how many men hate their balls and cocks and don't want to be male or female

[Chesleyt (imported)]

I'm a eunuch that was castrated because of medical reasons and I've always hated my cock and balls since I was 3 years old and wanted to have them removed I never wanted to be a man in the past I tried to kill my testicles by putting castrating bands on but fear of being found out made me remove them I also would cut my penis I've had it professionally peirced many times and also have peirced it myself I've had a meateotomy as a baby and have enlarged the opening I've been to counseling and worked on not hurting myself anymore but still want my penis remove I'm now talking to my counselor about it and she doesn't know what to do about it

does anybody else have a similar experience and can help me out with this.

[stephaniesteve1 (imported)]

You are not alone. I always hated my cock and balls from childhood and did much the same as you .I found the Calcium chloride thread on here and eventually got rid of my balls. Never been happier.Its never too late to get rid of them.

[Nidaho Rachel (imported)]

I don't know if I ever hated my balls and cock,but when I first learned that male genitals could be surgically turned in to female genitals I knew that is what I needed to have done with them. Maybe some day

[GordonGG (imported)]

I've always hated my balls. Damn things were a nuisance and in the way. It is wonderful to be ball free now.

[DifferentZach (imported)]

I can't say I hate my balls, but I've long wondered why the hell I have them after the dumbasses ablated my penis.

Ironically, the old approach to my situation was to castrate babies who were deemed intersex or who had a micro penis, give them vaginas and raise them as girls. Hell, they performed that surgery on "normal" 46 XY baby boys after circumcision went *really* bad. I think I was prolly only 2 doctors and 5 years beyond that very thing from happening to me.

Zach

[testishadim (imported)]

From an early age, I began to hate my balls. As I recall, it was after 12.

I love to torture them

[Mac (imported)]

I must have been around 6 years old when I first had thoughts of not having my penis.

[Eunuch2B (imported)]

I don't hate my penis or balls, but I'm an older man and have been more tending to become a-sexual for the last 10-15 years. I'm now that far that I would like very much to loose my balls and penis and become a-sexual in real life.

[Depiladobcn (imported)]

All my life i desired to get rid off my genitalia.. Withouts balls end penis will be better. But not necessarily become a girl.... I discover that at fithteen more or les...

[catoboros (imported)]

I don't hate my penis or balls, but I'm an older man and have been more tending to become a-sexual for the last 10-15 years. I'm now that far that I would like very much to loose my balls and penis and become a-sexual in real life.

I like the queer theory model of gender, which separates gender from biological sex and sexual orientation. Under this model, one can be asexual (having no sexual attraction), agender (not identifying with either masculinity or femininity), or both. And agender can be a gender identity or an androgynous gender expression, or both.

Genderbread Person v4.0 Poster

https://www.genderbread.org/resource/ge ... 4-0-poster

A wonderful new world of many colours. Much more complicated than 25 years ago, when I thought sex and gender were the same thing and there were only female and male.

[thoughtful1998 (imported)]

Sometimes is not question about how much you hate your body's intimate parts, but how much you love the one you give your body to.

[GordonGG (imported)]

Sometimes is not question about how much you hate your body's intimate parts, but how much you love the one you give your body to.

Hum... that's an interesting thought.

[ZimZamer (imported)]

I did since I was a teenager, but it was a result of extreme HOCD, I'm trying to get psychiatric help for it but most psychiatric professionals and institutions won't take Medicaid and the ones that do keep insisting that I'm psychotic and keep prescribing me anti-psychotics which do nothing but agitate my symptoms as well as generally make me feel like shit.

[rogerwpbfl (imported)]

Has anyone else had this desire? I've wanted to take off my cock and balls and leave them in my dresser for as long as I can remember. Sometimes, and this gets more perverse, I wish I could take them off and "loan them out" which also introduces a bit of risk because I don't know what ultimately will happen to them, if I'll get them back and what kind of condition they'll be in when they're returned. But to be real clear I'm really happy to be male and don't actually want to lose my sex. I just like the thought of losing it temporarily and the risk of it becoming permanent.

[TopManFL (imported)]

I did since I was a teenager, but it was a result of extreme HOCD, I'm trying to get psychiatric help for it but most psychiatric professionals and institutions won't take Medicaid and the ones that do keep insisting that I'm psychotic and keep prescribing me anti-psychotics which do nothing but agitate my symptoms as well as generally make me feel like shit.

