Boyhood Memories Possibly Castration Related.

[Atreyu69 (imported)]

When I was 14 a 12 year old named Craig spent the weekend at my house. We were best friends and I loved him. Craig's parents were the sort of people who enjoyed going on romantic getaways sans kids and that's what prompted the occasion. Not the first or the last I might add.

I'd entered puberty about a year earlier but for Craig it was no where in sight. The younger boy was totally hairless. No sign of puberty at all and so I felt very grown up around him.

I'd been whacking off for a few months and I was dying to let Craig in on it. That night we both got naked to compare our stuff. He was quite impressed by my development and that pleased me. I told Craig I had a secret I wanted to tell him. He replied that he had a secret for me as well.

Finely I screwed up my courage and told him. Craig replied with a wicked smile, "That's my secret to you. When's the last time you did it?"

I was flabergausted. I said I'd done it last just that morning. Craig replied, "Me too!"

This was a revelation. Craig was an extremely sheltered goody goody boy. His mom knew every time he went to the bathroom and he never did anything even remotely naughty. I asked Craig how he learned to do it and this is where the story gets sort of dark.

Craig reluctantly admitted that when he was eight his mom was visiting a friend. His mother's friend had a high school age son who was suppose to look after Craig for an hour or so. The high school boy took Craig into a trailer and jacked him off. Needless to say this was unbeknownst to his mother.

All this was nothing for Craig to be ashamed of. But what did shame him was that he liked being jacked off and soon learned to do it without assistance. It became a habit

Craig regretted telling me this and we never spoke of it again. I mean I asked for more detail a few times but he was too ashamed to fill me in on more.

This may have fed my interest in castration although by that time it was already quite strong.

[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

The simple reality is that most boys do learn about sex, jacking off, contraception, and puberty from older males of all different ages. I had a high school guy teach me how to jack off. A whole summer camp cabin of about 40 of us eager and horny grade school boys begged him to show us how by flashlight illumination in our barracks like camp cabin. He was our cabin counselor. Most of us owe these older males a great gratitude for teaching us those things when the fathers and brothers who should have been teaching ALL boys these same things, at young ages, were too balless to do their jobs and carry out their duties to the younger males around them. Non family members usually recognise sexuality developing in young males sooner and more honestly than most family members or parents do. Who else does this job for young males ? They need to learn from someone.

[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

Its sad that such needless and senseless teaching of sex shame and guilt wrecked two males close in age learning and enjoying each other in your case.

[Atreyu69 (imported)]

The simple reality is that most boys do learn about sex, jacking off, contraception, and puberty from older males of all different ages. I had a high school guy teach me how to jack off. A whole summer camp cabin of about 40 of us eager and horny grade school boys begged him to show us how by flashlight illumination in our barracks like camp cabin. He was our cabin counselor. Most of us owe these older males a great gratitude for teaching us those things when the fathers and brothers who should have been teaching ALL boys these same things, at young ages, were too balless to do their jobs and carry out their duties to the younger males around them. Non family members usually recognise sexuality developing in young males sooner and more honestly than most family members or parents do. Who else does this job for young males ? They need to learn from someone.

What you say is very true. When I was a senior in High School I was befriended by a very bright and outgoing neighborhood boy named Andy. Andy was an only child and being razed by his single mom. At age 12 his knowledge of sex was quite limited and he knew it. He'd sometimes ask me about wet dream and such but I never said much on the subject. He thought the term "jacking off" was just another way of saying "goofing off". One day while out in public he said to his mom, "Those boys are really jacking off!" Mom really flipped out and Andy couldn't figure out what he'd said that was so wrong.

Andy clearly thought the world of me. We were close and so he asked me what "jacking off" meant. I wanted to help him understand his body and to do so in a very gentle and respectful way. But I didn't give the boy any assistance at all. I didn't answer his questions. As opposed to being completely natural I thought that jacking off was rather naughty and also I was afraid that I might somehow make Andy gay so I said and did nothing.

Looking back I'm sorry about that. I wish I had the opportunity to do it all over again and not for my sake but for Andy's.

