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Danya (imported) wrote: Sat Jun 28, 2008 10:24 am I feel very calm at the end of my third week on estrogen. I felt this way for the last several days and intermittently before that. It typically takes strenuous exercise to make me feel like this so I am surprised. I haven't exercised in at least 10 days (that has to change!). Actually, it seems like this is a better calm somehow than what I get from exercise. It's still probably too early to be certain if this is from the estrogen or not. It may be a placebo effect or simply contentment that I have transitioned.

This feeling has not interfered with my ability to work effectively on the job. I would be really concerned if it did.

Earlier in the evening, I started to do some research on the emotional effects of estrogen on MtF transsexuals. Without much digging, I found reports that some do experience a calm and happy feeling with HRT. Others experience some depression. I am not at all depressed.

I was going to post the references I found. Right now, I am feeling too calm to bother. Perhaps another time.

Hi Danya!

I guess the correct comment is: Congratulations, it´s always nice to be able to take it easy. Sitting in the corner of the sofa watching sometheing in TV sipping a cup of coffe or something.

Greetings

John

PS. That´s basically what i did thursday evening but not after your kind of transition but after moving to a bigger flat.

Danya (imported) wrote: Mon Jun 23, 2008 12:48 pm I love olives and to save on the per ounce cost, a lot, I got the largest size jar of the store brand. I was actively looking for specials.

How come sliced olives w/ pimentos cost so much less than solid olives? That annoys me.

twaddler (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 29, 2008 2:26 am How come sliced olives w/ pimentos cost so much less than solid olives? That annoys me.

Because they grow on hybrid pimento olive trees. They do not have to have anyone sitting around hand stuffing them, unlike those that have garlic in them....

twaddler (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 29, 2008 2:26 am How come sliced olives w/ pimentos cost so much less than solid olives? That annoys me.

I don't like the solid, pitted olives so I hadn't noticed the price difference! If food takes too much effort to eat, like spitting out olive pits, I generally stear clear of it. In general, I don't l

kristoff wrote: Sun Jun 29, 2008 2:30 am ike to mess with food. That probably means I'm fussy!

Because they grow on hybrid pimento olive trees. They do not have to have anyone sitting around hand stu

ffing them, unlike those that have garlic in them....

These hybrid pimento olive trees are one of the last century's big horticultural success stories. I am surprised Kristoff knows about this because the first hybrids were released for planting in the early 1950s. They are now such a common site in parts of California, Spain and Italy that most assume they are quite natural. The hybridists were never able to solve the problem of the pimentos' tendency to slide out of the olives while they are still on the tree!

Some time ago, I posted 'Why do I look like I'm pregenant?' on my blog http://www.eunuch.org/vbulletin/blog.php?b=193 . I wasn't at all surprised when tanglog had some sage advice for that problem.

Now I find that I crave pickles and ice cream in addition to olives. So far, I have gained no weight but who knows what may be developing inside. I may be the victim of a very rare condition that in medical circles is known as idiopathic pregnancy. Recently, scientists noted that it is seen only in MtF transsexuals and even in that subgroup it is exceedingly uncommon. What I am talking about is asexual reproduction!

My Body Mass Index has gone down by about 4 percent over the last month, probably because I dine out much less frequently. Despite the lower body fat, what I do have stubbornly refuses to distribute itself evenly over my body. Well, I suspect some is going toward increased breast development. I have seen some modest changes in that department.

Some R&D for you per Google.

http://www.symposion.com/ijt/ijtvo05no03_02.htm

http://www.geocities.com/WestHollywood/ ... 07/hrt.htm

*Note the comments on progesterone dose changes... And LOTS of additional links.

Once you are grown and genetic male traits are fully developed, the only way your body organs have of knowing what sex you are is by the levels of male and female hormones which are present. Changing the hormone balance from male to female with drugs causes tissues which are supported by male hormones to diminish and stop functioning and those which are supported by female hormones to develop and begin functioning.

Once you have been using estrogens for a year or more, some effects may become irreversible even if estrogen intake is ceased. Certain chemical processes in the brain remain in a female pattern permanently, and changes in brain wave patterns have been reported. These effects may or may not be associated with emotional and personality changes. Breasts and female fat distribution may not subside after administration of estrogens, and sex drive may remain relatively low. For these reasons, it is important to be certain of your committment to feminization of your body.

