Decision Made & Going For It!

[EricaAnn (imported)]

After giving the idea of castration much thought and contemplation over the past many years, being who I am and what I am, and after having some very serious discussions with my spouse on the topic since coming out of the "closet" and sharing with her who I really am, I have decided to proceed with the "big clip" to finally rid myself of these two most unwanted body parts.

I called Dr. Kimmel's office this past Monday and spoke at length with the Doctor on Monday afternoon. We discussed many things including my HRT and he took his time to answer all my questions in a very kind and reassuring way. Called his office on Tuesday and scheduled my procedure for Friday, March 24th. I have also forwarded the required $750.00 down payment.

It's finally going to happen and I can't wait! Five weeks from today!

Wish me luck Girls. I'll keep you posted!

[BudleyBare (imported)]

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I have decided to proceed with the "big clip" to finally rid myself of these two most unwanted body parts...

Just curious if you included scrotum removal in your plans?

For me, if I were to go for the removal of my remaining nut, I think I would want things "cleaner" or "smoother" there. I really don't know what the right word is, but maybe you can understand or guess what I am thinking about. My main concern in this regard is that I swim a lot (in Speedo type suits), and have wondered if others would notice something missing.

The really scary part of such action is the large number of postings here which indicate eunuchification resulted in really, really serious problems, more psychological than physiological. It sounds like you have dealt with that (otherwise you would not have made your telephone call). Perhaps you could think about posting more of your experiences post-surgery.

I do wish you all the best!!! Isn't living life fun, not always easy, but fun?

[EricaAnn (imported)]

I am not going to have my scrotum removed at this time in order to keep my options open regarding possible SRS in the future. The spouse and I have discussed this possibility in our conversations on the castration surgery and she has not ruled it out for me. Maybe in the future!

I'm not too concerned with the psychological implications as I have been a chemical eunuch for a while now. I believe it is the FHRT that I'm on that has prevented much of the psychological impact from the loss of testosterone in my system.

So far as people noticing that you're a eunuch, I have read many posts in the community regarding this topic, some even regarding nudists colonies, and it would appear that many people just do not notice especially wearing a bathing suit, even one as small as a Speedo. Don't be concerned about that at all!

I'll keep you posted on my post surgery progress and will be happy to share my experiences if it helps anyone at all to make their decision regarding their own castration. For me, it just seems "right".

[Mac (imported)]

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. My main concern in this regard is that I swim a lot (in Speedo type suits), and have wondered if others would notice something missing. .......

Why do you care if they notice that something is missing? What is wrong with not having a big bulge down there or even having a smooth look?

[Hairless (imported)]

After giving the idea of castration much thought and contemplation over the past many years, being who I am and what I am, and after having some very serious discussions with my spouse on the topic since coming out of the "closet" and sharing with her who I really am, I have decided to proceed with the "big clip" to finally rid myself of these two most unwanted body parts.

I called Dr. Kimmel's office this past Monday and spoke at length with the Doctor on Monday afternoon. We discussed many things including my HRT and he took his time to answer all my questions in a very kind and reassuring way. Called his office on Tuesday and scheduled my procedure for Friday, March 24th. I have also forwarded the required $750.00 down payment.

It's finally going to happen and I can't wait! Five weeks from today!

Wish me luck Girls. I'll keep you posted!

Just make sure he removes enough of the chords so you don't have adheasions. Good luck, Steve

[lindaleah (imported)]

Would like more informaiton about relationship with you wife past present and what you see in the future. Good Luck on upcoming transformation with Dr Kimmel

[BudleyBare (imported)]

Why do you care if they notice that something is missing? What is wrong with not having a big bulge down there or even having a smooth look?

I generally do not like to be the center of attention, either individually or in large groups. In decades past, I sought attention and enjoyed it, but no longer. That change came along with several others in my life, such as less interest in material things and more interest in relationships and challenging dialogue. It is just part of whom I am. I am not antisocial or recluse by any means, but just want to do my own thing without a lot of fanfare or attention.

Note that wearing speedos is already enough of an attention getter. However, that style is what I have always worn (except a long time ago when young school age boys swam naked, or while at the YMCA pool). I feel like I get a better workout with brief styles instead of "dorkies".

P.S., If I could figure out how to do it with this software, I would move this over to a new topic thread. This sub-topic seems to take away from the original posting. But alas, I couldn't figure out how to split it off. I guess another senior moment has struck.

