On the Road

[BillyBlogs (imported)]

Hello Folks,

Today has been a very big day so far. My therapist has recommended I now find a GP with the appropriate knowledge to help me along the road to being surgically castrated. As my present GP is retiring, now is a good time to be thinking about it. There's one recommended by the Gender Centre in Sydney, Up the road a bit but not silly far away.

My therapist agrees with me that it's time to move forward a step, and do a trial on testosterone reducing drugs to see how I fare. I will need a GP with knowledge on how to be at the hub of the various other medicos who will now become involved.

My God People! I'm finally going to be realised, and I'm just about fit to burst! I can't believe it, but it's real. The sense of relief and release is overwhelming. I'm going to be free!

I AM GOING TO BE MADE A EUNUCH!

(I can hardly wait, ya know?)

[WheelyCurious]

Congratulations!!!!!

WheelyCurious

[BillyBlogs (imported)]

Hello all,

If I were superstitious, I would say that now is the time. Everything seems to be almost automatically falling into place. I went to have a talk with my GP, partly about my progress with my counsellor, and also about finding someone who would make a good replacement for him, as he's retiring in a few months.

I asked my present doctor if there was anyone in his practice he could recommend. He said no, but then named my previous doctor who's moved about an hours train ride away. I would be happy to do the travelling though. The doctor is good. Very perceptive indeed.

An appointment has been made for Tuesday week. This should kick things off in a big way as far as getting castrated is concerned.

This is so exciting. Each hurdle seems to be falling in front of me as I go. I've just got to keep my damned tangle-feet out of the crossbars 'till the end it seems.

Billy.

[BillyBlogs (imported)]

Hello folks,

Today was my appointment with a new GP. He was my doctor a few years ago.

The upshot-

I now need a referral to a surgeon.

The question is whether my psychologist is qualified to make such a referral. If not, my doctor gave me a list of some who are qualified, and a one session meet should be sufficient to get the referral.

An appointment with the surgeon. Maybe two, in order to discuss any preparation and post-op care.

Another appointment with my new GP to start sorting out the hormone issues.

It sort of seems to be in reverse order, but the doctor tells me it's the preferred method now. This would be my preferred order of events in an ideal world too, and what do you know, here it is.

So, depending on how the details work out, I will be a brand new eunuch inside of a couple of months.

My head is still spinning. This whole process has been amazingly painless. Things have moved along at a rate that keeps surprising me. So much so that the amount of joy in my life lately has felt like it's on the brink of ostentation or obscenity. The neighbours must think I'm some kind of lunatic. I wander around with this little grin all the time.

If you watch "The Dam Busters" movie through, you'll see how matters have developed with me. What started as a massive bang, and then a disappointing trickle has become a torrent. Stepping out of my old confused identity and into the freedom of genderlessness has been the most wonderful thing to ever happen to me.

The journey that began in 1970 or so is coming to an end. The circle is drawing closed. It feels so very nice.

Regards,

Billy.

[Valery_V (imported)]

Wish you luck!

Indeed, it is quite an exciting adventure!

It could even serve as the basis for stories in the EA library.

[WheelyCurious]

Sounds really fantastic, glad to hear things are working out well for you! Seems to be yet another instance similar to mine where going the medical supervision route is turning out to be much easier these days than it used to be.

WheelyCurious

[raj1tm115 (imported)]

Hello folks,

Today was my appointment with a new GP. He was my doctor a few years ago.

The upshot-

I now need a referral to a surgeon.

The question is whether my psychologist is qualified to make such a referral. If not, my doctor gave me a list of some who are qualified, and a one session meet should be sufficient to get the referral.

An appointment with the surgeon. Maybe two, in order to discuss any preparation and post-op care.

Another appointment with my new GP to start sorting out the hormone issues.

It sort of seems to be in reverse order, but the doctor tells me it's the preferred method now. This would be my preferred order of events in an ideal world too, and what do you know, here it is.

So, depending on how the details work out, I will be a brand new eunuch inside of a couple of months.

My head is still spinning. This whole process has been amazingly painless. Things have moved along at a rate that keeps surprising me. So much so that the amount of joy in my life lately has felt like it's on the brink of ostentation or obscenity. The neighbours must think I'm some kind of lunatic. I wander around with this little grin all the time.

If you watch "The Dam Busters" movie through, you'll see how matters have developed with me. What started as a massive bang, and then a disappointing trickle has become a torrent. Stepping out of my old confused identity and into the freedom of genderlessness has been the most wonderful thing to ever happen to me.

The journey that began in 1970 or so is coming to an end. The circle is drawing closed. It feels so very nice.

Regards,

Billy.

Dear Billy,

I was kindly referred to this thread by Valery_V.

I am based out of Melbourne and under treatment under a few Psychiatrists for my desire for Orchiectomy. When I lost all hope at home, I turned to overseas for my surgery. See my thread http://forums.eunuch.org/showthread.php ... rchiectomy

Your thread seems to indicate that the took the wrong route and that's why I am stuck.

I have a few questions and would be grateful if you can help me with

- I was mainly looking only for Orchiectomy. Did you do the same or penectomy also?

- I went to a Urologist. What kind of surgeon should be doing this?

Kind Regards, raj

[BillyBlogs (imported)]

Wish you luck!

Indeed, it is quite an exciting adventure!

It could even serve as the basis for stories in the EA library.

Yes Valery, it's a very exciting time. Finally, after too long I can finally be me.

[BillyBlogs (imported)]

Sounds really fantastic, glad to hear things are working out well for you! Seems to be yet another instance similar to mine where going the medical supervision route is turning out to be much easier these days than it used to be.

