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Good luck and Godspeed. Please keep us posted and take care of yourself.
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EricaAnn (imported) wrote: Wed Mar 22, 2006 1:57 pm Hey Gang,
This will be my last posting before my appointment with the good Dr. Kimmel on Friday morning (March 24th).
TO: EricaAnn
You won't get this untill after your transformation into the new you. I'm very happy for you and wish the very best. Keep us posted.\
To everyone else that have posted here I want to give you a hearty thank you.!!! This forum has been very very helpful
I went to my first group session and it was very helpful. because of confidentiality I can't really share anything with you but it was wonderful to be able to share and hear others experiences with people like me (US).
Lindaleah
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Hi Gang,
Well I'm back from my trip to Philadelphia and
Arrived in Philly late on Wednesday night, the flight was late in departing, but what's new with that. Got a good night's sleep, had breakfast and then spouse and I went out all day on Thursday and did some extensive sight seeing of all the historical places located within this fair city. One of the very first sights we went looking for that morning was Dr. Kimmel's office, just to make certain I knew exactly where it was for Friday morning. Found it without too much difficulty.
I prepared myself on Thursday night for the surgery by sitting down in a warm bath and my trusty triple headed razor. I found it much easier to sit in the tub so I could get a real good look at the shaving situation. I shaved myself from my butt hole forward all the way through the "tant" area. In the process, I found a mole I never knew I had. What do you know, considering I've been clean shaved throughout my genital area for several years.
I surprising slept very well on Thursday night, probably from all the walking on Thursday. Got up about 7:30 on Friday morning, showered and went down to the hotel's restaurant for a light breakfast as per the doctor's instructions. We were in the middle of eating when I was paged for a telephone call. My first thought was "who the hell could be calling me at this hotel". I picked up the call at a house phone in the lobby and much to my surprise, it was Dr. Kimmel.
He was calling to make certain we had arrived in town and insure I was having a light breakfast before the surgery. I told him I had and he informed that he was in his office and that I could come over any time between now and 9:30 AM. This was pretty frick'ng exciting!!! The wife and I finished our coffee and made our way one block north on 22nd Street to the corner of Pennsylvania Ave.
We entered the building and much to my surprise the entire interior of the building is undergoing remodeling. There was a temporary sign on the corridor wall directing you to Dr. Kimmel's office. Upon entering we were greeted by Mary, the doctor's receptionist. She apologized for all the construction and that the contractor was running behind. They should already have been in the new offices on the second floor. We then meet the good doctor and we introduced ourselves. He is a gentlemen in what I would say to be his late sixties. Very sharp and very lucid and very gentle in his mannerisms and bed style manner. We discussed the surgery one more time and he once again explained that this very permanent and not reversible. He explained the procedure in great detail. I gave Mary the cashier's check for the final $1250.00 and signed the consent form with my wife as my witness. We got up from his office and he asked my wife to wait out in the waiting area.
We entered a room about the typical size of any examine room I've every seen in any other doctor's office and it was equipped with the usual examination table, a portable surgical light, an instrument table and some type of an electrical surgical instrument. He instructed me to remove my pants and underwear which I placed on a chair in the corner of the room. He asked to bend over to expose my left butt cheek. He explained that he was going to give me a "good slap on my ass", that way I would not feel the sting of the needle as he gave my an injection of an antibiotics.
I then climbed up and laid back on the table and the doctor asked me to spread my legs. He proceeded to examine me and complemented me on my shaving thoroughness. He also informed me that what I thought was a mole was actually a wart, nothing to do with genital herpes, but more like the kind that one would get on their finger. He volunteered to remove it and did as well as a couple of other things. LOL!
He washed the entire area within a good 12" on my genitals with betadine to throughly sterilize the area He then injected me first in the scrotum area with a local anesthesia using a very fine needle and then injected me again on either side of my penis. We waited a few minutes while we placed a grounding pad on my left thigh. He explained that this was necessary for the electric scalpel. We talked about transgenderism and he was very sympathetic and understanding of people like me. He poked me a few times with a needle to insure everything was numb and he proceeded to make the incision in my scrotum. He slide the right one out first and and I felt a pretty good tug on the old cord as he pulled it tight and placed a clamp on it. He then begun using the electric scalpel to cut through the mucus membrane that envelops the testicle. That process produced kinda of a nasty burning oder. I even remarked "is that me smoking or you"?! He got a pretty good laugh out of that! He then explained that he was through the membrane and took his hand scalpel and cut through the cord, blood vessels and everything else that connected this wretched thing to me. He sutured the end of the cord, released the clamp and I felt what was left slide back up inside me. He then duplicated the procedure on the left one. THEY WERE FINALLY GONE!!!
