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[Oyktiro1 (imported)]

When I was 3 my Dad forced me to give hima Blow Job. He did it only once but Once was too many times. If this is related to my current situation I'm not sure.

I have struggled with Masturbation for years. I've tried stopping so many times. Last year I was able to stop and I cant figure out how. I went months without doin it. Then last May It started again. granted it's not every day anymore but once a Week. I'm dying for the time where I can go months again. When I did stop for months at a time I never felt so happy and content. Every now and then I fantasize on what it would be like not having Genitals. I have felt for the longest time that I do not want sex for the plain sake of pleasure searching. I want it to be a spiritual act and that alone. But I'm now 43 and my prospects of having a Girlfriend or wife are diminishing. I've been thinking seriously about becomming a Eunuch solely for spiritual reasons. I want to be "pure". I was happier when I didnt masturbate and I know I could be happier without the package. I've thought that even though I f I become a Eunuch I still can please a woman sexually with Massage and oral sex. Just the pleasure I could feel I wish to give up. I find my genitels to be more of a nuisance and I dont find the sexual gratifictaion to be very satisfying. especially in masturbation. Even though I am thinking about it. I'm not sure yet If I want to do it. I'm worried about things like pain, ability to goto the bathroom, and How loss of testosterone will effect me.

[sparkey49 (imported)]

Please do a lot of research and don't jump to quickly into anything permanent as you will be living with it for the rest of your life. I am a eunuch and it has no effect on my bathroom functions and I have no lasting pain but other side effects of no T do need seriously resurched and considered! Be aware if you go on TRT that your old habits most likely will return and with what you say you are seeking you will not have.

[Oyktiro1 (imported)]

Please do a lot of research and don't jump to quickly into anything permanent as you will be living with it for the rest of your life. I am a eunuch and it has no effect on my bathroom functions and I have no lasting pain but other side effects of no T do need seriously resurched and considered! Be aware if you go on TRT that your old habits most likely will return and with what you say you are seeking you will not have.

I joined this forum to find out more about it. I havent made a decision yet and I'm looking into it. What is TRT?

[fhunter]

I joined this forum to find out more about it. I havent made a decision yet and I'm looking into it. What is TRT?

Testosterone Replacement Therapy

[Oyktiro1 (imported)]

I just really hate myself when I masturbate. I feel like I'm betraying mysefl when I do. Perhaps just a castration will do? I've read that that can be done chemically is that true?

[TheIncuse (imported)]

I just really hate myself when I masturbate. I feel like I'm betraying mysefl when I do. Perhaps just a castration will do? I've read that that can be done chemically is that true?

I did it chemically at first. When I realized the people I was attracted to weren't getting any older I started being ashame of sex. So my first chemical attempt was I guess around 2000~ when a friend, Luvpain, sent me some Androcur. I remember it coming from India. That was when I was 20, I experimented with Androcur on and off several times before I decided it was finally the right decision on my 25th birthday in 2005. I'm 36 now, when I go back and think of it, I believe it was the right decision.

But yes, please be sure it's for you. Androcur gave me lack of breathe which is apparently a side effect, so that stopped once I no longer needed it on my 25th birthday.

[tugon (imported)]

If your father sexualized you at such a young age you need counseling before anything else. Castration will reduce the drive but will not fix the brain. Due to what has happened to you I suggest you resolve those issues before you move on to chemical of physical castration. You have had one regretful situation in life and please do not make another.

[sparkey49 (imported)]

Tugon

Amen I believe a lot of my desire and completion of castration relates back to my childhood experiences!

[C&TL2745 (imported)]

I'm also with Tugon on this. Hating yourself for masturbating seems to me to indicate clearly that you need psychological help first. I believe that among men, there are two kinds of liars: those who say they've never masturbated and those who say they did but quit. I don't believe it should be a source of self-hate; it's what men do. Please get counseling before doing anything to your body.

Sandi

[syndrome2 (imported)]

nothing is wrong with masturbation and enjoying it!!

[Oyktiro1 (imported)]

I dont enjoy it at all.. I'm HAPPIER not masturbating. Just because you may enjoy it does not mean that I SHOULD.

