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Ever since I was 11 or so I was plagued by an intense libido. From age 11 to age 18 I was masturbating 5 times a day. Back then I thought it was just a temporary thing and that after I finished puberty I would adapt to my hormone levels and my sex drive would lower to a more manageable level.

Throughout my university years, my sex drive remained just as high. I still kept thinking that in a few years time, my sex drive would drop off and I just needed to wait a little longer.

When I turned 25 and there was no significant decline in my sex drive I knew I had to do something.

Before I go on though, I should probably emphasize just how much my insanely high libido was affecting my life. When I was in middle school and high school, going the school day without masturbating was a feat of heroic difficulty and many days I caved and masturbated in the bathroom stall. Regardless, the first thing I did when I got home was masturbate, which I would do no less than two more times before (quite often more) I went to bed. I always masturbated first thing when I woke up as well.

My sex drive and the required masturbation that went along with it completely controlled my life. When I got my first "real job" after I got my degree, I only had a 45 minute lunch break. I lived half an hour away from where I worked so there was no way I would have been able to drive home, masturbate, and get back to work on time. So what I did was I ran out of the building, got in my car, drove into the parking lot of an abandoned store that was 15 minutes away, masturbate, and go back to work. This left no time for me to actually eat lunch, other than maybe scarf down some packaged food that I had ready in my car.

There were major decisions that I made in my life that I made in order to maximize my opportunities to masturbate. The main reason I didn't do any extracurricular activities in high school was because I needed to get home ASAP and masturbate. I thought about joining the military but one of the reason I opted not to was fear of lack of opportunities to masturbate, especially in boot camp. One of the reasons I dropped out of the first university I attended was so I could go to a university close enough to where I could live at home (where I would have more opportunities to masturbate) and commute to class.

I know it sounds like I'm exaggerating but I'm being as honest as I can.

I really didn't get much pleasure out of masturbation due to doing it some much and being circumcised. It was more of a relief thing, something I needed to do to return to a short lived sanity. I was pretty much like a drug addict.

Getting to the point, I decided the only rational thing to do would be to get castrated. I found a surgeon on the internet in Thailand, paid less than $3000 and got both of testicles surgically removed.

The surgery most certainly worked in the sense that it lowered my sex drive astronomically. My sex drive went from a 100 to a 2. Interestingly, my nonsexual romantic desire for women also plummeted, going from a 100 to about a 10. Before, I always masturbated right before bed and imagined myself snuggling with a girl after, now I almost never masturbate before bed and instead of fantasizing about having a girl with me, most of the time my mind is just filled with random thoughts.

Other changes include feeling far less anger, complete loss of most fetishes, finding a much smaller pool of women physically attractive and a change in the type of woman I had a preference for. I also have a lot less motivation and energy in general. In terms of physical changes I have a lot less body hair, my facial hair growth slowed down (though not nearly as much as my body hair growth did) and I have a lot less muscle mass.

So AMA.

waj1993 wrote: Sun Mar 08, 2026 6:38 am I can relate to quite a bit of that, i had rubbed things raw on many occasions and still felt compelled to do the act, with does of shame after.

Never at school that i can remember, but many times in the car (even while driving), church bathroom, under the blanket on my grandparents couch, etc. It consumed quite a bit of my time - and this was all before the easy access to stimulating images on the web.

Pretty sure my grandparents knew what was going on, but they never called me out on it (but i think that's what accelerated getting my own room).

Neutrum260725 wrote: Sun Mar 08, 2026 8:38 pm I'm familiar with this behavior, though not quite to that extreme. As soon as I had enough time and privacy, it would start, sometimes up to six times a day. Interestingly, it happened more often in the summer than in the winter. When I had my stroke in March 2008, it was almost a catastrophe. For about ten years, I tried to improve things, but nothing helped. I decided to put an end to the urge to finally have some peace. I came across EAv2 and spent months reading about it. On July 26, 2025, my dream came true thanks to Dr. A., and since then, I've been feeling better than ever.