He sutured me up using 6 stitches to close the incision. He waited a few minutes and just observed everything down there to make certain there were no problems. He placed a 4x4 gauze pad on the incision and asked me to hold it in place while he placed a larger pad over it and then slide a black colored athletic supporter over everything. The whole thing took about 40 minutes according to my wife. I got up off the table and redressed. I rejoined my wife and the doctor in his office and was presented my "goodie bag" by Mary. This plain white colored plastic bag contained a great quantity of 4x4 gauze pads, larger pads for me to place under me in bed, in case of drainage, a velum, stool softeners, pain killers and directions on how to care for the incision. He also gave a script for additional antibiotics to be filled at the local pharmacy.
We also discussed my HRT and offered me several options to consider. I'm going to think them over very carefully and agreed to call him in the next two week with my decision on which regimen to proceed with.
Spent the rest of the day and Friday night with my feet up and an ice bag on my genitals to relieve the normal swelling. The anesthesia wore off around 3:30 in the afternoon. I was really surprised that I didn't have any real pain or discomfort. Just a minor burning sensation in the area which the ice bag pretty much took care of.
Dr. Kimmel called me on Friday night to make certain I was doing okay. I assured him I was and he even asked me if it felt good to finally have them off. I told him I couldn't be more excited! He wished us a good flight home.
Got up this morning and felt pretty good. Once again, no real pain or discomfort. Changed my gaze pad, had breakfast and flew home, where up to the time of making this post, I've been lying back with my ice bag.
Had to get up as I was starting to get frost bite! LOL!
I'll keep you posted as to my progress, but so far, so good!
Thanks for your support!
Well I'm back from my trip to Philadelphia and
Arrived in Philly late on Wednesday night, the flight was late in departing, but what's new with that. Got a good night's sleep, had breakfast and then spouse and I went out all day on Thursday and did some extensive sight seeing of all the historical places located within this fair city. One of the very first sights we went looking for that morning was Dr. Kimmel's office, just to make certain I knew exactly where it was for Friday morning. Found it without too much difficulty.
I prepared myself on Thursday night for the surgery by sitting down in a warm bath and my trusty triple headed razor. I found it much easier to sit in the tub so I could get a real good look at the shaving situation. I shaved myself from my butt hole forward all the way through the "tant" area. In the process, I found a mole I never knew I had. What do you know, considering I've been clean shaved throughout my genital area for several years.
I surprising slept very well on Thursday night, probably from all the walking on Thursday. Got up about 7:30 on Friday morning, showered and went down to the hotel's restaurant for a light breakfast as per the doctor's instructions. We were in the middle of eating when I was paged for a telephone call. My first thought was "who the hell could be calling me at this hotel". I picked up the call at a house phone in the lobby and much to my surprise, it was Dr. Kimmel.
He was calling to make certain we had arrived in town and insure I was having a light breakfast before the surgery. I told him I had and he informed that he was in his office and that I could come over any time between now and 9:30 AM. This was pretty frick'ng exciting!!! The wife and I finished our coffee and made our way one block north on 22nd Street to the corner of Pennsylvania Ave.
We entered the building and much to my surprise the entire interior of the building is undergoing remodeling. There was a temporary sign on the corridor wall directing you to Dr. Kimmel's office. Upon entering we were greeted by Mary, the doctor's receptionist. She apologized for all the construction and that the contractor was running behind. They should already have been in the new offices on the second floor. We then meet the good doctor and we introduced ourselves. He is a gentlemen in what I would say to be his late sixties. Very sharp and very lucid and very gentle in his mannerisms and bed style manner. We discussed the surgery one more time and he once again explained that this very permanent and not reversible. He explained the procedure in great detail. I gave Mary the cashier's check for the final $1250.00 and signed the consent form with my wife as my witness. We got up from his office and he asked my wife to wait out in the waiting area.
We entered a room about the typical size of any examine room I've every seen in any other doctor's office and it was equipped with the usual examination table, a portable surgical light, an instrument table and some type of an electrical surgical instrument. He instructed me to remove my pants and underwear which I placed on a chair in the corner of the room. He asked to bend over to expose my left butt cheek. He explained that he was going to give me a "good slap on my ass", that way I would not feel the sting of the needle as he gave my an injection of an antibiotics.
