One Day in the Life of a Wolf - Memorial 7-25-20

[bobbie (imported)]

You did not say how you are doing or what the nurse said.

But at least you are eating baked goods now and not FRIED.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

The nurses are here now mainly to teach me to control my Diabeties.

I went on chat tonight but didn't say much as my panic attack was ongoing. My fellow ops "warmly" greeted me like a long lost brother returning home. The love shown by IEunuch, Wetherman, Ken_SD, plix was unbelievable and felt good.

There were warm hugs from the lobby too

As the panic attack increased my breathing became a bit shallow so I left chat. I turned on the cooler, took one 10-325 mgs of hydrocodone-acetaminophen to relax me and ease my hand pain. I laid down and tried to sleep and actually got 90 minutes sleep. It's not for nerves but it's all I have.

A social worker came by to see me today and had these ideas:

(1) To call my main follow-up physician (Cortez) to ask if I can have a sooner appointment with her. The current appointment is on August 26th. The social worker said to try to get one within a few days telling them of the panic attacks and how they will prevent normal healing.

(2) To ask my primary care physician, Dr. Rosa Cortez, and ask her if I can qualify for Social Security Disability.

(3) Contact D.P.S.S. downtown and apply for General Relief. The social worker said it can be a monthly income.

I start some of the process tomorrow. Wish me luck.

P.S. The social worker reminded me to began filing for my basic Social Security which will give me about $500 a month.

[Blaise (imported)]

The nurses are here now mainly to teach me to control my Diabeties.

I went on chat tonight but didn't say much as my panic attack was ongoing. My fellow ops "warmly" greeted me like a long lost brother returning home. The love shown by IEunuch, Wetherman, Ken_SD, plix was unbelievable and felt good.

There were warm hugs from the lobby too

As the panic attack increased my breathing became a bit shallow so I left chat. I turned on the cooler, took one 10-325 mgs of hydrocodone-acetaminophen to relax me and ease my hand pain. I laid down and tried to sleep and actually got 90 minutes sleep. It's not for nerves but it's all I have.

A social worker came by to see me today and had these ideas:

(1) To call my main follow-up physician (Cortez) to ask if I can have a sooner appointment with her. The current appointment is on August 26th. The social worker said to try to get one within a few days telling them of the panic attacks and how they will prevent normal healing.

(2) To ask my primary care physician, Dr. Rosa Cortez, and ask her if I can qualify for Social Security Disability.

(3) Contact D.P.S.S. downtown and apply for General Relief. The social worker said it can be a monthly income.

I start some of the process tomorrow. Wish me luck.

Excellent advice. Good luck!

About the right hand, Rose, a character on Two and a Half Men, says that changing hands in like having a new lover learning how to love you.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

Small favors are better than nothing: I was panic free from about 10:00 pm to about 3:50 am. Then when I tried to go to sleep, it hit again. So here I am typing instead of sleeping. Alas

[Riverwind (imported)]

I had been plagued by anxiety, about 24/7, since early childhood, and occasional panic attacks. About 10 years ago, my physician prescribed Prozac which gave me hot flashes and severe vertigo. He changed my prescription to Paxil and, for the first time since I entered elementary school, I found myself free of anxiety most of the time.

I am claustrophobic and confinement in a small space is the only thing which ever triggers panic attacks now. Otherwise, I am free of them. I am now taking Effexor only because Paxil tends to cause, or at least favor fluid retention and I was already bothered by that. Effexor does not have that side effect.

Paxil has been, if not a life-saver, at least a life-enhancer for me.

I will only use an OPEN MRI, that closed one, well I hit the panic button before they can leave the room

River

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

After being awake all night, I walked to the local hospital and pleaded with them to give me something. Their doctor said any strong medication would have to be given by a family doctor.

He did give me some Benadryl which he said would help along with restricting my caffeine intake. I took one tab at 11:30an and slept till 2:30 pm

[bobbie (imported)]

Sounds about right. Benadryl seems to last about that long for me. It does help me sleep sometimes. Better then nothing.

[kennath7 (imported)]

mac

glad to hear things are looking good for you

[Blaise (imported)]

After being awake all night, I walked to the local hospital and pleaded with them to give me something. Their doctor said any strong medication would have to be given by a family doctor.

He did give me some Benadryl which he said would help along with restricting my caffeine intake. I took one tab at 11:30an and slept till 2:30 pm

Paxil might take a month or more to work, but keep taking it. Benadryl will not help much. I do sometimes use it to get to sleep, but it is only a short time fix.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

I tried to use Benedryl to sleep tonight but not working

[OneBallBoi (imported)]

Benadryl does not help me get to sleep but it does keep me sleeping all night when I take it. If I do not take one pill, I will be awake many times in the night.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

I could use a favor: I have no phone service and I cannot connect to Verizon to tell them. Could someone call them and ask them to come fix my phone.

Ronald Keene

I would have switched over to VOIP by now but-I think my phone is defective

I hate being so isolated... HELP

PS. I can sometimes get incoming calls but I can't call out.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

Today was better panic attack wise. Yesterday I had taken two Benadryl and I think that was too many. Today, I won't take one till bedtime. I did get 4 hours of naps

I have noticed a few changes:

(1) When I'm at the store or restaurant, I get nervous if the room isn't cool enough or I'm terrified of crowds of strangers.

(2) I've lost my appetite for food and have to force myself to eat.

(3) I have less inclination to smoke or drink.

Weird huh?

