becoming a eunuch

[Losethem (imported)]

How true Phillip. I know I am moving closer everyday and I will be doing to be my true self. Like you, it is deep inside me. People don't understand why I want this when I tell them my goal is to simply be a man without testicles. "Why remove your natural source or testosterone?" they say. I don't have a good answer other than I just know it is what I need to do to be who I feel

I am inside.

Again I must say Castration is not for everyone. If you think it would be a cool scene then Castration is NOT for you. If you wnat it for the sexual thrill then castration is NOT for you. there is in my opinion only a few reasons to be castrated those are:medical reasons, reduction of an out of controll libido (I am hesitant on this one) and to be your true self (this is my reason and it is deeply seated).

[lilac (imported)]

Hey Phil,

This is my first reply on your first post. Sorry it took me so long. Im the type that would rather talk to you in the chatroom. Dont know why, guess im not must of a reader, not sure. Well anyway, I knew a lot of what you had said in the chat...but really didnt realize all the pain you had mentally in your early years as a child, teen and young adult. I am really glad also, that you shared it with everyone. Now you know I told you I wanted to be there with you in Philly, and I would you know that if I could... but as you know im in the process of getting this foot of mine healed, so the date you have picked my foot brace wont be off untill after that. And as I told you that I wont be able to be there with you. Yes it upsets me that I cant be there with you as I was with Christina and Bubba. We are always told *Things happen for a reason*.... so, this must not be our time to meet. You know I think of you as a little brother and I want the best for you Phil. I'm so happy for you babe.guess it's less then 2 weeks left, I know your hearts pounding faster every day. Well I will call you when you get up there to see how it goes. I love ya little brother. see you soon, your big sis, Lilac

[sag111 (imported)]

You know Phill how can we not love our Lilac .

[guy26 (imported)]

On April 8th i will be undergoing

a surgical procedure performed by Dr. Murray Kimmel.

Someone mentioned to me in the chat room that Kimmel is retiring and will no longer be performing castrations in the near future. Is this true?

[philip1 (imported)]

at this time he is not retiring but it may happen someday but not right away

[Riverwind (imported)]

I wish you the very best my friend.

River

[philip1 (imported)]

Today is the seven month anniversary of my trip to Seattle, although it didn't truly hearald the entry of a new eunuch into the world, I feel I was a eunuch emotionally from the moment I started the car for the drive up. This week I will be having the surgery to fix the physical problem. Over the last Month I have had a lot of pain in both of my cords while this is strange to me I looked at it as motivation to continue forward with my plans.

I wish to thank in advance those who plan on visiting me while I'm in Philidelphia

[DrewR (imported)]

Hey, Phillip.

I just read all the posts at once. It's amazing. I'm 3 hours from Seattle, too, in Portland. It would be so cool to know someone going through what you did and help them out with the drive, laundry, groceries, whatever to make the transition easier. I wish I knew you.

Drew

[sag111 (imported)]

Hello DrewR i plan on stoping and seeing Phill this summer who knows maybe we can sit and have a cup of coffee as i pass through your city.I have had the privlage of meeting five people from the chat room now and i have found them to be some of the nicest people i know. Good luck on your jurnery.

[philip1 (imported)]

It's Thursday April 7th tomorrow morning is surgery and I am actually kind of getting exited. My exitement is more of a releived exitement than just exitement. we had a nice walk arround the city today and man I'm tired. I will need to get to bed early tonight so I will be somewhat awake tomorrow morning. I will attempt to post an update tomorrow afternoon if I feel up to it.

thanks for all your prayers and concern

P.S. I couldn't do this without my best friend Bub

THANKS Bub

[DrewR (imported)]

Phillip,

Prayers and concern, yeah, but also admiration and respect. You're awesome.

Take good care of yourself afterward and write often.

Drew

[bobbie (imported)]

I wish you the very best as your new life contiunes. I will first hand what you are going through and may share my experiences as well. Again good luck to you.

[philip1 (imported)]

It's finally over I'm alive and back in the hotel will post more when i'm up to it

[bobbie (imported)]

I am so happy for you today. Wish you very fast recovery.

[Patricia_TS (imported)]

Congratulations Phillip! :balsmilie

I'm happy for you that you were finally able to get it done. Congrats!