I then climbed up and laid back on the table and the doctor asked me to spread my legs. He proceeded to examine me and complemented me on my shaving thoroughness. He also informed me that what I thought was a mole was actually a wart, nothing to do with genital herpes, but more like the kind that one would get on their finger. He volunteered to remove it and did as well as a couple of other things. LOL!
He washed the entire area within a good 12" on my genitals with betadine to throughly sterilize the area He then injected me first in the scrotum area with a local anesthesia using a very fine needle and then injected me again on either side of my penis. We waited a few minutes while we placed a grounding pad on my left thigh. He explained that this was necessary for the electric scalpel. We talked about transgenderism and he was very sympathetic and understanding of people like me. He poked me a few times with a needle to insure everything was numb and he proceeded to make the incision in my scrotum. He slide the right one out first and and I felt a pretty good tug on the old cord as he pulled it tight and placed a clamp on it. He then begun using the electric scalpel to cut through the mucus membrane that envelops the testicle. That process produced kinda of a nasty burning oder. I even remarked "is that me smoking or you"?! He got a pretty good laugh out of that! He then explained that he was through the membrane and took his hand scalpel and cut through the cord, blood vessels and everything else that connected this wretched thing to me. He sutured the end of the cord, released the clamp and I felt what was left slide back up inside me. He then duplicated the procedure on the left one. THEY WERE FINALLY GONE!!!
He sutured me up using 6 stitches to close the incision. He waited a few minutes and just observed everything down there to make certain there were no problems. He placed a 4x4 gauze pad on the incision and asked me to hold it in place while he placed a larger pad over it and then slide a black colored athletic supporter over everything. The whole thing took about 40 minutes according to my wife. I got up off the table and redressed. I rejoined my wife and the doctor in his office and was presented my "goodie bag" by Mary. This plain white colored plastic bag contained a great quantity of 4x4 gauze pads, larger pads for me to place under me in bed, in case of drainage, a velum, stool softeners, pain killers and directions on how to care for the incision. He also gave a script for additional antibiotics to be filled at the local pharmacy.
We also discussed my HRT and offered me several options to consider. I'm going to think them over very carefully and agreed to call him in the next two week with my decision on which regimen to proceed with.
Spent the rest of the day and Friday night with my feet up and an ice bag on my genitals to relieve the normal swelling. The anesthesia wore off around 3:30 in the afternoon. I was really surprised that I didn't have any real pain or discomfort. Just a minor burning sensation in the area which the ice bag pretty much took care of.
Dr. Kimmel called me on Friday night to make certain I was doing okay. I assured him I was and he even asked me if it felt good to finally have them off. I told him I couldn't be more excited! He wished us a good flight home.
Got up this morning and felt pretty good. Once again, no real pain or discomfort. Changed my gaze pad, had breakfast and flew home, where up to the time of making this post, I've been lying back with my ice bag.
Had to get up as I was starting to get frost bite! LOL!
I'll keep you posted as to my progress, but so far, so good!
Thanks for your support!
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Erica,
Congratulations! Thank you for your detailed description of your time with Dr. Kimmel. It's a scary thing to fly to another city and go to a stranger for surgery. Accounts like yours help others build up the courage.
Your experience mirrors mine. Dr. Kimmel has a great bedside manner.
Terri
Congratulations! Thank you for your detailed description of your time with Dr. Kimmel. It's a scary thing to fly to another city and go to a stranger for surgery. Accounts like yours help others build up the courage.
Your experience mirrors mine. Dr. Kimmel has a great bedside manner.
Terri
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EricaAnn
Congratulations. Very glad all went well. My thoughts were with you Friday.
Would you mind sharing the different HRT options as I am probably going to start HRT very soon and can never get too much information. Thanks to all on this site I'm planning on going slow. Chemical castration first before the real thing. I was on small dose of self administered estrogen and progesterone for about a month and loved the effects but am now going the smart way with professionals.
Love to all
Lindaleah
Congratulations. Very glad all went well. My thoughts were with you Friday.
Would you mind sharing the different HRT options as I am probably going to start HRT very soon and can never get too much information. Thanks to all on this site I'm planning on going slow. Chemical castration first before the real thing. I was on small dose of self administered estrogen and progesterone for about a month and loved the effects but am now going the smart way with professionals.
Love to all
Lindaleah
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Hey Gang,
It's now been 4 days since my procedure and I'm happy to report that I'm doing great! I have no real discomfort or pain and the drainage from the incision has just about stopped altogether. The swelling has also gone down quite a bit in the last day and a half.