[erikboy (imported)]

Interesting, I figured it out on my own how to masturbate. I started doing it already at age 8. I just explored my genitals that led to arousal and then I tried to find ways how to increase arousal, as it felt intoxicang and pleasurable until I orgasmed. Of course, before puberty I masturbated like once or twice a month. Sometimes less. But when puberty started, orgasms started to feel much different and more concentrated, and I had to masturbate every single day. Noone teached me how to do that.

[Cseriess (imported)]

My first experience was rubbing myself on a mohair blanket I had on my bed, or in my cloth diaper. I wore them till I was quite old for wetting the bed It took me a while to figure out I could do it with my hand.

[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

What you say is very true. When I was a senior in High School I was befriended by a very bright and outgoing neighborhood boy named Andy. Andy was an only child and being razed by his single mom. At age 12 his knowledge of sex was quite limited and he knew it. He'd sometimes ask me about wet dream and such but I never said much on the subject. He thought the term "jacking off" was just another way of saying "goofing off". One day while out in public he said to his mom, "Those boys are really jacking off!" Mom really flipped out and Andy couldn't figure out what he'd said that was so wrong.

Andy clearly thought the world of me. We were close and so he asked me what "jacking off" meant. I wanted to help him understand his body and to do so in a very gentle and respectful way. But I didn't give the boy any assistance at all. I didn't answer his questions. As opposed to being completely natural I thought that jacking off was rather naughty and also I was afraid that I might somehow make Andy gay so I said and did nothing.

Looking back I'm sorry about that. I wish I had the opportunity to do it all over again and not for my sake but for Andy's.

Modern culture and laws force most males to fear accusations of improper sexual contact for anything remotely sexual. Its robs boys of all male companionship and understanding of any older males sexual lives and thoughts as the boys and teens grow. Its gone way too far with the pendulum swinging into Salem witch hunt frenzy types of paranoia and absurdities.

I think this is intentional to emasculate whole cultures and criminalize normal male behaviors, like masturbation.

[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

As a teacher and coach, I was lucky enough to be employed raising other people s kids and teens. It really breaks my heart to see the intense homophobia and body guilt and sex organ shame that even young children are taught in the US. I tried my best to undo that damage in locker rooms, gyms, and on sports fields to teach body pride and that natural male interactions are not all gay and evil.

Sex questions got honest but restrained and legally stifled answers from some teachers if the teacher was brave enough to answer. Most boys and teens are totally confused by circumcision, for example. Most hardly know if they are cut or uncut as boys and young teens. Seeing my obvious circumcision scars in showers and locker rooms caused some boys and teens to ask me about my penis because they knew I would not shame them, and I would calmly answer them honestly and respectfully. I always used my own body to answer their questions and show them what few adults were comfortable discussing or showing them. They appreciated the unembarassed answers and my lack of shame and allowing them to have no fear of bringing up any off limits topics. I hope they passed that on to other males in their lives.

Female s questions had to be handled even more cautiously as a male teacher. But quick and simple answers usually satisfied most questions without significant risk of being accused of improper behavior.

A few parents objected when their kids repeated my answers to their parents. Usually they told their kids that no one discusses " private parts " or ever calls them by name. Which is totally absurd and unrealistic for sexual humans who grow into even more sexually active teens and adults some day. I usually just replied that parents don t dictate what students and athletes can and can t choose discuss in single sex bathrooms and locker rooms. I m sure that got repeated to parents also lol.

[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

My measure of what answers were acceptable to give to minors was could I defend my words and actions if they were published in a newspaper article ? If I could defend them, then that response was adequate for a minor. But of course, males can obviously discuss more private and sexual topics safely with fellow males than with females in terms of what is accepted in this culture. So that influenced which answers were appropriate for each minor s sex who asked in relation to what sex the answerer is.

[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

Getting back on track with this thread, I think the shame and homophobia that Craig had was obvious to you as a boy. It clearly said sex was dirty, shameful, embarassing, and getting sexual ruined friendships and lost adults respect for boys. These ideas lead many boys into thinking that sexless life is more accepted, desired, and virtuous than the shameful pleasures that our male penis and testis make us crave.

Most young males won t make the connection between castration and healthy testis driving male sexual desires. Not unless boys are familiar with pet or livestock castration being done to remove those behaviors from neutered males. This explains why so many men who did grow up around livestock castrations develop sexual feelings and attractions about human castration and its affects on men, especially on extra virile and extra high sex driven men.

