First View

[farharbour (imported)]

For somre reason I have been thinking of the very first photo of a eunuch I ever saw. It was of a Russian Skoptsi, a tall thin, man .. he had a very long uncut penis, was beearded and looked very masculine. I can remember the rush when I realized I wanted to look like that... masculine but neutered.. I found the book with the photo at the Library of COngress many years ago, it was in French which I read. Found the same photo on line oncce, but forgot to mark it and have never been able to find it again... Now I have seen many photos and videos of castrated men, but that one photo remains the ideotype, tall thin uncircumsized...Do any of you remember seeing a photo of a eunuch for the first time?

[FianceeUvBigGuy (imported)]

Hi, sweeties,

Yoli the Fishin' Lady here, LOL!

Before I address the question...

I'm up early 'cause one of the partners in our firm has just purchased a new bassboat and has asked me to "guide" him on the maiden voyage. This is what happens when a mild-mannered little girl becomes an avid huntress and fishingchick. Well, it beats working at the office, but I told him NO WAY when he wanted to launch the boat at 6AM...too darned cold...and I still have the shivers from attending the football game in KC last Saturday.

Ripping across a lake at 65+mph in this weather? Ha!

Anyway...

I remember well my reaction to seeing an authentic photo(s) of a eunuch for the first time. I actually felt a little electric shock, almost as though someone had sneaked up behind me and said "Boo!" as I took my initial peek.

A few moments later I was amazed to feel sexual arousal as well. My cute 'lil kitty began to moisten and I struggled not to show any external signs of excitement.

I clearly recall my disappointment when the photos (in print, not on the internet) were tucked away by the girl who showed it to me. Later, she made me some good copies...still a treasure!

I still react in that manner.

Then, not long thereafter, I was introduced to Barry, a eunuch by choice. When I saw his empty baggie and "innocent" peepee for the first time I was extremely aroused. OMG!

I've sought and viewed castration images for the past few years now and I am now 30-something but no less eager to see more so long as they are not in a BDSM or child-related context.

The little circle of other girls and older women I share my interest with pretty much react the same way, to varying degrees, and all of us are on-the-hunt for more.

I guess it all stems from the near-rape I endured at age thirteen and the castration reference made by an aunt a few days later.

Well, this wacky chiquita has a date with some bass! I AM good at it, own pro level tackle, and lots of it, and I'm gonna show the boss man how it's done.

He's already resentful of the fact that I outshoot him on dove and quail...heehee!

We have a bet going; If I outfish him (all bass are released, BTW) I get two days "comp time". If he wins...no way!!!...I have to drive to Dallas to pick up a gift for his wife from some hoity-toity store. Whatever it is, he doesn't want it shipped.

Well, ask me what time it is and I'll tell you how to build a watch!

Love to all, and try to remember the true meaning of Christmas.

Remember. too, that the aim of the Islamic radicals is to take it and Channukah away from us.

Yolanda the Texas Outdoor Goddess...riiiight!

[Uncle Flo (imported)]

I was fascinated by castration before I saw a photo of a eunuch and that one was a recently made polaroid. There have been many photos since and they all interest me in the same way the first one did. Of course since the first photo I've seen eunuchs in the flesh but that doesn't diminish the visual impact of seeing more either in images or in person. --FLO--

[Paolo]

Just wait until you have the real thing in person right in your face at 2 in the morning...it's very frightening. Good thing I am not prone to bedwetting.

(Sorry Talula, I had to say that!)

[LEE (imported)]

I guess I share with Yolanda that certain sense of excitement upon seeing a penis with nothing underneath. In my case, the excitement comes from the reality that men actually do get castrated, and I could be someday, too. Of course, since becoming chemically castrated myself, I no longer get so aroused physically, but I still do mentally.

But, what do you mean by an "innocent peepee"? Does that only apply to one that hangs limp and non-threatening? Or do you also get a thrill from seeing one that is fully hard, with the underside obviously empty. There is something kind of appealling to me about an erect, castrated penis, particularly when the bag has been removed or is cold and tightly contracted. It makes the lack of what should be at the base so obvious. I think it actually looks kind of neat, smooth and streamlined. Balls don't belong under an erect penis, not aesthetically. They distract from the smooth flow of the underside. I love the look of futility; it's comical; it wants to act like a man's penis, but it obviously isn't.