[thefraj (imported)]

Thanks Erica! Want to wish you the very best of luck and a speedy recovery! I would love to hear how you get on (maybe this thread would be a good one to use?)

I doubt it'd be possible to notice a eunuch by simply looking. Nobody has ever noticed that about me - despite having been in many situations. (I'm an avid swimmer, and over here communal changing rooms are common!)

But sometimes it's best this way. I wouldn't mind trying to explain, but would probably want to try and avoid any unnecessary questions!

Anyway - I'm starting to ramble - so I hope all goes well!!

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

Best of luck EricaAnn. Hope everything comes out well and you get the body you've always wanted

I'll be thinking of you.

[EricaAnn (imported)]

Dear lindaleah,

In response to your question regarding my relationship with my wife, we've known each other for 34 years and have been married for the last 30 of those. We have gotten to know each other pretty well over those years and I feel that really helped her when I finally shared my life long "secret" with her. She has been very accepting and understanding as to who I real am.

She appreciates the lack of testosterone in me. She has described me as a much calmer, less aggressive and more loving person.

As far as sex, well we now have a very nice vibrator, which she has fallen in love with and why not, It's hung far better than I am! LOL! Our lives have never been better!

[bryan (imported)]

Erica Ann,

I'm happy for you. My trip to Philadelphia last April lives warmly in my memory. I trust you'll be staying in the Best Western. Don't expect to see the sights after surgery since you'll have an ice pack for 48 hours and should have your feet up "as much as reasonably possible" for two weeks.

I'd gladly go to Dr. Kimmel for more surgery (but that costs money!).

[lindaleah (imported)]

Dear Erica Ann

Thank you for your quick response. I have similer circumstances to yours. we have been married 39 years and known each other since she was 16 and I was 19. I came out to my wife about 15 years ago and it was not good. She is slowly coming around to accepting me for who I really am but it has been hard for her.

You state your wife appreciates your lack of testosterone. What if any and what amount of chemicals/hormones are you using? I know there are other threads dealing with this subject but since your story is similar to mine I am follwing yours with great interest.

I brought up the subject of castration this week (thanks to all those who have contributed here) and suprisingly she didn't freak and we had a reasonable conversation about it. I think it will happen eventually. (after chemical castration first of course) I am planning on starting therapy very soon to get the official nod for hormones anti antrogens. I feel confident about the path I'm on.

I've been studying this subject for some time and really appreciate all the great information and dialog in the Eunuch Archives.

LOL and My thoughts will be with you Friday

LindaLeah

[JeffEunuch (imported)]

I am not going to have my scrotum removed at this time in order to keep my options open regarding possible SRS in the future......

I'm not too concerned with the psychological implications as I have been a chemical eunuch for a while now. ...So far as people noticing that you're a eunuch, I have read many posts in the community regarding this topic, some even regarding nudists colonies, and it would appear that many people just do not notice especially wearing a bathing suit, even one as small as a Speedo. Don't be concerned about that at all!

I'

ve posted on this topic before. I've been ballless for ~6 years. I'm nude a lot - locker rooms, gay dance clubs, hot tub parties, nude beaches, etc. While I'm sure that some people notice or wonder about the lack of scrotal contents, no one has ever said anything. A few sex partners have asked. That's it. I'm also lucky to have a BF who likes playing with my empty sac and thinks I look better w/o balls.

[EricaAnn (imported)]

You state your wife appreciates your lack of testosterone. What if any and what amount of chemicals/hormones are you using? I know there are other threads dealing with this subject but since your story is similar to mine I am foll

owing yours with great interest.

Dear Lindaleah,

I am currently taking, on a daily basis, 300 Mg. of Spironolactone, morning, noon and night. 8 Mg. of Estrofem, 4 Mg. morning and evening and 325 Mg. of an enteric coated aspirin. The aspirin is at the suggestion of Dr. Kimmel.

I just took my first hormone test and have sent it to the lab for analysis and am awaiting the results before making any adjustments, which I will also discuss with the good doctor when I see him the end of March.

I'll keep you posted. And yes, I fully agree with you, there are many people within this Community in which we can all learn a great deal from.

