being passive

[twaddler (imported)]

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He says if I let him have me castrated I will be almost if not 100 % passive.

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Not likely, in my opinion. You are who are you and a lack of androgens aren't going to change that.

[tugon (imported)]

Why can't we just be totally emotionless? Seems as Eunuchs we have more emotions and find ourselves hurt more not less. Momma always said that expressing emotions was wrong. I think she is right now. I got hurt from expressing emotions so I am withdrawing from ever expressing emotion again. I should have done what my instincts were years ago. I should moved back to never never land where I saw no one for at least 6 months of the year except me and my dog.

I hate my times without emotions. During times of stress or overwhelming emotions I shut down. During those times I feel like I have lost myself. Emotionally I do not care for anyone but intellectually I know I should still be kind and concerned. I feel hollow and that I am just going through the motions of life. I am so grateful this has not happened to me in over a year. I am away from the one person who could trigger that response. I am healthier emotionally with every year. I enjoy my capacity to love and care for others. Oh and I love to cry at a movie or share a tear with a friend.

[gregwhite (imported)]

drew28

have you gotten to suck that penis. To have his cum into your mouth then eat it?

My lover today put me over his knees and with a paddle spanked very hard and very long. Oh i love the pain, the tears flow so freely. I went off his knees and cried into his naked lap then sucked his penis he stood up and I make love to his penis then ate his full load.

i will soon have my balls removed and I may have the penis taken too. still trying to make up my mind.

[Jean Op den Kamp (imported)]

Why can't we just be totally emotionless? Seems as Eunuchs we have more emotions and find ourselves hurt more not less. Momma always said that expressing emotions was wrong. I think she is right now. I got hurt from expressing emotions so I am withdrawing from ever expressing emotion again. I should have done what my instincts were years ago. I should moved back to never never land where I saw no one for at least 6 months of the year except me and my dog.

They can and will hurt you time after time. Even if you go to never never land, you will feel that it is because of them....

And then maybe one day, they have hurt you enough, you start to understand that LOVE is bigger and more powerful than all of them together.

Sure, they can make me a lot of problems, and if possible I pay them back with interest, but one thing is for sure....They 've gambled away their power to hurt me.

loveUall

Jean

[Jean Op den Kamp (imported)]

I hate my times without emotions. During times of stress or overwhelming emotions I shut down. During those times I feel like I have lost myself. Emotionally I do not care for anyone but intellectually I know I should still be kind and concerned. I feel hollow and that I am just going through the motions of life. I am so grateful this has not happened to me in over a year. I am away from the one person who could trigger that response. I am healthier emotionally with every year. I enjoy my capacity to love and care for others. Oh and I love to cry at a movie or share a tear with a friend.

Tugon,

I hope you will enjoy a nice cry anytime you need it. Maybe next year you don't need a movie anymore to do so....you 'll feel happy

loveUall

Jean

[nullorchis (imported)]

Well,

On the rare occasions when I start to feel down, depressed, self-pity (and I have reason to), I just think of people living in slums, like in Slumdog Millionaire, or people who are hooked on drugs or alcohol or cigarettes (which I am not) or people who are in prison for something (which I have never been), and people who have cancer or have a loved one who has cancer or any other life threatening health condition, or our troops stuck in Iraq and Afghanistan or...........sheese the list goes on and on.

Oh, life is fickle, and at any given moment it can go from worse to worse, or much worse. There are situations that I would find absolutely completely intolerable and I would wish I were dead, or make it so. But thankfully, so far, I am free and clear of them.

Listening to music can be emotional. I can create or replay scenes in my mind, with eyes closed, and be of any emotion. The world is a stage, and there is nothing wrong with being the only performer who has no audience. A totally non-judgemental experience.

[TrophyBoy (imported)]

You would need to examine your deepest inner desires. If you truly want to be completely submissive and passive to another man, then genital modification could be entertained.

Do you wish to live as a pure submissive never to Top again?

Hard questions I know but ones you must really ponder upon before undergoing surgery or therapy.

Personally, I know I am a complete submissive bottom and would love to find a man who would entertain the ying / yang balance of such a relationship. The modifications should be consensual and fulfill eachothers true desires.

Peace and Light

[gregwhite (imported)]

It will not be long now. I am to be castrated in very near future.

I have to wait for swelling to go down. As a going away present my bf spanked them with a paddle till I past out. I had a safe word but those balls needed that spanking they are so bad.

[A-1 (imported)]

You would need to examine your deepest inner desires. If you truly want to be completely submissive and passive to another man, then genital modification could be entertained.

Do you wish to live as a pure submissive never to Top again?