Sudden changes in dosage of estrogens, either increasing or decreasing, have been known to produce severe mood changes. The effects may be likened to going through menopause, puberty, and pregnancy at the same time. Lethargy, depression, anxiety, difficulty in concentration, headaches, abdominal cramping, nausea, and other symptoms have been noted for periods of days or weeks. It may be wise to change dosages as gradually as possible. (Despite what your doctor may tell you!)

Changes in metabolism are common, with weight gain, water retention, and increased appetite as the major effects. Estrogen reduces the ability of the body to eliminate certain drugs such as Valium so that smaller dosages of these medications become as effective as larger dosages were before. This is also true for alcohol so be sure to reassess your limits - this explains why the tolerance for alcohol of women is typically less than that of men. Any physician you deal with should know of any medications you are taking - with surgery this can be critical due to the effects of estrogen on the blood clotting rate.

Danya (imported) wrote: Sat Jun 28, 2008 10:24 am I feel very calm at the end of my third week on estrogen. I felt this way for the last several days and intermittently before that. It typically takes strenuous exercise to make me feel like this so I am surprised. I haven't exercised in at least 10 days (that has to change!). Actually, it seems like this is a better calm somehow than what I get from exercise. It's still probably too early to be certain if this is from the estrogen or not. It may be a placebo effect or simply contentment that I have transitioned.

This feeling has not interfered with my ability to work effectively on the job. I would be really concerned if it did.

Earlier in the evening, I started to do some research on the emotional effects of estrogen on MtF transsexuals. Without much digging, I found reports that some do experience a calm and happy feeling with HRT. Others experience some depression. I am not at all depressed.

I was going to post the references I found. Right now, I am feeling too calm to bother. Perhaps another time.

mrt (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 29, 2008 9:27 am Once you have been using estrogens for a year or more, some effects may become irreversible even if estrogen intake is ceased. Certain chemical processes in the brain remain in a female pattern permanently, and changes in brain wave patterns have been reported. These effects may or may not be associated with emotional and personality changes. Breasts and female fat distribution may not subside after administration of estrogens, and sex drive may remain relatively low. For these reasons, it is important to be certain of your committment to feminization of your body.

I have found that this paragraph is likely true. I haven't heard that fat distrubution becomes permanent, but now I am wondering if this might explain why I have not lost subcutaneous fat even after an extended time on T - my skin remains soft and feminine. I have heard that low libido and chemical changes might be permanent (I still get teary-eyed at things I would not have pre-E). Also, perhaps the time needed for E effects to become permanent in the young (say those under 25) is shorter.

mrt (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 29, 2008 9:27 am Some R&D for you per Google.

http://www.symposion.com/ijt/ijtvo05no03_02.htm

http://www.geocities.com/WestHollywood/ ... 07/hrt.htm

Partial quote of MrT's response follows:

mrt (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 29, 2008 9:27 am *Note the comments on progesterone dose changes... And LOTS of additional links.

Once you have been using estrogens for a year or more, some effects may become irreversible even if estrogen intake is ceased. Certain chemical processes in the brain remain in a female pattern permanently, and changes in brain wave patterns have been reported. These effects may or may not be associated with emotional and personality changes. Breasts and female fat distribution may not subside after administration of estrogens, and sex drive may remain relatively low. For these reasons, it is important to be certain of your committment to feminization of your body.

I appreciate your posting this information MrT. This is in basic agreement with what I found over the last several months. The first link you provide was one of my sources.

A number of sources online, and my doctor, indicate that breast development will nearly entirely reverse within the first few months of estrogen administration. It seems like it doesn't take nearly as long as a year for that change to become mostly irreversible. Other changes, however, including others that are physical, emotional and mental do take longer to become permanent. Certainly one needs to be clear on the effects, and dangers, of estrogen treatment before starting HRT.

There are limits to what estrogen can do, as most of us here know. Once puberty has passed, estrogen HRT will have no effect on t

plix (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 29, 2008 9:44 am he already completed maturation of masculine bone size, facial structure, amount of beard and so on.