I'm continuing to take my antibiotics and I'm applying Neosporen to the incision and changing my gaze pads twice a day to keep the area as clean as possible.
I can't even begin to describe how good it feels to finally be rid of those two ugly testosterone producing things between my legs! So far, I don't feel that much different from when I was chemically castrated, but then again, it's only been a few days.
Thanks for your support and I'll continue to keep you posted on my progress!
I'll also be happy to share with you the HRT options that Dr. Kimmel has given me to consider once I get a little more information from him.
It's now been 4 days since my procedure and I'm happy to report that I'm doing great! I have no real discomfort or pain and the drainage from the incision has just about stopped altogether. The swelling has also gone down quite a bit in the last day and a half.
I'm continuing to take my antibiotics and I'm applying Neosporen to the incision and changing my gaze pads twice a day to keep the area as clean as possible.
I can't even begin to describe how good it feels to finally be rid of those two ugly testosterone producing things between my legs! So far, I don't feel that much different from when I was chemically castrated, but then again, it's only been a few days.
Thanks for your support and I'll continue to keep you posted on my progress!
I'll also be happy to share with you the HRT options that Dr. Kimmel has given me to consider once I get a little more information from him.
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Hi Everyone,
In my thread I told everyone that I would keep you posted on my progress and so I have the following to share. I would have liked to keep you more up to date, but then the web site disappeared for a while due to the latest hacker attack.
It's now been one day short of 5 weeks since my surgery and I'm happy to report that I'm now, at last, completely healed.
As per Dr. Kimmel's instructions, I removed the 4 sutures that he used to close the incision two weeks after my surgery. Did the job myself, which wasn't too difficult, but a little painful considering the area where they were! I had a little bit of a surprise when I went to remove the sutures. It would appear that the top two stitches had come loose, therefore the incision was still open at the top. I was still getting drainage from the location for over a week when I called the good doctor. He advised me to keep it clean and leave it without bandages, but to use a gaze pad to collect any drainage. It took 2 more weeks but the incision is finally closed and healed.
I don't really feel any
Has anyone else, who has been castrated, experienced the same?
In my thread I told everyone that I would keep you posted on my progress and so I have the following to share. I would have liked to keep you more up to date, but then the web site disappeared for a while due to the latest hacker attack.
It's now been one day short of 5 weeks since my surgery and I'm happy to report that I'm now, at last, completely healed.
As per Dr. Kimmel's instructions, I removed the 4 sutures that he used to close the incision two weeks after my surgery. Did the job myself, which wasn't too difficult, but a little painful considering the area where they were! I had a little bit of a surprise when I went to remove the sutures. It would appear that the top two stitches had come loose, therefore the incision was still open at the top. I was still getting drainage from the location for over a week when I called the good doctor. He advised me to keep it clean and leave it without bandages, but to use a gaze pad to collect any drainage. It took 2 more weeks but the incision is finally closed and healed.
I don't really feel any
I have found, that with the proper stimulation, I can still easily achieve an erection, which I thought was rather strange.EricaAnn (imported) wrote: Tue Mar 28, 2006 10:53 pm different from when I was chemically castrated, but
Has anyone else, who has been castrated, experienced the same?
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I am so glad to hear that everything seems to be working out for you! I have been surgically castrated for nearly a year, and I too can still get erections with stimulation, although I wouldn't call it easily. I can also get them without stimulation if I am in an intimate situation.
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I am still able to have erections. I have never taken any HRT and
8 years.
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Hi Gang,
Well, I hit a bit of a pothole on my road to recovery from my recent castration surgery.
This past Saturday I began to notice some irritation on my scrotum. I didn't think too much of it at the time until it got worse on Sunday. I did a little self examine of my scrotum and discovered a rather large lump had formed along the left side of the former incision. This lump also hurt if I squeezed it. This was more than enough to raise some concern on my behalf so I decided to place a call to Dr. Kimmel on Monday morning. To add to my anxiety, on Monday morning, before I could call the good doctor I had a rather large discharge of a brownish red liquid from the former incision. It was more than enough to soak through my underwear and onto the tail of my shirt.
I spoke with Dr. Kimmel on Monday morning and described what was going on. It would appear that I developed a hematoma on my scrotum. He advised me to take a hot sits bath with a tablespoon of salt for the next three nights. This would hopefully help to dissolve the hematoma.
I have been following the doctor's instruction and it appears that it has already shrunk to about half the size it was on Monday morning. I'm going to continue the hot baths for a few more nights and see what happens. Hopefully it will be gone soon! :-\
Well, I hit a bit of a pothole on my road to recovery from my recent castration surgery.