Hey @ZimZamer,

You've been led down the wrong path. There is no such thing as HOCD. It's a fake term made up by homophobes. Calling it HOCD makes it sound like something that is psychologically wrong with a person and that can be treated.

If a person is gay there is nothing wrong with that. Calling it HOCD simply puts pressure on the gay person to get "help" that is normally in the form of what is termed "reparative therapy". Reparative therapy is used on gay men and women by so-called therapists to cure their HOCD.

The cure for being gay is to learn to love yourself the way God made you. God doesn't make mistakes and if you are gay then you are gay. Don't believe anyone who tells you that you have HOCD. In fact, in many states, reparative therapy is illegal. Be glad that your insurance doesn't cover it.

[TopManFL (imported)]

Has anyone else had this desire? I've wanted to take off my cock and balls and leave them in my dresser for as long as I can remember. Sometimes, and this gets more perverse, I wish I could take them off and "loan them out" which also introduces a bit of risk because I don't know what ultimately will happen to them, if I'll get them back and what kind of condition they'll be in when they're returned. But to be real clear I'm really happy to be male and don't actually want to lose my sex. I just like the thought of losing it temporarily and the risk of it becoming permanent.

Rog,

Good to see you on the forum.

Hope all is well. I'd borrow Ranger from you if I could. I promise that I would return him in good shape and that I would only add a few extra miles to his odometer.

Maybe you could make a copy of your cock with one of those "clone a willy" kits that create a dildo from a mold of a guy's junk. Then with a chastity cage locked in around your junk, you could put the latex dildo in your drawer. Mail the key to the chastity cage to yourself and put a hold on your mail for two weeks. That would be the closest you could come to losing the ability to use Ranger while he was at the bottom of your sock drawer.

I hope all is well with you.

[rogerwpbfl (imported)]

Rog,

Good to see you on the forum.

Hope all is well. I'd borrow Ranger from you if I could. I promise that I would return him in good shape and that I would only add a few extra miles to his odometer.

Maybe you could make a copy of your cock with one of those "clone a willy" kits that create a dildo from a mold of a guy's junk. Then with a chastity cage locked in around your junk, you could put the latex dildo in your drawer. Mail the key to the chastity cage to yourself and put a hold on your mail for two weeks. That would be the closest you could come to losing the ability to use Ranger while he was at the bottom of your sock drawer.

I hope all is well with you.

Hey @TopManFL, good to be seen! I dunno Ranger would be OK going in a cage. I see him stiffening before the cage can be closed, so I guess the only chance would be if we were both sleeping when he was "confined". I definitely don't see him being OK with it for two whole weeks. Day 2 or 3 would he'd be drooling pre like crazy and by day 4 or 5 he would prob have an Incredible Hulk moment and bend some steel.

I like your idea to clone him and then keep that version in my drawer, but maybe on the floor under a pile of sweaty socks would be better (just to show him his lowly place).

[ZimZamer (imported)]

Hey @ZimZamer,

You've been led down the wrong path. There is no such thing as HOCD. It's a fake term made up by homophobes. Calling it HOCD makes it sound like something that is psychologically wrong with a person and that can be treated.

If a person is gay there is nothing wrong with that. Calling it HOCD simply puts pressure on the gay person to get "help" that is normally in the form of what is termed "reparative therapy". Reparative therapy is used on gay men and women by so-called therapists to cure their HOCD.

The cure for being gay is to learn to love yourself the way God made you. God doesn't make mistakes and if you are gay then you are gay. Don't believe anyone who tells you that you have HOCD. In fact, in many states, reparative therapy is illegal. Be glad that your insurance doesn't cover it.

I assure you that it is very real, and it is the worst form of a more general OCD, I have intrusive thoughts in regards to various aspects of my beliefs, values, and identity, and frequently I do a myriad of compulsive actions(that often involve me turning some device or appliance off and on in a certain sequence or stepping backwards and tapping my foot and/or hand on something twice) to alleviate the anxiety associated with those thoughts. It has completely wrecked my life, it's so bad to the point that, as I've already mentioned, multiple psychiatrists diagnosed me with a psychotic disorder and they approved my application for disability within months of applying. I'm not seeking reparative therapy, I'm looking for treatment that will alleviate my anxiety as well reduce or stop my compulsions and also alleviate the depression that has resulted from the disintegration of my identity. SSRIs used to help to varying degrees but since the beginning of this year they don't work nearly as well and are giving me side effects I hitherto never experienced. I tried twice to have myself admitted to the local mental institution, but they won't take Medicaid. The psychiatrist I'm currently seeing that actually takes Medicaid won't listen to me and insisted on prescribing me anti-psychotics, as did the last of I saw years ago before I became fed up with him.

