Im Upset and Angry

[Scottie (imported)]

I was just reading a post that says something like if your castrated... what the hell do you want an erection for???? "It's like pising in the wind" I suggest he goes and pisses in the wind! I thought that there wasen't much judgement here about what we all choose. I really thought that. Now lookie here... Im a Euncuh dead balls and all soon to be remooved as you all kknow. Living for real as a slave (no fantasy) my wife/Mistress requires service not only orally but she requires it from penetration of my Penis. She likes the feeling and likes th aspect of joining together. Now being a Eunuch has tapered my libido and my need for such things isint as intense as it once was. I imagine it will even lessen in time. I do feel it important to satisfy her. So big deal. I take a viagra, or a Muse or a Uprima and low and behold an erection appears. I then satisfy her and return back to my altered state as a Eunuch who is becomming happy with his new way of life. SO DONT BE SO QUICK TO JUDGE UNLESS YOU KNOW THE WHOLE WHOLE STORY!!!!!!!!! Scottie

[luvpain (imported)]

Scottie,

You do have a great point there. I know for a fact that I still expect to get hard afterwards, but only ocassionally and know it will be more special when I do. The whole point for wanting the castration is to reduce or rid myself of the constant need to get off.

This place is a good resource for everyone, it just seems like people get too uptight sometimes. There are ccertain things that I know I wouldn't do, but am OK with others doing.

As long as the person is not harming anyone who should we be to judge what others want done to their bodies.

[Scottie (imported)]

We all make life decissions. Being in an alternative lifestyle is the only way I have been happy. I was a prisoner for a long time caught between a vanilla relationship and a bunch of hopes and dreams. Now I am realizing my hopes and Dreams and have even discoverd more about myself than I ever could have. Being different isint always easy. In fact I know it isint easy. Heck 20 yrs from now there might be 1000snds of us but for now...WE NEED EACH OTHER!!!!! THERE IS NO PLACE FOR JUDGING ONE ANOTHER. Debate, disagreement no problem... it's healthy. Remember, however that until we wlak in another persons shoes we don't have a right to judge him or her. Think about it. Debate, arguments, disagreements, opinions NO PROBLEM!!!!! JUDGEMNTALISIM SUCKS!!!!!! scottie

[Mac (imported)]

Scottie,

I have been thinking about you. Your castration date must be getting close. Are you still looking forward to getting it done?

[Scottie (imported)]

Hi Mac! Funny you should ask. Yes I am looking forward to having my orciectomy, castration and becomming a eunuch. I am afraid, and I am afraid of the unknown and all the changes that lay ahead. I think thats kinda normal. It is scarey however. I haven't had much t levels for a while so Im getting used to being a eunuch sometimes it feels good and sometimes it's confussing. All in all I CAN'T WAIT TIL IT'S OVER!!!!

After all these guys got knifes and needles and all kinds of sharp things hanging around. They even got the chemicals and all the drugs and worst of it they are'nt any older than me. YIKES!!!! But all in all ....YES I AM scottie Happy New Year!!!!

[Paolo]

Alright, somehow I missed this one.

Who lipped off at the eunuch-soon-to-be? Bring me his head on a silver platter. And his balls, too, in a sidedish.

Just a reminder, folks, lack of balls or functioning ones in relation to sexual activities (or lack thereof) and / or fantasy is STILL a part of the whole Board here.

If Scottie thinks he wants to have an erection or experience sex with no balls, dead balls, whatever, he's perfectly entitled to do that and talk about it here.

Bring me the balls of the Infidel.

:tongueout

[Tomas (imported)]

Bring me his head on a silver platter. And his balls, too, in a sidedish.

Uh, just a point of order, or rather a question of taste, I suppose: Does one serve red or white wine with testis? (Or should they properly be accompanied by an after-dinner drink of some sort?)

Take care,

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[JesusA]

I can only suggest that calf fry go well with a nice, medium-bodied Pinot noir, though a fairly heavy Chardonnay might do well too. Turkey testicles require a medium body white, such as a Sauvignon blanc.

Jesus

Your galloping Buddhist gourmet

[Andrew (imported)]

I was just reading a post that says something like if your castrated... what the hell do you want an erection for???? "It's like pising in the wind" I suggest he goes and pisses in the wind!

I wouldn't worry too much about that person, Scottie. Obviously, he does not realize that many eunuchs can still function after castration, to include erections, penetrations, and orgasms. Just not as a frequently. The main thing is that after castration you will be IN CONTROL of your sexuality, and if you wish to ignore sex altogether, you will be able to do so comfortably. But depending on age, what your adrenal glands will be pumping out, and other factors poorly known, you can still have some years with an active sex life. Sooner or later total impotence may set in, but that is a HUGE "YMWV" thingie.

Remember that most of us in the EA will support you, no matter what your INFORMED decision is, and help you to accept the consequences, whatever they may be. Hang in there!

[Christina (imported)]

Don't let whomever it was get to you. I know there has been some heated topics in the past and the people it was aimed at got upset. This message board should be and is a place where one can freely express their opinions. Sometimes the replys to a thread are too judgemental and I see it as if they are trying to force their beliefs rather than give an opinion or advice. I know, from my own experiences, some of the changes you must be going through with your emotions. It's the little things that can be upseting at times. Don't worry yourself about it, you have many friends here that really DO care about one another.