[Robby (imported)]

Philip,

Congratulations on completing the task. Please keep us posted on your progress. If you need help with any issue caused by castration, please do not hessitate to ask. We are all here to help.

Here is a fun website to keep you busy tonight. Use your mouse moving it left to right and right to left: CLICK ON ME... (http://www.wagenschenke.ch/)

Take care and best of luck in the future as our newest Eunuch.

[DrewR (imported)]

Yeah, man! I am so happy for you! The world is a little more beautiful today.

[philip1 (imported)]

Yesterday was a busy day for me. 8:30 am Bub and I arrive

at the office of Dr. Kimmel. We were early, 9:00am we go in for his preop consultation. By 9:30 I'm in surgery. This is where things got weird, I had NO sleep the night before so the 5mg (yes just 5mg) of Vallium knocked me for a loop and I got nauseous. I had brought my iPod with me so I wouldn't know what was happening (didn't work) I ended up talking with the Doc throughout the surgery. Due to my own despiration and stupidity the Left side (Seattle trip) had massive adhesions. Dr . Kimmel took almost 45 minutes to get all of that cleaned up the rest of the surgery only took another 45 minutes. After he had finished all the cutting and sutureing he had me lay there for ten minutes or so. When it was time to get up that is when I had real problems. I stepped off the table and sat in a chair when (probably due to anxiety no sleep and the val

lium) my blood prea

sure dropped dramatically. It took less than a second for the doc and his assistant to huff me back up on the table. Talk about a scarry moment Kimmel's assistant had to try three times to find my blood preasure (yes I was that bad) but it came back up. Thanks to the wisdom quick thinking and caring of Dr. Kimmel and staff I am able to write this post. So anyone that says Kimmel has slowed I say they're WRONG. During all this I had my best friend in the whole world with me Bubba (they couldn't have stopped him if they tried). When I was strong enough I was taken to the lobby and laid feet up on a couch. Everyone came and checked on me about every minute. soon I had strength enough to get up and walk arround a tiny bit (I had to pee really bad and needed to find the restroom). After about an hour it was Bubba's turn. Bubba's surgery took over 2 hours due to worse adhesions than I had. After it was all done we were propped up in Dr. Kimmels office for postop consultation (pills and whatnot that had to be taken). We all agreed if you are planning on having the scrotum removed at some point it is better for healing to have it removed at the time of castration.

Anyway I've typed long enough and am tired. will post more latter.

[DrewR (imported)]

Seriously, if there is anything I can do for you and Bubba from Portland, let me know. I'd be glad to help. Maybe I could gleen some of your coolness!

[DrewR (imported)]

P.S.

sag111,

I don't know if you noticed this site has a message feature, but I sent you a message saying yeah, I'd love to meet when you come this way.

Drew

[sheep79 (imported)]

hi Phil glad that everything worked out ok for both you and Bubba talk to you on chat when you are up to it. Dave

[eyeindependent (imported)]

Congratulations! Glad to hear that all went well for you. Anyway, take it easy, and keep us posted. Cheers.

[luvpain (imported)]

Congrats :balsmilie

I'm glad you have reached this major goal in your life. It nearly a year after I reached mine. My partner and I started the journey on April 9th 2004, although because of the adhesions I had from previous attempts and CBT sessions and running out of sterile gauze pads I had to stop with just the right one removed that day.

I'm glad you managed to accomplish your goal and wish you well.

- Matt (luvpain)

[philip1 (imported)]

For every soul in the world there is a match a soulmate a person who you are totally compatible with someone you can't live with out. A person who fills the void in your life and completes you. I have found that person and we are the best of friends and have a love that can't be broken. The long talks we have are the stuff that pulls us closer to each other. We both know and agree that there can't be any sexual content in our relationship and if it were possible it would ruin it. This love is not gay, straight, bi, or any other it is the pure love that is between soulmates.

we are inseporable and a formit

able match for anyone. The person I speak of is Bubba, I do Love him and i would die to protect him as he would me that I considder true love and I sincerely hope every one can find their soul

mate as I have.

[philip1 (imported)]

Were home tired and swolen but home. the 5 hour flight and the 3 hour drive didn't do either of us any favors however we both were able to get some sleep on the plane so the flight didn't seem so long.

regarding the previous post... Bub and I are both extatic that we have found the one person who completes us and we will be together a long long time.

troubles will come our way but we will get through it because we are a team

and a formidable one at that.