[Zipoid66 (imported)]

I figured out how to jack off all by myself, but later on I gave an inquisitive younger boy a demonstration, which resulted in his brothers holding me down and banding me. Although it scared the crap out of me, it also sparked an interest in castration as punishment.

[TopManFL (imported)]

My education in high school hit the perfect timing.

Before they changed the curriculum regarding sex education, it would have left me more confused than when I'd started the class. If you want to call it "sex education", it mainly consisted of overall hygiene lessons about how to shower, brush teeth, use deodorant, etc. What little education regarding sex was done by proxy - teaching about how mammals procreated. I guess students were supposed to figure out that if every other mammal reproduced via intercourse, so did humans.

However, by the time I go to high school, the thinking was that a direct approach was better. It was an 8-week class - my school system had moved from six semesters of 6-weeks to 4 quadmesters of 8 weeks each. The class was just a part of the biology program. All classes were 4 quadmesters each and so, this was just a segment of a class that lasted a year.

The quadmester for the biology class was all males. My favorite memory of the class was the teacher telling us that he would make every student put their tongue in their cheek and move it around before the class was over. He demonstrated this by putting his tongue in his cheek and we could all see him move it around. Later in the class, he said that the inside of the vagina was a mucus membrane with a texture very similar to the cheek inside the mouth. Exactly as predicted every student in the class put their tongue in their mouth and moved it around on their cheek.

No topic about reproduction was off-limits. It was all kept very scientific and the use of slang terms was frowned upon. When the topic of masturbation came up, I think every student had been doing it for quite some time. This was our sophomore year of high school and by then nature had taken its course. Even though masturbation was explained, I don't remember there being any questions.

For myself, I had three brothers and none of us ever talked about it to each other.

I remember like it was yesterday exactly how I ejaculated the first time - long before the sex education class in high school.

I'd been getting erections for a while and found touching my hard dick to be pleasurable. Being circumcised at birth, I could not move the skin over my glans and had taken to a gentle rubbing up and down because it felt good.

I had no idea there was more than rubbing my dick to because it felt good. Around my first year of middle school (7th grade and 13 years old), my first ejaculation and orgasm happened. I wasn't doing anything different - just rubbing my dick. My circumcision is high and loose. So, I could move the skin. I wasn't using lube

I remember everything in my cock and balls tightened up - my balls pulled up and my scrotum tightened. My cock seemed to get firmer. I had no idea what was going to happen next. Without warning (other than everything getter tighter and firmer), I shot a load over my head. I thought I had pee'd. Yet, no pee had ever felt that good.

I am very serious, that I looked for the semen (although I didn't know what it was called) on the wall behind my bed and all over my sheets and pillows. I couldn't find it. For all I know, it went into orbit. I've read other guys' descriptions of their first ejaculation that said it was watery and thinner than normal semen. I have no idea what it looked like because I never found it.

I was afraid to do it again right away because I didn't want to pee in the bed again. However, if felt so good that I did it again in about a week. After jerking off (I did not know that is what it was called) for a while, I started to squirt onto my chest and belly and figured out it wasn't pee.

A few trips to the public library and I figured out what it was. I also figured out that it was masturbation and that it was quite normal. I never checked the books out of the library, I just read them at the tables in the library. One book said there were two kinds of men - those that admit to masturbating and liars. I could not figure out why anyone would not want to do something that felt so good.

I am number two out of four boys and never talked about jerking off to my younger brothers as my older brother never discussed it with me. I am not sure it would have been better if I'd had my brother or another older guy tell me about it. Most likely, they wouldn't have known as much as I was able to figure out from reading at the library. I ended up realizing it was normal and I didn't need to feel ashamed by it - but, I did keep it a secret.

Oddly, you can tell a guy's age group by how he masturbates. In my generation, it was common to clan up with a gym shirt and to jerk off with the dominant hand.

Today, it is very common for men to jerk off with their non-dominate hand. This is true because they use their dominant hand to use the computer mouse. Also, they avoid the clean up by jerking off into a gym sock.

[Atreyu69 (imported)]

If Craig, Andy and I had all been nullified life would've been much simpler.