I have found that this paragraph is likely true. I haven't heard that fat distrubution becomes permanent, but now I am wondering if this might explain why I have not lost subcutaneous fat even after an extended time on T - my skin remains soft and feminine. I have heard that low libido and chemical changes might be permanent (I still get teary-eyed at things I would not have pre-E). Also, p

erhaps the time needed for E effects to become permanent in the young (say those under 25) is shorter.

Hi plix,

From what I have read, estrogen does work more effectively in the young. Generally, the older you are when you start E, the less effect you will notice at least as far as things like breast development go. Of course, many older people still get satisfactory physical development. I am not sure if the same relationship holds for age and mental/emotional changes.

-Danya

Danya (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 29, 2008 10:55 am There are limits to what estrogen can do, as most of us here know. Once puberty has passed, estrogen HRT will have no effect on t

he already completed maturation of masculine bone size, facial structure, amount of beard and so on.

That is entirely unfair. Revolting! I revolt, officially. I have the bone structure of a medium-sized horse. Totally unfair, I'm telling ya'.

plix (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 29, 2008 9:44 am I have found that this paragraph is likely true. I haven't heard that fat distrubution becomes permanent, but now I am wondering if this might explain why I have not lost subcutaneous fat even after an extended time on T - my skin remains soft and feminine. I have heard that low libido and chemical changes might be permanent (I still get teary-eyed

Danya (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 29, 2008 10:55 am at things I would not have pre-E). Also, perhaps the time needed for E effects to become permanent in t

he young (say those under 25) is shorter.

I thought it worth posting because I wonder if this is part of the explanation for why some people have G.I.D. in the first place. If for example a kid in the womb gets a large blast of Estrogens and "his" brain is wired for life female? It seems like an obvious reason for the condition.

And since we all are "made" inside women who are filled with lots of estrogen that leaking into the child "might" also explain why there are so many more m2f transexual people vs the f2m types? Of course there are probably many other reasons.

Plix is your "sexuality" has been wired female then maybe its just a matter of approaching it that way? Without getting too TMI or complicated the way a female person gets turned on is different from the male way correct? So for example being turned on by visual things = male. Being emotionaly involved = sex the female way? It might be worth some pondering.... And if thats your lot in life? Just think outside the box (no pun intended)

Why I am discouraged? I spent nearly $4,000 on electrolysis for my upper lip and chin areas which were treated multiple times for regrowth, inactive hairs that became active, etc. Now, some of the hair is reappearing. Obviously, those were not treated often enough or in the correct manner to destroy them. I did this for over two months sometimes at a rate of 6 - 7 hours a week.

I stopped in late May because I cannot afford to continue right now. The electrologist warned me that some hair growth would return but there are no options for me at this point. I know the job wasn't finished but I cannot spend the money on more electrolysis. That situation may change in a few months.

I felt really beautiful in late May because the partially cleared area of my face is where the densest hair growth had been. At that time, there was very little regrowth. I loved the way I looked and how my skin felt.

Into mid-June, I could go out without makeup because the hair on the rest of my face is hardly noticeable. It is mostly gray and not as dense.

Now the darker hairs on my upper lip and chin are clearly noticeable to me. The inexpensive foundation (makeup) I had been using doesn't hide this effectively, at least not to my satisfaction. I still get the idea that no one notices but I do and I hate it.

I was in tears this afternoon about this but only for a few minutes. This is just one of those difficult times and I have to deal with it and will.

Later this afternoon, I will try to find a better foundation that isn't too expensive. I knew I was running out of the cheap stuff but thought I could still use it a few more days. What's left in the container looks like a lot but really isn't. After using it today, I realized I won't have enough for tomorrow. I will not go to the office without makeup. If necessary, I will work remotely from home.

Tomorrow after work, I will stop at Merle Norman to see if they can suggest a really effective foundation that somehow manages to look natural. Earlier in the year, the woman who helped me choose new eyeglasses was giving me makeup tips. Her own makeup looked terrific. She uses Merle Norman and a 3-month supply of foundation costs her about $25.

Danya,

We love ya.

Your story is truly an inspiration.

Even the omnisicent Red Sister seems moved.

And you got her to reveal the boots under the habit.

And the rest for which she is blessed.

Here's hoping all the best.