[bagman (imported)]

Dont worry what other people think of how u look as long as u are happy with yourself it does not matter one hoot what others think. My gues is u will look just great best of luck

[SplitDik (imported)]

If you're a MTF transsexual and have been taking chemical castration for a while, you probably could get a better surgeon than Kimmel to operate on you. No offense, but his track record is inconsistent, and he's really only a good option for those who can't progress toward SRS through mainstream medical community.

[lindaleah (imported)]

I would check with Dr Marci Bowers in Trinidad CO

[EricaAnn (imported)]

Hey Gang,

How about a little help or sharing of some knowledge. I received the results of my first hormone test an am having a little problem interpreting the testosterone level. My level is currently 70.4 pg/ml (244.5 pmol/L). Does this sound kinda high? Just wanted to get a second opinion on this one. Any advise?

But then again, it really doesn't matter all that much considering my appointment with Dr. Kimmel is just 3 short weeks away!

Thanks,

[lindaleah (imported)]

Hello EricaAnn

I'm no expert but what I read is less than 85 ng/ml testosterone is typical for MTF and females. Your reading said Pg/ml is this a typo? I will be off line for next 10 days going to vist relatives. Did you go to a Dr or mail in kit? if so which one did you use and what was the cost? I need to have mine checked again.

In a prior post you said you are

much calmer, less aggressive and more loving.

Are there any other (good or bad) effects?

My spouse is finally (after about 15 years of denial) coming around to accepting my feminine side. The other night I said I needed to be female and aked if she didn't mind. She blew me away and said ok and thanks for asking.

Lindaleah

ps very injoyable evening infem. Didn't want to go to bed that night

[EricaAnn (imported)]

Dear Lindaleah,

No, the pg/ml is not a typo. That is the way my test results were returned to me. The female hormone test kit I used I obtained on line from caigmedical.com. They're normally $65.00 each, but by purchasing 3 at a time the cost per test kit drops to $60.00 each. The cost includes the test kit materials, which is a saliva test, the packing materials to return the samples, lab processing costs and the next day air delivery. Not too bad of a deal.

As far as good and bad effects, I haven't found a bad one yet and to be quite honest, I even like myself a little better without the testosterone!

My wife too is coming around to thinking more of me as female rather than a male. We have even discussed the possibility of some day going through with the SRS and completing the process, but we'll have to wait to see what the future holds in store!

[satanherself (imported)]

There are a few good GP's in the Philly arae who deal with TG and you can get bloodwork done there.Are you self medding?

[EricaAnn (imported)]

I am more or less self medding based on my own research and my discussion with the good Dr. Kimmel. In my 20-30 minute telephone conversation with the doctor we discussed my current HRT regimen and he confirm that I was pretty much on the right course. In fact, he even mentioned that he could prescribe a more effective form of estrogen from what I'm currently taking that would be produce quicker results in the feminization process. It was at the doctor's suggestion that I added the

325 Mg. of an enteric coated aspirin

to my daily medications.

I'm planning on having another discussion with the doctor regarding my HRT during my pre-surgery conference, which by the way is only a week and a half away an needless to say I'm getting pretty excited!

Oh, and by the way, welcome back to the community.

[satanherself (imported)]

I have to say ,,rushing the effects in not the best way ,I was started on small dose's and Am very happy with the results.You may wanna go with the

patch as it is great..and you should really see a Dr....Basic puberty is 3 years

rushing that is not always agood thing..Not trying to throw a wrench into yer dreams,,but after 8 years in transition,,I have learned a few things

[EricaAnn (imported)]

I do appreciate the sharing of the experiences and the knowledge of others who have traveled this path ahead of me. Especially eight years of experience! Thank you!

I do agree with you that going the slow but steady route toward feminization is the best method of achieving my goals. That's one of the many reasons I have elected not to take Dr. Kimmel up on his offer. Some of my other reasons is to give myself and others, like my spouse, time to adapt to the changes that I have already begun to experience.

So no, you haven't thrown a wrench into my dreams, but rather, confirmed what I was thinking all along. Thanks again!

[EricaAnn (imported)]

Hey Gang,

This will be my last posting before my appointment with the good Dr. Kimmel on Friday morning (March 24th). Won't be around a computer until I get back.

The spouse and I are flying out tomorrow night and plan on doing some sight seeing on Thursday and then....it's Friday morning and the day I have awaited oh so many years. The transformation of a dream into reality!

I'll post up sometime over the weekend and let you know how everything went.

Wish me luck and be thinking about me on Friday morning, for by Friday afternoon, there will be one more eunuch in this world!