Urethral reroute revision

[Hash (imported)]

On June 6th I had a reroute revision performed by my new young female urologist here in New Jersey (near Bridgewater), about an hour from NYC. That's because my previous female urologist didn't do a permanent reroute so I was peeing from two places, both the reroute and from my penis. I told this new urologist that I liked sitting to pee and didn't ever want to urinate from my penis ever again. I also said I wanted it extra long. She said, "I can fix that!" and she did. Not a drop of urine has flowed out of my penis, I think that's because she cut out a section of the urethra. To sit and pee while holding your penis in your hand is kind of wild, but my penis is so small I can't hardly hold it. It's like an inch long soft. I can stretch it out to about 3 inches, but it just goes back too the one inch size very quickly. I put pictures on malebodymods.com soon after surgery, but now I'll have to put some additional pics on there to show how small I've gotten. I also haven't had an erection or hint of an erection and even if I try to get an erection, nothing. Maybe she cut a nerve.

I had discussed having my penis removed, but she hesitated and wanted to refer me to someone else which would require seeing a psychologist. So I opted for another plan, have the rest of my scrotum removed or most of it. She agreed to do that and did. However, she seemed very compassionate when I told her that I hated my penis and wanted it gone. She again said she couldn't do anything about that but she said I'd be happy with the results of my operation and I am. My penis is actually smaller now than it was before, as the swelling has gone down, so has my penis. Sometimes now it retreats/retracts inside of me so that I look like a nullo. I don't know what she did, I'll see her again tomorrow. Whether she'll divulge what she did completely to me, I'm not sure. But I like it. She's probably not 30 years old, tall, and pretty. Needless to say in the operating room none of this matters and after you're sedated, you don't see anything. However, before going under she made me repeat my birthday, discussed what she was going to do and after that I was out. I woke up what seemed like a minute later and wheeled to recovery.

All in all I am quite impressed with her. You'll get an erection quick if you meet her and she starts examining you, that's if you have testicles. However, if you want to get a reroute or even castrated, she's the one to do it. If you've damaged your penis or testicles and want something removed, you need to see her. She has done a lot of reroutes and she said some castrations. If your testicles are damaged, why not use her to get them removed? Contact me if you live close to Bridgewater N.J. But please, treat her with respect, don't be rude or nasty. She is kind and compassionate and I don't want her abused. Hash

[nullorchis (imported)]

Very glad things have progressed to your liking.

Also glad to know there are doctors out there who are proactive.

Very unglad I live on the West coast and will not be able to partake of her talents.

Such is life.

[Hash (imported)]

Interesting visit this morning. Dr. J came in an examined me and said everything looked good and was healing well. I said I was well pleased and then, without me saying anything she said, "I did some research about getting your penis removed and I think the best thing to do is go with a doctor who specializes in transgender surgery." I told her thanks and that I'm not sure what I want to do right now. She said, "I can get your address, get dressed and I'll get you his name." What's interesting is that she seemed more determined about this than I was at this time. I go back and forth with wanting to get my penis removed and had told her early on that that's what I preferred. Well she was persistent and suggested some doctor named: Boris V He practices here in NJ. I am just surprised that without mentioning getting my penis removed, she took the initiative. I'm not sure why but I'll see her next month. The reality is that now that I have a surgical reroute and pee sitting from down below, I could band my penis at any time and not worry about not urinating. It would be simple, no blood, and I've got a lot of strong pain meds left over, but today is not the day. Maybe tomorrow.

[C&TL2745 (imported)]

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without me saying anything she said, "I did some research about getting your penis removed and I think the best thing to do is go with a doctor who specializes in transgender surgery."....

Why do I get the feeling that she'd really like to see a guy with no penis for more than pure professional curiosity? I can relate to that.

Sandi

[boingboing (imported)]

The reality is that now that I have a surgical reroute and pee sitting from down below, I could band my penis at any time and not worry about not urinating. It would be simple, no blood, and I've got a lot of strong pain meds left over, but today is not the day. Maybe tomorrow.

The reality is that, reroute or no, the penis has a pretty huge blood supply. If you try to remove it by banding and throw a clot, you could be a dead person right quick. Infection is also not such a fun outcome. One way or another, penis removal will most likely land you in the hospital—far better for that to be under the knives of urologists and plastic surgeons than trauma docs and psychiatrists.