This past Saturday I began to notice some irritation on my scrotum. I didn't think too much of it at the time until it got worse on Sunday. I did a little self examine of my scrotum and discovered a rather large lump had formed along the left side of the former incision. This lump also hurt if I squeezed it. This was more than enough to raise some concern on my behalf so I decided to place a call to Dr. Kimmel on Monday morning. To add to my anxiety, on Monday morning, before I could call the good doctor I had a rather large discharge of a brownish red liquid from the former incision. It was more than enough to soak through my underwear and onto the tail of my shirt.
I spoke with Dr. Kimmel on Monday morning and described what was going on. It would appear that I developed a hematoma on my scrotum. He advised me to take a hot sits bath with a tablespoon of salt for the next three nights. This would hopefully help to dissolve the hematoma.
I have been following the doctor's instruction and it appears that it has already shrunk to about half the size it was on Monday morning. I'm going to continue the hot baths for a few more nights and see what happens. Hopefully it will be gone soon! :-\
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Hi Everyone,
It's now been 8
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It would also appear that my HRT has become much more effective in the feminization of my body and appearance, even more so than when I was chemically castrated. I have not experienced any form of depression since the surgery, but that might be due to the HRT/estrogen therapy.
I have found that being a eunuch and the resulting low testosterone levels makes coping with certain situations more difficult. One example is that I have a more difficult time dealing with the stress and pressures that I sometimes experience in my job. I don't have that "old aggression" that I once used to vent these feelings and frustrations so I going to have to find another way to handle these matters when they do arise. I find myself much calmer and less aggressive, even in my driving. It is a wonderful feeling and has brought me much closer to the female self that I am.
The wife and I have even discussed finishing the job (SRS) sometime in the future, but we'll wait and see what the future holds for the time being.
So, as I continue on this journey, I'll keep you posted!
It's now been 8
everything is now going well. The hematoma problem I developed has finally resolved itself and my incision has fully and completely healed.EricaAnn (imported) wrote: Fri Apr 28, 2006 6:26 am weeks since my surgery and I'm happy to report that
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testosterone producing things is a wonderfully experience. I've discovered that "my package" is now small enough that I no longer need to "tuck" myself, which I've found to be a real advantage. Less pressure on the bladder area and therefore a little more storage capacity.
It would also appear that my HRT has become much more effective in the feminization of my body and appearance, even more so than when I was chemically castrated. I have not experienced any form of depression since the surgery, but that might be due to the HRT/estrogen therapy.
I have found that being a eunuch and the resulting low testosterone levels makes coping with certain situations more difficult. One example is that I have a more difficult time dealing with the stress and pressures that I sometimes experience in my job. I don't have that "old aggression" that I once used to vent these feelings and frustrations so I going to have to find another way to handle these matters when they do arise. I find myself much calmer and less aggressive, even in my driving. It is a wonderful feeling and has brought me much closer to the female self that I am.
The wife and I have even discussed finishing the job (SRS) sometime in the future, but we'll wait and see what the future holds for the time being.
So, as I continue on this journey, I'll keep you posted!
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Don't always reply as often as I should but thanks for keeping us updated. I really appreciate the info.
Lindaleah
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Just had to update this thread. The last few months have been a whirlwind of activity. I have started group therapy and am dressing full time at home. Should be starting HRT soon with wife's acceptance. My attitude is so much better now. Thanks again to all who contribute here it has probably been the best therapy I've had.
Lindaleah
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Dear Lindaleah,
Congratulations on your recent activities and your decision to proceed and act on your feelings and needs. I know exactly were you're coming from on the attitude matter. When I finally told my spouse, 6 1/2 months ago, it was as if a 100 pound weight had been lifted from my heart and soul. HRT will bring about even further improvements in this area.
I too have started therapy for this GID issue. It took a lot of searching to find someone who really has any experience in this field, but I was successful in my search and saw her for the first time this past Wednesday evening. My spouse and I have our first joint session scheduled for a week from today.
I also have an appointment with an endocrinologist that she recommended to me. I want to discuss my current HRT program with him.....just to make certain I'm on the right track. I have also set up a consultation for electrolysis next week. I feel the time has really come to rid myself of my beard. No more shaving....what a wonderful thought!
I have been dressing at home for a while now, but took a really bold step in my transition last Friday night when I dressed as myself for the first time in public. The spouse and I went to a local gay club that is trans gender friendly. Thank God it was a darkly lite club. LOL! We had an absolutely great time! I even had a guy try to pick me up! I couldn't believe it. What a boost for a Girl's ego.....or poor blind bastard.....whatever applies. LOL!!!!