Does Barry get fully erect, or is the fact that he doesn't what you enjoy so much?

[farharbour (imported)]

Well I like the erect castrated penis

[homptydumpty (imported)]

I love the thought of being captured eternally, on film, for others viewing pleasure.

Something about sharing something seen as so private by most, with the world, fascinates me.

I only hope that I can be the subject of others amazement, long after I have passed.

I truly think that the eunuch is underrated and unappreciated, quality photos are few and fare between. I am willingly a muse.

zya

[Marc8 (imported)]

Hard, Erect, and missing the essential baggage...why yes, whatever made you think otherwise??? hehehe!!

The Castration Groups that got zapped over at Yahell have made a very sad impression for me - after being a member for years, and with the other available sites in question, I miss being able to see the new crop of missing "jewelry". But yes indeed, we should be able to have more willing members of the family open up to imortality and time-honored tradition. Does anyone know where there are videos, and/or magazines available with Eunuchs in prominant features? BME has some, but I do remember the one of the Skoptzi from Russia, and it did indeed make a sizeable impression on me as well.

There is one of a very masculine guy who removed his own testicles, then had the scrotum removed surgically, and taking hrts today, he has the most beautiful hard erect and totally beautiful dick I've seen so far. Now...where can we see more of 'em??!

Love ya!

Marc

[erikboy (imported)]

It was year 1997 I guess. BME was started not long ago and all the pictures of modifications were still free. There I saw my first real eunuch picture. It was so unreal to see obviously empty scrotum.

I often looked at this picture long long time, trying to figure out how could it feel if I had no balls.

Despite I have imagined how a eunuch could look like for many years, since my teens, seeing a real eunuch picture was very exciting. Very exciting.

And I still enjoy the looks of ballless scrotum. All eunuchs are different. I feel like I never can get enough.

[FianceeUvBigGuy (imported)]

I guess I share with Yolanda that certain sense of excitement upon seeing a penis with nothing underneath. .

But, what do you mean by an "innocent peepee"? Does that only apply to one that hangs limp and non-threatening? Or do you also get a thrill from seeing one that is fully hard, with the underside obviously empty. There is something kind of appealling to me about an erect, castrated penis, particularly when the bag has been removed or is cold and tightly contracted.

Does Barry get fully erect, or is the fact that he doesn't what you enjoy so much?

Lee,

Hi, Sweetie, Yoli here.

Sitting here, munching away on some shrimp and taking a break from case work...

Anyway, my "innocent peepee" thing is probably rooted (peepee...root! LOL!) in a near rape when I was 13. Since the recent hacking might have eliminated the details I'll briefly reprise.

While wiggling and jiggling down a hallway at my middle school I was attacked by a janitor who turned out to be an illegal immigrant from Mexico. He dragged me into a supply room and was about to force his smelly you-know-what into my mouth when the Band Director happened along, heard my cries, and kicked the door down. He beat and kicked the bastard so badly that the creep was in intensive care for a while.

Thus, the first sight I ever had of an adult's penis was of this aggressor's unwashed one. Maybe that's why the sight of a limp (retracted or dangling) penis over an empty (or missing) baggie so attracts me. In my mind, perhaps, I can see, touch, nibble, suck, otherwise experiment with, the penis without fear. It's now an "innocent peepee".

Here's the odd (to some) part. I've been involved in an intimate relationship with a married couple for a few years now, and I share accommodations with a sexy bisexual lady a few years my senior. When I'm with the man in the equation I enjoy, most greatly, all manner of love-making with him. We never are alone together because his wife is happily participating, as is, often, my roomie...so it's always a three- or foursome.

I adore "BigGuy" (an Army officer) and his spouse and his penis and balls are objects to be worshipped and enjoyed. Why? Well, I suppose it's because he's kind, gentle, a patriotic warrior in defense of America, and funnier than most comedians. It doesn't hurt that he's one handsome rascal as well, LOL!

