One Day in the Life of a Wolf - Memorial 7-25-20

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

GREAT news: plumber just left and replaced a 19 inch metalic hose and the leak is no more

On the down side, he charged me $123, but it will be SO NICE to have a dry bathroom floor and a dry den. Woo Hoo

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

S-T-R-A-N-G-E

Last night on chat, I suffered a power outage. Computer, TV and all my lights. I knew I had paid my bill. I lit a match and made my way to the front door, and went outside. My entire neighborhood was dark and many of of neighbors were outside.

It only lasted a few minutes, then everything came back on. Then it happened again about midnight. This time it lasted till 5:00am when all my lights came on waking me up. I arose and came into my den and saw my computer light was out. I hit the keyboard key button but nothing happened. I pushed the On button the computer but nothing happened. Then I noticed the USB button on my modem wasn't On. The other four lights were on but not the ENET. I rechecked connections. Then I noticed my keyboard wasn't lit up hence my mouse wasn't working. I figured the blackout killed either my mouse, keyboard or ENET connection. I unplugged everything and replugged everything back in.

All of a sudden, the ENET light came on, the keyboard light was on hence the mouse worked. Then I noticed my computer date and time was off. The time was set for 2:00pm and the date was 1969. I corrected everything using the System's Preferences panel.

Everything works fine now. POWER OUTAGES SUCK.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

Nursing home called last night. Mom had pulled out her feeding tube AGAIN so they sent her back to the hospital.

A precursor of what I have to look forward to when mom returns home. Life has it's ups and downs but it's NEVER boring.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

I couldn't figure out why I had a migraine Monday and Tuesday until a few hours ago. Then my brain activated and I recalled that I hadn't eaten lately. I had the money, I had the time but somehow I was caught up in the moment. I made up for it today and ate two meals..one more than our archivist eats. At the moment, no migraine WOO HOO

Sometimes, I'm reminded a moment is all we really have. There is no future. There is no past. There is only now.

[jane_says (imported)]

You didn't eat for two DAYS? God, Wolfie! That worries me. Maybe I should start sending you an email reminder three times a day?

[Blaise (imported)]

You didn't eat for two DAYS? God, Wolfie! That worries me. Maybe I should start sending you an email reminder three times a day?

That also worries me. You must eat, lad.

[Bagoas (imported)]

As I see it, Mac, all we have is the past as we retain it it in our short-term and long-term memory. There is no present because it has no duration, being only the boundary between the unborn future and the dead (but remembered) past.

[I admit that this poses a philosophical question. If the present has no duration, when does anything happen and when do we do anything ? Frankly, I don't know the answer to that one. ] :-\

[Blaise (imported)]

As I see it, Mac, all we have is the past as we retain it it in our short-term and long-term memory. There is no present because it has no duration, being only the boundary between the unborn future and the dead (but remembered) past.

[I admit that this poses a philosophical question. If the present has no duration, when does anything happen and when do we do anything ? Frankly, I don't know the answer to that one. ] :-\

I used to wonder how to measure the duration of the present. It is an interesting question.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

Measure the duration of the present? Interesting hypothetical idea. Might take a greater mind than ours. Somebody like Jesus, maybe. Our Jesus, not the 2,000 year old one. At least, I don't think our Jesus is that old.

By the way, that power outage I mentioned a few posts back, had reset my VCR. I should have checked it but forgot. Two videotapes later I was perplexed why I was only getting 2 hrs 30 minutes out of a six hour tape. Then I recalled the blackout. It had reset the VCR back to SP instead SLP.

Damn technology

I had breakfast this morning, just my cooking (ugh) and orange chicken & egg rolls for dinner - yummy.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

RATS. My TV died last night. Picture tube I think. I have two other TV sets, one in the living room and one in mom's room.

All I have to do now is: (1) move my VCR to the living room TV and hook it up like Ken_SD showed me. Only disadvantage of that will be I can't watch TV and type since my computer is in the den. (2) Talk Ken and Josh into coming up here in the future to move the living room TV to my den and hook it up to the VCR. I'll probably need help to move the dead TV to the trash can too.

Yo Ken

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

Either I'm losing my mind or I just left the Twilight Zone. The TV died at 2:00am.

It's 2:32am now. I just finished up some paperwork on the computer and decided to give the TV one more chance to come on, you know, like kicking a dead horse.

S-t-r-a-n-g-e-l-y it came on and all channels are working. I'll try it again in the morning. Maybe the TV is getting older and that was a warning.

Or...I really am bonkers. I can think of several from the chatroom who would agree to my lack of sanity

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

STRANGE night. I went to bed about 2:40 am and thought of my ex-wife until 6:30 am without any sleep. I'm tired but not sleepy. I turned on the cable then the TV and it worked.

I think I'm going back to bed now. Night all.

I hope my ex-wife is happy

[Milkman (imported)]

"

Measure the duration of the present? Interesting hypothetical idea. Might take a greater mind than ours. Somebody like Jesus, maybe. Our Jesus, not the 2,000 year old one. At least, I don't think our Jesus is that old.

"

The present is actually the slight future between static states. The ancient Greeks starting with Zeno of Elea knew that in order to occupy space an object, even if it appears moving, had to be completely stopped and motionless on some small time scale. The absolute present is therefore a silent motionless place. What we perceive to be the present is in fact the infinitesimal time point between these static states. An infinitesimal can be described as the value on the Y axis as an asymptotic line approaches infinity on the X axis. It is an algebraic number usually expressed a 1 - .99999.... (repeating decimal)

[Bagoas (imported)]

It approaches zero on the Y-axis as it approaches infinity on the X-axis. In terms of the duration of the present, it means that the value of the duration of the present is less than any specifiable number, however small it may be.