[BrianSanDiego (imported)]

I don't know if I ever hated my balls and cock,but when I first learned that male genitals could be surgically turned in to female genitals I knew that is what I needed to have done with them. Maybe some day

I've never hated my genitals either. In fact, they've brought me a lot of pleasure over the years! However, I just realize they don't express the real "me". I fully intend to have them turned into a vagina as well. I will really feel complete then.

[Begoneboy (imported)]

I've never hated my genitals either. In fact, they've brought me a lot of pleasure over the years! However, I just realize they don't express the real "me". I fully intend to have them turned into a vagina as well. I will really feel complete then.

I feel the same way towards a vagina. Would never want one. Since becoming nullo I've felt absolutely complete and content with myself and have had a wonderful life every since

[Chesleyt (imported)]

I had similar problems mentally I'm now on effexor which is a snri but was on paxil for 20 years and still had problems with effexor I'm having the problems im also on geodon wich is an anti psychotic and that has helped me greatly. try the anti psychotic meds and talk to your psychiatrist about changing to effexor it has taken decades to get my meds right thru trial and error if you don't like it you can stop

[ZimZamer (imported)]

I had similar problems mentally I'm now on effexor which is a snri but was on paxil for 20 years and still had problems with effexor I'm having the problems im also on geodon wich is an anti psychotic and that has helped me greatly. try the anti psychotic meds and talk to your psychiatrist about changing to effexor it has taken decades to get my meds right thru trial and error if you don't like it you can stop

I was on Paxil and with Gabapentin it worked fantastically, though if I took the Gabapentin too many days in a row it stopped having any effect so I had to wait a couple of weeks to take the Gabapentin to get the full effect, however the Paxil and also the Luvox stopped working at the beginning of the year, along with several other odd things such as significant weight loss and changes in my sleep patterns and dreams. I thought I might have diabetes but when I finally managed to get to a hospital they did blood work and told me I didn't. I really really wish I could get admitted to the mental hospital because I would be able to get my psych meds sorted immediately instead of only being able to see a psychiatrist once every four weeks.

I'm interested the SNRIs, but I'm absolutely terrified of anti-psychotics, the two that I was already prescribed, Risperdal and Zyprexa did nothing but give me terrible side effects such as giving me a constant sense of despair and terror and severely agitate my OCD symptoms. It's what ruined the one time I actually managed to get admitted to the mental hospital, they put me in chemical restraints and then gave me Risperdal, which made me wacked out of my mind and unable to actually benefit from any of the therapy they provided there. I do not want to try anymore anti-psychotics and find out what horrible side effects they will have.

[kristoff]

Following your posts here, I am disturbed by your actions and reactions. As a psychologist, reading this stuff, it is very clear to me that you are in fact psychotic. There are over 30 different meds that can be used in situations like yours. It is not unusual that some of them don't work or have unintended consequences and side-effects. The normal procedure is to discontinue the bad med, and try something else. Eventually, something usually works; it will take some time, and will need your cooperation and patience. I wish you well, but I am not going to let you continue your chaos here. Good-bye and good luck.

[racerboy (imported)]

I can't say I hate my balls, but I've long wondered why the hell I have them after the dumbasses ablated my penis.

Hell, they performed that surgery on "normal" 46 XY baby boys after circumcision went *really* bad.

Zach

Actually, that case, which was cited for years as a triumph of "nurture" over "nature" had a sad ending. The "girl" became suicidal and the truth was revealed, at which point "he" resumed his birth gender. Everything went well for a while; he even married. Then he got involved in a divorce and other problems (I believe some of them financial) and committed suicide anyway. See

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/David_Reimer

[DifferentZach (imported)]

Actually, that case, which was cited for years as a triumph of "nurture" over "nature" had a sad ending. The "girl" became suicidal and the truth was revealed, at which point "he" resumed his birth gender. Everything went well for a while; he even married. Then he got involved in a divorce and other problems (I believe some of them financial) and committed suicide anyway. See

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/David_Reimer

Absolutely. I know quite a bit about this case. It's a very sad example of how bad science masqueraded as substance. The fraudulent work shaped the "standard of care" for almost three decades. I know this case well, because I researched the hell out of it after I found out several older doctors wanted to remove my testicles and perform SRS, so my parents could raise me as a girl. WTF?? Fortunately, Dr. Money's work in this area had already fallen into question when I was born.

Zach