-NeinNaziYahLittleNuts, soon to be vacationing in North Africa

Danya,

NaziNuts (imported) wrote: Mon Jun 30, 2008 7:10 am We love ya.

Your story is truly an inspiration.

Even the omnisicent Red Sister seems moved.

And you got her to reveal the boots under the habit.

And the rest for which she is blessed.

Here's hoping all the best.

-NeinNaziYahLittleNuts, soon to be vacationing in North Africa

Hi NN,

It's good to hear from you. It is always good to hear that people care about me. Sometimes I need a reminder and your note was perfect! Thank you.

I know there are lots of people here who care. That's the main reason I post here.

Vacationing in North Africa? Sounds wonderful! Hope you have a great time.

-Danya

I am no longer discouraged because I found a multi-layer makeup 'system' that will solve my problem for now.

The only negative on this was that, for the first time since I transitioned on May 19, I went out of the house in my former male mode. I was concerned the neighbors would see me this way and wasn't happy at the thought. The reason I dressed as a man was that I did not want people to see the real me without makeup and a slight 5 o'clock shadow. I had just shaved, by the way. Total time to store and back: 25 minutes. I ditched the male outfit as soon as I got back home

I felt really phony dressed as a male and I did not interact nearly as well with people as I do as my female self. Overall, it was not a pleasant experience being away from home this way.

It was, however, a productive trip. I found makeup that sounded like it would do a good job for me. Certainly the ads made it sound that way. Of course, those did not describe transsexuals with beards. Nonetheless, what woman can resist the temptation to have softer, more glowing skin with blemishes hidden and wrinkles reduced? I know I couldn't!

To avoid a nasty surprise when I prepare for work in the morning, I tested the makeup as soon as I got home. I am very pleased with the results. The coverage is excellent and I have never looked better!

For now, I will not stop at Merle Norman (MN) for makeup advice. What I got today works very well and there is no need to spend additional money. When I start to run low on the new stuff, I'll check out what MN has to offer.

Danya,

I'm glad your spirits are up.

Don't let the BS get you down.

Thanks for always saying kind things to me too. My sense of humour, such as with my online name, is an acquired taste that many never acquire.

Your battle against the conformists takes real bravery and you will always have my sincere salute from the heart.

-NN

One bad thing happened today. I am working to start a photography side business. When I got home from work, I was taking some photos inside when I dropped the camera on the kitchen floor. I am very fortunate in that the camera does not appear to be damaged. It has a magnesium alloy body and so far it looks like it's fine. At least I can still take pictures with it!

The bad part is that an expensive lens with very good optics is now broken. This was a telephoto lens with built-in vibration reduction. That capability was useful for me because I have an inherited hand tremor. Despite that, this lens allowed me to take photos at maximum magnification without a tripod. This was very useful for outdoor work. Not always needing a tripod is handy when you risk losing the photo if you don't take the picture right away. I could easily get an in-focus, close-up photo of a bird holding the camera.

Luckily, I have another telephoto lens with the same magnification. Its optics aren't quite as good and there is no vibration reduction. It will still let me do most of what I need. I cannot afford to replace the damaged lens and I doubt it can be fixed.

I was upset about this for five minutes, tops, and I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. No, of course, I realize this is good. It is just that, even for that five minutes, I was only slightly upset. Beyond that, I don't feel at all down or depressed about the lens being ruined. Perhaps I am just out of touch with reality.

What I have got to conclude is that this is proof that the estrogen I've been on for 3 1/2 weeks is really making me calm. I was uncertain that this effect was real until this evening. So now I can report that I continue to feel happy and that this new calm feeling is genuine, too. Life really doesn't get much better, despite money problems, incomplete facial hair removal, being over 40 and so on. There are other new, good things in my life. Among these are friends on the Archive, some of whom I have met. There are many others here I may never meet but they care enough to respond to what I write. I feel really blessed.

For years, I would tell myself that certain things in life were not important, such as breaking a fairly expensive lens. I didn't always accept that on an emotional level. Now that I have found myself my emotions are much more in line with my understanding of what matters.

This evening I have learned that I need to slow down some. It don't feel rushed but I am trying to get a lot done and I am excited about what I am doing. You won't find me sitting around wondering what to do next. I am in no way bored. I need be more mindful, though, of what I am doing. This is the first time I have dropped a camera and I don't want that to happen again.