The reasons that the subjective present seems to have duration are the vividness of the short-term memory which gives continuity to our experience and the finite rate of response of our senses.

Alas, this does not solve the logical problem that the infinitesimal duration of the present allows no time for anything to happen.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

I am rewriting this post because I am receiving calls and messages from friends saying, "sorry about your mother's death."

Mom is quite alive and frisky.

The news I received today was the SECOND worst news I could get. Mom's nursing home called me to tell me, since I can't come up the $560 a month needed to pay mom's extended stay at the nursing home of 1-3 more months. they are going to seize mom's social security check and her retirement check.

If they do that, mom (and I) will lose the house. Without that income I can't pay the utility bills, property taxes, purchase food or get anything fixed.

It seems I have but two options and both put me

between a rock and a hard place:

Option 1 - Leave mom in the nursing home and face losing her income and a place to live let alone let alone food for me and the dog.

Option 2 - Take mom out of the nursing home Against Medical Advice and be visited by the police who will arrest me for elderly abuse due to the fact the cockroaches and mice have returned. I can't hire an exterminator this month because I already shelled out $120 to fix a leaking toilet. Adult Protective Services, upon seeing the cockroaches and mice, would remove mom

for health reasons. YES, the nursing home said they

would call both the police and Adult Protective Services if I attempted to take mom out of their facility.

I won't do the second but I seem doomed whichever course I take.

I hope my attorney calls today. Sheesh

I call my attorney and left him a voicemail message of the situation as he was in a meeting.

At this point, I'm at my wits end and don't know what to do next.

The nursing home mom is in, called me last Monday asking me to come out and sign her in. I refused because a nursing home mom was in a year or more ago talked me into signing her in and now I owe them $3,000. Considering the threat of loss of all income, maybe I should have incurred more debt and signed her in.

The nursing home she is in now is not taking good care of mom. They have allowed her to pull out her feeding tube four times now And had to resend her back to the hospital ER.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

Not having heard from my attorney yet, I decided to be diplomatic. I called the nursing home mom is at and said, "thee is no way I would put my mom's health at risk by

taking her out Against Medical Advice. I

told them I would try to come up with the $560 a month (stalling tactic).

Free advice, short of suicide*, will be most graciously accepted

Since my posts tend to be misunderstood sometimes, NO, I am NOT considering ending my life. I meant I'll take any free advice except "Mac, go play on the freeway."

[Milkman (imported)]

Yikes, what a situation. you are not able to work yourself due to health problems?

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

Yikes, what a situation. you are not able to work yourself due to health problems?

I'm 61 and in good health as far as I know. I am lacking a car though. I'll start looking for a job as soon as I hear from my attorney. On Tuesday I'll go trim my several inch beard to a "socially acceptable level."

Milkman - for the last four years I have been my mom's unpaid 24 hour a day care giver. Being 93 and having dementia etc meant mom needed round the clock care, which I, as her only child, provided.

I know I'll get my reward in heaven but, I could really use advice or assistance NOW to get this two ton rock off my body AKA nursing homes and poverty

Sometimes you're the bug, sometimes your the windshield. I've been the bug for 1,460 days on May 15th.

I think I need some sleep BUT, I'd settle for a new life

Anyone want to trade?

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

I finally found my attorney's email address and sent him a two page description of my life the last several weeks. Hopefully, he gets either the email or my telephone message or both. Hopefully, he cares.

[Blaise (imported)]

I finally found my attorney's email address and sent him a two page description of my life the last several weeks. Hopefully, he gets either the email or my telephone message or both. Hopefully, he cares.

You have done a good job for your mother. Now, you will probably enjoy working again after you begom a new job. However, I know how hard it is to begin new careers--not from finding one but just from starting doing something new. We all ""turn on a dime these days.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

Monday, I wait for a call from my attorney. Tuesday I go get a haircut and a beard trim.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

I finally contacted my lawyer. He agreed I might as well trim my beard as I'll have to return to working eventually.

He's going to contact mom's attorney and get back to me.

He did that I have been appointed mom's conservator. I wonder if that means I can take out a mortgage on the house to catch up on mom's bills, pay my traffic fine and get me a used car. Having a car would make job searching much easier.

[gandalf (imported)]

Mac.

Sorry you are not here in KY. The nursing home would have to leave enough for you to live (groceries, utilities, etc) and pay any bills that were outstanding. They could take the rest then. I have a friend who is in that position now with her husband in a nursing home. They take his small ss check and most of her retirement. When she still substituted in the schools, they wanted that also so she quit that.

Here's hoping for the best for you. Be sure your attorney checks on just how much the home can legally take.

Best of luck in this endeavor.

[kennath7 (imported)]

Mac

Between all of us here at the E.A. (if it dose not offend you )

Can raise enough money to at least help you get a car

If you don't want to give out your mail address there should be some way to get the collected funds to you if any one can help with the mechanics please respond

I am sending a copy to kristoff to help kick this off

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

The nursing home called me today. They want me to come to a meeting next Wednesday to discuss mom's treatment program. AFAIK they'll just repeat to me that they are trying to get mom's two checks for themselves.