Introduction

[Lineppe'lik]

Hello everyone!
My name is Lineppe, I've come here due to my interest in pursuing an orchiectomy / castration in pursuit of feminizing my body. I've never been attached at all to the masculinity endowed upon me by virtue of birth and nurture. As such I'm here to discuss the hows, and the consequences of said operation, and any more conversations that pertain to the eunuch identity. Health, hormones, gender roles, romance, sex, etc etc.
I did make a registry in the forum-that-was around the beginning of December, a most opportune time. Never got to make a post but it was a delight reading through the forum, gradually coming to know the lives and experiences of others there.
I might also add that as with many other young people, I'm not very used to phpBB forums. So if I make a error in posting or some omission please don't be surprised . I must say I very much enjoy the sheer liberty it provides.
A pleasure to meet you all and looking forward to posting with y'all!

[dandelion]

Welcome aboard!
Fusion did a very good job making this forum optimized for mobile. I think one of the main points for self-hosting is so that the platform owner can’t just decide all of a sudden to shut us down.

Hopefully you’ll find the info you’re looking for, and perhaps meet a friend or two here.

[WheelyFixed]

Welcome, glad to have you join us...

How much research and so forth have you done so far, I'd like to have an idea about where to start?

My usual advice is that if you haven't already, you should download a copy of the WPATH SOCv8 off the WPATH website... This is the standards that most TG centers and clinics use and will give you an idea of the hoops that you will need to go through in order to get to your desired state. The Non-Binary and Eunuch chapters are particularly relevant, but I suggest reading the entire thing.

You will need to get at least a few sign-offs from MD's and shrinks along the way, and I say those are sort of like job interviews, in that it can matter HOW you answer questions as much as your other qualifications... Among other things reading the SOC will give you a better idea of what kinds of questions you should expect to be asked, and what sort of things they will be looking for in your answers....

Especially since you mention wanting to feminize your body, I also like the "Transfeminine Science" https://transfemscience.org website, as a source for information about hormones and so on. They are primarily focused on people doing the full binary M->F switch, but have a lot of info that is also useful to those of us in the "mushy middle". They are particularly good at translating "Doctorese" into common English...

Lastly I suggest looking at finding and connecting with your local Transgender Clinic, as those are the folks you will need to see in order to get castrated, and they will be best able to help you find suitable docs, therapists, and so on that are most likely to be accepting and supportive of your goals.

WheelyFixed

[mounds_dont]

Welcome. I hope you find what you are looking for, here. Even though this board is new, a lot of us have been on the EA for quite a while. There is a lot of experience here, but don't let that stop you from asking questions.

[sicnarf1978]

46 year old man between Montréal and Ottawa who love body modifications, I have a lot of tattoos and piercings. Over the years, I developped a fascination about cbt, penectomy, nullification. I firstly got a lot of admiration for people doing it. Then, around 5 years ago, I started doing cbt on myself. I realised that I am masochist. I really like pain. I got a first glimpse when I got my PA in 2007. I almost cum when I got pierced. It was painful, but I liked the feeling. Then, in 2019, I started putting needles in my cockhead and balls, then in my nipples. Torturing the nipples was my best feeling. In 2020, I tried nailing my nipples. It was orgasmic. In the same time, I started experimenting chastity. I love to get orgasms, and I like to suffer, so chastity was really hot to do. As I saw a video of a guy getting a penectomy, I find exactly what I want. Pain, torture, chastity, and an original body modification. But was I ready ? Cannot tell you if I was ready at that time, but now, yes. A few months ago, a guy was supposed to cut my dick. I was en route to go there and he had to cancel at last minute.

[WheelyFixed]

46 year old man between Montréal and Ottawa who love body modifications, I have a lot of tattoos and piercings. Over the years, I developped a fascination about cbt, penectomy, nullification. I firstly got a lot of admiration for people doing it. Then, around 5 years ago, I started doing cbt on myself. I realised that I am masochist. I really like pain. I got a first glimpse when I got my PA in 2007. I almost cum when I got pierced. It was painful, but I liked the feeling. Then, in 2019, I started putting needles in my cockhead and balls, then in my nipples. Torturing the nipples was my best feeling. In 2020, I tried nailing my nipples. It was orgasmic. In the same time, I started experimenting chastity. I love to get orgasms, and I like to suffer, so chastity was really hot to do. As I saw a video of a guy getting a penectomy, I find exactly what I want. Pain, torture, chastity, and an original body modification. But was I ready ? Cannot tell you if I was ready at that time, but now, yes. A few months ago, a guy was supposed to cut my dick. I was en route to go there and he had to cancel at last minute.