[Hash (imported)]

I do agree with what you're saying boingboing, but in my situation I think my penis would die rather quickly and since I don't have to worry about urinating, I wouldn't have to worry about my bladder exploding.

Sandi, I do think she's a tad compassionate about me wanting a penectomy and if she was older maybe, just maybe because I'm already castrated she might have consented. I don't think she's done a penectomy yet. I'm going to stick with her and continue to plead my case with her. We'll see what happens. Might take another year, but that's half the fun. During my next visit she'll probably ask me if I've contacted the transsexual surgeon she suggested. I will definitely tell her no, he looks like a Russian mobster with name to boot. But I'll also tell her that I'm tired of seeing doctors and surgeons and suggest to her that she's just as qualified to remove it as any other urologist. I'm also going to ask her if I get letters from two psychologists stating that I'm sane and that it will aid my psyche and satisfy my transgender needs to have my penis removed, would she do it?

[Skoptsy13 (imported)]

There are doctors out there now that will do castrations, it would be heaven sent if there could be one who would do a penectomy with reroute as well...

[Hash (imported)]

Yes Skoptsy, but then someone will regret it and hence sue the doctor and stop the process. That's one reason they won't do them and the other is it's supposed to be more difficult to do and more dangerous. Then there's the "hippocratic oath" which states essentially that a doctor should not do anything to harm a patient. Hope I've got that right, I know it's more involved than that.

As for me and my reroute revision, I now know the extent of what she did to me. She cut a hole big enough for me to stick my middle finger into and deep. I finally tested it. Actually she cut out at least by my estimation, at least a 1/2 inch section of my urethra, it gone. So there's no way that urine could make it up my penis, there's no channel anymore. So I'm castrated, had 90% of my scrotum removed, had a 1/2 section of my urethra removed so I must now sit to pee. Oh and my glans is split in half. I've only got one more thing to go, my penis. Someday that will be removed too. Someday:)

[C&TL2745 (imported)]

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Oh and my glans is split in half. I've only got one more thing to go, my penis. Someday that will be removed too. Someday:)

Just curious, Hash. You've split your glans yourself. Is splitting your glans that much less bloody than cutting it off yourself, maybe incrementally? As you know, I started to cut Tim's off, but we didn't get very far before that project was overcome by other events, so I have more than academic interest.

Sandi

[butterflyjack (imported)]

The head of my penis is split..I had a huge PA that, over time and heavy rings worked itself out, leaving my penis split..I can stick my pinky up my urethra...I have to sit to pee...otherwise it just dribbles down my leg or sprays all over the place.. I like it..Very femme and neat..I need to be castrated.Maybe later this year..A trip to Detroit...

I wonder how wifey will take it...The TG and CD things have taken their toll...We'll see...smooches Sandi, (Hash?) Jackie

[Hash (imported)]

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Is splitting your glans that much less bloody than cutting it off yourself, maybe incrementally?

" That's a good question Sandi, I think it would work. To split my glans in half I actually only used boiling water and a scalpel. I tied it off and waited until it was numb, then made small cuts over and over. It took several weeks but I was finally able to split it and keep it split. As for using this method to cut off my penis, well, it could/should work too. The corpus cavenosums are actually spongy until filled with blood. I think I'd have to tie my penis off so it wouldn't fill with blood. Then make small slow cuts on both sides. Do this over sever days/weeks, a penis should come off pretty easy, thought there is an Cavernous artery that might be difficulty to stop from bleeding unless your penis is tied off. I might consider it, though I'm fond of having Dr. J...'s do it. I'm also mulling over whether during my next appointment I should ask her if she'll remove my shaft skin and sew my little nub down onto my mons pubis or maybe she'll remove the shaft skin and hide my penis underneath what remains. That way it would look as though I didn't have a penis, we'll see. All in all, I've looked at the parachute method of a partial penectomy ( http://www.scielo.br/scielo.php?pid=S16 ... ci_arttext ) it would work for me.

P.S. I just tested my reroute again and I'm really puzzled, I have over 1 inch in depth and at least 2 1/2 circumference. When I stick my finger inside, it's the weirdest sensation, and I start getting a semi-erection. I think I'm touching the "dorsal nerve," which is on the top side of my penis. So I think my reroute goes between both corpus cavernosums all the way to the dorsal nerve, maybe not, but it sure feels that way.