I want to say something to you about being afraid of your upcoming castration. Being afraid is normal. Fear of the unknown is normal. It's nothing you should be ashamed about. Everyone has fears, yes me too, and we have to deal with them in our own way. Imagine, if you can, about some of the things I am having to deal with facing the world as a new and different person that I once was. It takes a lot of courage to overcome your fears. I think that you have the determination, like I do, to see things through. Yes it's scary at times, but it drives us to our goals. Without it, we wouldn't have gotten as far as we have. Don't let your imagination get the best of you, when it's all over, I think you will find it wasn't as bad as you thought it would be.

Be strong! Best wishes to you for a speedy recovery and may the new year be filled with happiness.

Love and Hugs,

Christina Marie

[sag111 (imported)]

Scottie i am sorry you are angery with us and i can onley speak for myself but after the first month or so i had a hard time trying to figer out what you realy wanted and i could not folow witch way you were going. That dose not mean i wasent concerned with you i gues i was watching where you would go next . As for replies to your posts i post a lot of times and nobody answers them but i know a lot of people read them so i dont get upset so i think we should ralise that people care about us even though thay may not always respond the way we want them to so dont get to upset with us your friend Sag111

[Scottie (imported)]

thankyou ever so much for the support. I think that all of us who have gone through major changes are supportive to each other. I need that support and I appreciate it more than you guys could ever know. I coulnd't have made it through this thus far without your help advise and council so thankyou. Im going to write and keep writting and let you all know everything of how it is going. I only wish I could get pictures of the surgery but I cant. Have a good New Years and I will keep writting. Scottie

[thefraj (imported)]

Hi Scottie,

Sorry if I havn't responded to any of your posts. To be honest - with the festive season I've not been responding to much! hehe.

As a fellow eunuch, I'd just like to say that errections are fully possible after castration. Like Luvpain correctly said; its more special, and you need to work at it . And, if this is still a problem; there are - of course! - a whole spectrum of drugs to aid in such matters.

As sombody who's only 21, I fully understand how difficult it can be to be 'different'. You're right. We do need each other... and my heart will be there for you, always.

And - if you're anything like me - you won't regret your decision at all

Happy Christmas, and take care!

~Rog

[Scottie (imported)]

so I get a bit emotional and react to no posts... and then all of you write me and Im sitting her crying tears of joy!!!! All of your kind words DO MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!!! Never ever want to be alone never ever ever!!!!!! I really hope that someday we can meet one another. It is far to precious of a thing to waste, the friendship and love we share. Again thanks again. I will be writting as I get closer. It's theraputic and I do need you all of you!!!! Scottie

[luvpain (imported)]

I can relate to you scottie, being alone is one of the worse feelings in the world.

Monday and Tuesday (Christmas Eve) were the most depressings days I have had in a long time. With everyone busy with the holidays there wasn't many people in the chat room. I actually ended up taking Sleeping pills twice on Christmas Eve so that I could sleep through most of the day (3/4).

I've made a number of friends on here many of whom I've meet in person. They along with not wanting to disapoint friends and family have been my reason to keep going many times these last few months. They can be annoying at times, especially when they get on my case and telling me what to do (But thats just me I hate being told what to do :tongueout).

The one thing I have learned is to try and take things one day at a time. I still struggle at it, it is very difficult to come back home to an empty apartment. You at least -upn a Mistress/wife that is supportive of your desires, try to count your blessings.

[Scottie (imported)]

Im sorry that you had to spend the holidays alone. I understand all of that too. I dont remember if I ever told my story here and my motivation for castration... I lost my wife, kids home, cars and alot of money too, do to my need for 24/7 secual outlets that where uncontolable and going all the time. So for 4 years I went home to an empty apartment and an empty heart. I guess I got lucky ... I went on everyDating service that I could find having to do with BDSM and began to search for what AI wanted and needed. Bingo I found someone and it's been pretty good since. Aint perfect, but its wonderful. I dont know where you stand on that dating stuff but it does work and you can meet people like that. Id do it again if she ever left. The miracle of this place is that we have a similarity and an understnding of ourselves that most will never have. I hope we can talk more and that you have New Years covered. Dont medicate yourself all up it could hurt you. God bless Scottie

[luvpain (imported)]

I to have tried many of the different services out there related to BDSM, etc. I find them a big waste of time and money. I've had lots of bad luck on them. I get a lot of people that are just into fantasy. I also know that I have very strange interests compared to mosts.

There are not many people into Play piercings, mods, piercings and castration, and since I like to switch roles in dom/sub it makes things a lot harder. I just have to keep up with looking for a partner, maybe I'll be lucky and find someone soon, I just keep holding onto that thought to keep me going anymore.

I'm being carefull with medicine, etc and trying not to be dependant on it. I'vebeen able to get to bed the last 2 nights without needing any pills. I might be pushing things a little here and there. But I'm trying to do things to avoid getting more depressed and doing something that I might regret in that state of mind.

[Scottie (imported)]

This time of year will go away soon and we all will return to normal things again so hang in there. You know that when I first met my Domm'e I didnt mention to her castration or body mod right away. I kinda went slow and did it slow over time. She was much more accepting at that then. so Id suggest going on to like alt. com network and finding someone and becomming friends withthem first then start talking bout needs wants and desires. That seems to work the best. Well I gotta go Ill write again tommrrow. bye for now Chin up stiff upper lip its going to be ok honest. Scotie