First, a disclaimer. I am writing this at 11:30 PM my time because I am working from home. Not because I enjoy doing that when I'd normally be in bed, but because it has to be done now. As I write, I'm doing something remotely at the office that has to run to completion before I can proceed. Then it's on to more work stuff. This kind of thing doesn't happen often so it's really not bad.

I have been exchanging emails with an Archive friend. He asked if I had noticed any changes from estrogen beyond some further breast development and the feeling of calm that I have reported. Had I experienced any changes in color perception, for instance? Ah, no to that one! On sunny days things look green, on raining days they look to be a wetter green! I don't think that counts.

I hadn't really thought much more about this until last Thursday. My female consultant friend told me that morning that I smelled good. I had taken a shower that day so I knew she wasn't mistaking BO for a pleasant fragrance I hadn't used any cologne type stuff either so I said it might be the soap I used. We agreed that must be it. Now that I think about this more, what she may have noticed was a relative lack of male body odor.

Before Thursday, I had been spraying on cologne several times a day. I'm usually congested and I could barely smell it. Well, Wednesday afternoon a young gay friend identified the fragrance, by name, from halfway across a very large room. I decided right then and there that it was time to stop with the fragrances. It wasn't the absence of an odor that my friend noted Thursday but a pleasant one.

I have noticed that when I sweat, which of course a lady seldom does, but when I do it seems it never develops the same strong odor as male sweat does when it sits around a while. It's not the I'm bathing more frequently, although I want to make it very clear that I bathe very regularly.

Then there's the urine test. From what I read, the urine of MtF transsexuals on estrogen becomes less metallic tasting and tangy. I'm going to take their word on this one, folks. Don't even try to bribe me to do that test!

In any event, based on my very subjective observations of my own body, I do believe there is a reduction in odors that might be identified as male. You can take that for what it's worth, which probably isn't much!

In the time it's taken me to write this, the work process I'm waiting on has gone from 13% complete to 16% complete. At this rate, I may be up quite a while longer.

I am still waiting for my remote process to end at the office.

Work went extremely well, although it was hectic. I was dressed to kill today (or is that phrase only used for men who are potential assassins??). Well, I was dressed to kill anyway

The reality is, I wore a dress for the first time in a while and I think the new makeup looked really good. A number of people stopped me to tell me how nice I looked. This did wonders for my fragile female ego. OK, OK...I know it's not really that fragile! Not yet, anyway, but who knows after more time on estrogen?

What matters is I felt extremely feminine in the dress and heels. I will also admit, although I doubt this is a surprise, that I can be vain at times. There have been occassions when I thought I was the best looking woman in a restaurant, for instance. An apparent side effect of estrogen is delusional thinking.

So there I was, sitting at my desk and feeling very feminine with no outlet for those feelings. What was I to do? There certainly were no men around who had any hope of satisfying the carnal desires I was also experiencing (more on that in another post, perhaps). The answer came to me surprisingly quickly! Go shopping!

What I intended was to walk through Macy's and look at the nice clothing. That's basically what I did and I thoroughly enjoyed it. As a male, I liked having fairly nice clothes but I never got any fun out of shopping. Now, as a female, I thoroughly enjoy browsing through the aisles of clothes. This gives me pleasure even if I buy nothing.

The browsing paid off, because I spent considerable time looking through the reduced price items. As a man, I wouldn't have done that. Today it was great fun, despite the fact the so many other women had gone through that the sizes were no longer grouped nicely together. I always thought women were supposed to be 'lady-like' and hence neater than men. They sure had me fooled! I found a very nice dress at the thrift shop price of $4.99. Unlike similar items I've found at Penney's, this one has no defects. That was the only thing I purchased but I had a wonderful time looking at everything.

I hope to have a court date in late July or early August for my legal name change. Now I need to decide whether I want a new last name. I haven't given any thought at all to a middle name.

I have no emotional ties to my last name. This doesn't mean that I have no good memories of my childhood but those grandparents, aunts and uncles who are part of the good times are long gone. Cousins are scattered around the country and we lost touch many years ago.

