aggressiveness and anger. It may take some time, but you will notice a slow decline in this part of your life.

SUGGESTION: Keep a diary, and note your sexual and aggressive thoughts. Keep track for a several months and see if you note a trend downward. I did this and can say the Eunuch Calm came at about 8 months. But I was age 56 at castration. It may take longer for younger eunuchs.

[Charlieje (imported)]

Scottie,

Just to add my two cents worth. I too was quite angry, very inclined to "go off" when I was riled, and that was easy to do.

Shortly after my castration, before I started HRT (which thank God I stopped again) I was often accused of having eunuch mood swings, but I think it was just me... I really didn't have mood swings any more severe than I've ever had.

Now I am really enjoying the eunuch calm, and my tendency to fly off the handle is very much reduced, and even when I do have fits of temper they are much less severe and followed within hours by remorse, so strong that I usually go out of my way to apologize to those affected.

As a total aside, I think I posted earlier this week that I'd had spontaneous erections that I cannot for the life of me understand. This morning I didn't have an erection at all, but I was curious... Not horny, but curious. So I attempted to get an erection and (Yeah, I was masturbating <BLUSH>) Things were starting to happen, I was about half hard, when suddenly, without warning, BAM! I had one of the most intense orgasms I have ever had in my life! It happened so suddenly I wasn't expecting it, was almost disappointed in many ways because it had happened so suddenly, before I was ready, before I felt the building I've always felt my entire life.

I don't know what's going on, but as far as I am concerned I am enjoying the best of both worlds: the calm, the lack of intensity and desire of a eunuch, but still functional.

Scottie, you are to be commended for your bravery. I hope things continue to go well for you, but I join the others in strongly recommending that you get those things off ASAP. Our bodies don't take kindly to having dead things in them.

I hope you achieve your goals, both now and later, my friend.

[thefraj (imported)]

Well, certainly in *my* experience, I have been a LOT more emotional since I was castrated. (e.g.) I can get tearful over stuff that wouldn't normally bother me!

Heck, Neoscrow will know - since I couldn't stop crying on the last night I was in Detroit! But maybe this was just because I've come to LOVE everyone here on EA, and didn't want to return to dull old England?



Guess, The Question is: would I have cried that day if I WERN'T castrated?

Whatever the case, I know my emotions *seem* to have a lot more impact in my life now. Kinda like having BOLD turned on in the word processor.

[madscientist (imported)]

I am on Depo-Provera and several nights ago I woke up from what would have been a spontanious orgasm, except only a drop of semen came out. Even with non-functioning or absent testis you still have a prostate.

[sag111 (imported)]

hi like madscientist i am also on depo provera the two things i notace becides erections is the calm and the love i now feel for people. it is going to be intersting thursday for the first time i get my shot at docters office . so far nurses are not sure about me thay have never heard of a man on pepo provera and it gets hard to explane some times

[bbikerbill (imported)]

i want to be a eunuch i have for 10 yrs 2 months ago i hit my right ball with a hammer the pain was so bad i knew i had done damage i saw a dr told them i got hurt going over a fench it had to be removed i told the dr the truth and ask him to take both he would not do it got one ball left but not the money i would need to go to philly i would like to meet someone who could help me with a loan i am a skilled carpenter and could work it off also i would like to aculy meet a eunuch , shake his hand and have lunch or go to the movies anybody out there live around n e colorado thanks

[Neoscrow (imported)]

Right this way gentlemen:

On our right here we have Jennifer, our poster girl for all estrogen or testosterone deficient victims.

As you can see the blue skies, the happy children, the music and folly in the air. The world seems quite jovial to us outsiders but yet Jennifer sobs.

Tour Guide: "Um, excuse me Jennifer. Why are you so upset?"

Jennifer:

Let's move on.

Ah to our left is Iris. She's not having a very good day. She overslept, the hairdrier won't work, there's a run in her stocking and the coffee pot shorted out. Watch how she tears into the couch stuffing. Wow, there goes the coffee cup across the room. Oh Iris is not happy. Guess the bloating and fatigue doesn't help her much either.

Now as we round the corner, we ask that you keep your voices down as Helena is teetering on the edge. She's threatened us several times that she has PMS and a gun and she knows how to use them both with deadly precision. :::

Let's watch as her co-worker comments on her wardrobe today.

Co-worker: Hey, Helena. You look shnazzy today.

Helena: What? You say that as if I look like a bumb the other four days out of the week.

Co-worker: :-\

Helena: Look, maybe if I made the same money as YOU I could afford to look like the resident office harlot, but I can't so I'll just have to be me and try to verbally blow our prick of a boss to get noticed around here!

Poooooor poooor Helena. Now she doesn't mean all that really, it's just hormones talking. Well, gentlemen, we must conclude this tour early. I've a headache, I'm bloated, my ankles are swollen and I need chocolate really really bad. So if you could let yourselves out - that's IF all the blood is going to your brain and not your crotch - I'd appreciate it.

From Neo:

May the Lord bless thee, for ye all have faced a horror far worse than war, famine or death. Ye have faced the medical mystery and curse that is the female hormone and all the emotional ravages it can have.

Blessed be. Peace be with you, my sons. I absolve thee.