does it matter that it was never "fantasy"?

[meeunuch (imported)]

For many years there had been the deep seated desire to have nothing between my legs, secretly dreaming of having a pussy but being the ultimate in masculinity. Finally at 40+ years old someone offered to take my balls and time was not wasted. Poof they were surgically removed with the aid of an elastrator. I did have a little trouble and had to go into the ER and was kept overnight to have some repair done. Following that it healed rapidly and looked fantastic.

Six months later I was contacted by a cutter that was extremely knowledgable about the procedures and knew how to cauterize as well as relocate the urethra which was my greatest desire if I could'nt get a real pussy installed.

It took 30 days to the day to heal and wow was I happy with the result and never for a minute have I regretted following my destiny.

Now many see me in the locker room and shower of the gym and at nude beaches and they are very curious and many even inquisitive to the point of wanting to fondle my empty crotch. Some find out the real story of the means and why but most don't. Many straight men are highly turned on by it, gay men that are "100% topmen" love it and are highly turned on by it but many bottoms and many versatiles freak and think its warped. Little do I care about them as they're not the ones that I would want to have anything serious to do with anyway. The ones that are interested in knowing why or how are generally very kind and understanding.

Today I'm single and always in tune to the desire to be with a Man again, but with or without I'm happy with where I'm at sexually. I have wonderful orgasims anally when having intercourse with a Man and have had sex with two females that used a dildo and harness which was highly successful. I am bisexual but prefrence is towards very hairy and masculine Men, especially with large and uncut manmeat but those are not total pre-requisites. Most masculine Men get my attention and I do know my place in providing they're relief and satisfaction by this nulled eunuch "it".

I welcome anyone that has questions and desires to have someone guide and mentor them through the process and assistance in locating help to achieve their destiny.

I have to say that I encourage all that know this is a deep seated desire and know its they're destiny to follow that dream. There is great freedom and happiness at the end of the journey. Find someone that is helping you that does the procedures "because they know your needs and desires are not being helped by anyone else". Hopefully someday there will be normal medical means to allow a masculine male gendered man to achieve the process and even receive a vagina as there are so many that are born totally with the male genitalia where they know they were meant to be masculine manpussies with a vagina like I knew I was supposed to be from 12 or 13 years of age.

Feel free to drop me a note anytime and if you wish will always exchange pics. My email is "[email protected]". Look forward to talking with you.

nulled eunuch "it", nullo jim

[Paolo]

I did have a little trouble and had to go into the ER and was kept overnight to have some repair done. Following that it healed rapidly and looked fantastic.

Meeunuch,

If you don't mind sharing, could you give us a rough quote of what the bill came to for the ER?

A little cold splash of Reality wouldn't hurt.

Thanks.

[meeunuch (imported)]

and for Gods sake why? certainly not why I've come out on here to talk about.

[Tomas (imported)]

and for Gods sake why? certainly not why I've come out on here to talk about.

Because, among other things, Jim, this forum is about sharing information. Some of us do, some don't. Expect questions, some of them seemingly odd, from any direction. Doesn't mean you have to answer, of course, but questions are perfectly legit.

(And yes, I've covered the prices for my surgeries, etc., when asked.)

Take care,

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[Andrew (imported)]

and for Gods sake why? certainly not why I've come out on here to talk about.

Some of us would be interested in the cost of a penectomy done by an underground cutter followed by a visit to the nearest Hospital Emergency Room, as opposed to the costs of having it done in Thailand.

There are probably quite a few men, in the EA and elsewhere, who would be interested in a penectomy if it were affordable and available.

[Paolo]

and for Gods sake why?

Because it just might keep someone from making a big mistake.

If nothing else, numbers preceeded by $$$ signs get peoples' attention almost as quickly as your pictures do.

If you don't want to share that information, that's fine too.

[meeunuch (imported)]

the question regarding the visit to the er is irrelevant. it was an unexpected mis-calculation that caused it and nothing more. a better question then the cost of the ER visit which is the type of question that has kept me off of here for 6 years, is the question as to why I had to go to the ER. That was because of a mis calculation in placement of the banding of the nuts during the castration. it was covered by medicare thank God. But, that was not anyones fault. When the banding is too close to the groin it shuts off the circulation on both sides of the banding which could have caused gangrene eventually. Luckily it did'nt and all was well. Six months later the cutter contacted me andasked if I needed help with the penectomy. The cutter charged nothing. I supplied the necessary items for anesthetic and most everything else. They supplied the skill and expertise to accomplish it perfectly. The healing of the penectomy was 30 days to the day.