The only living relatives that I have had contact with for the last 25 years are my two brothers and by extension a sister-in-law, a niece and a nephew. I am not going to repeat what I have written elsewhere about those relationships. I'll simply say that we haven't been close and now there is little sign of acceptance from them of who I am.

In a way, then, I feel that I am free to do what I want with my last name. I cannot pretend to know what it feels like to grow up without a family, but I imagine that to some extent I am an orphan. On one level, that makes me sad but on another it is very freeing. I have been redefining who I am at the very basic level of gender. I have in a real sense come home to my true self, but there is still mental and emotional work involved, and discoveries to be made, in the process of becoming who I was always meant to be.

Now there is the additional possibility of redefining who I am on another level, my entire name. Names are very powerful things and how we are called by others plays a part in our own identities, in how we see ourselves. So I don't take a name change lightly.

I will put some additional thought into this. I doubt that I will decide to choose a middle name. For several months now, I have had a new last name chosen and it is likely I will go with that.

I had a nice chat with my gender therapist today. It has also been about a month since I started estrogen.

At our last appointment (two weeks ago), she finally capitulated and agreed I do not need a support group of any kind. Whether she agreed or not, I had no intention of going! I have been doing extremely well on my own. It is nice, but not necessary, to know that she finally, totally gets this.

Today she asked how I am doing. I described how I was feeling cold all the time. When I left work to drive to her office, it was in the mid-70s (I had no clue what the temperature was) with no more than a very gentle breeze. I felt chilled and wished I had light jacket. This is the way it's been the last 10 - 14 days, consistently.

Her one word reply to this was 'hormones'. She, on the other hand, is experiencing hot flashes! I felt good about her 'hormones' response because it is a bit of subjective confirmation that the low dose of estrogen I am on is doing something. By the way, I felt similar bouts of chills on Androcur alone but not with the Spironolactone that replaced it in mid-February.

What was more telling was my description of how calm I have been over the same period. After listening to a quicker run-down of my symptoms than I list here , she again simply stated 'hormones'. I have read that this is a common reaction for transsexuals using cross-gender hormones and it is often considered confirmation of the diagnosis of Gender Identity Disorder. In my case GID clearly means transsexualism since it is the female hormone that is having this effect on my natal male body. She agreed with the conclusion that my feeling so very calm is a confirmation of who I am - a woman. Of course, she is also well-aware that I transitioned at work over a month ago Since that has gone so well, it certainly adds additional certainty to the diagnosis.

I have mentioned this elsewhere and described it as a type of calm I have never experienced. In my 3 1/2 months on 100 mg/day of Androcur followed by spironolactone at 200 mg/day alone for 3 1/2 months, I never felt a calm like this. It is not the same calm I feel immediately following and even the next day after a good workout.

In fact, I have never in my life felt calm for so long without exercising. Not only do I feel calm, I feel VERY calm and all the time. The only bad part, if there is one , is that I haven't been exercising and I should be. I'll restart my program this weekend.

It could be argued that part of this calm can be attributed to my finally being true to who I am. I have no doubt that this plays a role. I can't explain it but I just know my happiness at being myself is not sufficient to explain how calm I am.

When I accidentally dropped and destroyed an expensive camera lens a few nights ago, it barely upset me. As I told my therapist today, I stood and looked at the broken lens on the floor and thought 'I should be upset about this, why am I not upset?'. I finally shed a few tears, having convinced myself that I should show some reaction, but that was done in five minutes. Don't get me wrong, I really liked that lens and miss having it. That is not the point, though. In the past I would have gotten depressed, or angry with myself (at least for several hours) or experienced some other major negative reaction to the loss of this lens. I also would have worried about how I would manage without it. I have thought about how I will manage without it, but I haven't really worried about it. None of my usual negative feelings emerged when I broke the lens.

Things are going so well that at my last visit my therapist asked why I was seeing her at all! If you are transsexual but have no intention of ever having SRS, there's no reason to see a therapist if you don't feel a need. I explained, as she well knows, that I will need her recommendation for SRS down the road if I decide that is what I want to do. For her to feel comfortable attesting to my suitability for SRS, she needs to see me periodically. For now, we agreed to cut our visits down to once a month.