Going out again tonight in this cute little black separates outfit I picked up earlier this week. Hopefully going to have the same good time!
Stay the course Girl and enjoy your femininity for what may be the first time in your life. It's a wonderful feeling!!!!
Congratulations on your recent activities and your decision to proceed and act on your feelings and needs. I know exactly were you're coming from on the attitude matter. When I finally told my spouse, 6 1/2 months ago, it was as if a 100 pound weight had been lifted from my heart and soul. HRT will bring about even further improvements in this area.
I too have started therapy for this GID issue. It took a lot of searching to find someone who really has any experience in this field, but I was successful in my search and saw her for the first time this past Wednesday evening. My spouse and I have our first joint session scheduled for a week from today.
I also have an appointment with an endocrinologist that she recommended to me. I want to discuss my current HRT program with him.....just to make certain I'm on the right track. I have also set up a consultation for electrolysis next week. I feel the time has really come to rid myself of my beard. No more shaving....what a wonderful thought!
I have been dressing at home for a while now, but took a really bold step in my transition last Friday night when I dressed as myself for the first time in public. The spouse and I went to a local gay club that is trans gender friendly. Thank God it was a darkly lite club. LOL! We had an absolutely great time! I even had a guy try to pick me up! I couldn't believe it. What a boost for a Girl's ego.....or poor blind bastard.....whatever applies. LOL!!!!
Going out again tonight in this cute little black separates outfit I picked up earlier this week. Hopefully going to have the same good time!
Stay the course Girl and enjoy your femininity for what may be the first time in your life. It's a wonderful feeling!!!!
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Mac (imported) wrote: Sun Feb 19, 2006 12:38 am Why do you care if they notice that something is missing? What is wrong with not having a big bulge down there or even having a smooth look?
Mac!!You have the sweetest and most lovely picture in eunuch with the both young couple! So nice and cleen - i must say.
It looks very nice!
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EricaAnn,
It is great that your wife is so understanding and that you are able to transition with her help. You are very lucky. I wish you well with your transition.
It is great that your wife is so understanding and that you are able to transition with her help. You are very lucky. I wish you well with your transition.
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Mac (imported) wrote: Mon Jul 10, 2006 11:33 pm It is great that your wife is so understanding and that you are able to transition with her help. You are very lucky. I wish you well with your transition.
Hi Everyone,
First, thanks Mac. I feel so blessed and so lucky to have the person I'm married to. She is truly wonderful!
Had my first appointment with my endocrinologist tonight. He received the letter of recommendation from my therapist, so there was no problem in discussing my HRT with him. He gave me a pretty through physical examine and took several blood samples to test my current hormone levels and much to my delight he says to me....I'm going to examine your breasts now. That's the first time in my life that anyone has ever said that to me. WOW, what a thrill...only women get breast examines!
He actually increased my daily estrogen dose from 2 Mg.'s to 3 for the next four weeks and then up to 4 Mg.'s daily for the following four weeks. I have another appointment to see him again in 2 months.
Tomorrow night....the free consultation and estimate with the electrologist for the beard.
I feel like I'm really on my way now! I'll keep you posted.
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Hi All,
Went to see the electrologist last night. She did a small spot on my chin as a demonstration. It wasn't too bad. Each hair she did felt like a minor prick with the tip of a tweezers. The strangest feeling was when she slid the hair out.
She feels it going to take about 12 sessions to get rid of my beard at $65.00 per session. Ah, the price we TG/girls pay for beauty, but it's worth it!
Went to see the electrologist last night. She did a small spot on my chin as a demonstration. It wasn't too bad. Each hair she did felt like a minor prick with the tip of a tweezers. The strangest feeling was when she slid the hair out.
She feels it going to take about 12 sessions to get rid of my beard at $65.00 per session. Ah, the price we TG/girls pay for beauty, but it's worth it!
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Wow, only 12 sessions!? You must either have very sparse facial hair, or your electrologist is super good. I've heard on average it takes about 200-1 hour sessions to clear the face of hair for light growth, and can go as high as 400 sessions for heavy growth. I've had roughly between 150-200 hours of facial electrolysis (including brow and ear work) and still need more done.
A few things to keep in mind, some of the worst areas (for pain) are around the lips, nose and neck. You may want to consider using a cream to numb those areas before hand (like EMLA or ELAMAX). If your electrologist offers an injection, such as novacaine, I would consider that also for those areas. Follow the instructions your electrologist gives you and use an ice pack to keep the swelling down.