Please be sensitive to the fact that I'm asked the questions hundreds of times a month. I would appreciate not being asked questions that lead to 10,000 useless and inconsequential questions. That is precisely why I've stayed off of eunuch org. it happened before and I hoped in this day of more knowledge that the questions would be a little more thought out.

Cost should not be an issue that would cause anyone any distress. If its too expensive at a clinic its certainly not going to be too expensive at the hand of a non-clinician. If it sounds like its too much money that only leaves one choices. The people that helped me did it from their heart knowing that the only other alternative I had was to relieve myself of my genitals and that was't even an option.

let me know if you would rather I submitted nothing more! I'm not into fantasy and that is usually where the 10,000 questions come from! That I'm not into and don't want to waste your time.

I probably won't respond to every thread that comes across here as quickly as you would like. If someone wants an immediate answer to a question or a statement its best they send me the questions or comments via email. I have a life outside eunuch org and won't be responding every few minutes to notices that i've gotten another thread!

I hope that I don't appear to be insensative to what I perceive to be questions without relevence but I hope you can be a little sensative of my position too.

[meeunuch (imported)]

PS, I'm off to bed and won't be checking my mail until I return from work tomorrow at 1pm EST.

[Tomas (imported)]

I'd just like to leave one word as I leave this thread: Attitude.

[meeunuch (imported)]

no problem, I'll depart the group!

did'nt realize I was a hardship on your extreme sensativity! thought that we had a better communication and that what I did pass on would be better received rather then being criticized for what I did'nt feel comfortable entering into.

along with attitude you might check into an inventory of your "gratitude"!

wishing you the best of luck!

[sailorboy (imported)]

Dear Meeunich:

I hope I spelled it correctly. Please forgive me if I didn't. As one who just susbscribed to EA in late 2002, I found your narrative most informative. All information on these posts are voluntary and if you feel that some question is an invasion of your privacy, it is your prerogative to decline to respond.

From your response, I assume that you receive many e-mails "bugging" you for information. If I'm not mistaken, I believe you have posted an e-mail site for anyone wanting more information concerning your experience. What more can anyone

do?

Best wishes to you,

Sailorboy

[Paolo]

As Tomas so eloquently states, "attitude".

the question regarding the visit to the er is irrelevant...

Actually, it's not.

That question comes up on here, and in private email, quite a bit. In fact, it comes up so often that I copy/paste a text I use just for that. YOU have been there, and any information, including the bill or even more so - how you were treated - is very relevant to those considering it.

Some large points of it would be:

1. WHAT did you do and how?

2. How did the staff react?

3. How did they treat you and the injury?

4. Your reaction to them?

5. Cost / insurance coverage and reaction from them.

I believe that these are valid questions, and I don't understand why you OR anyone else would feel that they are not.

You say you are not into fantasy, yet when you advertise that you are into the reality, you seem put off when a question is asked. I don't understand. Of course you are going to be deluged with massive emails and PM's on the subject. And you should feel honored that someone took the time to ask something of you.

With what you have had done, and what you have been through in your own quest to eunuchism, you could be a very valuable asset to the boards here - but not with an attitude like that.

Sometimes I lay awake at night and I wonder, "Is someone going to read something on the board, without reading ALL of what's there, and go off half-popped and end up in the hospital?"

I'm a little touchy on this issue, simply because if it hadn't been for Divine Intervention, fate, karma, perfect timing - call it what you will - I was about an hour or so away from doing the exact same thing some years ago when I first discovered The Archive.

I can name at least four names from the chat we had that night, and they know who they are. I asked, and they answered. They'd been there, and if not for them, who knows what might have happened?

I would appreciate not being asked questions that lead to 10,000 useless and inconsequential questions.

Then weed out the silly questions, then, like the 3 of us who run this show do. Honestly, as if any board member who sees your posts is going to know WHICH questions to ask of you as a whole pile of questions races through his mind.