I had told her that I liked my original reroute, which I told her is like a vagina to me. She told me I'd be happy with her revision work, that I'd never pee from my penis again, which I told her I never wanted to do, but this hole is huge. From all the urethral reroutes I've seen, mine is the biggest, though you never see men spreading open their reroutes, mine's a small vagina.

[butterflyjack (imported)]

Wow Hash..I just love your urologist..She's fantastic..She made you a little vagina to play with..Best of all worlds...What a lucky guy..She's having a ball (hehe) with you pard.

smooches Jackie

[C&TL2745 (imported)]

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As for using this method to cut off my penis, well, it could/should work too.....

I had in mind cutting the glans off rather than the whole penis. I was thinking that wouldn't involve major arteries like the shaft of you penis, and since you've already made a major cut in it, I thought you'd have a good handle on how much bleeding to expect. Even if you decide to take your whole penis off that way, starting with the glans might be a good first step. Whatever you decide, be careful. We care about you a lot.

Sandi

[Hash (imported)]

Thanks Sandi for your input, I guess I'd rather just have the whole penis removed, but I vacillate between removing it and not removing it. If I did remove the glans the rest would soon follow. Thanks for caring about me. I did post pictures on malebodymods.com, but now I can't get on the site for some reason.

[Scarysarah (imported)]

That sounds pretty amazing. I am glad you are finally happy.

Scarysarah.

[Hash (imported)]

I am pretty happy Scary, but not finally. Won't be finally happy until the penis is gone. I want it gone bad most days, other days not so much. It's such a hard decision to make, but I do know this about myself, I'll finally go through with it one way or the other and I know I'll wonder what was all the fuss about. My penis is small, useless, and now even more wobbly.

Having this complete reroute where a whole section of my urethra was removed, has made my penis loose and even more wobbly. If you didn't know, the urethra beneath the scrotum and extending into the male body is larger than at the glans. So when that huge section is removed, your penis is not as strongly connected. The urethra is actually just as important to an erection as the two corpus cavernosums. If you get an erection and feel below your penis, you'll notice how big your urethra is and how important it is in strengthening the erection. (Sandi you'll have to feel Tim's or Dave's or any erect penis will do).

Imagine a huge chunk cut out. Think of the urethra as a straw, a plastic store bought straw, which are made of a heavier plastic. If a huge section of the straw was cut out, it wouldn't be as strong, it would be more flexible. So the way I see it, I've actually had a 1/3 penectomy since my urethra straw has been severed and a large section removed. Some reroutes, like my previous one, didn't remove a section of the urethra, it just split it in half and stitched it to the sides. This time, Dr. J removed a whole section of the urethra.

[Hash (imported)]

I woke up today feeling really bad. Must have went to the bathroom 4-5 times during the night. Had pain in my side so called my regular doctor, she was out but they had a different female doctor that I could see at 9:15am, so I went in. She was older, maybe 50, treated me nice and asked a ton of questions. I told her I was castrated and that I had a urethrostomy surgery back on June 6th. So she asked me to lie down, felt around my stomach then asked me to stand up and lower my shorts, which I did. She told me to lie back down and then she shocked me by saying, "You've still have your penis, I'm surprised." She moved it around, the whole 1 1/2 inches looking over it carefully. "You've had some real trauma to your penis." I told her it was from my past and the holes were from piercings. "Why didn't they remove it when you had the urethrostomy?" Now I was shocked and I told her my urologist didn't want to remove it. "Do you still have erections?" she asked. Not really I answered. "And now with the urethrostomy you don't use it to urinate?" "No, I have to sit to pee," I replied. "Let me look at your urethrostomy. So she asked me to spread my legs and she took a good look. "There's no infection inside there and that's a very deep urethrostomy." The nurse came in and said something to her (didn't see if the nurse saw me spread open) and then she told me, "You do have an infection and a high fever. I'm going to give you an antibiotic. Are you allergic to anything or antibiotics?" Penicillin. "O.K." she said, then bending between my legs, she said, "She stitched you up well. You can pull your shorts up." Then she gave me directions on taking the antibiotic and asked where I wanted the prescription sent. We said goodbye and she said, "Hope to see you again!" The prescription was for "levofloxacin" once a day for seven days. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Levoquin Believe me I'm going to use every last one. Not sure about this doctor, I don't think she's ever seen anything like me before, but that statement, "Why didn't they remove it when you had the urethrostomy," has me perplexed. Maybe she read about urethrostomies and just made a general conclusion that they remove the penis. I know from studying that they don't always remove the penis, mostly only when cancerous. Guess we'll never know what she was thinking, but it was interesting even though I was in pain. I'm still in pain.