It really great you are doing so good I am happy for you keep up the good work

Danya (imported) wrote: Fri Jul 04, 2008 9:49 am I had a nice chat with my gender therapist today. It has also been about a month since I started estrogen.

I think its great that you gender therapist is saying that your so normal you don't need to come in all the time! Thats more then great. It also says (I think) that your on the right path. Which is great! I'm glad your Estrogen treatment is helping you and I'm glad its keeping a lid on anger etc. I'm curious about all that but... I'll keep mum.

mrt (imported) wrote: Sat Jul 05, 2008 3:34 am I think its great that you gender therapist is saying that your so normal you don't need to come in all the time! Thats more then great. It also says (I think) that your on the right path. Which is great! I'm glad your Estrogen treatment is helping you and I'm glad its keeping a lid on anger etc. I'm curious about all that but... I'll keep mum.

Yes, MrT, the fact the my gender therapist said I don't need to see her all the time does mean I am on the right path. Certainly in her opinion and my own! There is no doubt about that. The fact that people still comment on how happy I am is further confirmation. I don't think I'll lose my way now.

You can ask anything me anything you wish. I haven't known you to be the shy type I cannot guarantee I will always answer but that has never happened with any questions you have ever asked me on the Archive.

Perhaps I should start another thread entitled "Everything you always wanted to know about transsexuality but were afraid to ask" There have been only two inappropriate questions or remarks since my big transition day in May. Neither was from a member of this site. Those arose from peoples' ignorance. They really weren't trying to be malicious and I certainly didn't take it that way.

Folks, there are definitely questions that are considered inappropriate to ask a transsexual. Questions like that have never come up here and I in no way anticipate that happening. I may post something on this for general information. It may be of use for visitors to the Archive.

Since my transition day at work, I have heard my old name used four times. I'm sure it has happened outside my hearing, too. It amazes me that so many people consistently get my new female name right, along with the pronouns that go with that new identity.

It was just yesterday that someone called me by my old male name. This woman did this entirely unintentionally. We have known each other for years and I am certain that can make it difficult for her to keep things straight.

As soon as she addressed me by my old name, I calmly stated my new name. She apologized right away and that was the end of it.

The only person I know that had a problem with using the right pronouns is my boss. When I heard him, I sent him an email reminder of my new status. I also told him I knew this had to be difficult although he had been extremely supportive of me. We have worked together for years. After that one reminder, he has always used the correct pronouns.

The stupid questions I would really like to ask are along the lines of that interview that Tom Snyder did decades ago. What does it FEEL like? Is it better with female hormones or male? Other silly stupid stuff that is right up there with people who gawk at car wrecks etc and which I know are none of my biz but...



Remember that black book "Everything you wanted to know about sex but were afraid to ask?" the dumb stuff I'm curious about fits that title well.

Danya (imported) wrote: Sat Jul 05, 2008 10:19 am You can ask anything me anything you wish. I haven't know you to be the shy type I cannot guarantee I will always answer but that has never happened with any questions you have ever asked me on the Archive.

mrt (imported) wrote: Sun Jul 06, 2008 7:07 am The stupid questions I would really like to ask are along the lines of that interview that Tom Snyder did decades ago. What does it FEEL like? Is it better with female hormones or male? Other silly stupid stuff that is right up there with people who gawk at car wrecks etc and which I know are none of my biz but...



Remember that black book "Everything you wanted to know about sex but were afraid to ask?" the dumb stuff I'm curious about fits that title well.

Yes MrT, my pal, I remember the book. That's where I got the idea for a title for a new thread. I wrote about that a few posts back as

mrt (imported) wrote: Sun Jul 06, 2008 7:07 am "Everything you

Danya (import [/quote] ed) wrote:Sat Jul 05, 2008 10:19 am wanted to know about transsexuality but were afraid to ask"

Are you not fully reading what I post, MrT? S'OK! I tend to post a lot.

I don't think your questions are dumb at all and I will answer them fully, just not right now. The short answers are it feels great with even

Danya (imported) wrote: Fri Jul 04, 2008 9:49 am the low dose of estrogen I am on

and I prefer female to male hormones. In a month, the estrogen will likely be doubled. I doubt that I will then feel twice as good as I do now. I don't think it can get any better.

Details to follow soon.