[Oyktiro1 (imported)]

The whole reason I came to this forum is to process this "idea"

. I havent made a decision yet

I'm just thinking about it. If I can find a way to cut down on my Masturbation I will be VERY Happy.

[Uncle Flo (imported)]

The advice you are getting is good and it is wise. You need to address the issue of your childhood experience before you decide to take other measures. In the meantime read, ask questions and learn about castration. It may be a good solution for you but you need to know more about yourself and about castration first. --FLO--

[Oyktiro1 (imported)]

This is my Feelings on Masturbation. Jesus said that if your a married man and you lust after another woman you have committed adultery in your heart. I've taken this a bit further in that I believe if you lust after a another without their consent then you are committing Mental Rape. This is how I feel about it.. STRONGLY.

[hopper44 (imported)]

Castration will probably eliminate most if not all of your masturbation urges, but then you very well may find that you need some hormones to deal with the many negative side effects of castration (depression, lethargy, hot flashes, brain fog, etc). And going on hormones (especially testosterone) is apt to result in a return of your libido and masturbation interests.

BTW, I hear where you are coming from. I get it that when Jesus says if your right eye causes you to sin tear it out and throw it away (Matt. 5:29), people can take that seriously and literally, as that's one of the main reasons I started looking into castration. So know that you're not alone.

[Oyktiro1 (imported)]

It seems I cant win.. Castrate to cut off the desire only to have to take meds that bring the desire back? I dont know what to do.

[sparkey49 (imported)]

There are a few who get by no T but it is the minority. I went 2.5 years no T and would of been happy no T but health issues dictated going on T. After that much time some sexual stuff did not return like not being able to get erect by self stimulating. Others everything comes right back! So it is all a gamble and you need to be able to handle it no matter the results but of course that is easier said than done especially as it really does effect your total mental being! Being on T isn't cheap especially if like myself it is all out of pocket!

[Losethem (imported)]

It seems I cant win.. Castrate to cut off the desire only to have to take meds that bring the desire back? I dont know what to do.

Mother Nature is a bitch, isn't she?

[Oyktiro1 (imported)]

Are there other meds that decreases sexual drive? Paxil, Prozac, and Zoloft?? How effective are these??

[Paolo]

https://www.google.com/search?q=medicat ... 8&oe=utf-8

[Oyktiro1 (imported)]

I'm already seeing a Therapist regularly but he's been on Vacation for the last 2 weeks and my increased desire in stoping my Libido just started very recently. So I plan to talk with him about this next week. I'm looking at Meds and Herbs that might help. I'm so Glad I came here I've only been here a few days but I've processed alot. I mean I was first thinking of a Full Nullification but I'm now down to drugs and Herbs to help me. Thank You all who have commented. Any suggestions when it comes to Drugs and Herbs? Experiences?? Good Bad??

[Oyktiro1 (imported)]

I've been reading about Chasteberry.. While I believe I have a low Libido compared to some of the guys I've been reading about.. These guys lust after a beautiful woman at first sight.. I do not.. They have reported in a lessoning of sexual desire taking this stuff.. They went from masturbating everyday to once a week.. I'm already at once a week so I'm hoping it will work for me. I'm gonna be buying some this Friday with my paycheck. I hope this works for me. I posted a question about Chasteberry in the Hormone and Chemical Castration section.

[Oyktiro1 (imported)]

Ive done more research on Chasteberry and it appears that it does not effect sex drive at all.. actually I read reports that women say they have an increase in sex drive while on it. So the Article I read at first which was a testimony must be wrong. Several sites say it does not effect sex drive. My next idea is SSRI's.

[nutless1 (imported)]

Indeed Mother Nature can be a bitch, but at least with TRT you can control her total dominance over your life!

Terry

Mother Nature is a bitch, isn't she?

[Oyktiro1 (imported)]

I've been scouring the Internet for OTC Drugs, Herbs, and Prescription Drugs that can help with lowering the Libido. I'm appaled at some of what I have seen. Other Forums other then this of men seeking to lessen their sex drive because they feel it is wrong are being attacked by other men who think it's right. It Upsets me when they say "Just get Married." Like that is some easy thing to do. Then others who are like "just jerk off it's fun." They have NO understanding of a man who does not want sex. It upsets me..