[unencumbered (imported)]

Hope that you get better quickly, Hash.

PS: Please empty your mailbox so I can send you a PM.

[hazbalz (imported)]

Hash, did she say where the infection was coming from? The levofloxacin should take care it. Hope you feel better and best wishes!

[C&TL2745 (imported)]

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"You've still have your penis, I'm surprised." She moved it around, the whole 1 1/2 inches looking over it carefully. "You've had some real trauma to your penis." I told her it was from my past and the holes were from piercings. "Why didn't they remove it when you had the urethrostomy?"....

If she was surprised that you still had it, maybe removing it isn't such a far-out proposition to at least some doctors. A different doctor might be willing to take it off for you, now that it's in the shape it's in. That would certainly be safer than a do-it-yourself job and probably a lot neater in the final appearance. But your first order of business is getting healthy. Hope the antibiotic does the trick quickly.

Sandi

[Hash (imported)]

Pretty sure the fever just broke, wow, about 6 1/2 hours on that antibiotic. Already feeling better, thanks. Need something cold to drink, ice tea will do. I'll empty my mailbox unencumbered and thanks Hazbalz for the best wishes.

Sandi, never thought about that, although Dr. J. is more flexible and willing to do things then most other urologists I've seen, except Dr. Kimmel that is,

I'm going to stick with her and

see if won't eventually remove it for me. I've got a plan. This doctor I saw today, even in my poor condition, I could tell she was intrigued. She kept looking at my little penis as though it was a ripe mushroom, moving it back and forth. Had I had more of my faculties I think I would have engaged her in more conversation. But there sure seem to be more women doctors here in Jersey, not sure why. I looked at several Family Practices recently and the women are outnumbering the men, except in urology.

[Hash (imported)]

Got a surprise call from the new female doctor this morning asking me about how I was doing. She seemed genuinely concerned and asked about whether my urologist had called me. She said she was able to review all my charts, etc. and sounded a little nervous talking with me. She only stated that my urine tests did show that I had a "germ" and that she hoped the antibiotic she chose was working. I told her that I didn't have a fever and was feeling well. She said some pleasantries and that was it, but it seemed a little unusual. Can't say when I remember when a doctor actually called back to check on me, though I know they have and still do. However, I don't know what to think of the attention, was she/is she fascinated by my castration/urethrostomy/scrotoplasty? Or am I just making more of this then I should? Just seemed odd that she sounded nervous talking with me. Maybe I was her first eunuch that she's ever seen? I'm thinking of switching doctors and making her my primary.

[C&TL2745 (imported)]

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I told her that I didn't have a fever and was feeling well.....I'm thinking of switching doctors and making her my primary.

I'm glad to hear you're feeling better. I wonder whether the "germ" was related to the surgery or it was just coincidence that you got the infection right afterward. It does seem curious that she showed such surprise that you still had a penis then called you seeming nervous about it. I suspect that both of the lady doctors you've written about have more than just professional interest. I doubt that either runs into eunuchs every day, so it may be just the novelty of seeing you, but this second doctor's calling you and seeming nervous about it is intriguing. It makes me wonder whether she might be receptive to the idea if you broached the subject of a penectomy.

Sandi

[Hash (imported)]

Novelty of seeing a eunuch, that's a good way to describe it, and not just a eunuch, a eunuch with a large urethrostomy with a small penis still attached. She stumbled over words several times when talking with me and seemed tentative, which made me think she was nervous. I'd like to think that she'd be receptive to a penectomy or partial which is just cutting off the visible part and stitching things together, however, she's not a surgeon and I'm not sure she'd want to snip it off in one of the small offices. Hmm? What to do. I'm going to talk to my urologist, Dr. J to see if she'd give me a partial penectomy if I get two psychologist letters proving I'm sane. Won't see her for a few weeks. Also toyed with the idea of just having my shaft skin removed and then sewn together. It would make my penis look even smaller and it might hide out of sight, that's my back up plan. I wish I would have asked for that when I went in for the original surgery. Oh well. Dr. J. might could do it in her office, she has surgical type rooms.

[icehawk2010 (imported)]

I'm interested in getting a reroute done. Does the urologist in bridge water still do this procedure?