Staying and being the valuable mentor that you could be here would be a good thing, if you want to do it. Then again, if you can't understand what I'm getting at here and you're going to answer questions with remarks like those in this thread, then frankly, I could care less if the door hits you in the ass on the way out.

[yankee masha (imported)]

I guess heat doesn't always create light, does it? I don't think meeunuch exhibited an attitude. But it should be realized when you post something online thousands of people will read it and each one is alone at his PC. So no one is trying to swamp anyone. The recipient of the 10,000 similar questions gets stressed out and overwhelmed. All of this is natural.

But if you post a great pic of yourself that strikes a chord among the 10,000 curious maybe just compiling a list of FAQ and posting it would be the answer.

For myself I feel rudeness never works online from anyone, nor does personal criticism, and certianly neither does flaming and walking out and slamming the cyber door. If you begin something that can potentially reach millions worldwide or even hundreds, you need to be aware that you are going public.

For me my feelings about meeunuch are as sincere as to paolo, Tomas and anyone who is kind enough to share his innermost senibilities. It shows us none of us is alone. So why make remarks that are hostile, critical and angry?

There's nothing wrong with curiosity about an extremely unusual person, but that curiosity and other remarks can be couched in politeness.

And meeunuch should realize that he incites curiosity. Wasn't he curious before his surgery?

And the curious should realize that he may not want to make a career out of answering everyone's questions and has a right to back off when he is tired of it.

AND --most important -- if you know anything about eunuchs from history, they are very short tempered and do flame off out of nowhere and go out and slam the door. Like it or not a balance has been lost and they do not have the best of both worlds. Whatever the cause, eunuchs ae notoriously short fused and blow off at the most unexpected times and over the most unexpected things. The biggest problems with powerful eunuchs historically was that they did things that were unexpected and could take offense when none was intended. If you ever are able to read up on them, you'd see this is the main thing that was a liability -- they were emotionally erratic. They also combined kindness with scheming and they just don't think like men who have genitals.

[Bboy]

Look guys, everyone is welcome and appreciated on the boards here. I think we have a great place and a great group of people. Of course meeunuch's input would be valuable, but we're not going to beg anyone to stay here.

When you post you open yourself up to questions. And since meeunuch is into 'reality' I imagine Paolo's questions were probably a lot more relevant than 3/4 of the other ones meeunuch got.

That being the case, it's always meeunuch's perogative not to answer, but instead of exercising that option he went for the far less noble route of critizing and belittling the questioner. It took a lot more effort to do that than just to not answer any questions he didn't feel comfortable with.

Stay or don't stay ... I have no control over that but one's attitude online has a direct relationship to how one is treated and how much information, friendship, support, and enjoyment one gets out on a community.

[yankee masha (imported)]

Very well said, Bboy. Anger on a discussion board always shatters and disrupts -- especially when all one has to do is decline to answer.

[Losethem (imported)]

O.K. I can understand the points of each person that posted. Perhaps we need a link or something here to post as an FAQ. Those things that are factual could be put in. I think there are enough people here that have had it done that a reasonable FAQ could be put together that answers many of the recurring questions the newbies have.

On another note, I noticed the attitude as well. Of course I got the same attitude from meeunuch about 4-5 years ago when I wasn't ready to just jump up on a cutters table and say, "have at it." This is a VERY difficult decision for many men. I think instead of bickering and inviting questions, then saying you're not going to answer any questions we are doing a disservice to the community as a whole.

If anyone wants to put a good FAQ together, I'm willing to put some time in and ask relevant questions to get it done. I'm even willing to write it up and send it out for review to the interviewees before it's posted. Off the top of my head we could break it into four or five sections covering things from the desire (for those of us that have not done it), to fantasies, to the mechanics behind the proceedures, chemical castration, etc. I'm open for input.

This way only one person receives the information and then it is written up and reviewed by those that contributed.

Anyone have further ideas on this? It's been some years since a real good FAQ was put together for the community.

--LT

[Losethem (imported)]

I just posted a thread up in the comments and suggestions area to move discussion of a FAQ to. Please feel free to comment there. I'm willing to donate some time to write up the FAQ if there are people willing to help out with the facts.

--LT