Best of luck on your new adventure.
P.S. The final results of electrolysis are amazing and you'll love the feel of smooth skin (plus one less thing we need to shave).
A few things to keep in mind, some of the worst areas (for pain) are around the lips, nose and neck. You may want to consider using a cream to numb those areas before hand (like EMLA or ELAMAX). If your electrologist offers an injection, such as novacaine, I would consider that also for those areas. Follow the instructions your electrologist gives you and use an ice pack to keep the swelling down.
Best of luck on your new adventure.
P.S. The final results of electrolysis are amazing and you'll love the feel of smooth skin (plus one less thing we need to shave).
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Dear Christina,
My electrologist, after examining my face, said that I have a fairly light bread. The majority of it is concentrated in my mustache and chin area. My 5 o'clock shadow typically shows up around 9 PM. LOL!
She looked back in her records to compare me against other people she's done. She told me about a 75 year old women she did that had not only developed a full male pattern bread that she needed to shave everyday, but also had developed a full chest of male patterned hair and it took her about 50 sessions to remove all of it.
I've got my first session scheduled for Tuesday, July 25th and every Tuesday night thereafter......until it's gone. If it takes longer than 12 sessions.....oh, well. It's got to go and I'm with you....."one less thing to shave".
Thanks for the good wishes.
My electrologist, after examining my face, said that I have a fairly light bread. The majority of it is concentrated in my mustache and chin area. My 5 o'clock shadow typically shows up around 9 PM. LOL!
She looked back in her records to compare me against other people she's done. She told me about a 75 year old women she did that had not only developed a full male pattern bread that she needed to shave everyday, but also had developed a full chest of male patterned hair and it took her about 50 sessions to remove all of it.
I've got my first session scheduled for Tuesday, July 25th and every Tuesday night thereafter......until it's gone. If it takes longer than 12 sessions.....oh, well. It's got to go and I'm with you....."one less thing to shave".
Thanks for the good wishes.
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Erica and Christina,
It's surprising how one's priorities change. I've been a cheapskate all my life. The thought of spending $1000-$2000 on myself -- for merely cosmetic reasons yet -- would have been ludicrous previously. Now I think, "Glad it isn't more because it's gotta get done." People rack up some pretty big hospital bills in order to survive cancer and what not. We're doing the same.
I also don't like focusing so much on myself -- all that time and energy on ME. Again, it's part of the cure. Kind of like the time a caterpillar spends in the chrysalis, or maybe an intense study program.
Terri
It's surprising how one's priorities change. I've been a cheapskate all my life. The thought of spending $1000-$2000 on myself -- for merely cosmetic reasons yet -- would have been ludicrous previously. Now I think, "Glad it isn't more because it's gotta get done." People rack up some pretty big hospital bills in order to survive cancer and what not. We're doing the same.
I also don't like focusing so much on myself -- all that time and energy on ME. Again, it's part of the cure. Kind of like the time a caterpillar spends in the chrysalis, or maybe an intense study program.
Terri
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I had complete mtf genital reassignment surgery nearly twenty years ago.
I have always had a high libido and even at the times since my op when I haven't taken female hormones I have still gotten horny.
Androcur was good before I had the op as it took the edge off my libido, got rid of erections and I was able to learn how to have orgasms when I was tucked. I think this was probably quite important since after my op learning to masturbate was not so very different. It didn't take much to get me turned on, I only had to think about my nice smooth and snug crotch. I really was immensely surprised to find that my arousal response was barely affected by what amounts to complete nullo surgery beyond the cosmetic reconstruction and vaginoplasty. Quite to my immense satisfaction
I bring myself off most days, often more than once and my orgasms just get better year on year. I am still exploring the sensations my body is capable of and it is a wonder to me still. I can remain aroused for hours on end with only minimal stimulation.
I think if you really want this in your heart and it is not just a fetish thing then the fire will not be taken out of it if you achieve your wish, but it can be a great fulfillment. I suppose it is easier to be sure if you have strong ts feelings rather than being content to remain as a guy.
PostopLezzie
I have always had a high libido and even at the times since my op when I haven't taken female hormones I have still gotten horny.