Neutrum260725

Castor wrote: Fri Apr 10, 2026 4:46 pm The story is told in such a matter-of-fact way that I think it must be true. In particular, the part in the chat where he writes about depression and suicidal thoughts makes the story seem all the more credible to me.

What’s strange is that he claims there was no website 11 years ago for men wanting to undergo castration. It doesn’t sound as though he has no experience of searching the internet. So he must have come across eunuch.org.

-Castor

2026Curious wrote: Mon Apr 13, 2026 6:54 amFake story?

Friotler7 wrote: Sun Mar 08, 2026 5:15 am It could be lying, because that's internet, but, either way, it shows what passes through someone's mind.

So AMA.

source: https://www.reddit.com/r/casualiama/com ... _i_got_an/

EDIT 10/04/2026 : I put the paragraphs back. I don't know why I didn't before.

sftineun wrote: Sat Apr 18, 2026 6:06 am Even so, I am still oversexed than my new bf who is 20 years my junior.

WheelyFixed wrote: Sat Apr 18, 2026 6:53 am I don't do Reddit because of privacy concerns (and BTW I just got a blurb in an investment letter I follow about how Reddit is going to be attempting to further monetize its service by selling it's message CONTENT to AI modelers and advertisers....) so wasn't aware of the other posts, thanks for pointing this out sftineun...

WheelyFixed wrote: Sat Apr 18, 2026 6:53 am Purely speculation, but given that one of the available models for home AI is "Llama" one could see a suggestive parsing in that username... In some ways the story could be something generated by an AI simply because it manages to hit so many of the 'right buttons' as to make it almost TO good to be real...

sftineun wrote: Sat Apr 18, 2026 6:06 am Although I can relate to the story, this one unfortunately seems very suspicious. When I checked out casualiama's posts on Reddit, he had all kinds of wild stories, from self harm, dating a much older man (wasn't he talking about girls in the quoted article?) to being handicapped, all ending with the invitation to AMA.

NaturalEunuch wrote: Sat Apr 11, 2026 2:34 am Sounds like a pretty common story. I'm glad it had a happy ending.

Stallion wrote: Fri Apr 24, 2026 1:20 am so where is the story ?

WheelyFixed wrote: Sat Apr 18, 2026 6:53 am Purely speculation, but given that one of the available models for home AI is "Llama" one could see a suggestive parsing in that username...

dandelion wrote: Fri Apr 24, 2026 6:39 am

WheelyFixed wrote: Sat Apr 18, 2026 6:53 am Purely speculation, but given that one of the available models for home AI is "Llama" one could see a suggestive parsing in that username...

The reddit ended with liama not llama and username ended with "maleama"

Friotler7 wrote: Thu Apr 23, 2026 9:24 pm

sftineun wrote: Sat Apr 18, 2026 6:06 am Even so, I am still oversexed than my new bf who is 20 years my junior.

Have you ever considered seeing a psychiatrist? That could be something of a compulsive disorder. I'm trying to treat my Tourettes (nervous tics) and my doctor recommended me Sertraline Chlorinate, which helps with obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD). I noticed that much of my sexual urges and impulses lowered a lot, but it still early to say (less than one month). Due to that, I think I would give up castration, since there are a better solution for dealing with intense sexual urges without losing my testosterone factory.

sftineun wrote: Sun May 31, 2026 9:26 am
My sex drive only came back because of my TRT.

I had taken Sertraline before for depression. I did crash my sex drive. But somehow, I found its side effects more troublesome than it's worth. I am planning to approach my PCP to get a referal to a trans endocrinologist for non-binary maintenance, keeping my testosterone at a minimum level, but also keeping my bones healthy without feminization. I am hoping to start Raloxifene, an estrogen antagonist, that post menopausal women take to maintain bone health but used off label for men to prevent gynecomastia.