[Uncle Flo (imported)]

Mr. Wolf, the signs you describe sound very much like depression (or even agoraphobia). You need to get together with your medical advisors and tell them all about it. --FLO--

[Blaise (imported)]

Mr. Wolf, the signs you describe sound very much like depression (or even agoraphobia). You need to get together with your medical advisors and tell them all about it. --FLO--

I am not a clinician but I did work on assessment team for several years and you would do well to talk to your doctors about all this. The medications usually work, but not usually just by themselves. Take care.

[Paolo]

Mac,

Verizon is on the way.

I did a line test for you online, and the problem is in your telephone, not the NID or the line. They say they'll have a tech there by the 20th at the latest.

[kristoff]

Mr. Wolf, the signs you describe sound very much like depression (or even agoraphobia). You need to get together with your medical advisors and tell them all about it. --FLO--

This is where I'd be looking, Mac. See the doc, explain it all. There are things and meds that will help. Panic is often seen with anxiety disorders and depression (in many ways, agoraphobia is a highly self-reinforced combination of both). Depression can also be very self-reinforcing. Breaking out of it usually requires intervention. Please seek it.

[bobbie (imported)]

Mac,

Verizon is on the way.

I did a line test for you online, and the problem is in your telephone, not the NID or the line. They say they'll have a tech there by the 20th at the latest.

As I told you last night on the phone. Your line seems to be fine for we were talking on it. Your old phone may just have died and no longer can call out. Think if Verizon comes to your house and the problem is your phone then they will charge you for a service call. At least that is what the phone company will do around here. If the problem is inside your house it is your problem to fix. They will fix it for a charge. Even to just look at it. A cheep phone can test to see if it is you phone or the phone company that is the problem.

You can pick up a cheep phone for under $20.

[Eunuken (imported)]

I just got done Chatting with Mac,

he said he is going for a walk, I urged him to get a new hand set for his phone, I also told him that it will work with the VoIP system once it gets hooked up.

Hang in there Mac, we all care.

Ken

[Blaise (imported)]

As I told you last night on the phone. Your line seems to be fine for we were talking on it. Your old phone may just have died and no longer can call out. Think if Verizon comes to your house and the problem is your phone then they will charge you for a service call. At least that is what the phone company will do around here. If the problem is inside your house it is your problem to fix. They will fix it for a charge. Even to just look at it. A cheep phone can test to see if it is you phone or the phone company that is the problem.

You can pick up a cheep phone for under $20.

I paid around ten dollars for the phone that I use.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

I went to the hospital at about 1:00am for shortness of breath. They released me at 6:00am after doing bloodwork and chest xrays. I walked home. I still can't breathe right.

So far today, I'm a bit better. I made one change... I quit smoking which was robbing me of needed oxygen.

[plix (imported)]

*Hugs* Sorry to hear that you are going through this.

I am not an expert, and since that is the case, everything I say from this point on should be ignored. However, it seems to me we are probably dealing with panic disorder, although you do have a couple symtpoms that suggest a possible co-occuring depression.

The meds may offer you relief from your symptoms, and that is probably helpful, but they are not going to tell you why this is happening to you all of a sudden, and I think finding out why is very important.

For that reason, I would suggest you seek out therapy as well as medication. I also had little to no income not so long ago, and I was able to obtain free therapy from a local clinic located right in your town. If you need more information on the location, let me know.

Aside from therapy, you can also obtain free psychiatric services, which will give you access to the meds that may help the symptoms.

But you need to talk to someone qualified to figure out why after so many years you are suddenly having panic attacks and possibly experiencing depression. Do not ignore this vital part of the process, even if the meds make it go away.

[tugon (imported)]

I went to the hospital at about 1:00am for shortness of breath. They released me at 6:00am after doing bloodwork and chest xrays. I walked home. I still can't breathe right.

So far today, I'm a bit better. I made one change... I quit smoking which was robbing me of needed oxygen.

I was just thinking that you might have picked up something from the hospital. When I was in charge of housekeeping in a hospital we worked very hard to prevent nosocomial infections, hospital acquired infections. Aspergillis grows in dust and usually affects people on vents but with your length of stay you might have something for which they have not thought to check. Patients are also at risk for MRSA which is a form of staph and that can be checked with a nasal swab. Since you had a skin graft for your hand and the donor site your leg you had two possible ways for infection. Not the obvious ones we think of that are warm red and hot but staph.

I would keep looking for a medical component but if there is none Plix had great suggestions.

Please contiinue to keep us posted as to how you are doing.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

*Hugs* Sorry to hear that you are going through this.

I am not an expert, and since that is the case, everything I say from this point on should be ignored. However, it seems to me we are probably dealing with panic disorder, although you do have a couple symtpoms that suggest a possible co-occuring depression.

The meds may offer you relief from your symptoms, and that is probably helpful, but they are not going to tell you why this is happening to you all of a sudden, and I think finding out why is very important.

For that reason, I would suggest you seek out therapy as well as medication. I also had little to no income not so long ago, and I was able to obtain free therapy from a local clinic located right in your town. If you need more information on the location, let me know.

Aside from therapy, you can also obtain free psychiatric services, which will give you access to the meds that may help the symptoms.

But you need to talk to someone qualified to figure out why after so many years you are suddenly having panic attacks and possibly experiencing depression. Do not ignore this vital part of the process, even if the meds make it go away.

You definitely have given me a lot to consider. Two ER physicians have already told me my problem were psychological.

[Riverwind (imported)]

Yes my friend, I to have had them, YES really. I know what your going through. Solution, the mental ward er well maybe someone in that field as they do have pills for that. Mine were little tiny things I don't remember the name of them but they really helped, you might also want to talk to a therapist, you have been under a lot of stress for the last few years and now your hand being disabled, (does having your hand out of service get it SSDI?)

it would not be much, its only a hand. See the Doctor, you will be glad you did.

River