Welcome to the forums, However I am not quite sure this is a great path for you, as castration / nullification is something you can only do ONCE - once the bits are gone, they are GONE and there is no gluing them back on... On the old forum, one of our biggest pieces of advice is that getting fixed as a sexual thrill act is a REALLY bad idea, and is usually the cause of a lot of regret as it can only happen once, and the options for future fun activities are greatly limited after that. I advise people that if your fantasies and dreams are about the act of being castrated, rather than life as a Eunuch afterwards, you probably should not be considering doing it for real, but just stick with playing and fantasy...

We don't support people looking for "cutters" or offering cutter services at all. Doing so is something that can result in being banned.

It is possible to get cut by an MD, after going through the WPATH SOC 8 procedures, but I can say from personal experience that it's about as kinky and orgasmic as a colonoscopy... You get a ride to the hospital, they prep you, and either put you under, or give locals, you wake up a bit lighter, go home and heal... Nullification is much the same though you will be in hospital for longer...

WheelyFixed

[Lineppe'lik]

Welcome, glad to have you join us...

How much research and so forth have you done so far, I'd like to have an idea about where to start?

My usual advice is that if you haven't already, you should download a copy of the WPATH SOCv8 off the WPATH website... This is the standards that most TG centers and clinics use and will give you an idea of the hoops that you will need to go through in order to get to your desired state. The Non-Binary and Eunuch chapters are particularly relevant, but I suggest reading the entire thing.

You will need to get at least a few sign-offs from MD's and shrinks along the way, and I say those are sort of like job interviews, in that it can matter HOW you answer questions as much as your other qualifications... Among other things reading the SOC will give you a better idea of what kinds of questions you should expect to be asked, and what sort of things they will be looking for in your answers....

Especially since you mention wanting to feminize your body, I also like the "Transfeminine Science" https://transfemscience.org website, as a source for information about hormones and so on. They are primarily focused on people doing the full binary M->F switch, but have a lot of info that is also useful to those of us in the "mushy middle". They are particularly good at translating "Doctorese" into common English...

Lastly I suggest looking at finding and connecting with your local Transgender Clinic, as those are the folks you will need to see in order to get castrated, and they will be best able to help you find suitable docs, therapists, and so on that are most likely to be accepting and supportive of your goals.

WheelyFixed

Thank you recommending the WPATH SOCv8, I read it a few months back and found it highly informative, though I do remark I ought to give it a read again. The chapter on Eunuchs was particularly fascinating. I wasn't surprised to see most took up testosterone as replacement hormone, but it did mention some eunuchs choosing estrogen. It'd be particularly fascinating to see sex-hormone choice according to the origin of eunuchs. Accidental, health, dysphoria, etc.

Sadly, actually perfoming an orchiectomy for now is beyond my monetary means, I am already seeing a therapist so I'm getting that part dealt with, might need my MD and an endocrinologists approval too before possibly.

Haven't heard of that website thank you! This is going to come in very handy after the snip-snip. Yeah like some folk here not particularly feminine but not a 100% man either. Don't get me wrong, perfectly understandable if anyone here is a man or a woman.

There is ILGA here in Europe, I'll check through their recommendations and support groups. Feels a bit odd hanging around transgender folk like this sometimes, but they're mostly good folk in my experience. A bit lustful, but that's probably just my pov in action.

Anyways thanks for the warm welcome WheelyFixed.

[WheelyFixed]

FWIW, I am one of the eunuchs on estrogen and am happy with that choice for the most part, even though I wish it hadn't made my boobs grow so much, as I don't particularly want to feminize...

I don't know what your insurance situation is like, but I know that my surgery was covered completely by mine. Supposedly this is one of the added benefits of going the SOCv8 route, in that it gets covered by insurance.

A lot of folks get a bit bothered by the "transgender' thing, I know I was one at first. However technically you fall under the definition of TG as soon as you start wanting to modify your "factory equipment"

I haven't found the TG folks I know to be particularly lustful, but then again I'm not what most people would consider a lust object... Even so, as long as they are willing to take "NO" for an answer does it matter how they tilt their kilts?

