Thanks again for the replies. I'll see how I will deal with the situation.

Welcome gelding to the archives.
Your situation is complex as many other, especially when desire of castration appended in a younger age. Before family time and so on. Your first comment touch me and I catch the "gender" problem you mention at the end. I would advice like other to take time to define what is your feeling about your gender. It is not a simple puzzle. All the pieces doesn't fit easily together. As you mention, "feeling and doing like man"; the social pressure is extreme on human behavior and it's not easy to understand what we is the real self. Being in between male and female is more frequent than on may think but this does not simplify the equation. I think that you should take time to define who you really are, your gender fluidity and so on. The help of a therapist with experience in gender expression an feeling is important.
For myself I'm in a kind of partial castration feeling with chastity cage, (while writing I wore my holly trainer, actually made in Swizerland, funny) But I can understand that it not the way to go at younger age with all the hard spontaneous erection every day. At my age around the seventies it's another story.

Firstly, I would advise you to take your time and consider whether you are ready to be physically castrated. Think about what the castration is actually supposed to improve. For example, if you primarily want to reduce your sexual drive, a test run with chemical castration makes perfect sense - there are drugs other than Androcur that have comparatively few side effects.

However, if hormonal change is not your main goal, but primarily physical change, chemical castration won't help you. In my view, you must then rule out the possibility that castration is a fetish for you (a turn on). Is the thought of castration permanent or only intermittent? When is the thought strongest, when does it occur? Maybe it's both: Hormonal and physical changes?

Once you have researched this and are sure that it is the right decision, there are a number of ways in Europe to get castrated completely legally. As a rule, however, a psychological assessment is required to show the surgeon that there is a medical indication. In my experience, the trick is to find a psychologist who is familiar with the subject. If you need advice here, just get in touch.

-Castor

wanasoso2 wrote: Mon Apr 06, 2026 5:19 am Welcome gelding to the archives.
Your situation is complex as many other, especially when desire of castration appended in a younger age.[...] The help of a therapist with experience in gender expression an feeling is important.
For myself I'm in a kind of partial castration feeling with chastity cage, (while writing I wore my holly trainer, actually made in Swizerland, funny) But I can understand that it not the way to go at younger age with all the hard spontaneous erection every day. At my age around the seventies it's another story.

Thanks. Yes a gender therapist will help or at least if they can't help will give me a recommandation letter. Yeah, during the day its okay but at night the erections are very strong!
You feel like castration desires (or at least the decision to do so) usually appear later in life?

Castor wrote: Tue Apr 07, 2026 2:07 am Firstly, I would advise you to take your time and consider whether you are ready to be physically castrated. Think about what the castration is actually supposed to improve. For example, if you primarily want to reduce your sexual drive, a test run with chemical castration makes perfect sense - there are drugs other than Androcur that have comparatively few side effects.

However, if hormonal change is not your main goal, but primarily physical change, chemical castration won't help you. In my view, you must then rule out the possibility that castration is a fetish for you (a turn on). Is the thought of castration permanent or only intermittent? When is the thought strongest, when does it occur? Maybe it's both: Hormonal and physical changes?

Once you have researched this and are sure that it is the right decision, there are a number of ways in Europe to get castrated completely legally. As a rule, however, a psychological assessment is required to show the surgeon that there is a medical indication. In my experience, the trick is to find a psychologist who is familiar with the subject. If you need advice here, just get in touch.

A chemical castration trial of a least 12 months is in my opinion really important. Preventing my body from having male functionning sexual organs, reducing libido and being in a castrated state are my main objectives. That way my body isn't fully male anymore. Orchiectomy is more cosmetic, because I don't "hate" my testicles but its more how I imagine my genderless state. I'm okay with my penis so I'll definetly keep it.
From my understanding depending on the products used I'll loose my libido in 1-3 months and my sexual organs may start shrinking after 6 months. So to try the desired effects I need to try for a couple of months. I need more research to find how long it takes for side effects to appear.

I have a very stupid theory on castration as a fetish. Let's say I am wrong on my motivation and that is the case. Then either the therapist that does the recommondation letter will find out, either it will disappear after 1-3 months of chemical castration and generate sufficient regret to stop treatment when there are no permanent effects (like under 6 months). I hardly imagine a castration fetish that would be so strong that it would survive chemical castration and procure pleasure from said castrated state.
I have had moments during which I thought less about castration that is true. Having a life in which I am very occupied with very little free time is generally effective at reducing castration thoughts tbh. There where other time where I tried to give up on the idea because I assumed no doc would agree. Still, I sometimes looked at over ways to reach castration like looking if I could grab some readily available animal products that are meant for males... So its not a very linear story but once the idea was there it never went away.
Castration thoughts are more likely to occur if I'm naked (shower, sex). Does it means thats a fetish? Idk, its not my main masturbation thought.

Generally speaking if I could get chemical castration products tomorrow I would take them. The only fear I have is potential future partners and how they could not accept my choice and reject me. I am more attracted by females than males. I have mainly had relations with heterosexual females and I fear they wouldn't like going out with a castrated men (I am sure some women do but I reckon those are more the dominant types which I am not into). Just add to this my issue with freezing sperm but maybe that's an easier problem to solve as I could ask a doc if most women accept insemination or not. If they say thats generally not a problem maybe I won't feel as bad about it as I currently do.