He's aware of the castration kink I share with my roomie, his own spouse, and a small "coven" of like-minded ladies here in San Antonio. He also knows that we'd NEVER consider castrating HIM. We want him just like he is!

Now, as for Barry...

Barry is a true friend. He is cute, funny, kind, and always "there" for me. True, he is a eunuch, by choice, but we (me and Ashleigh, my roomie) have sex play with him when he visits us here or we trek to Lubbock, where he lives.

His "peepee" was never a "biggie" (re pre-castration pics) to begin with but it does fatten up a little when one or both of us applies our special talents. He does take a bit of HRT now and then so that helps when we want him to become able to penetrate (I prefer him in my "other" port-of-entry, since he fits without hurting my tiny hiney and he makes me VERY happy that way.) Otherwise, his peepee is a favorite lollipop...blush...and he CAN have orgasms and make a little honey for us...not much. He can come when only half-erect too!

Anyway, I hope this makes some sense of it all.

BTW, Barry still has his baggie. His balls were taken out in Juarez, Mexico several years ago, before I met him. He has begun to reveal more "clues" as to why he had it done...fascinating. Sad, too, since his mother had much to do with his decision.

Barry is gay, actually, but frolics with us because, well, he loves us and likes helping us enjoy our "castration fascination". He says it makes him feel worthwhile as a person.

We have also hosted a couple of Barry's male friends, including another castrated older man and a eunuch of about Barry's age.

The first time we were all naked...three eunuchs!...I went crazy.

The guys were amused by my constant "inspections" and didn't mind female hands (and mouth) applied to their remaining goodies. The older guy, maybe 55?, had a huge peepee. It dangled all long and floppy, never getting more than a tiny bit thicker no matter what Lil' Yoli did to it. Darn! BTW, his balls were taken out via the little cuts in the lower tummy, not via cuts in his baggie. I prefer the look of a cut-open-then-sutured or cut-off baggie, since that seems more punitive or whatever than the "medical reasons" tummy cuts.

Well, those are topics for another time, or never.

Lee, I hope this clarifies my "kink". Harmless enough, I'd say.

Back to the grind.

Love to all, and Merrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeee Chrismas! (Ho, ho, ho!)

Yolanda the Deranged Elf(ette)

Santa's San Antonio Branch Manager

PS: "FianceeUv", "FUBG"...etc, was BigGuy's wife, now referred to as "WOBG", before they married. She is the original poster in our little group and since Ash(leigh) and I live on BigGuy's inherited estate here she left the account open when they transferred to another Army post. I am NOT engaged to BigGuy...sniffle.

[Zac (imported)]

I can honestly say that I have only ever seen a picture of one Eunuch, which obviously isnt enough. He wasnt healed, and the picture was during the procedure. Even so I thought it was amazing and obviously liberating in some way for the person going through the operation. I dont do much 'surfing' trying to find pics.... perhaps I should start.

[TgEunuch (imported)]

Good Question.

The first view of a eunuch I ever saw was on BME. While I was looking stuff on transgenderism I came across a story of guy named Warner who had his penis removed to please his girlfriend. So I went to BME's webpage and found something by a Smooth Tom (now gone), who had his penis and testicles because of pain. And I saw a photo of two Nullos standing next to each other. Wow did that got my attention. I never saw anything more beautiful than those Nullos with smooth crotches. Well that changed anything I ever thought on Gender Identity, that YES there are more than two sexes.

As a postcript, HBO had a documentary called "Middle Sex" which showed a Indian guy having complete Hijra surgery, which I've watched over and over....

[LEE (imported)]

Just to clarify my previous post (as the result of a subsequent post).

I am not at all interested in a eunuch taking HRT. That complete negates the purpose of castration - to take away the sexual desires.

The reason I find an erect penis with obviously missing balls so exciting is the fact that it makes the absense of balls so obvious. Otherwise, I would have to say I would prefer to see a limp eunuch with its sack removed, although I do respect the fact that some women get a thrill out of playing with the empty sack.

[FianceeUvBigGuy (imported)]

Just to clarify my previous post (as the result of a subsequent post).

...I do respect the fact that some women get a thrill out of playing with the empty sack.

Yes, I certainly do!