WheelyFixed

[Dylan246]

(...Welcome to the forums, However I am not quite sure this is a great path for you, as castration / nullification is something you can only do ONCE - once the bits are gone, they are GONE and there is no gluing them back on... On the old forum, one of our biggest pieces of advice is that getting fixed as a sexual thrill act is a REALLY bad idea, and is usually the cause of a lot of regret as it can only happen once, and the options for future fun activities are greatly limited after that. I advise people that if your fantasies and dreams are about the act of being castrated, rather than life as a Eunuch afterwards, you probably should not be considering doing it for real, but just stick with playing and fantasy...

WheelyFixed ...)

It is very reasonable advice of WheelyFixed, a very wise for all men, who follow their pleasure for pain, lust for a moment, don't think about future life with the damage.
I am a man in my late 30-thies, live in Germany. I had often castration and penis circumcision fantasies.

I have made this mistake with my balls, as I injected two times drinkable alcohol into them both 1,5 ml and after two month again 1,5 ml.
My goal was to low testosterone in order to get medical prescription for legal testosteron remplacement therapy. My testosterone was "not low enough" for legal testo prescription, but low to feel myself weak muscles, few energy, sleepy, depressed, low libido.

My biggest mistake and I will regret it untill the end of my life was to speak with one dangerous man, he showed sadistic-masochistic character.
He calls himself Hans, man over 70 years old, lives in Germany. He is very proud that he splitted his cock until the crotch himself with slow cuts, few cuts without painkillers lasting for years.He said he likes pain. Now he speaks about to remove his sack by slow cuts. In the entire internet, on all forum dedicated medical or fetish castration, even on testicular cancer forum, he talks about his castration with proud and excitement.

I was stuped enough to speak with him about my castration fantasy, and wanting to castrate myself with drinkable alcohol in reality, I said, I want to get testosterone prescription on legal way from urologist.
And he saw his chance coming, started to encouraged me to inject drinkable alcohol into my balls, as he did.
After half of year I said to him, I read about castrated men, who injected drinkable alcohol in their balls and 10, 20 years later got health issues with their prostate. Prostate gland was bigger, or developed cancer and was operated. I said, I am scared about that injected alcohol in balls will attack my prostate. I need it for pleasant prostate massage.
But he insisted, he would continue on my place to kill the balls with alcohol, because it stays only in the balls, and will never reach prostate gland.
I don't believe him anymore and I don't want to speak with him.
There was two times blood check of testosterone in order to get a prescription.
First time, my testosterone in blood was checked by urologist after my first alcohol injection, and my testosterone was than really low, but I changed my mind and don't wanted to destroy my balls fully, so I don't injected alcohol a second time. And my testosterone rised higher, as balls restored their production after big attack of alcohol. So my prescription was refused by urologist. I destroyed my balls for nothing. Don't got prescription and lost some of pleasant gentle high erotic feeling from the balls.

After 4 weeks passed, my balls lost about half of their pleasant sensitivity and become harder. I fall in masochistc erotic funny mood and thought, yes man, my balls had before injection soft and jelly feeling, I could press them with fingers and feel my fingers through the balls, but now my balls are harder like made of steel! I am a man with iron balls! Oh, yes! Th thoughts about are very hot! At that time I still had more erotic sensitivity in balls and jerked off to these thoughts and feelings.
After refusal of legal testosterone prescription I bought testosterone in the internet for my own danger. Because I was more scared about liquid poisonous heavy metal parts in illegal testosterone, than about destroying my balls with alcohol. My castration fetish gave me to much power and pushed my deeply into my gelding lust.
So I was fully in the self destroyng mood about my balls and after urologist refused to prescribe me testosterone, I felt to justify further destruction of my balls and I injected alchol a second time.