WheelyCurious

Indeed, things are really moving along. I saw my GP on Monday, and Tuesday morning the urologist was on the hooter to set up the consultation prior to surgery. I'm really amazed at how normalised this gender fluidity has become in the medical world.

[BillyBlogs (imported)]

Dear Billy,

I was kindly referred to this thread by Valery_V.

I am based out of Melbourne and under treatment under a few Psychiatrists for my desire for Orchiectomy. When I lost all hope at home, I turned to overseas for my surgery. See my thread http://forums.eunuch.org/showthread.php ... rchiectomy

Your thread seems to indicate that the took the wrong route and that's why I am stuck.

I have a few questions and would be grateful if you can help me with

- I was mainly looking only for Orchiectomy. Did you do the same or penectomy also?

- I went to a Urologist. What kind of surgeon should be doing this?

Kind Regards, raj

Hi there Raj,

My pathway to where I'm at now is quite a bit different to your journey. What I will do is tell you what I think you should doing order that your needs are best met.

Before this though, there are a few things I need to make quite clear-

Even though what I can tell you is largely generic, I am not a medical expert. Nor am I capable in the field of psychology.

OK. First things first. How many visits to these psychiatrists have you made? In this day and age, if there have been more than say three or four and you have no other issues being treated, it's my opinion that you are being milked.

These things need to be achieved:

Your GP should refer you to a psychiatrist or psychologist with gender diversity experience.

Your counsellor will need to provide what is called a WPATH letter or equivalent, so ask your GP to refer you to a counsellor who can provide such a letter. If your GP doesn't know, ask before making an appointment.

After a few sessions, your counsellor will establish that you are not a raving looney, and will recommend your doctor refer you to a surgical urologist. This is to do with informed consent. Surgeons like to know they are not part of some weird psychotic episode.

A consultation with the surgeon where they will discuss those things that surgeons charge a lot to discuss will take place, then an appointment at a hospital, or the surgeons rooms will be set for the proceedure.

To hurry things along, I would strongly suggest that you search on something like- "gender diverse doctor Melbourne". You will find a number of general practitioners as well as organisations. See if there's some doctor local to you. You might be lucky.

Whether local or not, your GP should be the starting point, and the hub of your journey. They are your connection with the appropriate specialists. Bypassing them and approaching a surgeon will generally bring disappointment because they need to see the WPATH letter in order to "do due diligence" and be sure you are not nutty as a fruit cake.

There will be follow up appointments with your GP and maybe an endocrinologist to set up and maintain your hormone levels depending on what you want once your balls are gone.

Then it seems all that is left is to take your hormones and get on with your new life.

The way Medicare works also requires that you go through the right channels. If you do, a large chunk of the fees gets refunded to you too.

I am going to be castrated and have my scrotum removed as well.

Keep us posted, ask more questions if you need, and good luck on your quest.

Billy.

[raj1tm115 (imported)]

Dear Billy, Sorry I was a bit late in responding, depression got hold of me in the morning.

Thanks a ton my friend. That's a lot of info to chew in. Yes, I have had multiple visits to the Psychiatrist's. But the mistake I did this far, was that I was more focusing on my mental health like OCD, depression, etc. and not so much on my sexuality.

I will start with the GP as he/she needs to be the hub. Thanks once again. Will keep posted.

Regards, raj

[BillyBlogs (imported)]

Dear Billy, Sorry I was a bit late in responding, depression got hold of me in the morning.

Thanks a ton my friend. That's a lot of info to chew in. Yes, I have had multiple visits to the Psychiatrist's. But the mistake I did this far, was that I was more focusing on my mental health like OCD, depression, etc. and not so much on my sexuality.

I will start with the GP as he/she needs to be the hub. Thanks once again. Will keep posted.

Regards, raj

No need to apologise. I know how awful it is to find all your your get up and go has got up and gone.

A really big part of my journey was finding out that my profound depression was caused by me not realising I was not a man, because I look just like one in a binary minded world. That was the world in which I grew up.

I think you need to get clear in your mind about what is causing what in your life so you can address them in the right order. To put it another way-

Is your depression and OCD caused by you not being a eunuch even though you identify as one?

or,

Do you want to be castrated to try and control your OCD urges?

I think the difference here is crucial.

As I said earlier, I am no expert. So, with that in mind;

If you in fact have OCD, then cutting bits of your body off may not be appropriate.

However, if you are obsessive about becoming a eunuch because that is how you identify but is not how you are, that's a different matter.

Be sure you are going after the right 'treatment' to make your life better for you. If I were in your place, I think the option for chemical castration could be a good one, as both chemical and surgical will have the same effect. If you get no relief from your OCD, then no harm done. If you do, then you know where to go with your future. But that's just my opinion.

In the mean time, be kind to yourself, even if nature hasn't always.

Billy.

[raj1tm115 (imported)]

Dear Billy,

Quite a thoughtful mail, thank you once again my friend. I am still reading and thinking about some of the points

It was last July I had a mental breakdown. Till then I never knew I had mental illness and yes it has humbled me... yay!. 'They' say I have OCD and generalized anxiety disorders stemming from PTSD (sexually abused at 14).

But at least a few things are clear to me, at least for now. Yes, I was born a male and yes I had uncontrollable compulsive sexual behaviors. And Yes I have been wanting castration for a long time but I never had the courage to talk about it to anyone. It was only this year I summed up my courage to ask my long-time GP for castration. Knowing me, he was quite surprised... I could tell. But the route got quite hazy because I asked this question in the peak of my mental illness.

Anyway, better late than never is what I think. So I think I need to speak up and boldly say I desire castration. Hope I find the courage . I am narrowing down to a few trans friendly GP clinics here. Will keep posted.

Kind Regards, raj

P.S.: Thanks a ton Valery for leading me to this thread