Yoli sez...

When I first met Barry I was all antsy in anticipation of seeing his "goods", or lack thereof. But, being the proper lady that I am I let things take a natural course.

I didn't get to see proof of his castration until the next day, when we all went for a skinny-dip. (Ash[leigh], Barry, and Lil' Ol' me.)

I was wearing sunglasses, and nearly stared a hole through them while trying to be nonchalant about what I was so much freaking at the sight of...my first empty baggie and "innocent" peepee.

Later, after showers for all, when "touchy-feely" finally began, my castration fascination took control and I must have spent an hour looking at his privates (or does one drop the "s" if there's only a peepee left?) from every conceivable angle. When I got up the nerve to actually touch him "down there" (actually, I was on my knees, looking up at my new treasures,) things went from good to great.

Before we three finally collapsed at near-dawn I had made some astounding discoveries. One, a hairless and empty baggie feels (at least his does) like a little wrinkly velvet purse. Two, a peepee above an empty "purse" looks soooooo sweet and innocent...and it's tasty too. Three, Barry CAN have 75-90% erections and even, sometimes, put his peepee in some nice warm places. Four, he CAN have an orgasm and even give me a tiny sip of something thin but tasty, especially if he's recently done some minimal HRT. Five, his peepee is small, maybe like that of a half-through-puberty boy (not that I've ever seen one, thank God,)but it's pretty and, best of all..."Innocent"-looking.

Much later on, when a eunuch friend of Barry's came over from Houston to join us for a weekend, I saw another "format". This nice man is older, late forties at the time we met and just over fifty now, and is a more rugged specimen than our rather boyish Barry. His empty sack is pretty substantial and his chew toy is MUCH larger. When conditions are warmish it dangles rather impressively and it's on the thick side too. I've never seen it erect but it does swell a bit and get a teeny bit longer. Fun to wrap my dainty paws around and treat like a lollipop. Sometimes I regret it won't squeeze into tight places.

I have a fantasy wherein I become a tiny little "Jungle Jane" in a nearly nonexistent loincloth and tiny top and actually swing on the guy's peepee...BLUSH!

This all raises a serious question in my twisted mind, to whit: I maintain that if a eunuch's penis is small and tidy it's officially a "peepee". So then, if a eunuch has one like the older guy does, all longish and kinda plump, "peepee" doesn't do it justice. I've been trying to think of an appropriate term that wouldn't apply to a big thingie that still HAS balls under it. Something exclusive to a large eunuch thingie.

Please submit contest entries, NLT 1/1/07, LOL!!!

The winner will receive a castration fantasy story, in this forum, written with total disregard for plagiarism laws by Yoli (with help from Ash[leigh] The Journalism Major.) The winner's name will, of course be that of the protagonist/victim and the winner may elect to have the tragic tale told in first or third person.

I've been toying with putting my "fascination" in print for a lonnnnnng time. I doubt I'll ever do it publicly more than this one time, but who knows? I will post it HERE, but if the powers that be wanna toss it in A: The Stories or B: the Deleted file, no problem for me.

OK, back to arranging several zillion Christmas cards on the mantle and every other available surface. That &^$%! Ash(leigh ) timed her business travel perfectly...leaving me to have the place all Christmassy when she returns on "the Eve".

Love and Too Much Egg Nog to All!

Yoli, the Deranged Elf...Mwaaaaahahahahahahahahahaha!

"I'm makin a list and checking it twice. (Sing along!)

Gonna decide who's gettin' the SLICE!"

PS: Santa, please give me the ability to make a SHORT post!:(

[Sac_mec (imported)]

I guess I'm one of the politically correct school of philosophy myself on this subject, as Chemical Eunuchs will all tend to be. The idea and attraction of being eunuch is that the penis/peepee/zizi is always at rest and asleep and not an object of play or attention. It is there to urinate only and the balls whilst still attached are beyond any use. Asexuality or neutroisism is the status I and many other eunuchs enjoy. I would not want to view surgical images of males being cut, but images of fully healed guys would not worry me; I would admire their achievement but being a totally soft guy is my goal and I agree with the HRT observations Lee has made. These are just my observations.