After time passed, my balls started to loose their pleasant feeling, remain only hard, but not shrunken. I bought testosterone online, it was surprisingly cheap to buy, 40 euros for 1 bottle with 10 ml. 3 little bottles with 30 ml are sufficient for the entire year. I feel myself like doctor for my own health for testosteron. So I developed thoughts and doubt whether I should rather buy illegal testosterone and save my balls. It was pure insane to do something bad like this to own body, without having a chance to restore all done damage back. I would never inject alcohol to other's man balls, but I read some guys done that. I don't find it funny. So I could have now both advantages in my hands: intact sensitive balls and 3 bottles full of testosterone.
Than I jerked off and persuaded myself, I done a right decision. Nothing bad happens. But as sensitiveness in my balls disappeared completely and all I felt was only my sensitive sack, I understood what I really done. I saw the result: I have balls, but they feel nothing. I tried to restore my nerves in the balls, bought tablets which work nerve restoring, but nothing helped. I massaged them, used ultra red light lamp to help blood flow in the balls, but that don't helped. Very long massage of the balls helped and balls gave a some more sensitive feeling, but after one hour they lost every time the feeling again. I was already ready to accept my changed hard balls "made of steel and made of iron", but main thing to get my plesant sensitivenes back, it felt so high pleasant during masturbations.

About 20 years before I masturbated to castration lust, came, washed my body in the shower and done nothing to my balls, but exactly this time I gone to far and added damage to my body and to my once erogen, erotic, high pleasant sensitive balls. The problem is, I can damage balls only one and never restore them back to intact state. Because it is impossible, like circumcision of my penis.

Now I try to heal my soul, as I try to read stories of men who lost their both balls after two time testicular cancer, after heavy accident, after long year steroid use. I try to find men and discovered a way to read short stories found by the help of chatgpt, I described the chat my problem it he found some men with similar issue. I read about men who's balls have similar hard and numb state, but have different cause of this health issue and what they do, to be at ease after the lost masculinity, lost pleasant feelings in the balls. How they heal their soul, how they suffer. The worst thing, I stay alone, can't repair the balls, all I need from them is the high erogen-erotic feeling, nothing more. I have already my testosterone dream fullfilled. Only high self injected testosteron level helps me not to fall into deep depression. Now high libido helps me to have better erection, restored even nocturnal erections, I feel myself very good thank to testosterone from the bottle. All I want now is to get more pleasant sensitivity from remaining sexual parts of my male body: buttocks, butt hole, sack, penis, inner side of thighs. Never before I appreciated the possibility of the nerves to feel, have pleasant feelings. I will develop pleasant feeling from my nipples. I try now to press all the pleasant sensitivity from my body, to replace lost erogen-erotic feeling from the balls.
My castration fetish has developed soul pain because of the battle with reality. I was so often castrated in my fantasy. But the stories about other men, who have lost their sensitive balls, help me to accept my changed balls now. The next problem is how lead castration to the end and replace my hard, sometimes painfull balls through silicon balls, so I can enjoy with my sensitive sack.
There in the world are so much young men castrated, who's body is muscular and fit, they lost both balls by accident, steroid use or testicular cancer, or testicular pain, or even they have body dysmorphia and have hard erection with long cock without balls, or even without sack. These guys accepted their empty sacks, or even removed them by plastic surgeon. Some don't wanted to have any artificial balls, but accepted and prefered empty sack, they feel more place under the cock now and learn to enjoy this new state of own genitals.

I say to me, my balls were anyway atrophied after lifelong using of testosterone. But it is not always true, not for every man. Who knows, every male testicles react very different ot artificial testosterone. Some nevery atrophy, some atrophy a little bit, and some atrophy, shrink to raisins, some balls atrophy, get small, feel painful and jelly, but other in opposite atrophy, get small, numb and very hard.

After my partially needed circumcision I already warned other guys, don't make a real circumcision because they will lost some erotic feeling and may regret it, don't let themself tempting from "good looking cut cock". My own circumcision was partially necessary because of short frenulum and painful cracks in foreskin after dry masturbations, healthy foreskin don't develop painful cracks. But I could masturbate with oil and the problem were solved.
Now I started to warn guys from fulfilling castration or penectomy, or cock tie (bind) desire. Because reality will be sobering and cruel, leading to permanent nerve damage and lifelong regret and strong envy by men with intact penis and testicles. I advace to best solution, to jerk off to all this fantasy, but nerver do it in reality. Only serious health issues justify removing of genitals, like testicular or penis cancer, unhealing testicular pain. I know about body of dysmorphia, but never had it personally and don't dare to speak about it.