Hard questions I know but ones you must really ponder upon before undergoing surgery or therapy.

Personally, I know I am a complete submissive bottom and would love to find a man who would entertain the ying / yang balance of such a relationship. The modifications should be consensual and fulfill eachothers true desires.

Peace and Light

I bet Yoli could have a LOT of fun with you... she's no man, though, but she has many characteristics of one personality-wise.

[gregwhite (imported)]

Sorry I have not written in so long.

many of you have said if I would be castrated and have penis removed I could lose my bf.

will you were right.

But not in the way you said.

The morning I was going to doctor he left to get a few things from the store.

he had an wreck and was killed.

He left me very well off. for money but my life is mt.

I have no one to love.

and i do not want someone else.

the doctor said I should want to have balls and penis removed to get passed mourning time.

more later I need a good cry.

[Uncle Flo (imported)]

You have my sympathy - and I know of what I speak. --FLO--

[Jimmy97204 (imported)]

Sorry I have not written in so long.

many of you have said if I would be castrated and have penis removed I could lose my bf.

will you were right.

But not in the way you said.

The morning I was going to doctor he left to get a few things from the store.

he had an wreck and was killed.

He left me very well off. for money but my life is mt.

I have no one to love.

and i do not want someone else.

the doctor said I should want to have balls and penis removed to get passed mourning time.

more later I need a good cry.

I would have serious questions about an MD that would tell a patient that you should have your

balls and penis removed to get pas

t the mourning time.

If your partner died then your future is quite different than it was previously.

This is a time to re evaluate your situation and whatever you do should be for you and not someone else either living or dead.

[petersjc (imported)]

Greg,

I am so sorry to hear of this tragedy. I can only imagine your pain. Please know that you are among friends.

As others have said, this is not the time to take major steps, even if you are simply carrying out a decision that you made earlier. Please give yourself a lot of time to grieve. It cannot be hurried.

Be well,

Peter

Sorry I have not written in so long.

many of you have said if I would be castrated and have penis removed I could lose my bf.

will you were right.

But not in the way you said.

The morning I was going to doctor he left to get a few things from the store.

he had an wreck and was killed.

He left me very well off. for money but my life is mt.

I have no one to love.

and i do not want someone else.

the doctor said I should want to have balls and penis removed to get passed mourning time.

more later I need a good cry.

[Jean Op den Kamp (imported)]

I would have serious questions about an MD that would tell a patient that you should have your

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If your partner died then your future is quite different than it was previously.

This is a time to re evaluate your situation and whatever you do shou
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ld be for you and not someone else either living or dead.

I have the same questions, and from my personal view I would advice him:

First find that good cry, there is nothing wrong with it

loveUall

Jean

[nullorchis (imported)]

gregwhite

Until you get out of your current relationship and be in no relationship with anyone for a year or so you won't know if your feelings are a result of what you want, or because of domination that another person has over you.

Good Luck

[gregwhite (imported)]

how did this get in this group

it was in gay, bi etc.

how to put it where it belongs.

[gregwhite (imported)]

thank you to those who wrote the nice words.

I am still so sad.

I miss having him so near,

I miss the sex but could not yet let some one put their penis in my mouth or bum.

I almost let a friend bet my ass with his leather strop.

I am a mess I miss him so much.

by for now

[A-1 (imported)]

thank you to those who wrote the nice words.

I am still so sad.

I miss having him so near,

I miss the sex but could not yet let some one put their penis in my mouth or bum.

I almost let a friend bet my ass with his leather strop.

I am a mess I miss him so much.

by for now

Greg,

Grieving is a unique process for each individual.

Do not do anything that changes your life radically for at least a year.

Relationships regardless of sexual preference are sometimes made by one person fufilling missing parts of their own psyche with the personality of another.

So according to the degree that this is true when you lose a partner you feel like part of your own body was removed forcefully, against your will.

Is is a terrible feeling, and it takes time to heal. Rest assured that sooner or later each human being goes through this. Each experience is unique. The experience makes one do things that are not in their best interest, like rushing into another relationship or trying to find what you have lost in another individual. This is usually a terrible mistake.

Making changes in your life and your day to day circumstances is also a bad mistake. Bottom line, surgery would be very, very bad for you in your present state of mind.

Take time to heal your psyche. You are always going to have a deep scar in it, but over time things will get better for you, gradually, so have patience with yourself.

Learn to take some joy in the simple things. Walks through safe neighbohoods or parks, trips to the library or try something new like a movie or a outing with a relative who you get along well with and like to converse with.

Keep coming back here to us and keep in touch.

You DO have friends, O.K.?