Androcur was good before I had the op as it took the edge off my libido, got rid of erections and I was able to learn how to have orgasms when I was tucked. I think this was probably quite important since after my op learning to masturbate was not so very different. It didn't take much to get me turned on, I only had to think about my nice smooth and snug crotch. I really was immensely surprised to find that my arousal response was barely affected by what amounts to complete nullo surgery beyond the cosmetic reconstruction and vaginoplasty. Quite to my immense satisfaction
I bring myself off most days, often more than once and my orgasms just get better year on year. I am still exploring the sensations my body is capable of and it is a wonder to me still. I can remain aroused for hours on end with only minimal stimulation.
I think if you really want this in your heart and it is not just a fetish thing then the fire will not be taken out of it if you achieve your wish, but it can be a great fulfillment. I suppose it is easier to be sure if you have strong ts feelings rather than being content to remain as a guy.
PostopLezzie
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Dear Postoplezzie,
Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings. It's always good to hear from someone like yourself, a sister that has traveled much further down this road than me.
Based upon the steps I have already taken into my own transition from male to female, it is not a fetish, but rather a deep sited desire to be who I really am. A fact that I believe my therapist will attest to.
Hopefully, in the not too distant future, I hope to complete "the project" with SRS, a day I can't wait for. And rest assured, Girl, the fire burns deep and bright within me.
L & R
Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings. It's always good to hear from someone like yourself, a sister that has traveled much further down this road than me.
Based upon the steps I have already taken into my own transition from male to female, it is not a fetish, but rather a deep sited desire to be who I really am. A fact that I believe my therapist will attest to.
Hopefully, in the not too distant future, I hope to complete "the project" with SRS, a day I can't wait for. And rest assured, Girl, the fire burns deep and bright within me.
L & R
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Hello all
A lot has happened since I last posted.
I came out to my GP last month (turns out she had a TG awhile back as a patient) I gave her some TG information and now she has started me on low dose estradiol patch and spironolatone but wants me to see a GID specialist (I have a referral for endocrinologist) for higher dose as she does not feel qualified to go with higher doses. I got my before results of testosterone and Estradiol. T = 267 normal is 241 to 827 for males. E = 22 normal for males 0 to 53. And yes EricaAnn it is pg/ml as you stated earlier. She will check levels in 1 month
I have been attending group therapy sessions for about four months and now always go infemme. And I always dress at home. The other night my wife was having a bad day so I stayed dressed male that night thinking it would be less stressful for her but I was absolutely miserable. Almost ate myself silly. And I have lost 10 lbs in last two months since I started dressing full time at home. My full transition will have to wait for awhile as I don't feel I could transition at work yet. Maybe later????
Lindaleah
A lot has happened since I last posted.
I came out to my GP last month (turns out she had a TG awhile back as a patient) I gave her some TG information and now she has started me on low dose estradiol patch and spironolatone but wants me to see a GID specialist (I have a referral for endocrinologist) for higher dose as she does not feel qualified to go with higher doses. I got my before results of testosterone and Estradiol. T = 267 normal is 241 to 827 for males. E = 22 normal for males 0 to 53. And yes EricaAnn it is pg/ml as you stated earlier. She will check levels in 1 month
I have been attending group therapy sessions for about four months and now always go infemme. And I always dress at home. The other night my wife was having a bad day so I stayed dressed male that night thinking it would be less stressful for her but I was absolutely miserable. Almost ate myself silly. And I have lost 10 lbs in last two months since I started dressing full time at home. My full transition will have to wait for awhile as I don't feel I could transition at work yet. Maybe later????
Lindaleah
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the weight loss. I know how hard it can be to shed those pounds, especially for girls our age. LOL! It also took some courage coming out to your GP. I guess my turn will come this January when I go in for my annual check up. I was already on hormones when I saw him this past January, but I hadn't experience enough breast growth at that time to be concerned. I've also been castrated since then so there's going to be another surprise when he checks me for a hernia.
My latest hormone test, as of two weeks ago, showed my testosterone level at 41 pg/ml.
I'm in private therapy and have also been taking my spouse in order for her to ask questions directly and to help alvie her apprehensions and fears of the process of transition, even through, to date she has been absolutely wonderful in her acceptance of me. She even said to me tonight that she missed going out the past couple of weekends to this transgender friendly/gay night club we have been to recently and it's a real treat for me. It's fantasic to be out and about dressed infemme or as I refer to it as being dressed as myself.
I feel the same as far as full time transition. If there is some way that I can get the SRS without the RLE, I'm all for it, but my greatest fears are that my hormones may eventual "out me" and that I won't be able to get the SRS without full time transition or as it's known RLE.
Stay the course my Sister and celebrate your femininity. It's a great feeling to be yourself!