This man, who encouraged me, to destroy my balls was a gross contrast to me. I regret that I spoke with him. It was the biggest mistake of my life. The evil destiny of this meeting on internet platform of deviantart was, that my castration fetish met the man with burning dark passion and I needed and searched for the testosterone replacement exactly in this time, because in my late 30-ties my body lowered its testo-production. This dark man finds castration very funny, after he destroyed his own balls, he tortured it with sharp nails, plunged them in ice, he knows no consciense and bears no responsibility for his advices. He don't cares about other's man life after castration. The main thing he lures some man with strong castration fetish into the trap. After that it is all done, mission accomplished. This man said to me, the man needs his balls only to grow up to man, after that he don't needs them anymore.
One thing he avoided to talk about is why he was so strong attracted to torture and to destroy his own balls? Simple to answer this question: because of their erotic sensitivity. No one man tries to torture his fingernails, because in everyday life they feel nothing. No one man before castration and after castration talks about how good balls feel or felt. It is strange, they all skip this important subject. But why do they do that?

I never encouraged men to do circumsicions, or castrations. Despite they are my biggest sexual fetish until today, and will remain forever my fetish. I like this new forum eunuch because it warns and call to think twice before someone man takes such life changing decisions. I love all people who encourage the other to go with wisdom and caution through the life. It is very practical way to live.

Sometimes I take my precious free time to write direct personal message to a guy with strong castration fetish and persuade him don't do damage to his body. If I see on reddit forum that old bored castrated men in comments are trying to lure him to the castration trap and he writes back to these dark evil people he is deeply tempted and confirms he is ready and see his castration as a proof for his real masculinity. I see how they continue to pour oil on the fire. Than I see the real danger coming.
On one known Discord forum with castration subject, the administraion of Discord made pressure don't encourage the users of the forum to castrations, don't describe the way of castration on the forum, or it will be closed and deleted. Only direct messages under men willing castration are permitted.

If I give advice to anybody so I bear responsibility for my advices. Deep destroying changes, especially on such sensitive and great erotic unique organs, like penis or testicles, will shake every man very deeply in his soul, as soon as he understand what he have done and can't restore it back. He stays alone with this problem, no psychologist will give him intact genitals back, it was his own fault, he need to live with damaged genitals now.

I consider, that is better to loose balls, than finger or arm, or leg. But the best of course is to have all bogy parts intact.

Now I have a new jerk off fantasy, about strong men, special soldier unit, full of muscular, naked horny castrated men, who let military doctors remove their "unmanly high sensitive erotic balls" because they "make men weak and cause to much pain by hitting gentle balls", "real men don't need balls, to be men", only liquid testosterone decides, who a man. Liquid testosterone from the bottle is a kind of liquid male balls. Also in this military unit are soldiers, who put big xl-size silicone balls or hollow steel balls instead of theirs, so now they can call theyself "men with strong balls", "men with hard balls", or "men who's balls are made of steel", a black round tattoo on the thigh of naked muscular man with a sign of male shaved ballsack crossed by a sharp sword shows this naked guy was castrated and balls in his sack are not real. I try to find a new sign of strengh in male castrated body. The slogan "a man should show his balls" is old. "A man should show his level of testosterone", such slogan is more actual, to modern time. I want castrated guys, no matter with silicon balls or with empty sack, need to be recognised as respected members of society.

The cheapest and the best way to enjoy a castration or penectomy fetish, is to jerk off to it, sometimes read one or two warnings about consequences after damaging of genitals, save them in long memory, or better write on the wall, after that wash the body, eat delicious meal and enjoy the day. Every time is possible to repeat the enjoying of fetish again and again. I appreciate very much this polite, wise forum and thank you very much for your attention.

[Dylan246]

Hallo dear community!
I am man, who likes men and I have castration fetish. I have seen many photos of naked guys with castrated soft and hard cocks and I find them attractive. Especially I had problem with low testosterone and I admire men with balls, who can have hard erection. Liquid testosterone is the key for happy men. I speak from my sight of my sexual world about how necessary and precious for me testosterone is.

But I never encourage and never push anybody into castration. For me is fantasy very important. Every time I can repeat fantasy.
I have made mistake with my own balls as I injected two times 1,5 ml high precentage drinkable alcohol, but it is my mistake, I recognise my fault and will live with it.
In opposite I will always try to give advice not to do some wrong to the balls, or cock, even ballbusting can damage gentle testicular tissue. Male balls were made not to be hitted, but for licking, sucking and fucking. I love my new feeling on high level of testosterone with high libido and more energy!
I fell in love with guys and feel myself happy simple to feel this love feeling, it is one of the key of the life.