About my desire for castration

[sparkey49 (imported)]

I had thought about it and thought it would be nice then as the years went by it got stronger and stronger till it was no question time and when I sat there and injected the Calcium Chloride I was so ready and excited and am so greatful now but you must be at that 100% point or don't do it!

[Peter47-NL (imported)]

Thank you Begoneboy and sparkey49 you are right about the 100%.

Today I felt this: It is a prelude but not jet the final work.

It is now Saturday afternoon, groceries are done and while I cycle home my balls flop up and down in the scrotum between my legs. It feels wonderful, as if someone is kneading my balls and pulling hard. It seems to be a prelude to something that comes later, through the bike movements in the street to the naked body at home, where my balls are kneaded and pulled, painful tapping.

Yes, it is true, it is a prelude. The delightful foreplay of my castration.

Finally my testicles will come out of my bag one by one, after which the empty scrotum will be carefully cut away and the skin will be sewn tightly.

Yes, at last I lost my balls and my bag, I was castrated, I am a eunuch, a gelding.

Finally, finally, it happened, the step was made, I dared to take the step. It feels so good.

Maybe my dick comes later and I get a nice smooth pubic area.

Occasionally I still think about how it was when I still had my genitals, it was great to play with them, but as it is now, it is much nicer.

[DerKastrierte (imported)]

On and off and on and off, I know what you mean.... and I hate it, especially the "off" moments!

[Peter47-NL (imported)]

Last night I had a strange experience. I felt and touched my body and my genitals seemed to have disappeared. I understood that my willy was limp between my legs under my body. I realized that it could be wonderful to have no more dick and balls, to be a nullo.

Now that I am thinking back to this, my little cockie is getting stiff, as if he wants to say: "Nice to feel like a nullo and to have the possibillity to get a a litle hardon out of it."

[Peter47-NL (imported)]

i want my castration. just simply that, no fantasy. Some castrated guys as friendsi

[sparkey49 (imported)]

Once I got to the right point there was no turning back and no regrets!

[DerKastrierte (imported)]

So if you are sure - go for it - good luck!

[Peter47-NL (imported)]

So if you are sure - go for it - good luck!

Thank you very much for your nice word. My feeling is now "Please don't take much time with the procedure. Please cut my balls soon, cut them off and make me a happy eunuch."

[DerKastrierte (imported)]

As I said, just go for it, sometimes it's good to realize wishes and you dream of it for a long time. Nevertheless the procedure needs it time, and as soon as they are off a new life is going to start

[takemineaway]

hey,
out in Ca. love the idea of losing my balls. Would love to have a eunuch top me. I like to band, and push my nuts inside me, giving me an empty sack. just seeing if I'm the only guy not wanting to be feminized but not wanting balls either.
I thought about stirring the first time I saw it done, but don't think I can handle it. I also wanted to do an ever-clear attempt but ironically can't get past the needle idea. I've inflated my sack with saline before but never injected a nut.
Once my balls are gone, I've always said I wanted to keep the sack so I can inflate it with saline should I ever miss my balls, LOL, yet at the same time just desire the smooth look with a nub for a penis. I do not want to be fem, just a man without balls. It's weird, but I'm just wondering if there are any men out there that feel the same, or any eunuchs in this category (a masculine eunuch.)
I've banded my balls to the point where they are dark purple, cold to the touch, numb, and to the point where I get that knot in my stomach, a good indication that my balls are truly dying. I just couldn't get far enough along to actually kill them off. I'm sure over time I am becoming a eunuch by doing this. I know my testicles have shrunk, yet my T levels are in the mid to low normal range. I fantasize about CBT, and castration. Love the look of a nub and no balls, as Ive been shrinking my dick as well. Weird I'm a circumcised male, but looking at my shrunken dick, you'd think I was an intact man with a micro penis. It's a strong desire to lose my balls, guessing I'm not man enough to really get rid of them LOL.

[eggless splitty]

Ouh Taky! There will be thausands of men with the same, your desires!! I had the urg to torture and loose my eggs already as a little boy and had the castration realized as an old bull with 70 and now a strong Ox. and MAN! yeah - i mean and feel the castrated man, the eunuch, as the highest male level, especially the voluntarily or even ownhands neutered man, gelding or steer or Oxl!
The strong masculine nullo or man - without any danglings from his crotch - what an arousing view and state!!

[takemineaway]

I have the desire, but also like the CBT of still having them. I often tuck and tie them up into my body and have then there for a day or 2. I band them to the point of being cold and numb but could never get past the point of no return. I know I'd have to hit the ER for a professional removal, or have a cutter go for it, and again end up in the ER for safety. Stiil that ER visit would be cause for a psych hold also. I want to lose my balls not my life after all.
It's also not to expensive to hit that Dr in Tijuana, but yeah just haven't been able to come to the point of making it a reality.
Congrats on you making a reality out of your dreams

[eggless splitty]

Oh yeah Taky, thats always the dilemma: to play and torture our danglings a life long or the final torturing anydays with removal of the killed stuff. I had liked it to inject my lovelies so much, still hundret times because it was so arousingly to fill them up and they cryed also each week for their next load of alc, believe me. The both were immediately addicted to alc - the old ass holes!! I had warned them: Alc can be deadly for little man-eggs!! But they wanted not to hear: nO, no, no we need the wonderful stuff!! and so gave i the filling, one after the other, stitches the canule into them and pressed the load down... until it was to late, they made their shut up, were calm and swollen and hard as like stone. And so feelless now: i could beat them with the rubber-hammer...wonderfully.. and they said no word or any pain... the hammer jumped only always back into the higth for a renewed striking down...
And so you can them carry to the ER and tell a story of ladder crash or accident with the bike or other good story. And they will aks not anymore, investigate the dead stuff and finally cut out and off!! Nothing of psycho-shit, never a word! I went the next day with two fresh palsters and very proudly out of the hospital and you cant imagine how proudly i was, the fresh made strong eunuch, haha.
And for beating and squeezing my empty baggy will be still very usefully and thankfully, haha...